you & I

I can't describe myself, sorry.

[emmett-goode]

well this is officially goodbye ):

love you guys, best of luck xoxo

[emmett-goode]

it's not just the hate or the IC drama that's made me quit, i've felt this way for some time but i just haven't been ready to let go of my characters yet. i never intended on making anyone uncomfortable, or making anyone feel like they weren't wanted here, because i wanted to include everyone and like they really had a spot here in our family. there are just some things that really made me feel like this wasn't a family anymore. 

some characters to me are honestly a little bit boring. maybe not played to their full potential or really given much of a personality. i tried with slater and emmett to be interesting and different and to have conversation, more than a sentence unless it was meaningful talk. it just started to bother me how i could see people on the dash and just not know who they were and not decipher any type of real different in who they were. i know i have a little to blame because i've been quite lazy lately, and that's my fault completely, but there are characters who have a story and a little bit of a life to them. it just became like no fun to me. and don't get me wrong, i'm not bashing or directing this towards anyone in particular because i'm not an asshole, it's just my feeling as a whole. it gets quite boring around here, and i'm kind of looking for something that can be carried more as quality over quantity. i understand that a lot of people are on hiatus, as well. which is fine, but it's hard for me when someone i really enjoy RPing with is always on hiatus and i can't fully commit to something. i feel bad about it, because it's obviously not their fault if they can't get on, but i just have a hard time with it. 

i understand a lot of what my characters say make people uncomfortable, and i'm really sorry about that, but i made a post awhile ago stating that nothing of that was ever to my intent to be mean or rude to anyone here. i'm a very open-minded, functionalist person and i want to make sure that a lot of you are happy with how i portray my characters across as. but after getting hate about them (several times), i just don't know how i'm supposed to continue being encourage when i know i can't make everyone happy. it's very hard because i'm getting more hate saying i'm a bad roleplayer, than saying 'hey i wish emmett could change'. it's to the point where it's personal, and i don't enjoy that at all. 

i have too many memories from a lot of you who i've met and interacted with, and i don't really want to leave slater and emmett because i just love them a lot and think they are honestly some of the most developed characters i've ever had. i love them to bits, and i love you all to bits. i've just seen a really sad decline, which makes me hurt to say because i've been apart of this for a very, very long time. almost a year next month. i just think i've kind of outplayed things and obviously made some enemies i didn't intend to make. my activity and availability also make this hard for me because i don't know how i'm going to 

this is really horrible for me to leave because i honestly don't want to, but i'm ready to move on and to change, and even grow myself as a writer and as someone with a very imaginative mind. to all the people i'm going to let down, i'm sorry.

to all of the admins, holly, addie, anna, helena... anyone else i've ever interacted with, thank you for making me part of your little family. 

i don't know if this is goodbye, i could have a change in heart by tonight. but i'm going to think this over a lot and maybe figure out where i stand. this is just where i stand now, and i'm not sure where i'm going to go with it. 

thank you for reading, if you did. i get my point across when i make PSAs and long ass fucking stories about my life. i'm sorry for causing drama or making everything so fucking difficult but i've just been really stressed about this all for a while, so i'm sorry. 

i'm sorry.

[emmett-goode]

jillian--dawson answered your question:can someone explain why i still get messages...

idk but it should stop.

it stresses me out, honestly. i didn't even do anything & emmett already explained so i don't know why this is still a topic of choice.

[emmett-goode]

can someone explain why i still get messages asking why emmett hate mj and broke up with thisbe

bc it happens like daily?

[captaincaden]

That would be very painful because I have really big teeth.

[emmett-goode]

What big teeth you have, Caden.

[captaincaden]

Now I just gotta find someone to horizontal tango with or else I’ll be deepthroating Dorito-flavored bananas in my room.

[emmett-goode]

I mean... I'd offer to help you with that but I don't think I'd want you to accidentally think that you're eating a Dorito and bite me or something. 

[captaincaden]

I think that’s the greatest thing I’ve ever heard and my belief in God is solidified.

[emmett-goode]

I'm glad I helped you discover your true belief in God with my confirm. This must been an exciting time for you. You can specially order them, by the way.

[captaincaden]

I will do anything for Doritos. Anything.

[emmett-goode]

You know they make Dorito flavored condoms? Just throwing that out there. 

[captaincaden]

Doritos make me weak and it’s really embarrassing. 

[captaincaden]

[emmett-goode]

... What?

[thatssotammy]

I wouldn’t know, I’m only a mere junior. But at least it’s better than being sat around bored. Is it…not?

[emmett-goode]

When you're bored, you're not living life, I guess. I think I'd rather be busy than bored. Personal preference. 

[riley-irving]

Let me just give no fucks about what you’ve said. 

[emmett-goode]

You do you, bro. You do you.

[thatssotammy]

At least it means you’ve got things to do. Being busy is nice, ciccino.

[emmett-goode]

It's not the fun kind of busy, though. It's the I actually need to do work kind of busy. Senior stuff that's stupid.

[emmett-goode]

Getting really busy can get really annoying. I'm really busy, and really annoyed about it. Let me just complain to you how busy and annoyed I am. 

[david-merrick]

So I’m special then, is that what you’re saying? Let’s be honest here, Luke is basically a girl with a dick. There is no way he’d ever actually fuck someone. I’m a gentleman, and a gentleman doesn’t kiss and tell. Jill’s pretty adventurous, huh? I don’t know what kinky is. Like, I think there’d be a difference in definitions between genders.

[emmett-goode]

That's what I'm saying. Uhh, well, you thought wrong. He topped for Slater-- but that's not important. Well, I'm a gentleman, and we're seeing each other. Thisbe and I were going to, but she broke up with me before. It's only been Luke, Jill, and some random girl in Florida over the summer. Yeah, she's adventurous alright... and very good at what she does. I'm just saying like, is kinky wearing cat ears and pretending to be a cat, or is it like, rough, hardcore? Does it matter the gender? I don't think so.

[david-merrick]

No ‘maybe’s, Emmett. You either want to or you don’t. I’m not going to force you to do anything you don’t want to do but don’t get my hopes up about something that will never happen.Well that’s one more person than me. I’ve uh— never really had kinky sex. Unless you could doing it on J-the counter in the kitchen.

[emmett-goode]

It's not forcing me, I'm just saying maybe I'll actually want to for you. Bottoming with Luke sounds like it would be... not good. He needs to be controlled, you know? Really? Who were they? Um, well, like I've done it... a lot of places. Thanks to Jill. But not really like, kinky-- well, define kinky.

[david-merrick]

Awesome, at least I won’t be the only one trying something new. But the act itself is still something that should be considered sacred. Like it’s still intimate. At least to me. Nothing kinky? Well, you’re no fun.

[emmett-goode]

Well, we'll see about that. Maybe. For you. Yeah, I guess you're right. I've only had sex with three people in my life, and I don't think it's bad since I felt something for them at one point, right? I didn't do it just because I could. In time, David... in time. Do you... like kinky?

[david-merrick]

I think you need to let loose, let go of the reins… lose control. Watching people have sex is weird, sex is supposed to be something intimate, shared between only two people. Not filmed and put on the internet or on DVDs for everyone to look at. But I’ll give it a shot.

[emmett-goode]

I-- okay, maybe you're right. I'll try something new if you're willing to, too. That's why there's a difference between 'sex' and 'making love'. It's people like us that just use the wrong term because now sex is just sex because of media and all that. It's really not when you're in the situation. Watch a little and let me know? Don't watch the dirty, kinky stuff. That, I won't do with you.