❝AH…SUCH WAS THE same with my second wife. I loved her dearly. It was just that my love for her was not the same that I held for Nefertari. A part of me was missing.❞ There had been a void that still existed, a void that no other, no matter who they had been, could fill. There was nothing more painful than losing the one you loved, especially when that person had been your first. Isetnofret had been an excellent wife and queen, but…
His thoughts that had temporarily drifted away, soon returned to the present as he felt Gilgamesh lean into his touch. It was faint, subtle, even, but he felt that small press. Gaze softened slightly, the small brush of fingers soon replaced by the warmth of his palm as it pressed against the curve of the other’s cheek. Strange…this the most relaxed he could say he had seen the other king. Truly, this whole situation was a strange one, really. Yet…he was not against it. Despite being unused to moments like this, not just in regards to Gilgamesh but in general, it was not a bad thing. ❝Good. That is exactly what I wished to hear from one so proud. As for your later statement…I suppose I can understand this as well. Imagining ‘what ifs’ will never change what transpired, although that does not mean you cannot ponder it every now and then.❞
Ozymandias paused, his expression thoughtful as thumb brushed over soft cheek. ❝Tell me, Gilgamesh, do you still feel lonely?❞ It was a simple question, though was anything truly simple when Ozymandias asked it? Even the most mundane question could have some motive behind it. Not always insidious, of course. Curiosity was normally the prime culprit for his poking and prodding, for it was curiosity that had brought about this intriguing conversation to begin with. Now, however, he pondered if it was still that same curiosity that made him push onwards when normally, once he was told all he wished to hear, his interest would move on to another topic.
❛ Ah, so you understand where I’m coming from. The first person that truly gains any affection from a King will always be irreplaceable in one’s heart. ❜
As if a piece of a puzzle was missing always. A true shame sometimes given that love can be returned but not as much as it would with that one person that left an impact. Well that was for him at least,how the Sun King went about things might be something far more different. Ah,but that void? he was sure that it was always going to be there no matter what the circumstances were. Hint of smugness surfaces upwards when he continues to lean into the hand but at least by then he’s only half peeking towards the other.
Sometimes even he can be like this, tamed but not fully just enough that he could probably be bearable towards people. Still he can’t help but let out the softest huff of air before listening once more. What ifs, something that could be considered a pain once in a while to many was something that he dwelled on from time to time. Things will never change but it’s a nice way to go about things most times just to allow himself to think about what could have happened if he hadn’t failed at protecting Enkidu.
Then and there does he feel the skim of a thumb brushing over his cheek before that question surfaces. Why did he not see that coming? Perhaps it’s because there was a thought that things wouldn’t turn out like that, but it seems even he could be wrong. It doesn’t bother him in the slightest but he does take some time to ponder on it. Yes, he didn’t mind it at all but how could he admit such a thing at all? Pride was a powerful thing with him.
❛ Only slightly, in someway you’ve helped to ease it, but don’t allow itto get to your head of course! ❜
Such bold words where they not? It’s hilarious even to him that he can say that with ease just like that. Of course, things said were always laced with truth, he doesn’t feel that need to lie towards the other. Only slightly does he feel that pang of loneliness but it’s not as bad as it usually could be.