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Guys i have 3 people currently that im like "talking" to ig!! But like i feel bad bc its like I normally only entertain one person at a time but also this is lowkey fun!!!!

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I have come across the term "queer platonic relationship" meaning dating without the romance aspect!! And it sounds a lot like best friends but ive found a couplw differences, its spending your life together, its your future, it the amount of love you give that person!! I have found that, ive always just called her my best friend but this feels more like what she is to me, she is my future, she is my life partner just not romantically!!!

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Bro life is so cool!!! Genuinely everything is going so well!!! I got to kiss a girl!! Im going to the gym more!!! Im not stressed about school or anything else!!! And i have the best friends ever!!!! I love life bro!!

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Chat i am so bored!!! I already need more summer plans!!

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This is so stupid but a new episode of my show came out and all i want to do is tell one person and i cant, i hope this is rhe last episode so I dont have to think about this more

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Bath was hot enough!!!!

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Im really scared that im not me anymore, like i know I am physically me but like I feel like im spectating my own life, I dont recognize myself anymore, im making choices without even realizing im making them, I dont know, I sound crazy but like I just dont know

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Would it be wrong to gift someone a designer bag my grandma gave to me, but like i won't use it!! I feel terrible bc she bought it for me but like i wont use it and also I dont like the idea of designer things!! So idk!! I feel evil!!

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Call with doris made me feel so much better oml!!!

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Genuinely what do I do. I cant talk to my friends. I cant talk to her. I cant not talk to them. I cant assume. I cant get a straight answer. What am I supposed to do. And this isnt me saying its all her fault I just want to know what the hell i can do.

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I miss my dad

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Bro i need someone to tell someone to know everything in my head and tell me im reading to much into things and im insane!! I need my Alivia but I cant tell her most things it feel like!!! Aaaggghhhhh!!!

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I feel really lonely recently and idk how to fix it.

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Bro genuinely what is wrong with me. I cant handle normal stuff anymore. Like I genuinely cant process anything recently. I cant remember anything. My physical health is declining. My mental health is in shambles. I had a panic attack today which I haven't had in awhile. I dont know how to help people around me. I have another check up soon. I dont know what to do. I dont know how im feeling. I dont know how to make this go away. I feel like im in middle school again. I havent had thoughts about my counter shit in months and its all I can think about right now. And im not going to do anything but I can genuinely feel the pain of it again. How can I physically feel it. Why is this happening. Its like my whole body wants me to and I dont know what to do. I dont want to be alone right now but everyone is overwhelming me. I just dont feel like me

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I hate being anxious about times

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Im so tired. Im tired of death. Im tired of arguing. Im tired of not sleeping. Im tired od work. Im tired of everything. I dont want to deal with anything anymore. Im so fucking done with life rn

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Thats really frustrating, dont say you'll do something and then not do it and not acknowledge not doing it.