Loving Sonny Carisi Is My Pastime

Smut is my fave pastime.

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[mustyrosewater]

in case y'all wondering what the past two weeks have been like for me

[venusbyline]

GUYS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!!! I NEED TO RIDE THIS MAN IMMEDIATELY

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I got a dog in hopes it would help me, with depression, and honestly to at least give me the will to live for something, something to wake me up and that needs me. But I see her and I cry because I know I just radiate sadness and I know she can see it, I know she feels it.

I told a friend of over a decade that I’m scared and I hope to make it to 24 but it’s harder to give myself reasons to.

She said “I hope so too” and sent me a heart.

An almost affirmation that my problems weren’t hers, and she didn’t need to hear them.

I just told my mom that it’s been at least two years since I’ve hurt myself, she was so proud and now I’m shaking because I want to find the blade I hid away in my closet. Just in case. I don’t want to be like this.

I thought I had dropped my problems with numbing the pain away with pills, coaxing myself to sleep away the sadness but here I am sitting with them in front of me, tempting me with sweet solace.

I don’t want to be like this anymore.

[fanficslutforsmut]

So I’m back finally. A lot of shits happened. Including being in the worst situation of my life. I have to replace hundreds of dollars in damage after confronting my cheating boyfriend, now ex. If anyone would be gracious enough to help me out to try and replace these things it would be amazing.

My tv

My car side mirror

My car radio/navigation

Driver side Visor mirror

Kicked multiple dents into my back driver side door with steel toe boots on

Led mirror

Bathroom counter top

4+ interior doors

My coffee table

Patch holes in the walls/ outside siding of my house

My mailbox

Or if anyone has links/ different websites to try and look from. I’m also stuck paying for a phone I contracted for him (the one he was using to cheat). I’m just now out of this crazy situation and I just want to try to get things as back to normal as I can!

Cash app: $Kevans2000

Venmo: Kevans2000

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Man my Bad

I literally feel like such a flop right now, I feel awful that I can’t even find the will to read let alone write any fics rn which sucks because that’s usually the only thing that makes me feel better. Hopefully I can return before the new year, idk man I’m sorry, I just feel like the worlds biggest failure rn in like every aspect of my life. 

[rosedenali]

good night to people who write extremely rare-pair fanfiction, enthusiasts of the college au, people who hate canon with a passion, people old enough to have been squicked, gen z wattpad users, forgotten OCs from 13 years ago, the kudos button on ao3, people who write one-shots exclusively, the first kisses that happen on chapter 42 at the Earliest, enemies to friends to enemies again to lovers, and lastly… people who comment on fanfiction regardless of when it was posted

[fanficslutforsmut]

So I had to get a part time job since my work is trying to make me come back and work 60+ hrs at a factory while my chest is still very tender (especially getting fills each week) and I was able to pay my mortgage but now I’m two months behind and I owe over 300+ because the last payment I made was July (1 month post op) and my light bill is 426$ which was due yesterday so if anyone wants to help that’d be phenomenal as I’m fucking drowning rn

https://www.paypal.me/Evans835

Cashapp: kevans2000

Venmo: kevans2000

[fanficslutforsmut]

So I had to get a part time job since my work is trying to make me come back and work 60+ hrs at a factory while my chest is still very tender (especially getting fills each week) and I was able to pay my mortgage but now I’m two months behind and I owe over 300+ because the last payment I made was July (1 month post op) and my light bill is 426$ which was due yesterday so if anyone wants to help that’d be phenomenal as I’m fucking drowning rn

https://www.paypal.me/Evans835

Cashapp: kevans2000

Venmo: kevans2000

[fanficslutforsmut]

So I had to get a part time job since my work is trying to make me come back and work 60+ hrs at a factory while my chest is still very tender (especially getting fills each week) and I was able to pay my mortgage but now I’m two months behind and I owe over 300+ because the last payment I made was July (1 month post op) and my light bill is 426$ which was due yesterday so if anyone wants to help that’d be phenomenal as I’m fucking drowning rn

https://www.paypal.me/Evans835

Cashapp: kevans2000

Venmo: kevans2000

[fanficslutforsmut]

So I had to get a part time job since my work is trying to make me come back and work 60+ hrs at a factory while my chest is still very tender (especially getting fills each week) and I was able to pay my mortgage but now I’m two months behind and I owe over 300+ because the last payment I made was July (1 month post op) and my light bill is 426$ which was due yesterday so if anyone wants to help that’d be phenomenal as I’m fucking drowning rn

https://www.paypal.me/Evans835

Cashapp: kevans2000

Venmo: kevans2000

[fanficslutforsmut]

So I had to get a part time job since my work is trying to make me come back and work 60+ hrs at a factory while my chest is still very tender (especially getting fills each week) and I was able to pay my mortgage but now I’m two months behind and I owe over 300+ because the last payment I made was July (1 month post op) and my light bill is 426$ which was due yesterday so if anyone wants to help that’d be phenomenal as I’m fucking drowning rn

https://www.paypal.me/Evans835

Cashapp: kevans2000

Venmo: kevans2000

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Still so relevant

[fanficslutforsmut]

So I had to get a part time job since my work is trying to make me come back and work 60+ hrs at a factory while my chest is still very tender (especially getting fills each week) and I was able to pay my mortgage but now I’m two months behind and I owe over 300+ because the last payment I made was July (1 month post op) and my light bill is 426$ which was due yesterday so if anyone wants to help that’d be phenomenal as I’m fucking drowning rn

https://www.paypal.me/Evans835

Cashapp: kevans2000

Venmo: kevans2000

[fanficslutforsmut]

@angelic-holland @athenadcvell @attach-blog1 @detective-sonshine @spideyyeet @harrysgoldenline @spideyyeett @instagram @rgrettes @onlydarylnormanfic @peachpitfics @ofnifflersandkings @carisiismyhomeboy @stylesunchained @blackfashion @xgames-blog @svuimagines @creatively--challenged

[fanficslutforsmut]

So I had to get a part time job since my work is trying to make me come back and work 60+ hrs at a factory while my chest is still very tender (especially getting fills each week) and I was able to pay my mortgage but now I’m two months behind and I owe over 300+ because the last payment I made was July (1 month post op) and my light bill is 426$ which was due yesterday so if anyone wants to help that’d be phenomenal as I’m fucking drowning rn

https://www.paypal.me/Evans835

Cashapp: kevans2000

Venmo: kevans2000

[fanficslutforsmut]

@angelic-holland @athenadcvell @attach-blog1 @detective-sonshine @spideyyeet @harrysgoldenline @spideyyeett @instagram @rgrettes @onlydarylnormanfic @peachpitfics @ofnifflersandkings @carisiismyhomeboy @stylesunchained @blackfashion @xgames-blog @svuimagines @creatively--challenged

[fanficslutforsmut]

So I had to get a part time job since my work is trying to make me come back and work 60+ hrs at a factory while my chest is still very tender (especially getting fills each week) and I was able to pay my mortgage but now I’m two months behind and I owe over 300+ because the last payment I made was July (1 month post op) and my light bill is 426$ which was due yesterday so if anyone wants to help that’d be phenomenal as I’m fucking drowning rn

https://www.paypal.me/Evans835

Cashapp: kevans2000

Venmo: kevans2000

[fanficslutforsmut]

@angelic-holland @athenadcvell @attach-blog1 @detective-sonshine @spideyyeet @harrysgoldenline @spideyyeett @instagram @rgrettes @onlydarylnormanfic @peachpitfics @ofnifflersandkings @carisiismyhomeboy @stylesunchained @blackfashion @xgames-blog @svuimagines @creatively--challenged

[fanficslutforsmut]

So I had to get a part time job since my work is trying to make me come back and work 60+ hrs at a factory while my chest is still very tender (especially getting fills each week) and I was able to pay my mortgage but now I’m two months behind and I owe over 300+ because the last payment I made was July (1 month post op) and my light bill is 426$ which was due yesterday so if anyone wants to help that’d be phenomenal as I’m fucking drowning rn

https://www.paypal.me/Evans835

Cashapp: kevans2000

Venmo: kevans2000

[fanficslutforsmut]

@angelic-holland @athenadcvell @attach-blog1 @detective-sonshine @spideyyeet @harrysgoldenline @spideyyeett @instagram @rgrettes @onlydarylnormanfic @peachpitfics @ofnifflersandkings @carisiismyhomeboy @stylesunchained @blackfashion @xgames-blog @svuimagines @creatively--challenged

[fanficslutforsmut]

So I had to get a part time job since my work is trying to make me come back and work 60+ hrs at a factory while my chest is still very tender (especially getting fills each week) and I was able to pay my mortgage but now I’m two months behind and I owe over 300+ because the last payment I made was July (1 month post op) and my light bill is 426$ which was due yesterday so if anyone wants to help that’d be phenomenal as I’m fucking drowning rn

https://www.paypal.me/Evans835

Cashapp: kevans2000

Venmo: kevans2000

[fanficslutforsmut]

@angelic-holland @athenadcvell @attach-blog1 @detective-sonshine @spideyyeet @harrysgoldenline @spideyyeett @instagram @rgrettes @onlydarylnormanfic @peachpitfics @ofnifflersandkings @carisiismyhomeboy @stylesunchained @blackfashion @xgames-blog @svuimagines @creatively--challenged