For All Our Efforts || Evander & Alasdair
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he’d never seen evander so open. rare was it that evander cried, let alone so violently. alasdair cradled evander in his lap, gently rocking him back and forth while he cried. “shhh, shhh,” he hushed softly, touch gentle and caring. he stroked evander’s back, resting his head on top of the other’s. he slowly came down, sobs slowing to cries, cries slowing to soft sniffles. finally, after a few quiet moments, evander spoke again. alasdair shifted so he could comfortable wrap both arms around evander, tightening his hold just enough so it felt more like a hug. “how’s that?” he asked quietly, trying to encourage evander to go on.
“feart o’ me?” alasdair asked, looking down at the man who made up so much of his life. he let his thumb stroke back and forth comfortably. he pressed a gentle kiss to evander’s forehead. “maun ye leave me? is this lass askin’ ye to leave scotland?”
Evander’s gaze remained stright forward and hollow, eyes still glassy from the tears and his vision out of focus. At Alasdair’s question, he squeezed them shut. Of course he could never be afraid of his brother. He knew any punishment the man would see fit for him, Evander would take and survive without question. He was afraid of the future. Afraid of what would happen if Erika ever found out the truth about his love for Alasdair. Afraid, as he’d voiced so many times, that he would fuck up and lose her no matter what he did. Evander opened his eyes again slowly and shook his head, “The lass kens Ah couldnae ev’r leaveye . She’d ne’er dare ask.” The words came out on a whisper, barely there. He knew they were true, but he started to wonder, when she truly saw his connection with Alasdair, even if she never knew how deep it went, would he understand it? Would she accept that no matter what commitment he made to her, she would always come second to his King? Evander sat up slowly, keeping his back to Alasdair as he asked, “If Ah tell ye, d’ye swear not t’ breathe ‘er name t’ another soul?” He knew he had to keep this condition of hers.














