try to be nice to urself

30. ex-angeleno in scandinavia. always changing, yearning, curious. finding unity in multiplicity<3 ☪︎

[persianmom-deactivated20260602]

carl jung girl you were so right about avoidance

[persianmom-deactivated20260602]

“if we don't accept our own destiny, a different kind of suffering takes its place: a neurosis develops, and I believe that that life which we have to live is not as bad as a neurosis. if I have to suffer, then let it be from my reality. a neurosis is a much greater curse! in general, a neurosis is a replacement for an evasion, an unconscious desire to cheat life, to avoid something. one cannot do more than live what one really is. and we are all made up of opposites and conflicting tendencies. after much reflection, I have come to the conclusion that it is better to live what one really is and accept the difficulties that arise as a result-because avoidance is much worse.”

[funeral]

Carl Jung, Analytical Psychology: Its Theory and Practice (The Tavistock Lectures)

[her-written-thoughts]

just a girl waiting for ramadān, to heal her heart.

[ethnocentrifuge]

work not going great atm, somehow don’t care. seems like the perception is that i’m falling apart in many ways, with my boss going on holiday for 1,5 weeks from tomorrow. i truly don’t know how much longer i can last in corporate, or what’s written for me next. i’m called to Allah again and again, maybe She was preparing me by leading me to Her last year. inshAllah ease continues to come, and that i might see meaning and beauty in this pain <3

[ethnocentrifuge]

how long can i possibly keep this job? inshallah i find a new job in the next 3 months

[urdreamgirlangel]

[ethnocentrifuge]

hmmm interesting idea that learning islam through people can so easily become shirk. and really curious what Allah calls me to on my own again. how much of it is salah and how much of it is remembrance and polishing the heart and all that? gets confusing so fast ngl. and i am the only guide for myself towards Her that i can possibly know. queerness and Islam is a wildly powerful combo for recognising truly where Allah lies in our hearts and in the remembrance of our souls<3 Allahu akbar~

[ethnocentrifuge]

tumblr girlies are a bit insane i love us

[iamayeshaahmed]

Tawakkul will free you. You're not meant to control everything, you're meant to surrender it to the One who controls it all. When your mind says, "what if", let your heart say, "Allah is sufficient for me." He sees what you don't. He hears what you can't. He removes what will break you and replaces it with what will build you. Rest your heart. Qadr is written with love.

[ethnocentrifuge]

of course the only other muslimah i’ve met outside of my fiancée who i have a potential for a nice friendship with is ANOTHER sufi girl AND living her own version of cultural confusion 😭😭girl literally invited me to the cookout like what is that about omfg 😭😭 alhamdulillah i guess 😂😂

[ethnocentrifuge]

note to self leave the country around this time of the year next year. this is unbearable lol

[ethnocentrifuge]

ooouuuuch winter

[ethnocentrifuge]

alhamdulillah 😭😭😭😭😭

[wordx]

i think humans are meant to lay in bed with the love of their life all winter.

[ethnocentrifuge]

it’s so weird how the experience of being trans also seems to prepare you so much for what it is like to come out as muslim/become a hijabi? it’s like all the same feelings all over again, testing where and who are safe, stepping again into a more authentic version of who we are<3 alhamdulillah this plan & so many blessings. allahu akbar <333 🌙✨

[ethnocentrifuge]

been really thinking about wearing a hijab and inshAllah it will be easy but something tells me i’m going to get a lot of reactions especially at work … any reverts go through similar? <3

[ethnocentrifuge]

just beauty everywhere

[ethnocentrifuge]

waiting to see how my work life may change today ~ inshallah i stay 😂