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Josefina Martinez‌,

I’m hoping that’s the case, that would mean a couple of situations I’ve been trying to work through will settle down eventually, but at the same time, I tend to keep my expectations low in that regard. I’m so glad you didn’t take my interest in your personal life as being too forward. As I become older I’m learning the importance of slowing down, being mindful and aware of others, just so you know my interest is genuine and I’m not asking for the sake of being curious.

Oh, so you lived in Califonia at some point? That’s where I’m from, lived there most of my life before I joined the service and got a taste of what’s out here in the world. Can I ask what led you to move from California to Hawaii? Did you move there for your studies in law? Not that I blame you! I can think of a more than a few reasons why I’d make that move.

Honestly, I’m not as close with my family as I’d like to be, but I do visit my father as often as I can. My brother, he’s an ambassador for the Special Olympics so he travels all over the place, I probably see him once a year at most and that’s only if I have the time to track him down.

Ah, then we have something else in common. I too, seek out the simple pleasures in life that bring me peace. Indulging in good food is a guilty pleasure of mine. I love to cook and I also like to get outdoors, for a little backpacking and camping out is a favorite thing to do. As far as work goes, I’m a project coordinator with Habitat for Humanity and I currently live in Johannesburg. I moved here after getting out of the service, came for a service project and never left.

Understandable and please do whatever you need to do, I wouldn’t want you to abandon your work and school obligations, we can be random and weird when it’s most convenient for you, ha. Oh except weekend after next someone from the network is coming out to visit with me I think. I don’t mind stopping through your world, I can’t think of a better reason to make my way back to Hawaii. I shouldn’t be too much of a bother, I’m sure there’s plenty I can get into while you’re tying up things with work and school. So begins the adventure then, I’m too excited to fulfill this little fantasy venture of mine, even better with good company!

Oh, can I ask what kind of lawyer you’re studying?

Why do you keep your expectations low? I’ve been seeing more and more how bleak people’s outlooks have become and I always want to insist that there’s a lot of power in hope. Too often we let our fear guide us rather than the positive influences and practices. Curious is a start, isn’t it? I do appreciate the genuine interest though. What has the importance of slowing down taught you?

Most of my life I’ve lived in Los Angeles, yes. Where did you live? What brought you to join your military? It’s a wide world out there. I’ve found myself straying from too much economy and civilization though, I appreciate the quiet and less complicated life. Could’ve been Los Angeles that did me in there. What reasons would you make the move? I moved to distance myself from things and found I really fit here.

Is your father home in California? What keeps you away from them so much? Aside from your brother’s traveling.

So Johannesburg has really captivated you and made you feel at home I take it? Your projects take you to many places don’t they? Have any favorites? It’s always a pleasure to meet and know like-minded individuals. I don’t camp too often though, I have been known to sleep on the beach on occasion though. Cooking became very different living out here, something I think I learned to simplify and enjoy more.

Well you’re welcome to come out whenever and roam around while I take care of the things I need to. I can also point you in the direction of places and things to explore if you’d like. There’s some really great hiking up in Hawi and Waimea areas, you could borrow my Jeep and ATV if you’d like. It’s especially nice in the Hawi area because some vistas offer you the view of Maui.

Sure. I’m studying criminal law, most likely looking to be a defense attorney. It’s all for personal reasons and wanting to fight back against gross mishandlings in the justice system.

#larjosefina

“You should come in, the water is nice...” Erol called out, having just surfaced and peering at his company on the sandy beach. “You can’t come to Hawaii and your only interest be in watching,” the male tacked on as his hands cleared away the excess water dripping down his face. “Come on, it’s refreshing, and you’ll have fun.”

#larstarter #loc: kona

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kenia brathwaite‌,

Oh I’m an esthetician with some focus in massage therapy. Oh yeah, I understand that. LA makes me miss Barbados a ton, but you know.. this is the place to be in my job, so I’m just trying to make my money while I can. I love island living. It’s just.. impossible to describe but, it’s something. I would love it. I am the kind of girl that is just meant to be on the beach. I go back every year or so.

STOOOOP. Don’t even do that.

What got you into that field of work? I’ve heard once that the career of a masseuse isn’t a long one, due to arthritis and things of that nature. How do you like it? Meant to be near a beach, hm? I suppose that if you must be in Los Angeles that it’s a good thing it is very close to quite a few beautiful beach. You get your fill somehow.

And why shouldn’t I?

#larkenia

this is why I love this joke:

Jesus was fond of telling his followers not to worry about how they’d afford food tomorrow because God would provide. But Jesus told them this while handing out free bread and encouraging them to help people who were in need, making them the outlet through which God would provide for others

My mother was a waitress, we live in an area that has a lot of Christians and people would often stiff her on tips. Instead they’d leave a pamphlet with quotes from Jesus saying not to worry because God would provide

Jesus’ message was never that God would magically put food on people’s tables. God would provide opportunities to help each other, like the boat captains offering to help the dying man. That only works if people actually help each other

When I first heard this joke as a teenager I laughed at the guy who didn’t take the help that was offered to him. As an adult, I think of all the Christian politicians who vote against food stamps and I want to tell them “You were the boat captain but you steered away from the man in need instead of offering him help. Is that really what God wanted you to do?”

#( && musings. )#( && without tenderness we are in hell. )

josefina martinez,

Glad to hear it and I don’t want to pry any further, but I’m happy that it sounds like you found some semblance of a resolution. Do you have a chance to visit your family often? I don’t think I’ve ever been to the Big Island particularly but the Kona coast sounds familiar. Can I ask what keeps you busy in Hawai’i? I mean what kind of work do you do?

Hopefully, I’m not being too presumptive, but seems that way!

Well, Erol, my ferocious appetite and I feel like some kind of challenge has been issued. It really depends on how adventurous you’re feeling and what kind of time you’ve got to spend. Might take some planning but have you ever seen the show on the Food Network called Diners, Drive-Ins, And Dives? I’ve been fantasizing about venturing out on the most epic, authentic taste tour. Perhaps we could decide on a region to explore and go from there. Might be a bit to digest for a first meeting, but I suppose odder things have happened. So, what do you think? More adventure than you had in mind, or no?

We’ve done the best we can for the time being. As with most things, there are no overnight fixes and this is one of those things that will take time to settle out. I thank you, though. Your concern and respect is meaningful, as well as endearing. I don’t often visit family back home in Turkey, no. They used to come out once a year when I lived in Los Angeles, and this would be the first time I’ve seen them since moving to Hawai’i. What of your family? Do you live close wherever you are? Well, currently I am a law student and working for a lawyer. I suppose the correct or official term would be paralegal. Other than the work I enjoy diving quite a bit, and anything else I can find that brings me some peace. What is that you do, and like to do?

It’s not at all. It’s nice to find someone with similar tastes.

That is definitely more adventure than I had in mind, however, I wouldn’t say that is a bad thing. It’s wonderfully unexpected, yet I like it quite a lot. I do need to stop at home though and check in with my employer before I take some extended time for an adventure. Would you mind stopping in in my area of the world for a day or two and then we can get started on this epic and authentic taste tour? I feel as though there will be at least some minor planning involved and that would give us the time to do so while I get some things squared away.

#larjosefina

reyna santos‌,

She didn’t mind the idea of a stranger giving her advice. So far any advice she had received from friends had blown up rather tragically in her face. What he suggested though, she wasn’t even sure she could do. The concept made sense but she was someone who suffered from depression, anxiety, and linked paranoia. Her thoughts were chained to her. “I don’t know if I would even know where to start with that.”

The response didn’t surprise him one bit, Erol had a similar reaction when the very same thing had been presented to him. “I think it would vary person to person, it just needs to start with the will to let go.” He offered a small smile while his body shifted in the seat. “For myself, in the start, I had to make it a physical act. I had to put the thoughts in my hand, and physically release them.”

#larreyna #loc: the lattice

ilya andropovich‌,

This is a complicated topic, one that I can’t go into too much detail. I can only say so much. It’s not that I am particularly afraid of love, I’m afraid of what love does to people in the sort of life that I lead. If things were different, I’m sure that I would have found someone to love years ago. That being said, it’s hard to love a monster, and that’s very much what I am. I’m a danger to others, although not directly, but indirectly. They are a danger to me by becoming a priority in my life, and pulling my focus from things I face daily. I suppose, if I ever actually experience love, I wouldn’t be able to stop myself. I’m a terribly selfish man, and if I like something enough, I’m not likely to deny myself that very thing. It’ll have to be up to the other person to walk away, because I will not.

I do love my city, you are correct. Everyone’s experiences of their home cities are different. We can’t measure things all on the same scale. Would you say that you move often? Or just travel a lot? Or do you simply move after a time, when you feel you’ve experienced all there is to experience in that particular place? Hmm, I wonder if you ever have ties to a certain location if that sentiment would change for you? Perhaps, if you found someone, had a family?

That sounds very intense and more like obsession than love. While love can be consuming, it is also supposed to be freeing. If you have to metaphorically chain yourself or someone else then it crosses some barriers. Although, this is all subjective, it’s interesting your standpoint here. Have you ever been in love? At all in your life? Clearly, I understand that you may not have had a relationship, I’m just curious if you’ve ever had those feelings. I think the longer you go without opening yourself up to such a strong emotion, something that is a major life force, that it’s being corrupted within you.

I wouldn’t say I’m nomadic, no. When it comes to places I’ve actually resided then it has only been three. A place to live has much more to do with well being and state of mind for me than where my roots are. I’m looking for peace in my life, so it shouldn’t be any surprise that I’ve ended up in Hawaii. I have no fear of putting roots anywhere, I suppose only the future knows when and how that will be. What of you though? Will you leave your city and experience a different way of life at all?

#larilya #private

diana cautheret‌,

No worries, I’m not going to test you on your mythology. I promise. My knowledge is better suited with medical things anyway. If you’re up for a full day in the city with a perfect stranger, then I’ll accept! You’ve never seen a Broadway show? Oh my goodness, alright we’ll have to get you to one. I have a preference for Les Mis, that’s always a trusty one, or Guys and Dolls, oh… Hamilton is actually very, very good as well. We can always see what’s available and go from there?

Thank you, I appreciate that. You will beat me easily in medical knowledge as well then. I’m pretty sure by the end of that day we’ll be far from strangers, though I say it sounds like a good time. I’ve never really been in a place where I could catch Broadway, my trips to New York in the past have been quick and usually a pass through. I’ll trust your judgement on what’s available.

#lardiana

josefina martinez‌,

I see! Well, in that case, I hope the visit had a favorable outcome. Hawaii is an exquisite place to live, you’re fortunate! I’m lucky enough to have visited a few times. I especially liked exploring the National Park. I also attempted surfing but never really caught the hang of it. Do you mind if I ask where you live, specifically?

Something with strong flavors and heat, hm? I’ve got a few ideas. My question is would you consider traveling a bit out of your way to explore them? It seems we may share an affinity for spice.

Nothing got any worse, so I suppose that’s a positive to consider. I live on Hawai’i, aka The Big Island, somewhere along the Kona coast. Have you ever been there? I’m not the best surfer myself, I mostly enjoy diving. Where is it that you’re from?

We do? Well, that’s good to hear. I’ve noticed in my life it’s difficult for me to spend too much time with people that don’t have strong appetites and adventurous palettes. I’m willing to travel. What did you have in mind?

#larjosefina

#( && reflection. )

kenia brathwaite‌,

Well.. I would hope so. That’s what one of the main focuses of my job is. Oh yeah? What made you move there? Just wanted some island living? Turkey! Well.. I’m from Barbados so I go back to see my friends and family. It’s amazing. You’d like it a lot I think. Really? I might have to take you up on the offer.

Hot. Like you.

And what is your job? I was living in LA and you could say I wanted something a little slower, more spread out, and personal. It’s just a different attitude living on the island. It’s an island surrounded by beaches and some great diving spots, I’m sure I would love it. How often do you get back to Barbados to visit your family and friends?

Well, thank you. If we’re going to talk about beauty though, the focus should be on you.

#larkenia

#( && musings. )

ilya andropovich‌,

I’m sure that there are, but perhaps it’s not best for me to try and seek those beautiful people out. Seeking those who might be beautiful in spirit and soul create problems that neither I, nor they, are prepared to handle. It would be entirely too dangerous. All of that aside, I’m sure that your conversation is more than adequate to keep the people with any substance around for longer than the initial excitement.

St. Petersburg is very beautiful, I agree, but then again it’s my city and I wouldn’t likely say otherwise. Of course, if you ever find yourself in my city again and you feel so inclined, you can let me know and we can meet. It’s not often that a friendly face comes into the city. Granted, that’s saying that you would be a friendly face at that time. Are all of your family in Turkey? And what takes you away from your family and to Hawaii of all places? I’m not sure that I could leave this city, and my family, even if I didn’t have the obligations that I have at the moment.

What problems could these people present you with? Are you afraid of love, or your emotions? Avoiding those things sound like a limited human experience if you ask me. Where’s the danger? It’s better to live while you have the time than to not.

Sounds like you love your city and where you’re from greatly. Your loyalty and pledge to it strongly outshines mine for my own. I love where I’m from and I love my family, however, my parents immigrated to Los Angeles before I reached my teenage years. For me, the residing in different places has to do with wanting to be apart of the world. It could be that I simply don’t have as strong of ties as someone like yourself because I haven’t spent all of my life living in one place.

#larilya

diana cautheret‌,

Why might I also be incorrect? Thank you, I rather like my name, I’m very lucky. If it’s been a while, you should absolutely come and visit. My treat. We’ll go anywhere in New York City that you’d like. If you want coffee, I’ll take you for coffee. If you want to take in sights, we can do that. If you’re hungry, I’ll take you to one of the hole in the wall places. Catch a show? We can do that too. So, it’s up to you if you’re wanting to stop, and of course it depends on how much time you have.

Just a hunch I have. I’m not knowledgeable enough in mythology to put up much of an argument here. If we get to know each other better, we’ll see if I was right. Sounds like we should take a full day in the city and make sure to get a little bit of everything you’ve mentioned fit in. I’ve never seen a Broadway show, have you? Do you have a favorite?

#lardiana

madeleine scott‌,

OH GOOD! Let’s get Thai food! I love pineapple fried rice… or Thai fried rice… or pad Thai… or so many things. Don’t worry, I’ll make sure whatever I eat isn’t too spicy, but it gives you the chance for spicy food, and that’s the best of both worlds.

Everywhere, really. Well, I’ve been to Barcelona, and Baja. I’ve been to Malmö, Sydney, Berlin… That might be it so far? I have so many places I’d love to go. I want to go to Norway, Iceland, Switzerland, Austria, Japan, Italy, Greece, the entire of the British Isles, ALL of these beautiful beach and coastal areas… I want to go to Africa, but for other reasons that have to do with the wildlife. Have I listed the whole world yet? I feel like I’m getting there. Sorry!! I didn’t get to travel before the Lattice and now I feel like I’m trying to make up for lost time. What about you? Where would you go that you haven’t gone?

Oh goodness! It’s okay! You’re not stealing up too much of my time! Don’t even worry about that. I love meeting new people, and I have all sorts of time… when I’m not working, that is.

Aside from Maddie, sometimes Mads, but then there’s certain people’s names for me. The ones that only they use and nobody else shares so thee’s Sunshine, and Monkey, and Chipmunk… so far.

Best of both worlds. I like that a lot. You know, I may have only taken a bite or two of pineapple fried rice in my life and it sounds like it might be a favorite of yours. We should share an order of it.

I think you should fully take advantage then and make up for the time and travel you couldn’t do before. The world offers itself for you to see and enjoy, and you have some very good choices on your list when it comes to scenery. You mentioned Africa aside from the others and mentioned for the wildlife, and I have to admit the wildlife there is like no other place, but I’m curious for your reasons. If you care to share? There’s plenty of places I would still like to go, even some of them you have mentioned. My top choice, as of this moment in time, is Gozo, Malta. I’m a diver, or I should say it’s one of my greatest hobbies, and that is where I wish to dive next.

What do you do for a living?

All very chipper and energetic nicknames. That tells me quite a bit more about you. Chipmunk indicates you might be small, is that true?

#larmadeleine

reyna santos‌,

“Distraction. I doubt a place could give me any peace of mind at the moment. I would love some but it only exists within myself and I have yet to find it.” She sighed. “That’s probably a little too much information to be telling a complete stranger. I’m sorry. You probably didn’t expect to end up sat next to an over sharer.”

At her apology Erol shook his head. It was easy to discern she was looking for some outlet, and strangers were often the easiest ears to open up to. “Please, it’s fine, I assure you.” He looked at her steady for a moment before adding, “may I share something? Or, may I suggest something? It helps me to process and if there’s a chance it could help you—” The pause was brief, though he remained open to her stopping him any time. “Release your thoughts. The mind is a machine, and it runs constant, so if you don’t let them go they become overturned in overthinking. You have to be in the present moment, let the thoughts go and stop torturing yourself.” It was something that took some practice, he would be honest in that. Erol found it worked.

#larreyna #loc: the lattice

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