Say Anything, As Long As Its Honest

Trixie // 24 // A writer except that I never feel like I am one so really what the hell am I? I don’t know. Someone please tell me. God! Are you listening?

[eurydicesfury]

it isn’t fair on this side either. i loved you too.

i loved us too.

it was me who laid down my heart first,  don’t you remember? whispering in your ear, in front of an impressionist painting, begging you and the universe for forever.

never once did i hear you beg for me.

beg for time and space and will to bend in just the right ways.

never once did i ask for you to lay down on the train tracks with me.

but i should have. 

i just didn’t want to hear you say “no”.

[molabuddy]

a little personal response / tribute to "here's the life i've always longed for" by Anna Haifisch. the original means so much to me, and even though it's hard, I feel like every day i'm making more steps toward finally being on the other side of that fence <:)

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[razorbladeromantics]

i have feelings for u. not telling u which ones.

[podencos]

Anyway, isn’t it weird how you can love a voice

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[eurydicesfury]

there are a million guides on what to do when someone breaks your heart. you hold that bleeding organ in your hands, let the blood drip through your fingers and flow into whatever vessel of distraction you choose. take up pottery, poetry, running, aerial silks. anything to take your mind off of It; fill the time.

eat ice cream straight out of the pint.

go out.

talk to your friends, lean on them. 

look in the mirror and stare yourself down. tell yourself that you are sexy and they did not deserve you anyways.

but no one tells you what to do when you do the breaking. no one tells you what to do when you are the surgeon, ripping a heart out of a chest and forcing it upon clean, unbloodied hands.  how do you eat ice cream when everything tastes like your fault.  how do you tell your friends that you did this to yourself. look in the mirror, stare yourself down. maybe they did not deserve you, but you didn’t deserve this either.  blink at yourself. wish that there was any other way to do this, a way without drawing blood from the both of you.

[girlmostlikely]

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[eurydicesfury]

[eurydicesfury]

if don’t send in my short story for a contest today, i WILL cut off my right tit #justwriterthings

[eurydicesfury]

how does one stop gaslight girlboss gatekeep-ing themselves? because im tired of me

[benvoolioo]

hey girl, um, we were having a bacchanal and we kinda tore your boyfriend to shreds. yeah, ripped his head clean off. sorry about that :/

[kinemon]

that's not my mutual. that's my babygirl

[wellwaterhysteria]

floating down the river styx on an inflatable donut and high-fiving all the lost souls i pass. i'm on vacation

[valtsv]

big fan of platonic expressions of devotion actually. yeah we're best friends of course i'd find you and hang out with you in every universe.

[eurydicesfury]

i was checking out this rp @immortalisrp and then it LITERALLY DISAPPEARED!!! WHAT HAPPENED?? Wheres the tea. Whats going on. 

[valtsv]

denying yourself enjoyment of things because you don’t want to be ‘cringe’ is the most cringe thing you can do actually. like what are you, catholic?