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she/her 21

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Io non ho un salvagente

Ti lascio andar via

Ma se la corrente

Ti riporta qui

Lo sai che io ti dirò

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obsessed

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i hate christmas so much i wanna get drunk and listen to Calcutta's entire discography

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when my religion prof asked me if i am an angry person and i said no but the hatred i have towards my brother is biblical and unmeasurable

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trying to jump back into my old hobbies but i became so bad at everything... i dont know what to do anymore i feel so inferior to everyone else

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it was a lonely experience i wish i had someone to go to another country with...

but the movie was good !!

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ref just kill me atp

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i want to know whats wrong with me and why im so unlovable

everyone around me has someone and im always the quiet one when they ask me what i did over the holidays/weekends

im fine with being alone but the second i see ppl socializing i get this deep feeling somethings has gone completely wrong with me

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during summer i went to a cafè with my friend (the one i always go to) and there was a new guy working there i never saw before. he had the prettiest eyes i have ever seen. i know complimenting someones eyes is overused and a clichè but i cant forget them. i never saw him again :(

it depresses me, i need to stop thinking abt him

i feel like no matter how hard i try i will never find someone who loves me. it never works out

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guyssss i got over her im so happy!!!! shes never gonna hear from me againnnn. also her birthday is in 2 weeks and i dont really feel anything!! im not gonna text her

i just realized how mean she was to me and idgaf abt her anymore like girl bye talk to someone else idc

the only problem now is that one of the profs in my school (he wasnt my prof) gave me his number and made me call him (i dont want his number but i didnt know what to do) now he has my number and i dont wanna see him again bc its weird and the power dynamic is throwing me off. i will talk to my therapist abt it.

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i hateeeee calling ppl on the phone

i just called somebody to settle a date for my job interview and it had me like that one scene in american psycho where bateman is crying at the payphone

bc everytime i talk to someone i dont know i lose the ability to communicate and i was overwhelmed.. she forwarded me to someone else bc she was confused but i got the date... im scared

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i feel like the best way to get over someone is to gaslight yourself into believing you made up the person in your head bc u were lonely and needed a friend. so everything that happened was just a figment of your imagination.

if you tell yourself a lie over and over again you will start to believe it and someday i will be happy again.