okay so i’m not very sure how to articulate this but i’m going to try because the thought won’t leave my head. sorry in advance if i fail
i just find it very interesting how ticket to heaven frames the male and female figures in barthtanrak’s lives
i think in one of the layers, one big reason why barth despises god is because capital he reminds barth of his father. the authoritarian male figure who dictates how people should live their lives. barth yearns for freedom and love and even though his father’s gone, there’s still god looming over him and tanrak
but barth is done letting men control his life
now, female figures remind him of his mother
and he’s met with sweet memories that cause pain because of course, he misses his mother so very much. she sacrificed her own freedom to protect him, so they could be free from that oppressive man. the lighting and music in this scene speak of no resentment, just longing
his mother’s love is the only real, powerful thing that’s ever made a difference in barth’s life. no god, no prayer, no faith has ever done for him what she has
as for tanrak, his mother literally named him after the holy mother’s love. he is a symbol of her love
fitting for a boy who will choose love to be the very symbol of it
also, in episode 2 when they’re talking in this garden, barth says this
and sure enough, the next time we see tanrak there, barth goes after him
and the holy mother watches as they confess to each other, as they say they want to be together for life
and i think she’s more than fine with it