beyond the haze

uri (21↑), my life is a mess and so is this blog

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uri (oo-ree/woori) | 22 | she/her | psychology student | southeast asian | infp, ravenclaw, chaotic academia

interests: k-pop (esp. oneus), journaling, collecting stickers/other trinkets, card & boardgames, food & its history, manhwa, manga (shoujo), puzzles/riddles, learning (in general)

[this blog is learning-/academic-focused, but please expect 0 accountability of my studies or even any actual study content, for that matter. my life and my mind is a mess and so is this blog]

🔗 side blog (non-academic/entertainments)

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maybe i just need one person to tell me that i did well/i've done great so far instead of i need to keep going ('파이팅'/'파이팅') or i'm so close.......... if that even makes sense

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just got suspended from twitter for saying zionists should die..... fun

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i was cursing out people who thinks it's okay to torture a child (a mere baby) to force a confession out of his father. ridiculous

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just got suspended from twitter for saying zionists should die..... fun

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oops just lost my train of thought, didn't mean to do that

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tw / death , grief

considering the rollercoaster that i've went through today (that is, receiving news of a close cousin fell into comma and ultimately hopped on the train after her death is confirmed) i think i've been as calm and collected as i can. i somehow managed to work a little bit on my thesis and be a little productive. i did cried so much tho and may or may not have crashed out once. and i'm probably gonna cry some more before i go to sleep (it's 1am and i just finished another working session. i really need to go to bed if i want to wake up for the funeral in the morning but honestly my mind is just really, really all over the place right now)

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is it just me or hospitals usually make people anxious

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reminder that it can always get worse. the same way it can always get better, but still–

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why i can't remember what came into my mind 5 mins ago...... my thoughts please come back to meeeeee

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actually i'd rather die than be stupid/uneducated

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take a proper breath, in through your nose and slow all the way out. not later. right now

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Checkpoint

Are you having fun? Do you want to keep scrolling or are you just on autopilot?

Have you eaten today?

Have you consumed water today?

Do you need to go to the bathroom?

Have you slept recently?

Do you have any chores in process that you've forgotten about or are putting off? (Laundry that needs taken out of the machine, a dishwasher full of dishes that need put away, etc.)

Have you taken all your meds?

If the answer is "All good," feel free to keep scrolling!

But if any of these reminded you of something you need to do, please take care of yourself. 💕

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The amount of times I ragequitted doing my thesis is way too much more that I want to admit

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political rantings in bilingual ahead

kurikulum merdeka did irreversible damage to our education system and job market, iya, tapi dari dulu juga ga bagus bagus amat dah perasaan

i guess what i'm trying to say is... hate and empathy for a person could coexist and in this case, i feel like the nadiem makarim court case is absurd. nadiem muka gojek (pengusaha sukses) di internasional emang iya, dan ini bakal hasil persidangan ini bakal memunculkan berbagai polemik, bahkan di ranah internasional. of course kalo emang terbukti bersalah harus dihukum sewajarnya/seadil-adilnya, tapi ini kan engga?

everything about this feels so ominous and i'm deeply disturbed and uncomfortable

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panda bond and dim sum bond somehow sounds so racist.... you can't make ts up

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what do you call the pomodoro technique that involves 25-mins of work for every 1 chapter of fanfic

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grrrrr i really gotta do some work bcs I want to read the rest of the story

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what do you call the pomodoro technique that involves 25-mins of work for every 1 chapter of fanfic