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#ERUDIETI — a dependent interpretation of esmeralda "esme" heroux, a paleontology grad student from langston, loved by bambi & written for fleelangston.

#22. pst. she/her.#dni if not affl w langston! <3

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#dan nicki ur bobies #visage .

pclarcld

the text message had been read over, and over, and over again. it wasn't as if the first or fifth time gave any difference in clarity. the outcome would still be the same as old habits would always die hard. bash should know better. it was a waste of time. it'd end with reclusiveness and venomous words. even if tonight was peaceful, perhaps even full of bliss, the other shoe would drop. it always did. the knock on the door was simple. not too timid not too loud. it was the seconds in between the pang echoing against wood and the fringes opening ajar left a moment of knowing regret to appear. hand dropped down from the nervous tick of messing with his lower lip as if memories lingered as a ghost. 〝 of course i did. 〞

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esmeralda always thinks she knows what to say to bash; tell him he's a piece of shit, that she never wants to see him again, that she wants to be left alone. on nights when she feels guitly ( is tonight one ? it wasn't, not until he came without question. that tends to make things more complicated ) she thinks she can be normal – never an i'm sorry, or a this was my fault, but soft eyes and a gentle tone that she hopes can convey the apology she'll never give. a way to admit she fucked up, without actually … doing it. it seems to be the latter tonight, and like usual, she never knows what the fuck to say once he actually shows up. “ thank you. ” rexy greets him with excitement, a wagging tail eager to see someone she knows. milagro does much of the same, though the cat settles for nuzzling his legs, weaving between them. esme's almost embarrassed that they seem to be showing just how much she missed him, too, “ um – i need help with, uh … ” a look around the room, “ are you hungry ? i got too much food. ” always an excuse; god forbid she just says she wants to see him. but esme's sure she ran that privilege dry long ago.

#this gor longer than intended so sry #pclarcld #ic .

for @lowtieds, esme & arin & the main common room.

“ are you busy? quickly. ” so quick that she doesn't wait for him to answer anyway, sitting across from him and setting her stuff down next to her, coffee in one hand and phone in the other. esme's eyes bore into him with the intensity of a thousand suns, a gaze that usually spells trouble (anger?) when directed towards the other across from her. and yet, “ i need your help. your … services, if you will. ” very cryptic way to talk about hacking, but sure.

#ic .#lowtieds #HI AXEL HAIIII #i hope this is ok if its not u can. shoot me

skidemark

“girl, we're in england?” because ???? that's all you're going to hear, unless you go to touristy spots. bath and cots is effectively .. not. at least not in the sense devon knows. “i think you're just so used to hearing attenborough that you're deciding to write off an entire subgroup of people.” are they are subgroup? she's not smart enough to know. “okay, okay, not too much on new york. you're seriously thinking this place is that bad?”

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“ yeah, that's why i'm here. you don't sound like that. ” also because esme is in devon's dorm all the time, but that's neither here nor there. “ let me be a brat, will you ? i miss my house. “ and her pets, and her stuff, and everything else that isn't here. still, it can't be all bad … “ ugh, i hate when you're right. stop doing it. at least there's no mold here, i guess. ” terribly low bar. rexy seems to agree as she comes to sit at devon's feet with a look of ‘can you believe this guy?’ traitor.

#ic .#skidemark

for @cloyingblccd, esme & robin & the rabbithole.

“ you work at the lamb & flag, right ? ” esme's voice surprises herself when she hears it – light and curious and almost entirely different than usual. the red lights and the alcohol coursing through her veins seem to be doing their job, a few vodka crans making her feel like she could take on the world ( or, alternatively, the cool server from the lamb & flag ). esme can feel herself losing steam quickly, though, remembering she has friends … somewhere or other – that's fine, she can make more, right ( sober esme will have something to say about that ) ? “ um, i'm esme, you've served me, just – wanted to tell you you're really cool. i forget to tell you every time i see you. ” no she doesn't, she just gets scared.

#hie sweet babie i hope this is . good. hugs u #ic .#cloyingblccd

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@skidemark

#isms .#with . devon

for @skidemark, esme & devon & complaining.

“ ‘f’i hear another british accent i'm gonna fucking flip. we're in hell. ” said unceremoniously as she plops down on devon's bed, not even waiting for the other to fully invite her in. for what reason ? this bed is basically hers anyway. “ like – they sound fake. i can't handle this. do you know how shitty this has to be for me to miss new york ? ugh. ” esme's aware she sounds like a bit of a brat, but if she couldn't be one around her best friend, then who ? poor devon.

#urnever gteting rid of me #hie :}#ic .#skidemark

skidemark

ESME & BRYCE ( @erudieti )

“are you going to threaten to hex me again?” they don't have a weapon this time. maybe zodiac, though he's too busy trying to figure out if bryce is going to have a heart attack or not.

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“ are you going to give me a reason to threaten to hex you again? ” frankly she doesn't remember threatening to hex him in the first place, though esme's certain it happened. bored eyes stare at him – rexy tilts her head and it's a bit funny how she seems to be giving the exact same expression esme is.

#ignoer how fast i replied 2 this i misse dhim #ic .#skidemark #mack the gif u chose is fucking murdering me

for @pclarcld, esme & bash & bad decision number 2768714236.

loneliness eats at her like a parasite. esme would describe it as one, anyway – it takes her away from the things that matter, like work, or school, or the future she's been cultivating for herself since she was two and wore their dvd player out from watching too much land before time. sometimes she wishes she was still a child, when she didn't have to think of such trivial things such as being alone, when that was less an inconvenience and more of an escape. before she was privy to being held, to the thrill of a nice conversation and a kiss at two in the morning. she's ruined herself, esme thinks – she thought, even as she picked her phone up and texted that one number she refuses to save again ( though that doesn't really matter if she's got it memorized, huh ? ). none of it matters when she opens the door and sees her loneliness disappear, anyway, “ you came. ” why wouldn't he ? he always does.

#*speaks into my mic* hello #ic .#pclarcld

for @fetidfruit, esme & tabi & the floor.

“ sometimes i think she likes you more than she likes me, you know. ” the joke ( is it, really ? esme's kind of convinced ) cuts through the silence filling the room and she turns her head to shoot tabi a smile; the ‘ she ’ in question meaning milagro, of course, currently flitting around tabi's legs in an invitation to play. esme watches the cat cast a yearning look to her yarn ball, then to tabi, then back again – what a drama queen. esme isn't jealous though, no, she thinks it's quite sweet, and the gecko on her chest is giving her more than enough company already. her eyes travel until they find tabi's, and from her place on the floor, she smiles ( a rare occurence, worth its weight in gold ). “ i'm having my floor time. wanna join ? ”

#ic .#fetidfruit #haiiiiii

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