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I’m optimistic about my future. I think if I learn basic data science then I have a strong foundation for a variety of careers. I feel more comfortable using Python to write basic scripts although I probably don’t fully understand it right now. As soon as I finish learning algorithms and then graduate in to competitive coding that will be a good start.Simultaneously, I should be learning Andrew Ng’s ML course as it is fairly basic.

I want to explore narcissism more. http://personality-testing.info/tests/NPI/1.php For example, what behaviors demonstrate it, to what extent is it good/bad, and when one should be one.

My brain is starting to get frenetic right now. I think that generally happens when I start having too many priorities. That’s mentally not possible. Like I can’t be thinking about tennis figure skating coding trading people skills dating traveling (panama) interview skills poker chess (sicilian defense) go bridge cooking fitness flexibility socialization all at the same time. Of course my brain will get overwhelmed. I should take it easy and always allow myself sufficient free time to explore and be creative. Still need to focus on building that strong base before I start piling it on!

http://www.forbes.com/sites/jacquelynsmith/2013/02/22/14-things-successful-people-do-on-weekends/2/#3382213513d8

http://www.msn.com/en-us/money/personalfinance/15-things-wealthy-people-do-every-day/ar-AAcMTQW#page=1

Alex Chen has a lot of interesting thoughts because his interests are so broad. I should read and explore some of things he talks about. But right now, like I said before - I’m focusing on coding & fitness (mind & body).

One thing, like I said before, is I probably want to stay in this BAML job for a while. It’s giving me a lot of free time to develop myself before I move in to something more rigorous. I think the conversation with Ikshita was good in that it made me realize all the things I worry about are reasonable sometimes and I’m probably being too hard on myself. Anyways I think I have more thoughts, but I’ll continue them later.

More notes on tennis. Keep in mind to stop before you hit and always get around the ball. Always be moving your feet, the game is all about your lower half. (I noticed Nadal/Federer move their feet much more than Serena/Sharapova)

Mentioned that we should keep a continental grip (but should I really?). And that you need to bend and then rise while hitting. Always focus on getting around the ball.

Also that one hitting a lob, move to the side and point you left hand to the ball, angle your racket back

Forehand: keep your hand at an angle, maintain that angle, and then follow through.

Backhand: like hitting a left forehand, bring shoulder forward

I think one thing to keep in mind is that I’m a late bloomer. And that’s not a bad thing.

I think what frequently disturbed me when I was younger, and what still disturbs me (maybe because I’m not fully “mature”) is that appearances matter more.

It seems like I forget to blog when I’m happy! Yesterday was great - I did Barre at this chill studio and then went to the Penn PAC info session. Before that work was more worrying sigh, Penn PAC was great because of the different types of people and everyone seemed so engaged and interested (but in a subtle way). Today I focused exclusively on Python and made great progress on that - just have to nail the last few. And then I did a bootcamp that was more cardio (good!) and then went to learn Algorithms @ Betterment. Didn’t get to solve any but the girls there were so nice I want to go to more of these events!

AW topics are really mundane. I think some of the people are interesting but the topics are mundane. The types of topics you share with your friends were just in that experience not to a group of people far-away from you on the internet.

Today I thought about moving to GSAM. I think my obsession with trying to “fix” my career is getting out of hand. I should learn to be content with what I have and in the meanwhile learn as much as I can. I should learn Python for sure, and C++ would be icing on the cake. I really do need to talk to more people. Social isolation would be literally the worst result.

I’m glad I’ve successfully incorporated face-washing and flossing in to my routine! Perhaps each week I need to start a new routine. I think right now since I’m really liking barre, I’ll start incorporating daily stretching. I’m still not sure how I’m feeling about painting and cooking but maybe I’ll get there.

Wow my brain is feeling frantic again. Let’s work on my flexibility. It will lead to better yoga and barre results.

Oh yeah I went to barre class and my feet were cramping again. I think I need more calcium, magnesium, potassium, and water.

Went to the Met today. Her friend was really awkward and seemed in to the Asian culture. Didn’t really want to befriend him but I hope I was at bare minimum polite. But atleast I got to discover new things thanks to walking around. I should go to the their evening free drawing once I become competent haha. Man I have negative things I want to say about JJ’s rudeness, but re-iterating is pretty counterproductive (okay just like saying “yeah and so random” - seriously who talks like that). I feel like she doesn’t have bad intentions but so socially awkward.

For drawing, one thing I need to think about it what my goal with this. Because right now, I think I get some big picture ideas but I don’t know where I want to go with this. Some things to ponder

Really emphasizing that work = stress and home = relaxation. Today I just did spin class, watched TV (Nurse Jackie!), ate, drew, and then now about to sleep. Need to wake up early tomorrow to shower. I can still improve on eating and hygiene portion. Also doing things I planned (i.e. cleaning and grocery shopping). I still tend to be lazy on these things and this can be improved!

Actually did my laundry and sort of cleaned my room today! I’m getting better at this “taking care of myself” thing haha. Still have a bit of cleaning but I’ll survive. I need to make sure I maintain exercising and eating healthy. Also of course the basics of hygiene is important. Seeing friends is important and I did that. Just talking to people online is good. Ikshita’s coming to NY for an afternoon so that’ll be exciting. I think next week should be focused on meeting with people - maybe JJ for a museum. I really do need to work on coding.

Oh yeah one thing I forgot to mention earlier is how proud I was at appearing friendly and positive with my tennis professor. I should also schedule some interviews. Also fun things need to be scheduled. Namely one workout (ClassPass!), make hot chocolate with real chocolate + read, research some sketching/drawing ideas.

Had brunch with JJ the other day. It’s interesting how she diagnosed herself with a shopping addiction. It seems like she really seeks pity of some sort. I hope she figures it out. Her attitude of focusing on short-term satisfaction is kind of draining. It would be nice to be surrounded by more healthy and normal people. I don’t think traders are generally great people to be around. Heinrich is generally quite nice to me, although I’m sort of suspicious of it. I wonder when he’ll no longer see me as useful.

Went to B&N afterwards. Read a book that wasn’t interesting. Kind of a waste but being around books makes me giddy enough. It’s basically the modern library.

Next went to my yoga class. Although I was somewhat prepared (change of clothes + mat + water bottle), I didn’t prepare myself for hot yoga. I looked like a disaster without my hairband haha. Atleast it wasn’t Bikram’s yoga which is way too structured for my liking without sufficient areas for challenging oneself. The yoga style was similar to the type I practiced at lululemon in Princeton.

Then I headed over to the QMAP happy hour - I think this was the most fun. I do believe we’re all really different but that’s sort of the fun of it. We’re all linked because of our common struggle. Not one person is satisfied with the program but I think they’re good at making the best of it and deal with issues in a generally healthy manner. I feel calm after being around them.

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