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My Unkillable Bastard Energy post is here. Go look at it if just reading that is confusing, it will clarify some of the tone of this blog. It will also give you an in to my Unkillable Bastard Energy tag, which I update sometimes with posts matching the vibe I'm trying to pin down and examine.
My pronouns are he/they/it, but I really only care about people using he/they, the "it" is just because I'm neutral on "it" and its not misgendering if someone tries to use "it" to be an asshole. I'm not a kinnie, I just like alien themes due to autism and being compared to Data and Spock a lot as a kid. I jokingly call this blog the Unidentified Discourse Object, and since I'm not giving my name out here you can just call me UDO as a name, I think its funnier if its in all caps. Young adult (21+ and that's all you need to know on that), mixed Japanese and American but was raised by a half Japanese father who wasn't taught about his mother's home country very much so my perspective is both that of a minority and kinda invisible because people just think I'm white and what I think isn't important, trans man. Again, I'm autistic, and I won't apologize for acting autistic nor will I attempt to mask things I do due to it, if you expect me to try to act neurotypical about things fuck you. If you're normal about it then I'm cool with you. I don't intend to hurt people casually, but it seems my very existence just insults people, so unless the trait is actual hostility that I'm accidentally broadcasting when I don't mean to (which I do try to fix) it just takes too much out of me to be paranoid about it.
I'm defensive of my positions because my family members gaslight me, and I don't trust other people to just know better than me by default, so if you want to change my opinions you have to really prove that my positions are innately harmful more than just you not liking my tone and more than society just not liking my position. (Fuck what society wants anyway tbh.) I'm looking to call out real harm not just broken pointless norms that shouldn't be imposed in the first place. So point to where the clear harm is. If I criticize the way someone dresses it's a fashion thing not a gender thing. Yes, even if the person in question gets euphoria from it, fashion can still be bad. I'm not taking opinions on this, if you want to strip away my nuance I can't stop you anyway. But to be fair, it has to be extreme furry body mod levels of weird before I even care. Clothes are just fabric to me, but I may comment on patterns or textures I dislike. (Green and red plaids, corduroy.) I live in an area where THC is legal so if you ever hear about me being tired when I just logged on/high/mentioning drugs, its either that or alcohol, but I rarely use alcohol because it makes me feel gross more often. I don't do hard drugs. If I'm posting a little weird without mentioning context then its either this, or if its late then I'm sleep deprived. I'm legally disabled and with no schedule I procrastinate on sleep. Have patience and unless I'm literally insulting you please don't assume my post is hostile. (Depending on context, I may be skittish about something, and I know that rarely sounds cheery. I apologize if I take a skittish tone with you and it turns out you're cool.)
