last updated: July 2nd, 2026
previously: butchmannequin and nikola-orsinov
outgoing links: Art Fight | AO3 | Flight Rising | Twitter | Bluesky (inactive)
🪳 Cicada or Cain or Mayfly 🦷 19; it/its or mirrored pronouns; TME 🎭 cat/earwig/centipede aro objectum butchthing 🐈
#buzzing is my textpost tag, other tags are listed in the page linked above (& should be self-explanatory, but feel free to ask if you need). I trigger tag things as "cw thing" as well, but please know I post a lot about bugs, horror, clowns, & snakes, and I don't really tag for them
I'm allegedly sometimes an artist, my art tag is #swarming and my art-only blog is @cicadagallery
currently into: The Outlast Trials, The Magnus Archives, Rain World, Ultrakill, Look Outside + some other more minor interests. I also really like animals (bugs, cats, reptiles especially) and biology, music, paleontology, horror in general, and art in general, & I post a lot about them
#1 Nikola Orsinov & Liliya Bogomolova fan. If you don't like them or don't want to see me post a lot about them then SCRAM!!! (/lighthearted)
no super strict DNI because I block frequently + liberally but TERFs, proship/etc, "transandrophobia" believers*, Zionists/anti-Palestine people and general bigots & jerks can also explode
list of sideblogs, tag guide, and decor credits under the cut. thank you for reading!!
* -> also an obligatory “I do not hate trans men/transmascs or think they don’t face oppression”, I am transmasc myself in a nonbinary way, I just find people who use the term to be generally unpleasant and even downright transmisogynistic or otherwise bigoted as hell. you can read this post or this post or this post or this post for more info from people who are more well spoken about the topic than I am. peace and love <3
System Member Sideblogs:
@thecoolerorsinov -> Nikola's sideblog
@magentadoctor -> Doc's sideblog
@lovebirdmachine -> Nicole's sideblog
@allbodyishorror -> The Angel's sideblog, although its less focused on it and more on aesthetics & art & such
Other "Active" (very sporadic activity lol) Sideblogs:
@vaguelycat -> kin/alterhuman sideblog. mostly reblogs but occasional rambling about identity and stuff
@cat4mantis -> selfship sideblog <3
@kresschemical -> outlast trials-focused sideblog, mostly reblogs but sometimes stupid rambles/headcanons and doodles not good enough for main too
@grubzone -> sfw agere blog. please only follow if we're mutuals, I'm a bit uncomfortable with it if not
I also have an NSFW/18+ sideblog, but I won't put the URL here. if you'd wanna follow it send a DM or ask or something
Tags:
#buzzing -> textposts I make
#swarming -> my art
#asks -> asks
#ask games -> for asks that are specifically related to any ask games I reblog
#tag games -> for my responses to getting tagged into fun "game" posts
#save -> for posts I wanna come back to later
#decor -> internet decor like stamps, blinkies, pngs, etc
#jukebox -> posts with music attached to them
#nicky tag -> posts about or featuring my pet corn snake, Nicky :-]
#fav / #ult fav -> for my favorite and ultimate favorite posts
#long posts -> for posts that are Long, in case one needs to filter them
#others art / #others writing -> art or writing by other people
#meposting -> posts that remind me of myself in some way
#cat tag / #bug tag / #snake tag / #paleo tag / #dragon tag -> posts about cats/bugs/snakes/dinosaurs & paleontology/dragons. these aren't the only animals I reblog, but I like them enough that they get their own tags
#[x] posting -> posts about or that remind me of characters I like, ie #nikola posting or #liliya posting
#color tag -> color palettes and stuff
#math tag -> posts about math & such
#ouroboros furry story / #dead god whalefall / #elevator story / #oc: [x] -> ocs/stories I've been working on & things that remind me of them
Credits:
i-spy stamp -> @/saltysstamps
"always time for horror" stamp -> @/puddinzducky
isopod and heart stamp & evil cat stamp -> @/badassmafiatoolbar
flag divider -> @/pixopix
"my fursona has fleas" stamp -> @/legality-graphics
liliya stamp -> @/unklaremm
stranger userbox -> @/archiiviist
aromantic userbox -> @/lgbtq-userboxes
not to ocpost at like 3am but I’ve been thinking about how cricket would feel about locksock the warden and yuuuuuuup it’s going to kill it badly. having to beat a man to death while he cries out for his prime asset to save him… the (probably faked but on the surface seems real) devotion the warden showed to coyle while coyle responded with indifference at best… the whole overarching implication of “this is what happens when you get too close to a prime asset”… good cocktail of shit to fuck it up mentally
[cricket voice, trembling and covered in blood post-execution] wow that was fucked up. glad it doesn’t have any parallels to my own situation. most definitely not. anyways now I need to go to the resort and beg liliya for forgiveness again
not to ocpost at like 3am but I’ve been thinking about how cricket would feel about locksock the warden and yuuuuuuup it’s going to kill it badly. having to beat a man to death while he cries out for his prime asset to save him… the (probably faked but on the surface seems real) devotion the warden showed to coyle while coyle responded with indifference at best… the whole overarching implication of “this is what happens when you get too close to a prime asset”… good cocktail of shit to fuck it up mentally
inability to correctly perceive 3d objects is in fact far more dangerous when someone is driving a car next to you then when they're like, sending emails to you.
like many people have said this better than me but no it IS odd that we've come to think of potatoes as so quintessentially european that their presence in historical fantasy where they're anachronistic doesn't jar. and yes people are trying to have the trappings of post-colonial europe without engaging w the icky colonialism part and yes people are neglecting to imagine what a european cuisine without potatoes would be like.
im fully in favour of 'let people have fun w their fantasy world' but is considering how the potatoes got there in the absence of colonialism not a fun exercise? maybe every year the dragon riders go on a great transatlantic potato pilgrimage
if you put potatoes in your medieval european style fantasy world people will by and large not find it jarring and accept it as a normal fantasy trope
if you put, say, black people in your medieval european style fantasy world a whole demographic of people will get very angry and accuse you of breaking their immersion
this is in spite of the fact that black people were a lot more common in medieval europe than potatoes.
two meads in and i'm asking my knight if i can feel how sharp his blade is 🤦♂️ i'm giggling and kicking my feet too. should i ask him to press it against my neck or is that too forward
A trans woman will say "this character feels a bit transfem" and a show creator will beat her over the head with "SHES ALWAYS BEEN 100% CIS AND ALL THE TRANS SUBTEXT IS YOUR OWN PROJECTION AND LITERALLY CAN'T EVER BE TRUE"
it does suck that the government defunded PBS but it's also so fucking funny that now that they don't take uncle sam's slavery dollars they're running videos like "How america's foundation was built on genocide"
thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.
thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.
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