thinking about a butch, one who's used to being in charge. the one with a lifetime of composure. the one who always knows what to say, always has a hand on the small of my back..so self assured.
the one who last night had me sobbing underneath them while they buried their cock so deep inside me i swore i could feel it in my stomach.
and then..i catch the front of their jeans with two fingers hooked through their belt loops and tug them close.
not hard..just enough. and suddenly, they're blinking at me.
"what?" they ask, voice low. brow raised. "nothing," i smile back..soft.
"you're looking at me weird.."
"i'm looking at you" i agree, and immediately i see the suspicion in their eyes..because they know that tone.
the entire time, i’m trying not to smile because the most lovely butch is standing their in their favorite jeans..the ones that ride low on their hips, button down with the sleeves rolled up just a fraction. strap hidden beneath their clothes because it makes them feel more like themselves..somehow completely oblivious to the effect they’re having on me.
so i tug gently on their belt loops again, needy. whiny.
"c'mere handsome." and they splutter. actually splutter. the person who can talk their way through anything..who usually has all of the confidence in the world. gone. completely, and utterly gone.
"handsome?" they manage. like they've never heard the word before. like their trying it on for size. and i can practically feel my chest ache.
"yeah.." i smile gently, full lips turning up at the corner. "handsome" while i busy my hands, straightening their collar, smoothing down an invisible wrinkle in the fabric. letting my hands linger.
"really handsome" i purr, my eyes dark. pupils blown. and suddenly, they won't look directly at me. their eyes trained on the floor, on the way my hands had somehow moved to the button of their jeans.
their cheeks are cherry red, the tips of their ears stained the same color. and they're trying so hard not to grin. to maintain some semblance of composure.
because maybe they spend so so much time being strong, and confident, the one who takes care of everyone else..that nobody notices how much it means when someone looks at them and sees exactly who they are. when someone doesn't try to change them, or mold them..force them into a box that never quite fit right.
no hesitation, no qualifiers..just a sharp breath in the moment i finally unbutton those jeans and drop to my knees. blinking up at them with those pretty green eyes before pressing my palm against the bulge in their boxers.