Trying To Find My Divine Self

Recovering Heroin Addict This is my safe place OG Account : Chemical-feelings013

[thegoodvybe]

[thegoodvybe]

[thegoodvybe]

[purplebuddhaproject]

“Sometimes you have to ignore the human part of you to be okay with how things are.”

— (via purplebuddhaquotes)

[love]

ur cute but r u good for my mental health or my spiritual health?? (via weheartit)

[nicolethedopefiendqueen]

Drug addiction stole her life before she could live the life that she was meant to.

Addiction fucking kills and it’s so sad.

[junkie-sweetheart]

I will never be the girl I once was before the drugs.

[hedonist--poet-deactivated20240]

“He said rehab didn’t work. Religion doesn’t work. But all he had to do is believe in himself. And he couldn’t; so nothing worked.”

— Life of an addict

[nicolethedopefiendqueen]

“being in the midst of the destruction of drug addiction has me all fucked up. I forgot how depressing this shit is. why did i put myself in this position again?”

— excerpt from my journal 7-11-18

[nicolethedopefiendqueen]

“Using drugs is my passive way of being suicidal. I want to die but i am often too scared to make the attempt. so instead I engage in self destructive behaviors like getting high. I’m very aware that if I don’t stop the drugs will kill me one day. Part of me wishes that day would come soon, while the other smaller part wants me to live.”

— excerpt from my journal 4-5-19

[nicolethedopefiendqueen]

“Was it worth it? No it wasn’t.”

— a journal entry about relapsing.  7-10-18

[nicolethedopefiendqueen]

I’m addicted to the drugs and the lifestyle that they bring. The copping, the mixing, the using, the rushes, dangers, and destructions.

Excerpt from my journal

[and-valium-said-to-me]

Whoops, Im a junkie

-howd that happen lmao

[lxstinrxality-blog]

“but baby did we really love eachother? or just the drug addiction we shared”

— why’d we let it get so bad?

[bloodonthehorizon]

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[bloodonthehorizon]

A cycle of self destruction

[bloodonthehorizon]

Numb but still so fucking overwhelmed