exclamation [not explanation]

I tumble sometimes. Aside from the occasional life post, I mostly reblog things. 20 yrs of age.

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I feel stagnant and immensely irrelevant.

All we really need to do is exist, but is that enough? 

[s-u-f-j-a-n-s-t-e-v-e-n-s]

Everyone is welcome. Prom Night. Indy has it all.

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Have you ever felt like Sufjan’s music describes your life almost to a T? And at various points in your life too, even if it’s the same album or same song?

‘Cos that’s why he’s my favorite. I’m not always in the mood for his music, but then there are times when I just sit down and listen to an entire album, or that one song on that one album over and over, and it just means something that I just...understand that I’m not alone in my thoughts sometimes. 

Me iz glad I’m going to see him twice this year. My wallet is sad but the rest of me is not.

[pink-veins]

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Fuck

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I'm finally moving towards stability and and balance in my life and it's not so bad. It's okay to want happiness and to get out of the narrative of the misunderstood, self-deprecating sadness that life usually is. Things are looking up.

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i don't know what the fuck i want from people.

i feel grossly immature all the time. everything i do or want is petty.

but that's not true.

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i think about the worst case scenario all the time and it hurts my brain and lowers my energy...SHTOP

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when I'm alone, I just want to be around people to distract me, and when I'm with people I just want to be alone because I feel like I'm stifling my creativity and my personality,

but what I'm really trying to get at is that I'm trying to avoid responsibility because I don't want to deal with myself and I just want to exist and be there  already.

Fuq.

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I'm so over this petty shittttttttttttt

UGHHGHA;GHGHAEIHGSLK

I felt lost for awhile but now I just feel full of vigor and even aggression to take back control of everything

Fuck

but also

Yay

[enjoithesight-blog]

Physics says: go to sleep. Of course you’re tired. Every atom in you has been dancing the shimmy in silver shoes nonstop from mitosis to now. Quit tapping your feet. They’ll dance inside themselves without you. Go to sleep. Geology says: it will be all right. Slow inch by inch America is giving itself to the ocean. Go to sleep. Let darkness lap at your sides. Give darkness an inch. You aren’t alone. All of the continents used to be one body. You aren’t alone. Go to sleep. Astronomy says: the sun will rise tomorrow, Zoology says: on rainbow-fish and lithe gazelle, Psychology says: but first it has to be night, so Biology says: the body-clocks are stopped all over town and History says: here are the blankets, layer on layer, down and down.

- Albert Goldbarth, “The Sciences Sing a Lullabye” (via pigmenting)

Monday, December 8th

[enjoithesight-blog]

Why do I get a little bit more energized when I start comparing myself to other people? ):

Bad habit that I need to break.

Need dat self-love to come from within...

[s-u-f-j-a-n-s-t-e-v-e-n-s]

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Memememememmemememememememememememmemeemememmemememememememrmemememememememe Dude brain stfu

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I feel self-destructive and judgmental on my own self and its starting to show and also frustrate me and make me overly emotional and I don't know what I'm doing and I feel like I'm drifting away and I don't have anyone or anything...and everyone's telling me stop, you're overthinking it, you're fine just talk it out just communicate you have everyone here who loves you but what if you feel like your problems are just so fuckin' petty and stupid? And that you need to keep it together for the people but you don't have everything together and it doesn't make any sense at all? Like you know what's wrong, it's your brain, it's all in your head and shit, and everyone's like just stop being you! Stop overthinking! Stop caring so much! You're not being straight-forward!  Is it too much to ask for someone to tell you what you want to hear? Is that selfish? Because all other people can do is give you their two cents from their brain, they can't see inside of your brain.

I feel selfish and it kinda scares me.

I don't just wanna be a crying basket case. Why is it so damn hard for me to open up? I'm not so sure about all this...

[scottystilldoesntknoww]

[mrbeniciodeltoro]