Eriana

<3 my safe place to be weird 🙌

[erianar-blog1]

“maybe i don’t have to acknowledge and plead forgiveness for ever absence in my life. maybe it’s ok to be lost to those around you if it means finding, or recovering, yourself”

[erianar-blog1]

deleting social media means feeling sick every time i redownload and look at my profiles. It’s like I never want to be perceived again and how could I ever have in such a curated way?

[pupisized]

[loveyladyfingers07]

[seaphine]

I hope you find someone who speaks your soul's language so fluently that you never have to spend another second translating your own heart.

[kafkaswasteddayz]

not now honey, mommy’s yearning for something that once was and will never be again

[erianar-blog1]

I love scrolling on my page when I’m slightly tipsy. Going through my old post, my attempt at poetry was so sappy. I miss that girl. But she’s within me, and I her. Maybe this doesn’t make any sense because I can’t write poetry, or maybe because I’m a few glasses in. But I’m leaving this here for future me to look back on and laugh. Bye now.

[erianar-blog1]

there i was, sitting in the back of a truck with 4 people i never expected to meet, let alone love. the summer before we all leave to our corners of the country to study what we’ve bonded over loving. i couldn’t ask for anything better… except maybe one more day with them.

[erianar-blog1]

DOES HE WANT ME OR NOT MY GOD JUST GIVE ME A SIGN

[xtroor]

All roads unfortunately lead back to tumblr.

[erianar-blog1]

i hate how good he looks in these goofy ahh photos 😒

[erianar-blog1]

reminder that it’s okay if things still feel bad within you, it’s okay if that anger takes over sometimes, it’s okay if you lose sight every now and then. it’s okay if no one acknowledges how far you’ve come. you are still making progress, despite the hard shit.

[erianar-blog1]

i love when i’m doing a mundane tasks and im randomly hit with a wave of appreciation for being alive. like yes i get to do laundry and drive down familiar streets and make my bed!! yes i am alive!!

[erianar-blog1]

it makes me so sad to only see slushys complaining about the fandom rn.

like yes summer slushynoobz was amazing (like actually take me back 🙌🙌) yes there are some current fans who seem a bit (very) parasocial with the boys, etc, etc… but i feel like we’re falling into that trap that every fandom falls into where we eventually just become this divided fandom where everyone thinks they’re better than everyone else instead of the super fun community we used to be. BRING BACK THE LOVING, DORKY, CRINGY SLUSHYS I MISS US 😭😭

[erianar-blog1]

i lose an ounce of sanity everytime i come across a blonde, boxer Hamzah edit… in the best way possible (im losing my mind and soon my vocabulary will only consist of “blondzah… blondzah… blondzah…”)

[erianar-blog1]

okay so i actually just busted!??!?

[erianar-blog1]

i need blonde Hamzah EXPEDITIOUSLY