tw weight and mental health
not to be that bitch but weight loss medication has literally saved my life (mentally and physically) !!!!!!! I had my resting metabolic rate and a bunch of other things tested a couple weeks ago and im no longer close to being pre-diabetic !!! and because Iām fucking tall I can apparently eat a lot more than I thought and still lose weight!!
I used to eat 3000-3500 calories a day at my heaviest and I had 2000kcal+ binges and according to The Internet my tdee was like. 1800 so I had to eat 1300-1400 for consistent weight loss (which before contrave??? I wouldnt even have been able to go that low at all) so I was like ok whatever im gonna eat 1400 I guess and I lost weight SUPER quickly. but I still had small binges sometimes and when I got my stats taken the guy told me that I should be eating 1900-2200 to lose weightš and thatās if I stayed sedentaryššš
So I took up swimming 2 weeks ago and started eating 1900 cals a day and i havent had a binge sinceš«Ŗ i think i finally found what works for me and I couldnt have done this without my doctor who refused to put me on ozempic and instead said I should try contraveā¤ļøā¤ļø i finally feel like I have a choice in how much I eat
My eating habits when I was at my heaviest (265 pounds and Iām 5ā9) were fucking crazy!!! And my stomach hurt all of the time!! And I got down to 200 by just quitting weed and alcohol and trying to eat like a normal person but my thighs and knees still hurt sooo much and Iām at 185 now and I already feel a difference.
And since I started therapy again and finally FINALLY got an accurate diagnosis Iāve been feeling so much better. I always lowkey feel like shit even when Iām literally At My Best and I thought it was just autism and it was gonna be like that forever. And then I found out I had bpd and apparently itās not normal to be sad and angry all of the time. But the difference between bpd and autism is that bpd can be treatedšš»šš»šš» and im on a waiting list for dbt and have been using dbt tools whenever I can and for the first time in my life I hardly feel self conscious. FINALLYYYYYYYYYYY im no longer scared everytime I go in public
long story short Iām finally close to a healthy weight and Iāve found something that actually really helps with my food issues AND helps with my lipedema (which is my biggest insecurity) and ive finally found out whatās wrong with me and learned that itās not forever and I havenāt felt this normal ever in my life. and dare I say hopefulš¶āš«ļø
Iāve also found out that I apparently have been splitting on my friends and family for years but like whatever. At least now I know how to stop š
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