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🪞leo | 20 | carpe diem

[etherea1dawn]

i love the way i love

[etherea1dawn]

something about the rain makes me want to fall in love

[etherea1dawn]

others look at me, a fully grown adult, and expect me to have my life together

i look at myself and see a child wearing heels and expensive perfume as a performance

[etherea1dawn]

at what point does adulthood stop feeling like you’re pretending to be an adult?

[ratcity]

The OBSESSION with identity is so crazy like the view that when you do something it immediately becomes part of your identity and all the parts of you have to click together to become “person who wakes up early” or “person who reads” no you can literally just do something without restructuring your whole performance of personhood around it. I don’t know what to tell you except that you will never be able to have an entirely unfractured view of yourself or that you will be able to rationalize all the complex parts of yourself into the phrase “person who x” like you should just be doing things without performing them. Or aestheticizing them. Just try different things on and keep what works for you. Otherwise you will never learn and grow!

[etherea1dawn]

do not restrict yourself to a mere life of binaries. you are so much more

[etherea1dawn]

i yearn for the life of knowing that where i am in that moment is where i’m meant to be,

i don’t think i’ve ever really felt that,

all i know is that whatever that life is, it’ll be extraordinary

[etherea1dawn]

all 2022 im falling in love with myself

[etherea1dawn]

the distant train horn that sounds every night at 3AM, the full moons reflection on my bedroom floor, recognizing a constellation when the night sky is clear,

[die-rosastrasse]

“It is spring again. The earth is like a child that knows poems by heart.” ― Rainer Maria Rilke 🌷🌿

Floral paintings by the French artist Émile Vernon (1872-1920)

[etherea1dawn]

the art of jewelry

[etherea1dawn]

the one thing i look forward to in the day is my night time routine. take a hot shower lit by candles with a few drops of lemon essential oil in the tub. put on a lace trim night gown. apply my five step skin care routine. moisturize my body with magnolia scented cream. massage oils into my scalp. all while listening to fiona apple

[etherea1dawn]

leaving red lipstick stain kisses on the love letters i write to myself <3

[darkacademiaquotes]

"Romantic obsession is my first language. I live in a world of fantasies, infatuation and love poems. Sometimes I wonder if the yearning I've felt for others was more of a yearning for yearning itself. I've pined insatiably and repeatedly: for strangers, new lovers, unrequited flames. While the subjects changed, that feeling always remained. Perhaps, then, I have not been so infatuated with the people themselves, but with the act of longing."

-Melissa Broder, from "Life without Longing," The New York Times

[mushroomsandfullmoons-deactivat]

museu nacional d‘art de catalunya

[franzkafkagf]

can you believe that the most human trait there is is art? we didn't start making art because it was needed for our survival or it helped us mate or hunt…. we make art for the sake of making it and for you and other people to enjoy it. this is why I love literature and art museums or just looking through my old sketches and stories…. making art is what it means to be human I think.

[russiansappho]

Hermione by Thomas Francis Dicksee, 1874.

[literatureaesthetic]

"If you're not aware of the transcendent, if you're not awake to the glorious mystery of life and death that you're lucky enough to be part of - if that doesn't fill you with joy and strike you with awe... you might as well not be alive. That's the message of the tragedies. Participate in the wonder. For your sake - live it."

— The Maidens, Alex Michaelides