Enterprise Rubber

[tyjrose]

Send a secret to my ask box

[valentina-poem]

[eliminated]

[artogether]

[sustancy]

[iambrillyant]

“forgive all the versions of yourself that operated out of fear instead of growth, the ones that viewed comfort zones as safe havens and abandoned boundaries to keep other people happy, forgive all the versions of yourself that didn’t know that love begins with how you treat you.”

— iambrillyant

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I realized the first person that’ll touch my chest won’t be someone that I previously had a bond with, it won’t be someone who was around before surgery it won’t be someone who was there and truly knows what this chest means to me… it’ll be an empty touch in comparison to what I was expecting and hoping for.. that makes me really sad.

[enterpriserubber]

What an uncomfortable feeling it is to miss my little family knowing that you’ve got a new one.

[enterpriserubber]

getting through surgery without a partner, buying a beautiful home on my own becoming a wreck it boi so that I can learn to be a fix it boi (plus fixing my bike) - it’s all been a wonderful growing experience I’ve found more self confidence and when I realize more of my own worth it hurts me to know that you looked at your mom and told her I couldn’t clean a van out on my own because I was to stupid- I’d only even offered because you were stressed and I wanted to help you. Still, it’s interesting to consider this version of myself that I’m growing into, that I’m finding a lot of love for I wouldn’t exist in this way if it wasn’t for you. You gave me so much freedom to grow and loved me for it. You supported me in ways no one ever had. You taught me a lot and helped me connect the dots. As a direct result of losing you my growth propelled forward all the moves I was scared to make- looking inward, working on boundaries and vulnerability.. This has all shaped me into the person I’m learning to love the person I now treat like important cargo.

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Thank you for teaching me that I’m important cargo- I wish you would have kept treating me that way.

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