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 🔞 trans • he/him • nsfw writer 🔞

[eloha]

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[eloha]

Tacking onto this because Many things have changed! But nsfw remains the same. I’ll be leaving my job in two months time due to unfortunate circumstances, so anything helps!

[eloha]

balladeer

You are my hell and high waters  the reason I reach the sea  unfathomably deep that swallows me shallowly like waves  waves that lap up sand it cannot reach  You are the trenches  my mariana, who holds  not what she knows of but everything meant  to be explored  It’s an exposition  an incomprehension  our love a ballad a mozart, all the same

[eloha]

homage

I have done it again as Sylvia Plath would say- One year in every ten I manage it Yet the tulips have never excited me There is a fate in those- in those putrid little buds A sort of crawling malice peeking out of the ground that I crave to ensnare To capture to wither to lay bare all of my- all of this monstrous loathing I wallow in it as if I’m up to my elbows in it Sinking and…

[eloha]

whats ur process like? i absolutely love your work and im trying to write more myself, but idk where to start. its that, or my ideas get all mixed up in my head and i go off the rails really bad. i know you said you just get inspo and write, but do you sit down for a few hours and type everything iut like that, or does it take a few days to finish like a 7k word fic (you write a lot of those ive noticed)

i read your notes sometimes and it really helps to hear that a writer i admire also struggles to get stuff out. i really wanted to know, when you're struggling, do you force yourself to keep writing, or what do you do?

last question. do you ever edit your work?

First off, thank you so much!!!! On a good day I’m able to sit down and write whatever comes to mind, but sometimes it’s spacey, and it does take me a few days or weeks to even finish something (or give up entirely). If I’m not overthinking I’ll be able to dish something out in a few hours, but that’s rare for me now honestly. But really, I think going off the rails is normal because I tend to do that with almost all of my works, I think I had something in mind and it starts off that way, but by the time I finish it it’s nowhere near what I was planning on.

Surprisingly I don’t force myself to write. I had a tendency when I was on a high and first started getting comments and kudos, that I should keep the works coming because that’s what people wanted. But then I look back at those works and don’t care for them at all (but I would never delete them, all of my fics are my babies). So that really made me sit back and enjoy my own process. Not everything has to be rushed, and I think that’s what helped me the most!

And OOOOOOOFF (BIG OOF) I try to edit my work as best as I can but I’m a firm believer in just giving up and posting so I like living on the edge like that. I really admire writers that have a beta in their life, I’m sure it makes it 10x easier 😭

One more thing, I really admire when I see people reading my notes cause I know I ramble on and on but I Love knowing that they’re being read. Once again thank you! I hope you’re having a lovely day 💕

[eloha]

obsessed with your writing btw, "senseless devotion" and "all my wrongs & all the shame" literally inspired me to write again. where do you get the inspo from? and how do you write so good??? I'm dying to know. also <3 hope you're doing well!

Omg I’m so happy seeing this!!!! I’m so late though 😭 forgive me I barely get on. But thank you so mucccchhhh. Where I get inspo from I honestly couldn’t tell you, random nasty thots plague my brain and i practically force myself to write otherwise it’s just a broken record. And please! I still have a lot of trouble writing, honestly. But I’ve learned to battle through it because I enjoy writing so much (it’s literally my life) so I try not to be too down on myself. And really it’s mostly all the kind words I get in return, it makes my entire world and keeps me going. I hope you’re having a great day 💕💞💖💗💓

[eloha]

No lie, the way you write trans Law has helped with my dysphoria as a transmasc more than I can even tell you. I appreciate your writing so much, you're amazing!

I appreciate this so much. I was very skeptical with transmac Law at first and really doubted everything I wrote because I was in that same phase, but it helped me express so much and not be afraid so I thank you, and also for this comment!!

[eloha]

A very rare moment of me posting on here, but I’m feeling good about this despite the fact that I wrote it in 2 hours flat, and also because I haven’t been writing as much lately. Hope this makes up for it <3 it’s like therapy writing doflaw in an office setting >.<

As always, mind the tags. Also let me know how you feel about it! Hope you enjoy <3

https://archiveofourown.org/works/63228079

[pocketwei]

doflaw commission for @naturecalls111!!!!! thank you again soooo much for making me draw them!!! <333

[eloha]

i am so obsessed with the way you write law that that i made a fucking playlist on spotify just for him. i cant stop thinking about him, bout you doffylaw fics!!!!!!!! UGH IM SO IN LOVE I LOVE YOU KING!!!!!!!

The way I’m kicking my feet and twirling my hair reading this!! Thank you so much but also send me the playlist cause I just know it has to be iconic when dealing with Law

[ladyshinga]

[eloha]

king I came here just to tell you you have ruined me for anyone else's smut fics. insane work I hope your pillow is the perfect temperature on both sides and that the oxygen you breathe is extra clear and crisp today

it was such a hard day for me today you’ve got no idea how much this means the world to me. Thank you so much 💞💓💕💗

[eloha]

idée fixe

You must have had some sort of elixir on your tongue  witchery in your veins to make me lose control as I’ve had it’s been imagery of your fingertips on my skin your tongue ghosting my lips  petal soft memories of your body etched on mine  I have not a thought but you 

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[eloha]

abrasion

You remind me of memories of emeries leaves clouding less of the trees  they cover the soil the shards that we walk on they make up dust matted pines little tracks that follow you in white it is air and you flow with wind you are saintly

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[dionyrtal]

"October" by Dion Anja, from Motion Sickness

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[eloha]

wow it feels as if I haven't gotten on here in years lol. I love that I consistently put my tumblr link at the end of my fics in the notes, yet I neglect to get on here *cries*

[spaceimpress]

"I could fix him," and I could make him beg like a whore. What's your point?

[ahou-dori]

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