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Getting my haircut today, do u just go for a buzz cut?

Show off my ridiculously round head or just go shorter

If I were to write you a letter saying goodbye, this is what it would say.

Hi Love,

Wipe thoes tears and smile, you will end up with wrinkles and I can’t wipe away the tears right now.

I love you. I know things didn't end the way either of us had hoped. You never wanted to hurt me, none of what happened was something you chose. You can’t help how you feel, and the way that things played out.

I love you in spite of all of it. I love your smile, your laugh, the particular way your mind works. The way you throw yourself into something new when it catches you, the way you try to keep what you're feeling off your face, even though you never could, not with me.

I love the memories we made together. The first time we met, when you sprinted across the car park and into my arms and I kissed you like I had been waiting my whole life to. Sneaking into your house after your parents left, disabling the ring camera, slipping around to the back door. Meeting your family, your dad approving and asking if I wanted to stay the night. Meeting your grandfather, who barely looked up from the television but still shook my hand and told you that you looked lovely. Scotland for New Year's, surrounded by your family. Every anniversary, bottomless brunch, the two of us acting like it was still the first date.

What I'm most grateful for is that you were never just a partner to me. You were my closest friend. The one person I could say anything to. You healed things in me I hadn't even known were broken, and I will carry that with me always. If I had the chance to do it all over again? I would do it in a heartbeat.

If this is goodbye, I need you to know: none of this is your fault. It never could have been. I want you to live really live as yourself. Free and happy.

I love you.

Always and forever.

My darling ❤️

le-insomni-e

god, i wish i were gone already. forgotten. as if i never existed at all.

I keep bumping into the edges of you, the edges of us.

Would the air in the room be lighter without me in it?

Would you even notice the difference?

Would you be better off having never learned my name?

I wonder if I take up too much space, if you are spending yourself on my feelings when I give everything to spend myself on yours.

reckoner-rm

With you , it

Was different.

With you, I did

Want to talk

about it .

sillystrikes

I cannot shake off the anxiety which is constantly there though ,I am trying to detach myself and focus only on my wellness. That's the key but I am not quite right turning the key the correct way.