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Lately I just really wouldn’t mind a studio apartment. Especially with him, but if not, at the very least with Rosie.

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“And as I’ve gotten older, I’ve had more of a tendency to look for people who live by kindness, tolerance, compassion, a gentler way of looking at things.”

— Martin Scorsese (via arookieblog)

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[emilylouiseb]

Nobody is on tumblr anymore. So now I don’t know where to go. I miss this platform and the anonymoty it had.

[emilylouiseb]

I know he loves me, but I don’t know if he really sees himself spending the rest of his life with me or if that’s what he wants.

[emilylouiseb]

Nobody is awake. I just need someone to talk to.

[emilylouiseb]

It hurts my soul that I’m not engaged.

For so many reasons.

I want him to want me.

And it’s SO FRUSTRATING. That some people get engaged after being together for a year, and here we are 4 years in.

Sometimes I question if he even wants to. — I know I’m his first relationship. But I feel like if he was sure of me/ us. He would have by now. Or he would have at least expressed it. Or something.

Ugh. I’m just struggling with it.

[emilylouiseb]

I am terrified of getting covid.

Terrified.

I have chronic bronchitis. So I get it 3+ times a year. If I get a cold, it always, always, always turns into bronchitis. Always.

Last time I went to a walk in express care, the doctor who treated me referred to my lungs as a “wet basement” saying that I needed to be proactive to clear them out before anything started to set in, like rats and mold. – file under things I’ll probably never forget.

I know some people think covid is terrible, and others think it’s a hoax. (Realllly not trying to debate it here) but regardless, in terrified. It’s a respiratory thing. I don’t need a respiratory thing. I’m terrified of being hospitalized from it, of being in pain, of not being able to see my loved ones, boyfriend, family, or friends.

And it’s just scary because I’m really trying to limit my exposure. But at the same time it’s so frustrating that I’m letting this virus control my life. But at what cost.

I CANT HANDLE THIS.

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*Grüne Lichtung*

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Bob Ross cares about me

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[emilylouiseb]

Someday I’ll good. Someday soon.