Hyper Aware of my Existence
I woke up this morning. So far I have woken up every day of my life. There’s a but though. When I was in college I studied philosophy and I remember thinking I had figured things out. That I could get the gist of any and everything. I have been waking up recently while I'm awake. I have been going about my life only to realize that I am alive. That I am made of flesh, that who I am is a collection of Electrical currents working to create what I consider me. This is something I have thought about before but now I FEEL it when I think about it. I feel hyper aware that I am alive. That I could die. That I am living my life. That I am in my 20′s. That my body is changing. That my brain doesn't work quiet as fast as it used to. And I have no clue what to do with that information. I don’t believe or disbelieve in god. I don’t particularly feel connected to much. And I am not my thoughts. I have thoughts and im not sure where they come from all of the time. I don't know what I want out of this post. I just have a sense of waiting for something. Maybe writing this out and posting it can give me clarity.
