!! TW !!

I post about my ED and shit, don't follow if triggered ~ I don't post meanspo, thinspo, or sweetspo, just my thoughts and vents

[empty-cal0rie-lipgl0ss]

Moved to @empty-cal0rie-lipgl0ss :)

[empty-cal0rie-lipgl0ss]

Moving accounts!!

[cyborgswithtea]

I’m gonna get my belly button pierced once I reach my GW ( or just when I’m a lot skinnier lmao )

[empty-cal0rie-lipgl0ss]

SAME

[empty-cal0rie-lipgl0ss]

Might make a new blog after like 5 years..

Its been attatched to my main blog (my art related acc) for ljke this whole time

[iwillnotkissyou44]

[empty-cal0rie-lipgl0ss]

Back on my BS guyzz

Gonna start logging maybe?? Idk tho

[empty-cal0rie-lipgl0ss]

RELAPSE TIME BEFORE CHIRSTMAS 💞💞💞🤩🤩🤩

[empty-cal0rie-lipgl0ss]

Planned on breaking my 24 hr fast today but I am scared :'3

[empty-cal0rie-lipgl0ss]

Relapsed and when mom asked what I ate I RANNN

I'm super good at remembering random shit in detail, would have been sososo suspicious if I just didn't remmeber right away

[empty-cal0rie-lipgl0ss]

Hey guys high-key triggered soooo

[empty-cal0rie-lipgl0ss]

Hoping if I look at tumblr long enough it'll un recover me

[empty-cal0rie-lipgl0ss]

So embarrassed of my body I gotta start this again

[empty-cal0rie-lipgl0ss]

I feel like I had an ed for way too long for anything "motivational" to affect me on ana Tumblr.

Like I've seen these same posts a million times, thinspo means nothing to me, meanspo does nothing, seeing others lose weight doesn't make me wanna (online at least), it feels like I'll always be in this invetween recovery and self-hatred.

[empty-cal0rie-lipgl0ss]

Might update the look of this blog, could go w hot pink? But that may be too similar to my y2k blog IDK !!

I wanna go ortho and ana again I'm bored

[empty-cal0rie-lipgl0ss]

Oops hit 100 posts on here

Hashtag totally fully recovered !! (She said, fingers crossed behind her back)

[empty-cal0rie-lipgl0ss]

But even then, while thickspo seems like the best option then, it also just doesn't work because I also don't have as many curves as them which also makes me feel less attractive?? So like I'm stuck in a spot between thinspo and thickspo

[empty-cal0rie-lipgl0ss]

My problem w most thinspo is that I don't even really long to be thin or nessisarily skinny

I just long to keep my flat stomach, I wanna keep the rest, so like the stick legs don't get to me like they did in middle school