you are all that i'll ever need

@benito-no: i'm clearly not popular

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distance covered :: ben & dove

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as soon as doves phone buzzed, she took it up in her hands, hoping it was either allie or ben, knowing it probably wouldn’t be the first. upon reading his poorly written messages, she put a hand over her mouth, tears flowing harder now, though she couldn’t possibly decipher if they were happy or sad tears – maybe even terrified. ‘go’ she simply typed back, 'you need to go’ she then added, deciding one simple word wasn’t enough, 'i’ll be here.’ was the third text she sent with a shaky hand, the screen now wet with tiny teardrops.

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'Why would i leave you here.' He replied, setting his phone down due to his dizziness. He wasn't in the mood to throw up. Especially because he was semi proud that this was his first panic in a while that he hadn't thrown up from. So with deep breaths he kept texting Dove. 'I'm not gonna leave you here for another five months. Hockey season ain't over.'

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distance covered :: ben & dove

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Ben watched her speak, her expression giving away her feelings pretty easily. When she almost slipped up a lump grew in his throat. The same one he got when he began to cry. Once the blonde was no longer in the room, he broke. He grabbed the tv remote throwing it against the far wall, causing the plastic to shatter, and leaving a dent in the wall. His head falling into his hands, Ben let his feelings go, all of the fear, the frustration and anxiety that came with the contract deal. “I just don’t want you to hate me because of it.” He mutter, tears falling onto his sweatpants.

she heard a smash, one that caused her to drop the bin of dirty clothes, her frustration getting the better of her while fear crept in, her past relationships causing her timid manners show clearer now. frantically, the blonde packed all the stray clothes back into the hamper, hurrying off to the laundry room, hoping no one would be in or around it. to her surprise – there wasn’t. the twenty year old stepped in, shutting the door behind her with a shot sigh, setting the hamper of clothes ontop of the dryer before she sunk into the small chair off in the corner, bringing her petite legs up to her chest, feet resting on the edge of the chair. she couldn’t help but let a few tears fall, taking her bottom lip between her teeth to try and stop the result of her emotions.

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Ben didn't know what to do. Did he go find dove? Did he stay here? Deciding to go with the latter, he got up from his spot, moving to the bathroom and sitting on the floor. It wasn't because of his problem that he sat there, it was because of his anxiety. It was why he hadn't eaten that morning, or the previous night. Finally grabbing his phone he shakily texted Dove, reluctant to send a poorly written text. "The Pittsburgh Penguins want me to play with them. Might have to move. Don't want to move. Because you're here. Didn't want you to think I was abandoning you."

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distance covered :: ben & dove

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dove could feel herself getting both angry and upset, one much more than the other, her face turned a light shade of pink, green eyes still looking down at her lap. “you’re hurting me more by not telling me, you know. all the more reason you should fuc – just tell me,” she quickly caught herself from cursing, “but – whatever. i’m not going to force you to do anything.” the blonde then stood, her bare feet barely making noise as she crossed the hardwood floor, grabbing a basket of empty laundry to have an excuse to leave the room. she didn’t want herself to get too upset in front of him, to know how much it was truly bothering her.

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Ben watched her speak, her expression giving away her feelings pretty easily. When she almost slipped up a lump grew in his throat. The same one he got when he began to cry. Once the blonde was no longer in the room, he broke. He grabbed the tv remote throwing it against the far wall, causing the plastic to shatter, and leaving a dent in the wall. His head falling into his hands, Ben let his feelings go, all of the fear, the frustration and anxiety that came with the contract deal. "I just don't want you to hate me because of it." He mutter, tears falling onto his sweatpants.

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distance covered :: ben & dove

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dove moved away from him slightly, tucking her legs underneath her while still looking at him. “you – know you’re being distant.. and you – you’re okay with it?” she asked in almost disbelief, her small hands tucking between her legs to keep her from picking at her once perfectly manicured nails but we’re now severely damaged due to to her nervous habits. “like what? what are you not telling me?” she asked hesitantly, not knowing if she even wanted to know the answer.

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Ben kept quiet, looking at his lap now. He didn't want to tell her. For good reason. Hockey seasons lasted longer than excerpts out in Vancouver to film movies. "Yes. Because it keeps me from slipping. I don't want to hurt you Dove. Because what I'm not telling you is a huge deal, and i haven't made my mind up on it yet."

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distance covered :: ben & dove

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still slightly zoned out, ben was startled when his phone vibrated in his pocket. pulling it out he discovered that his fiance had texted him. after reading the message he looked at the girl confused. “dove, I’m right here. you’re practically laying on me, how could you miss me?” he asked chuckling slightly before turning back to the tv, which held recaps of the last hockey game in the eastern conference. 

dove sighed softly, beginning to pick at her nails, a nervous habit she picked up along the years. “but you –” she mumbled, sitting up just slightly, “you’re here.. but you’re not here.. be – ben, this is the first time we’ve sat together, awake, in the past two weeks..” she spoke softly, looking from him, to the tv, then back again, “– see?” she whispered, trying to get his attention back from the replays of his favorite sport.

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Ben looked over at Dove to give her his attention, as she spoke. As she spoke, he knew what she meant, but he wasn’t okay with fixing it right now. They’d both been busy, now BEN being busier than ever as he got opinions from multiple people about taking the contracted deal that had been written up. "I-I yeah, I know I'm distant..." he muttered. "I've just had so much on my mind recently."

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Which OC would hold someone to comfort them

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Which OC is always warm and cozy

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@no-Benito: still wondering how @shawnmendes hasn't torn the vein in his neck with how much it shows when he performs mercy. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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distance covered :: ben & dove

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doveidk:

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dove let out a brief sigh, making sure that it was insignificant enough that her fiance wouldn’t notice. she kept her shining green eyes on him, only daring to take them off when she noticed her phone light up in her hands. she read the message for a short second, soon x-ing it out, leaving her to her messages, noticing bens name at the top. soon the blonde found herself typing out a text to him, ‘i miss you.’ was all it said. he’d been distant and quiet for the past few days, not knowing what was happening, dove began to grow concerned, though she would never directly confront him about it – until now, with her text message to him. 

still slightly zoned out, ben was startled when his phone vibrated in his pocket. pulling it out he discovered that his fiance had texted him. after reading the message he looked at the girl confused. “dove, I’m right here. you’re practically laying on me, how could you miss me?” he asked chuckling slightly before turning back to the tv, which held recaps of the last hockey game in the eastern conference. 

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distance covered :: ben & dove

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thankfully, the small potion of off time from both their jobs overlapped one another, allowing them to just enjoy eachothers company. her slender legs rested over his thighs, her head resting on the pillows at the other end of the couch. ben had been watching something on the televison, causing his focus to have shifted from the blonde – though she didn’t mind. she had her eyes on the book in her hands, flipping the pages every few moments just to make it seem like she was focused, though her mind was someplace else. dove eventually found herself looking up to her fiance, admiring him from a short distance while she let her mind work on overtime.

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Ben didn’t have to go to practice from what he could tell - because he was still deciding on a contract with an NHL team. not only a national hockey team, but the most recent champions of the stanley cup. ben would be stupid to not pick up the deal. problem became is that it involved re-locating to pittsburgh, pennslyvania which was hours and hours away. he’d yet to tell dove, and the guilt was beginning to eat at him. he may look as though he was consuming time by watching televison, but really, he was trying to find a way to make it work. dove was in the middle of a huge point of her career, her acting taking off and onto broadway, and into vancouver as well. the two were bound to be miles apart at some point. 

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Wingman || Shawn and Ben

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“the.. penguins?! ben we’ve been watching them since we were like.. fucking five.” he exclaimed, “holy shit! that’s fucking awesome!”

“Yeah, the Penguins.” Ben began beaming with pride as his brother started to shout. “Dude, shut up, you’re so fucking loud.” He laughed, putting a hand on his shoulder. “It’s not official yet so don’t spread that just yet. It’s why I havent told Dove.”

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Wingman || Shawn and Ben

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Ben had knew it slipped, and he was trying so hard to cover it up. “I don’t understand why dogs are so inclined to birds and small animals. Also, how are you handling three dogs exactly?” He asked only for Shawn to ask again. “I- I got an offer to sign with a team.” He stated, trying to be as vague as possible.

“ben stop trying to brush past this,” he shot, eyes narrowing, clearly getting aggravated at his attempts to be vague. “you’re pissing me off right now. you can’t drop a fuckin’ bomb like that and not give me more details.”

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Ben sighed looking at his brother. "Fine, fine." He sat down, putting his hands in his pockets. "Mike Sullivan was in LA last week or the last few days and dropped by our practice because he was missing a few players from his lineup. He asked to see the best of what they had and I was a part of them. Next thing I know I get an email that night from Mike Sullivan and the Penguins Foundation that they wanted to write up a contract. I might be playing for the Pittsburgh Penguins."

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Wingman || Shawn and Ben

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“wait you – might have to move to pittsburgh..?” he sat up, looking at his brother with wide eyes, almost ignoring the dogs until his brother commented on them, getting up slowly from the bed, “hey! hey! christ, shut up! it was a bird. go, now!” he scolded them, mentioning his hand to the living room where their toys are, “i get used to it,” he brushed his brother off, “but pittsburg?”

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Ben had knew it slipped, and he was trying so hard to cover it up. "I don't understand why dogs are so inclined to birds and small animals. Also, how are you handling three dogs exactly?" He asked only for Shawn to ask again. "I- I got an offer to sign with a team." He stated, trying to be as vague as possible.

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Wingman || Shawn and Ben

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“Yeah. It’s been five years now.” He nodded. “Well yeah but, I don’t know I can barely tell her some things so I don’t know how true that is.” Ben sighed but smiled again at his brother’s notion.

“wait – what do you mean you can barely tell her things?” he asked, putting both his hands behind his head, resting on them while looking at his older brother.

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“There are things like me getting a job or going and signing with hockey teams that I don’t wanna tell her because I’m scared she’s gonna think I’m breaking her promise. <b>My</b> promise to her and it freaks me out thinking of her panic like that.”

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“benji, you can’t keep things from her though, ever think you’re breaking more of a promise by lying? by saying yes to you when you asked her to marry you, she also made a promise to love you no matter what, you know? i’ve given up on hiding anything from karla, she sees right through me now. it’ll eventually start to get the same way with dove.”

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"I know, I know... just... I don't know how to tell her. Cause it's a big deal like I might have to more to Pittsburgh and I-" Ben was cut off by Rocky barking, causing a storm between the three dogs. He looked at the group by the window and then to his brother. "How does this not bother you?"

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Wingman || Shawn and Ben

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“Yeah. It’s been five years now.” He nodded. “Well yeah but, I don’t know I can barely tell her some things so I don’t know how true that is.” Ben sighed but smiled again at his brother’s notion.

“wait – what do you mean you can barely tell her things?” he asked, putting both his hands behind his head, resting on them while looking at his older brother.

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"There are things like me getting a job or going and signing with hockey teams that I don't wanna tell her because I'm scared she's gonna think I'm breaking her promise. <b>My</b> promise to her and it freaks me out thinking of her panic like that."

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Wingman || Shawn and Ben

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“It’s a huge thing for her because the last promise she made was with her dad and she has this notion that all promises will be broken. She’s scared of having that level of heartbreak again.” He explained, before shrugging. “I wasn’t aware I was that persuasive.” He laughed. “I should be able to do that for the most part.”

“he passed away, didn’t he?” he asked, looking over to his brother again, “it makes sense though, i’m sure you’ve had countless conversations with her about it, maybe you are that persuasive.” he chuckled, shrugging his shoulders. “you got this,”

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"Yeah. It's been five years now." He nodded. "Well yeah but, I don't know I can barely tell her some things so I don't know how true that is." Ben sighed but smiled again at his brother's notion.

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Wingman || Shawn and Ben

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“shit, camila makes nothing but promises,” he laughed, leaning back on the bed, “well here you are, you’re engaged to her now, so i guess she did get used to the idea. or maybe – you changed her mind?” he asked, eyebrows raising at the older boy next to him. “please do, i like seeing you happy.”

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"It's a huge thing for her because the last promise she made was with her dad and she has this notion that all promises will be broken. She's scared of having that level of heartbreak again." He explained, before shrugging. "I wasn't aware I was that persuasive." He laughed. "I should be able to do that for the most part."