Girl, at this point its embarrassing, get out of your way. Just, slide right off your own path, right? The self sabotage is getting embarrassing.
It has to be at least embarrassing to you having the same goals for five years. Cmon. How can you not be tired of your own crap? How long have you been on this self improvement journey? How much have you actually improved? How many times have you promised yourself this time you will? Isn't it embarrassing how many 'fresh start' s you've had? How can you look at yourself in the mirror though? It's gotta be embarrassing by now. It has to be at that point you can't stand yourself- are you really that shameless? No sense of responsibility? Damn okay we can use mine- I'm so embarrassed of and for you. Lowkey if someone asked me if I know you I'd deny you so fast it would give Judas a whiplash, I kid you not.
Doesnt it hurt you to have that much potential and not use it? It doesn't make you feel sick,knowing how much you're capable of an not doing it? You're really just out here trading your life for ten seconds videos and weird food and fake lives and celeb drama and pretty boys? Really. You're letting people live their dreams by stealing your life through a screen. Come on it has to be embarrassing at some point. It has to be. The girls you went to high school with if they saw you today lol. Your ex thinking he'll yeah man I dodged a bullet. You're telling me you don't feel guilty eating and sleeping knowing you didn't earn it? Another day giving 7 hours to kpop boys and girls and Kylie Jenner and movies and whatever , 7 hours when you could've just idk. Learned a new skill. 7 hours, sis. Are you not disgusted by yourself? Just casually scrolling eating looking like a hobo on steroids garbage in garbage out just another day another slay as a social justice warrior on Facebook saving the world through the power of your words while your world sinks.
I am. I am disgusted by you. It's embarrassing to me that we share Anatomy and gender and exist in the same time space reality. I'm sending this overwhelming embarrassment your way may it trigger your senses back. What are you doing, sis? No really, wyd? What is this behavior? What is this?
Please, get the fuck out of your own way.
BMAC
Hard reminder.














