aMUSING bullshit

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You wanna k n o w WHY I like THE PAIN, you say ? There’s some SICK part of me THANKFUL for the hate ‘Cause it’s all i’ve ever known .

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                                                              One sinister thought                                                                  An angels GRIN                                                         lips brush against her neck                                                           Tears run down her chin                                                           Warm breath on her skin                                                            His whispers fill her ear                                                              Her body listening in                                                            her fingernails dig deep                                                      sharp scratches, pierce his skin                                                         moans escaping her mouth,                                                           wet lips against bare skin                                                                    She wanted love                                                                    he wanted to win

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her passion burns bright her fire catches me igniting my soul aroused by LUST violently her flames engulfing me consuming my mind --- body { held } in captivity submitting mentally enchanted by her majesty ♛

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SHE hurt you  ---                                                             --- i’ll HEAL you .

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I threw you out,                I didn't outgrow you...

                                                           I just didn't know you                                                             but now you're back

                            And it's so ṭ̞͕̝̤͈̇͑e̯ͤr͌͌̃͡r̫͙͈͖̱͂ͬi̤͑ͫ͂̎ͯ͑f͖͙̱̭͓̺̅͋͗ͩ̀ͤͫỹ̤͚̳̜͔̼̉ͯ͛ͅi̮̟̤̘ͮͨ́n̂̓̐̎ͥ̋g̙̳̥͇̤͍̍ͤ͂̀͗̚͡ how you paralyze me Now you’re showing up inside my home                         Breathing deep into the phone...

                                                     I'm so unprepared

                                                     I'm fucking scared

Teddy bear, you were my teddy bear You were comforting and quiet How did love become so violent? Teddy bear, you were my teddy bear

                                                     {Everything was so sweet until...}

                                                                                                               ...you tried to kill me

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                                                  Angel laughs, smiles and sings.                                    Her figure like an hourglass, her eyes like the sea.                                           She walks with elegance pose and class,                                            Taking in every moment like it’s her last.                                   Her length is rather tall, but she is pure perfection.                              Her smile is wide and white gleaming through the night.                                           Her voice is soothing and kind to the ears.                                    When she looks upon you, you are filled with tears.                                                                              -                                                   For how could anyone be so kind?                                       "Miss?“  She turns around toward me and smiles                                                  "Why are you so happy all the time?                                      For it looks like misery has never touched you.”                                     "Like you know your destiny and live in your own fantasy.                                                    Tragedy slips over you, there is                                                    sure to be an endlessly flawless melody revolving around you.“                                    "So I say yet again, why are you always so happy? ”                                                       She leans in and whispers

                                                                            -                                                                        I’m not                                                                     I’m broken.                                                     But you would never know that.

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Our bodies are neutral Fake passion Faded hearts I'm tired and lonely But you're just tired, aren’t you?

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𝓦hy is the shadows considered EVIL 𝓦hen the shadows are as important as the ℒ𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽 𝓐s darkness is the absence of daylight... 𝓙ust as daylight is the absence of d̨a̸rk̨ 𝓦hy is a hero considered PURE 𝓦hen the hero is just as murderous as the 𝓥𝓲𝓵𝓵𝓲𝓪𝓷 𝓐s the hero is in the eye of the beholder... 𝓙ust as a villain is only villainous to the vic̶t͟im̸ş

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𝓦hose side shadows fall upon,                       tis' ordained by reigning 𝒮 𝒰 𝒩.

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                                      .:I’m still the incurable optimist:.                                                                  she whispers,

                            Ɓυт уσυ’яє ѕтιℓℓ тнє єтєяηαℓ ρєѕѕιмιѕт.

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You make me whole and    I want to thank you for { T H I S }

I WANT TO

       I want to thank you for       I want to thank you for                             thank you for { T H I S }

I WANT TO

                   And

          I want to

      thank you for { T H I S } 

                                                     𝓒ℋ𝓐𝓝𝓒𝓔 𝓣𝓞 ℬ𝓔 𝓐𝓝𝓖𝓔ℒ𝓢

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I don’t want them to know the s e c r e t s    I don’t want them to know the way { I loved you }

               I don’t think they’d understand it, 

                                 NO

               I don’t think they would accept me, 

                                 NO

 I loved      and I loved               AND I LOST YOU…

                                                        …And it hurts like hell.