Days of Ephe

☀︎₊˚⊹⋆｡ﾟ☁︎｡⋆𓂃 ོ☼𓂃 21 + morning person + brunch enthusiast

[ephe-me]

not doing this kahoot bro

zzz

[ephe-me]

My Unromantic

we're meeting today to have a serious talk about our relationship. i think it's so important. i agree that this isn't sustainable. i'm happy with us but they're checked out and leaving me sorta unfulfilled.

the situation is incredibly salvageable, if we can get to the bottom of this once and for all. i don't want to have to keep going back and forth about this, valentines day is in 4 days. imagine getting dumped 4 days before valentines day. well that's a big possibility for me rn

[ephe-me]

2.10.26

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4/5 ᴛᴇꜱᴛꜱ ᴅᴏᴡɴ

Pathophysiology: 91.3%

Foundations of Nursing: 100%

Health Assessment: 97.2%

Pharmacology: 100%

Dosage Calc: Pendinggg...

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[ephe-me]

my hands are shaking in the school library

they want to break up...again. this isn't sustainable. I thought we were past this. if we break up it's over. i can't be the only one fighting for us, literally everything is fine. sure some things could be worked on, but what's breaking up gonna solve. if we break up, a month from now they're going to invite me over (longer than last time) and they're going to miss me! they're gonna hope i make the first move and act all cool. im gonna hope the same thing. no wonder they're stressed out by the relationship! they're being a bystander to the dumpster fire instead of helping me put it out. they're checked out and pushing me away.

[ephe-me]

being chubby is so unforgiving. it feels like no hairstyle looks good on me. my skin is so dull and lifeless. my clothes are awkward. rip

[ephe-me]

𐙚⋆.˚ successful day, got ahead in all of my classes!!

i love seeing A's in the gradebooks~

[ephe-me]

My unromantic strikes again!

I imagine us laying in the snow together as a little daydream of mine, or being snowed in together because of an overnight unforeseen blizzard.

...and they broke my reverie by telling me it was unrealistic! who made them chief practical idk. but I certainly did not ask for their assessment.

[ephe-me]

Missing my unromantic

sometimes i think about stealing things from their apartment. i half jokingly mentioned that i would feel better after hangouts if i left with a little token souvenir, that i would bring back and trade the next time for something else. (they were thoroughly against this, ofc)

but I wonder if a pair of missing socks would go unnoticed for a week, and the next a spoon from the drawer, or hair ties, maybe a pen from their desk

[ephe-me]

Missing my unromantic

listening to love songs to supplement my desire to be sought after. fell asleep with matt maltese on repeat in my ear, hoping it would trigger a dream where we kiss or something, a reality where this isn't unreasonable is a cheap one, but it's all i've ever wanted

[ephe-me]

Missing my unromantic

our next hangout will be sweet but not fulfilling, like an oreo... you're always gonna want another oreo, because even though oreos are good, they're not made of the stuff that keeps you full.

[ephe-me]

all of my daydreams recently are really embarrassingly about them pulling me onto their lap and playing with my hair. i miss them, but I'm not dating a romantic, and no way he'd let me sit on his lap

[ephe-me]

Im back

and on top of my game.

semester is going great so far, I've uploaded all of my assignments onto my google calendar and introduced myself to my professors. I don't have my books yet, yikes. But that's cause I cant afford it until saturday.

my phone broke last week so I had to get a new one, and i just put down my deposit for my study abroad this summer, hhhh

[ephe-me]

IM ALIIIIIIVEEEEE

[ephe-me]

8.23.25

successful day today!

I'm a bit disappointed because I planned my whole day around going grocery shopping, but now I'm not able to.

:C

but! despite that, i cooked up my beans, made corn tortillas for the fridge, and my eggs are pickling in the fridge as well. I'm working on adding some more songs to my playlist as I type this. so if anyone has any immediate-feel-good songs, let me know!

I like most music except new pop (including bedroom pop and anything with a uke), heavy metal, and bluegrass with lyrics.

[ephe-me]

5 Things I'm doing to prep for the upcoming school year ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

clean my house

i'm not in student housing, and my house is so cluttered I feel like i can't think. I cleaned out places that usually go unnoticed, but still add imaginary pressure to my day. This includes my closet, my wallet, under my bed, and my shelves; this gives me a bit more breathing room.

meal prep

i ran the numbers and it's insanely cheaper (and probably healthier) to just make all my food instead of buying a meal plan and carving out time to visit the dining hall. I've got beans sorted and soaking, broth made, and I've still got chickens to carve. I'm not prepping each and every thing, just the stuff that will take me longer than 30 minutes to make and pack. I want my mornings to go as smoothly as possible.

made a schedule

I've got a tight schedule this year, so I've got a hour-by-hour time table for myself each day, to make sure I have time carved out space for studying, lollygagging, work, and self care.

made a playlist

i've got a good moods playlist so i can start each day off right! i like a lot of jazz and soul, so it's mostly just that. I'm still working on it, but right now it's got some feel-good favorites like "feeling good" by nina simone.

set timers

i've got to wake up early to go to school on time, so I'm getting a head start. timers are in place for where i should be sleeping, waking up, heading to class, etc. this goes along with the schedule I made, but a few timers are also helpful alongside of google calendar.

[ephe-me]

just put a load of homemade beef stock in the freezer. i wish i had more ice cube trays or any sort of container lol. I have so much, and a bunch of vegetables to freeze as well for my next batch of broth. I imagine having more onions and carrots to add by the end of next week, and making another big batch of stock to go along with today's cabbage.

at this rate, we're gonna need a deep freezer.

[ephe-me]

8.21.25

cooked neckbones, cabbage, and rice for dinner <333 should've made beans too but i was lazy and didn't take them out to sort and soak. no one else besides me like beans in this house anyways, so nothing was lost