i’m really bad at recovering

newmaker, 25 anorexic ugw: dead, probably i follow from @newmakerr fmot: @saf3food

[floral-souls]

[ghost-sketchbook]

[kedvesems]

[givemearmstopraywith]

i don’t think we can romanticize our way out of this one boys

[sxkkaa-deactivated20201025]

[dankmemesreasonforliving]

[restrictingbelle]

[sadhoc]

*thinks about my trauma* i come with lore

[emergentpattern]

[percbabe]

If I don’t lose at least 20lbs in the next month I’m doing COCAINE

[lesskalori]

just saw a video of myself 💔 will be starving indefinitely now

[mentallyskinny]

my body: “please I’m begging you, if you’re gonna starve us can you at least make sure the one thing you eat a day has nutritional value??”

Me, eating a bowl of 370 cal ramen: “nah”

[nietzschen-deactivated20210429]

Sometimes I’m like “y’know, this ed stuff isn’t too bad, I can live with it”

And then I eat a piece of bread and cry about it

[laxatives-and-vodka]

Helth 📈

[mythoughtsonmylifern]

Someone I haven’t seen in a while: WOW! You look great, you lost a lot of weight! Ugh I’ve been trying to diet but nothing works😫 Can you give me some pointers plz!!!🥺

Me: I just exercised regularly, ate plant based, and watched my portions☺️

Them: Thanks! Ur so positive~ I can always count on you!

Me who counted every crumb, exercised until I dropped, ate the same three things and powered through with only pure self hate as my fuel:

[n3on-grav3ston3s]

Me: If I chug half a litre of Sugar Free energy drink my heart rate is gonna blow up and I will burn more calories while sleeping

My whole body:

[infinifat]

my girlfriend: maybe you should eat something ://

me: haha what I'm fine, I've done nothing but eat today.

my meal log: