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“I know”

(Ashton Irwin X Fem!Reader || Angst/Fluff)

Summary: FINAL PART OF THE KNOW YOU SERIES. When everything feels lost, there’s nothing like the rain

Warnings: Strong Language, mentions of: alcohol, abuse, anxiety, depression, toxic relationships. Ansgty and Fluffy. Bad English (not my first language, sorry)

Word Count: 5.2 K

A/N: ITS HERE the last part of my first Ashton series 🥺 I had fun writing this, it helped me a lot. I hope you like it just as much! Reblogs are always appreciate it as well as feedback, I would love to hear your opinions 💙 You can check my other works HERE. Thank you so much 🦋

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“A Chance to Know”

(Ashton Irwin X Fem! Reader || Angst/Fluff)

Part 1 Part 3

Summary: Part 2 of “I don’t know” Ashton said he’d do anything to be your friend. You aren’t so sure if you should believe him.

Warnings: ANGSTy (not so much but still) Strong language, mentions of: anxiety, suicide, toxic relationships, abuse. Bad English (not my First language)

Word count: 4.5 k

AN: This is part 2 of a slow burn angsty fic! I really hope you like it. Remember, feedback is always appreciated it and please don’t throw hate to any of the 5SOS girls. I absolutely love and respect KayKay and I love how happy she makes Ashton, and even though they have their problems in the story, she will have the respect that she deserves. Same goes to the boys and their respectives s/o. This is a work of FICTION so if there’s any conection with real life is purely coincidental. Oh and side note, I threw a little reference there if you can catch it 👀

“Huh, he really said that?” KayKay asked while taking a long sip out of her iced coffee.

Every other week you hang out with her to catch up. It has become a tradition between the two of you since you became close when she was dating Ashton and you really didn’t want to end the friendship when they had their on and offs. For a while you thought that maybe that was the reason Ashton hated you for a long time, but later you realized it wasn’t that. You didn’t know the real reason and apparently neither did Ashton.

It was only last week when you finally made amends. He came into your apartment in the middle of the night to apologize for everything, specially for what he did earlier that night by putting you on blast without really knowing you at all, and you had enough.

You told him, after he practically begged on his knees for forgiveness, that you accepted his apology but couldn’t forgive him just yet. And, honestly, you were right to be mad at him, after all he did treat you like shit for all the time that you’ve known him without any real reason and hurt you badly. But you couldn’t hate him, not after seeing the pain, regret and guilt build up in his eyes that night.

To be honest, you could never hate Ashton nor anyone, really. No matter how many valid reasons you might have, you just couldn’t. So when the raven haired man told you he really wanted to be friends and that he’ll do anything to make it right, you’d let him.

“Yeah” you said, making origami out of the napkin the coffee shop gave to you “He really did. Do you think he truly meant it?”

KayKay gave you a smile.

“I honestly think he did. Don’t get me wrong, I know how scary Sierra can be when threatening someone, I’ve seen it. But I also know Ashton and he would never lie about his feelings” She took another sip, carefully thinking about her next words “Avoid them, yes. But he’ll never lie to you. That’s one of the things I love and hate about him”

She laughed a little bit with that. It has been a couple months since the couple has splitted up, and this time seemed definite. But they would never deny how much they care for and love each other ‘But it’s not the kind of love you look for’ you heard KayKay say once ‘It was like a storm, no matter how much you enjoy the rain, you can’t ignore the damages it caused’

“He never said anything to you?” You asked carefully. You weren’t completely sure you wanted to know the answer, but you had to.

“Not really. I mean, I could see he was being an ass and I confronted him about it several times but, like I said, he ignored it. Maybe he really didn’t know” she shrugged.

You changed the topic, giving up on finding a reason, at least for today. So you asked her about her plans for the new year. You saw her eyes light up when she started talking about launching a new clothing brand inspired on ‘science fiction/horror literature’ and her photography project. “But no boys” she said decidedly “This year is all about confidence and self love. And no crazy hair colors as well, my roots have been asking for a break or they’ll go dying on me if I keep that up” you agreed with her with an ‘Amen sister’ and a laugh.

You really enjoyed your little talks with her. She, just like Sierra and Crystal, were like the sisters you never had. KayKay was the cool sister with the artsy ‘too cool for school’ attitude that made everyone (including you) fall in love with her or want to be her. Crystal was the softy one, always ready to give you a hug and watch cheesy rom coms with, but boy oh boy, lord save anyone who gets on her bad side because she will not hold back to cut a bitch when defending her friends. Sierra was the typical mom friend, always there when needed and very protective of the people she cares about, she was the first one of the group to make you feel welcomed and you thanked your lucky stars everyday for the opportunity of being friends with these amazing people.

Your role, you decided, was yet to be defined. You loved them all very much, and you knew they loved you as well. But you couldn’t help but feel as ‘the filler friend’ because you felt like if you weren’t there then nothing major would happen. It’ll all stay the same.

You shook yourself out of your thoughts when you felt like you were spiraling again. Now not being the time for self pity and harsh truths.

**********************************************************

You said goodbye to KayKay an hour after that, making sure to set another coffee date in two weeks and giving her the origami duck you made with the napkin.

You got home and kicked your shoes somewhere next to the door. You were contemplating on if you should shower first or make yourself dinner… But your inner debate was cut short thanks to the familiar vibration of someone calling your phone.

“Hey, baby” you heard Sierra’s voice as soon as you picked up “Hope you’re not too busy right now”

“I’m never busy for you, what’s up? Do you need anything?”

“I need you to get your ass up in your car and come have movie night with the guys!” She laughed “Come! We’re at Ashton’s”

Your smile fade away with a sudden shock.

“Ashton’s?”

And as if Sierra could see you tense up, she let out a sigh and tried to cheer you on “Yeah, I know you said you guys will try to be friends and all, but if you don’t feel like it then tomo pressure hun”

Your mind drifted of to a memory a few days ago. Ashton had already apologized and the guys convinced you to go and hang out with them before another concert. You remember walking up the door and having two bodies crashing with you and pulled you into a hug.

“Y/N” they screamed into your ears. Neither Sierra nor Crystal wanted to let go.

“I’m so sorry hun” Crystal said, muffin her voice in your hair “We didn’t…”

You mumbled “It’s okay. I’m okay” Not letting go of the hug until you couldn’t anymore “Guys, you know I love you but I literally can’t breathe”

The girls let you go with a laugh, Sierra wiping up a tear that escaped her eyes as you gasped for air. Of course that also didn’t last much before you had three other gigantic bodies colliding against you, pulling you into another (and far taller) rough group hug.

“Y/N” “I’m so glad to see you” “If he ever does something like that again I’ll kill him” “We missed you!” You barely heard the boys say while they were crushing your body.

“Agh… I missed you… too” you managed to say “But I need to get out of this three layer 6 foot Australian sandwich before I broke a rib”

The guys laughed and mumbled a few sorrys before giving you your space and you felt like you could breathe again. That’s when you saw him.

Ashton was sitting in one of the couches, he was looking at his friends quite amused, but when his eyes met yours they’ve soften. You could still recognize the look from a few nights before, it warmed your heart that the sincerity was still there.

He gave you a soft smile and said: “Hey”

“Hi” you answered, giving him the same light smile.

You kept staring at each other for a few seconds before realizing that the whole room was watching you guys interact without hostility for the first time. Their eyes were fixed on the both of you, kinda expecting something else.

“Awkward…” Michael said in a not so quiet whisper, earning him a slap on the neck provided by Calum “Ouch! Okay… So, who wants to play something?”

“Y/N?” Sierra’s voice woke you up from your memory “It’s okay if you…”

“I know…” you answered “I just don’t want to make it awkward and I’ve never even been invited to his house before!”

Sierra laughed.

“Honey, he insisted that you’d be here! It’s not gonna be awkward… well not that much I think. I’ll send you the address if you wanna come”

He wanted you there? Huh, he must be really serious with the whole “try to be friends” thing. You smiled at the thought.

“Sure, I’ll be there”

*******************************************************

Two hours later you were standing in front of Ashton’s door. You didn’t know why but you were hesitant to ring the bell…. Of course you knew why, you were just trying to ignore it.

You were scared. Maybe of him, that he might kick you out as soon as he sees you, or that he’ll ignore you again or that he’d say something mean. You weren’t used to people staying with you and actually being nice to you. And with the guys you finally started to feel safe, but now you think that you’ve become too comfortable with them. Maybe you were scared of fucking it up.

“Y/N!” The sound of your name startled you. You’ve been thinking too much lately, people might think you’re crazy.

“Calum! You scared me.” You said giving him a slight slap on his arm as he approached the door. You were too immerse in your fears that you haven’t heard him park.

Calum just laughed.

“And it was a priceless reaction, thank you. Have you knocked already?”

You looked down and bit your lip, shaking your head.

“Hey, it’s gonna be fine, darling” he said wrapping an arm around your shoulders “It’s a great opportunity for you to meet, like really get to know each other as you really are”

You looked at him, scared he might catch a glimpse of fear in your eyes.

“And besides” he added while ringing the bell “Luke, Michael and I are ready to beat his ass if needed”

“I think Sierra and Crystal got that covered” you said, making him laugh.

Suddenly, the door opened. Ashton was standing there, he was wearing a black t shirt and sweatpants. You realized it’s the first time you’ve seen him dressed down and it amazed you how him (and the rest of the boys, really) could look so good with so little effort.

“Y/N! You came” he said, almost surprised that you actually did.

His hazel eyes lighted up when they met yours. You felt a strange warmth running through your face. It wasn’t the first time he looked into your eyes, but it was the first time he did it with a hint of joy.

“Told ya she’d be here, mate” Calum said, bringing Ashton’s attention to him for the first time. Well, not only to him but also to his arm wrapped around you. Ashton closed his mouth and gave you both a tight smile as he welcomed you into his home.

This shall be a night.

Once inside, Calum let go of you and went straight to a room that seemed to be the kitchen. Leaving you alone in a house you weren’t familiar with.

“Hi” Ashton’s voice made you jump. Causing him to suppress a laugh “Sorry, didn’t mean to scare you”

“Well, it’s not nice to sneak up behind people’s back, you know?”

“Didn’t know you’re easily scared. Maybe I should’ve picked another movie”

“There are a lot of things you don’t know about me, Ashton”

“And I told you I’ll do my best to change that” he gave you a shy smile, looking into your eyes again “Everyone’s in the back, just go straight and then to the right” he said breaking eye contact and following Calum, wherever he was.

You found everyone cuddled up in sofas and puffs in front of a big screen. Luke was the first to spot you.

“Hey Y/N! Just in time” He greeted you, calling everyone’s attention.

You said a collective ‘Hi’ and went to sit next to Crystal and Michael. You did a little bit of small talk, trying not to think too much on anything. Not long after, Calum plowed down next to you and rested his head on your lap, your hands immediately going to play with his hair.

Ashton came after, carrying two large bowls of popcorn in each hand, giving one to Sierra and the other one to Crystal.

“So what’s today’s special?”

“Tonight’s horror night” Ashton said with a devious smile on his face “Hope no one’s seen this movie yet, it’s called ‘Hereditary’”

Everyone said no, but Ashton caught your eyes expanding at the mention of the movie.

“You’ve seen it?” He asked you.

“No…but I’ve heard things about it” you answered shyly.

“Good things or bad things?”

“How does ‘Truly twisted and horrific’ sound to you?” Ashton smiled, making his whole face glow while looking at you.

“Be careful, mate” Calum laughed “She gets scared easily”

You smacked him in the forehead with a “shut up, Hood. I do not” but your giggling betrayed you.

Ashton nodded, looking at both of you and started the movie.

“What the fuck did we just watch?” Michael broke the silence once the movie was done “Baby it’s over” he said to Crystal that was curled up and had her hands covering her eyes.

“I… I think I’m gonna throw up” Sierra said closing her eyes.

“I didn’t get it… so who’s the grandma now?” Luke chimed in, oblivious as usual.

“All in favor that Ashton never gets to pick up another movie say ‘I’”

“I” everyone said in unison, even Ashton.

Minutes later you were in the kitchen with Sierra making more popcorn. You all decided to watch a Disney movie to erase the horror movie out of your memory and so you could go to sleep without nightmares.

“I’m telling you, it’s true” You rolled your eyes at your friend’s comment “He was barely paying attention to the movie, he was looking at you”

“C’mon”

“I swear. Look” Sierra put a hand on your shoulder, just like a mother would do before giving life changing advices “I know it’s kinda weird, but we can all see he’s really trying. Yes, he was an asshole and yes, you have every right to be mad. Hell, even I’m still mad. But he truly wants to make it better and I promise you, he’ll see what everyone else see in you”

“What if that’s the problem?” You said quietly.

“Wh…?” Sierra started but quickly shut up when someone came into the kitchen “Ash! Just in time”

Your eyes winded at her, almost pleading. Still not turning around to face him.

“I really really really need to go to the bathroom. Could you stay here with Y/N and watch the popcorn?”

“Oh there’s no need…” you started.

“Sure, no problem”

Fuck. Okay.

It’s not like you didn’t like Ashton’s company. The problem is that you’ve never been with him on your own, and even if you were, he never spoke to you. So of course you were nervous. But you never thought that he’ll be too.

He was standing next to you, resting his body against the counter. He was tapping his feet against the floor, maybe to the rhythm of a song you didn’t know, and had his head laying low. Not looking at you.

You broke the silence a few moments later, not being able to take it anymore.

“I won’t burn down your kitchen” you said, trying to sound chill “I can handle it, don’t worry”

He chuckled “I know, I want to stay though”

“Ash..”

“Hey Y/N” You both said at the same time. Making you both laugh for the first time.

“You first”

“Y/N I’m sorry” he said giving you a small smile.

“Ash, I think you’ve apologized enough”

“No, not enough though”

Ashton was standing in front of you now. He was much taller than you, so you had to tilt your face upwards in order to look him in the eyes. His gaze was intense and pleading, but the hurt and the hate that once filled his eyes were gone. Somehow, that made you feel safe.

“I know I’ll never be able to apologize enough for all that I’ve put you through, but I’ll try to at least come close. But tonight I want to apologize for… well I know this is not easy”

“What do you mean?”

“C’mon” he said with a smile “Admit this is hella awkward”

That comment made you laugh. You nodded.

“It kinda is, isn’t it? I’m sorry”

“No no no. You don’t have to be sorry” he rushed “I mean, this is all my fault after all. Contrary at what you might believe, Y/N, I’m a very shy person” you raised your eyebrows, questioning “I am! At least when I’m meeting a person that I’m actually excited to get to know”

You thought you saw a glimpse of blush in his face, but that’s impossible.

“Ashton, we’ve met before”

“No, we didn’t. Not really. Those guys..” he gestured towards the others “They’ve met you, and got to know you. I stayed behind on that boat and I really want to catch up.”

You stared at him. He was nervous, you could tell. And you’d be lying if you said you didn’t want to get to know him as well.

“It’s a good thing you started swimming already, then” You said, making his dimples show when he smiled.

The conversation was cut short when the faint smell of burnt corn graze your noses, bringing you back to reality.

“Shit” you said, taking them off the fire with Ashton’s help.

“Thought you weren’t going to burn down my kitchen”

“Shut up, I didn’t!”

You laughed, finally clearing the air between the two of you… not literally though because the smoke of the burned popcorn was filling the kitchen.

*******************************************************

After that night, the week flew by. You kept yourself busy with lots of work and household chores. Hoping for the weekend to arrive so you could finally relax.

You were daydreaming about a Criminal Minds marathon when your phone ‘dinged’

Unknown: Hey Y/N! It’s Ashton. I’m not sure you have my number.

You: In fact, I didn’t. How are you?

Ashton: I’m great, actually. U?

You: I’m good :)

Ashton: :)

Ashton: … Texts aren’t supposed to be awkward. Sorry. Maybe we could meet up?

Your heart stopped… he wanted what?

Aston: you know, to get to know each other.

You: Sure!

You ended up deciding that Ashton will pick you up and you’ll go grab a coffee later that afternoon. You loved the fact that he was indeed trying to get to know you. It it worried you that he might not find you ‘worth knowing’ after a while.

It scared you. The possibility of him leaving you behind again. The possibility of the others doing the same when they’ll realize you’re not worth it.

You really didn’t want to mess this up. But you weren’t going to pretend either. Not with something as important as this. “Let it be” you said to yourself in the mirror, almost like a prayer “But please, let it be” You were almost ready when you heard the knock on your door.

Ashton smiled at you when he saw the door opening, thankful that you hadn’t closed it when you saw his face, his foot hurt for three days after that.

“Hello” you said, letting him in “I’ll be right back, I just came back from work and I’m still a mess”

“You look amazing” Ashton said without thinking twice.

You blushed and waved your hand dismissively.

“Shut up” you laughed while disappearing through a door Ashton assumed was your bedroom “Make yourself at home”

And how could he not? Everything in your apartment seemed cozy enough, it was almost like one of those Pinterest pictures that just screams: home.

Ashton took a deeper look this time. He noticed how well the sofa matched the bay window, the walls filled with Polaroid pictures (mostly you and the other guys) the bookcase had a wide variety of classic literature, your camera, some potted plants and framed pictures. A record player caught his attention and, next to it, layed a wooden box filled with vinyls of all colors.

He smiled to himself. This apartment doesn’t scream home. It screams Y/N. And he loved that.

“It seems that we’re gonna have a change of plans” You said as she walked into the room, waking Ashton up from his discoveries “You okay?”

“Yeah, yeah” He said way too quickly “Change of plans, why?”

You pointed at the bay window, where rain was pouring down outside.

“Oh” he said and started giggling “Why do everytime I come here it starts raining? In LA out of all places?”

“Well, you’ve only been here twice so let’s just say it’s a coincidence?” You joined with his little laugh “I can make us some coffee, if you want. It’s not going to be a super macchiato but…”

You trailed off when you catch him staring at you. His whole demeanor was relaxed, almost like he was trying to capture this moment.

“Or, if you’re not comfortable with that or you’re afraid I might poison you, you can leave”

“Why would I leave? I came here to spend time with you. So no death threat is going to change that” he said with a smile “Do you want me to leave?”

You pretended to think about it “Hmm… I’m just kidding. At least I know you’ll be safer here than driving in the rain”

You made two cups of coffee and opened a can of cookies and laid them down on the coffee table in the living room. You sat on the bay window, looking at the rain. Ashton did the same.

“Okay, if we’re gonna do this we should start with the deep stuff” He said after having the first sip of his coffee.

“The deep stuff?”

“Yeah, like what’s your favorite color?”

“I think you just crossed the line there, Irwin” he chucked.

“No, but seriously though. What is it?”

You thought about it for a moment.

“Green. What’s yours?”

“Orange”

“Like the 5SOS hoodie?”

“No” He laughed “Like a sunset kinda orange”

You went on like this for hours, making more coffee and eating more cookies. Some questions were very simple like: Favorite animal, food, celebrity crush…

“What’s your biggest fear?” He asked.

Your stayed quiet for a while, that question took you by surprise. Ashton seemed to catch up and quickly apologized.

“Hey if you don’t want to…”

“Being like my mother” you said, not being able to look at him in the eyes “It’s okay” you assured him “People used to tell me all the time how we look alike… I used to hate that”

Your gaze was now fixed at the window and the silent rain pouring outside. Ashton’s was fixed on you.

“I’m scared I’m gonna end up like her… that’s why I don’t drink or have any pictures of her. I don’t need a reminder of what could be. I have enough memories that do the job”

“Y/N I…”

“It’s okay” you said looking at him, forcing a smile and patting his knee. Ashton places his large hand above yours and you stayed like that. Not saying anything, not taking your eyes of each other.

You decided to broke the comfortable silence after a while.

“I have to ask… Why did you hate me?” Ashton’s eyes pulled away from yours “Did I do something wrong? Something to upset you? I just… I need to know, Ash”

“Y/N” he said “I wish I could tell you. I really do, maybe that way I won’t seem such a dick” guilty eyes stared at you “But I don’t have one, nor I think I will ever find a reason valid enough to justify it. Nothing can justify it and I would’ve never done it if I knew what I was missing”

“What?”

“You”

You were speechless. The answer came too quickly, it seemed so honest and real. But you couldn’t afford the luxury of thinking like that, it was too much. But when you looked up and saw those beautiful hazel eyes staring right into your soul, everything seemed right. You felt a tear rolling down your cheek, but Ashton’s thumb was quicker in catching it. You laughed and he did too.

“Why do you need to know?”

“I think” you gulped, having second thoughts on telling him but at the same time saying ‘screw it’ “I think that people always pushed me away for some reason. They all had one and they always told me why, they made sure I knew what I was doing so wrong in order for them to leave. I got used to it after a while. So I guess that, if I knew why… maybe it’d hurt less?”

Ashton stayed silent for a while “Well I’m sorry for them. Because they’ll never get the chance to know you. I almost miss it and there’s not a day that I don’t regret that”

You looked at him through teary eyes. This time you smile wasn’t forced. He meant that, he really did. And that made you happy. For the first time you truly considered Ashton Irwin a friend.

“But now I do have to ask” he continued “Why didn’t you hate me? I was an A class asshole to you (and I’m sorry, again, for that) but you never showed the same”

You smiled and got up. Ashton follow your movements until you stopped in front of the record player. You bend down and grabbed one vinyl from your collection.

You sat down on the bay window again and you handed the record to him.

“Sounds Good Feels Good?” He asked “Are you bringing our dirty laundry into the conversation?” You laughed.

“I could never hate you, Ashton, because you gave me this” you pointed at the vinyl. Ashton was confused “You wanna know why I was a fan of your band? It’s because this album literally saved my life and helped me get through the most horrifying years of my life”

Ashton’s grip on the record tighten. He clenched his jaw as you talked. Not able to find the words for what you just confessed to him. It was too personal, too raw. It was you.

“I remember listening to this album all the time. Knowing that, or at least hoping that, everything’s gonna be okay. Because I wasn’t so alone anymore, it didn’t feel like it, at least. If it weren’t for you… I might not even be here and not be able to tell you ‘thank you’ in person. So, thank you”

Ashton pulled your hand and pressed you against him, leaving the vinyl behind and hugging the hell out of you. He felt warm and smelled like sunshine and, as you wrapped your arms around him, you felt like never wanting to let go.

He kissed your head, softly and drew circles on your back. His breathing was uneven as he tried to put himself together.

“You will never be alone” was all he could manage to say without feeling like a shattering glass.

And, against your better judgement, you believed him.

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PART 3 POSTED ON MY NEW MAIN ACCOUNT

THIS ACCOUNT IS DEACTIVATED AND I WILL NOT POST HERE ANYMORE

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“Wish I’ve known” Summary: Part 3 of my “Know You” Series. After being inseparable while being separated, is there a chance there could be

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Hello, Darlings!

I wanted to create a main blog for my writings since forever! And now I have one!

My previous works will still be on my former blog, but the new ones are gonna be here from now on.

I can finally interact freely with the people I admire on this platform and be exactly who I want to be.

Hope to see you here soon!

Love 💙🦋

eterea00

This is me now!

talkfastromance4

I just wanna..............koala myself to Luke and just hug him for a long long time

eterea00

As a person who is 5’1 and has been koaling (?) her whole life when hugging someone, I agree with this statement. It would be the best hug of my life

#can you imagine?#hes a tree #im 5’1 in heels #the best hugs 4sho

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Black Lives Matter protest lead by 4 teenage girls in Nashville, TN - June 4th, 2020

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Ghostofmashton’s 5SOS giveaway!

Hello! It is I, ghostofmashton otherwise known as Nicole! :)

I once again bought too much merch that i have duplicates of both the pink Calm vinyl and the CALM box set so why not do a giveaway!

The Box set is the UK version (aka the same as the target edition CD) so it comes with the extra tracks Easier (Live from the Vault), Teeth (Live From the Vault) & No Shame (Live From the Vault). It comes with all things that are in the top picture. (YES A BUCKET HAT!) Sorry, if the pictures are weird I was trying to show them off the best that i could. lol

And then the VINYL is just the pink VINYL and it is gorgeous! If you hold it up to the light it looks like a cool pink marble and it’s so pretty!

I’ve been meaning to say thank you for following me and what better way than to do that then by a giveaway! You all have been so supportive and amazing and I can’t believe you all follow me. SO THANK YOU!

There is going to be 2 Winners! The first person I draw will have the choice between the VINYL or the Box Set and then the 2nd person will get the option that is left! I hope you will like whichever you get! I understand that not all fans can buy merch and I just want to give someone the opportunity to have some merch of their own.

RULES:

Must be following me. (This is in no way to gain followers, this is to show my appreciation for you all)

Must be comfortable with giving me their address (So if you are under 18, please get parents permission first!)

You can like only 1 time and reblog up to 10 times.

Will ship worldwide (Please bare with me, I’ve never shipped anything world wide so i’m hoping to do it !)

Giveaway will end 9:30pm CST on June 12, 2020

Good luck! :)

(sorry if i forgot anything, please feel free to message me with any questions!)

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Black people do not have to be exceptional for their right to life!!!!

Repeat after me:

Black people do not have to be exceptional for their right to life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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This hardly has any notes but can I just say that non black people and white people you can in fact reblog this, thanks x

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I’d encourage non black people and white people to reblog this so we at least know ya’ll understand and that we’re on the same page.Thanks.

sunhazeys

Have you seen any recordings of the live? I only caught the end and it’s not saved on Michael’s account 🥴 would like to hear what she had to say!!

link to kenidra4humanity speaking on michael’s livestream

gigglyirwin

here to call out some disrespectful people on the live. These are just two of several that I saw. The live was not for you to get recognized by Michael. The live was not a place for you to get a shoutout. The live was not a place for you to beg for one either. The live had nothing to do with Michael. There was a reason he wasn’t in it and that reason was because he was letting a woman of color use his platform (with 5.1 million followers) to promote and speak about Black Lives Matter because she knew first hand what was happening. It was not his live it was Kenidra’s. For those of you who left because Michael wasn’t there: fuck you. You are a disappointment to this fandom. To those who left because someone was speaking out about racism and Michael was openly letting them do so on his platform: fuck you. don’t call yourself a fan anymore. And if you needed Michael’s face there just to watch a live about a woman educating all of us on the fight going on right now: fuck you. you clearly are not educating yourself and you clearly don’t care about what’s going on and that’s fucking sad.

eterea00

My heart broke when I watched the viewer count go down.

I was so happy when he told us that he was going to give his platform to Kenidra, it was such a great opportunity to educate and spread the word about what’s happening right now and why is important!

Every person who left should be ashamed of yourselves. How dare you call yourselves fans? You think 5SOS would be proud?

Fuck off.

Was I the only one who didn’t know English Love Affair was about Gemma Styles?!

And that Harry has been ignoring the band bc of it?!

Like W H a T?

You were C H I L D R E N kinda BuT StiLl

I just...

#ashton irwin #ashton wtf #was it you?#i need a minute or two #inalways thought it was michael #still a bop #but wtf #my bi heart #honestly its fucked up but #i would want to think about a king size bed #with memories playing through my head #5sos

wonderland-irwin

I follow an account called @ya.buzz on Instagram and they’ve posted a thread of books by black authors that explore racism, police brutality. They also have a thread of books that fall into a variety of genres, but have black characters as the lead.

I thought maybe people would be interested in reading and supporting these authors’ works. The thread of novels with a black character lead is long, so I’ll reblog this current post with the second thread.

wonderland-irwin

@ya.buzz posted a new thread of books with black leads, so I will continue my thread here. Personally, from walking around the local book store I haven’t seen a good lot of these books before, however a lot of them look really interesting. Again, I hope you find some that interest you, and we can show some love to these authors and creators.

aliensingucci

Breonna Taylor’s birthday is this Friday, June 5th. There are still no arrests or charges for her murder and little attention paid to her case. On Friday, here are a list of actions you can do: https://msha.ke/30flirtyfilm/

Please celebrate her and continue seeking justice for her.

iridescentides

the lea michele situation is actually a prime example of why we should be wary of performative activism right now. if you are supporting the cause by protesting, donating, posting your support, etc. that’s great! but this problem goes so much deeper than just police brutality.

every single non-black person who has posted #blacklivesmatter this week needs to take a step back and analyze whether or not their actions (not just their words) have shown that they truly believe that statement. it’s a clear and obvious choice to speak out against the brutal murder of an innocent man. however, if you are not making the obvious choice every day to speak up for us when your friends/relatives make racist jokes, if you are not listening to and respecting the black people you know in real life, if you have not sat down to analyze the ways you actively benefit from this system, if you have not worked to start unlearning the biases you were raised with, or if you thought “black lives matter” was a controversial statement until this week, do not pretend to care just because everyone is talking about it right now.

when these protests are over, there will still be many battles to fight. this is not a game, and this is not something you post about just for likes and clicks. if you are resting easy right now thinking that you’re “one of the good ones” for showing public outrage over a situation that should anger any reasonable person, you need to do more. racism is not something you can pick and choose when to be against. we don’t get to pick and choose when we experience racism. so if you’re going to get involved with this situation right here, right now, then you need to be ready to hold yourself and others accountable for anti-blackness in all other areas of your life.

iridescentides

white people can and SHOULD reblog!

eterea00

“A Chance to Know”

(Ashton Irwin X Fem! Reader || Angst/Fluff)

Part 1