Today my head said "Theo+titty fucking" and it won't get out.
Thank you for coming to my TED talk
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the room spins as both you and theo stumble into his dorm, a bottle of wine swaying in your hand. in a blur of motion, theo yanks your top off and gropes your tits, grunting like a hungry animal.
“hmm.. prettiest girl alive.” he slurs, mouth latching onto your nipples. you giggle at the touch, looking down at theo moaning around your breasts, one arm wrapped tightly around your waist to keep you close while his other hand squeezes your tits.
you raise the bottle of wine above you and tilt it, letting the wine flood over your chest. “drink up, pretty boy.”
with his eyes half-closed and his hands even rougher than before, he slurps up every drop of liquid spilling from your boobs, licking and sucking messily. “oh, fuck.” he groans between heavy breaths and gulps.
theo, unable to control himself much longer, pushes you back onto his bed, eliciting a drunk giggle from you. with a smirk, he undoes his belt eagerly, fingers fumbling in haste. his cock springs free the second he lowers his pants, precum glistening at the tip.
“jesus fuck, look at you.” he chuckles, eyes scanning you from head to toe. you lie flustered beneath him, your hair all messy and slick from sweat and alcohol, and your top long forgotten somewhere on the floor.
“i’m gonna fuckin’ marry you one day. you hear me, baby?” he sticks two fingers into your mouth, making you suck on his digits before wrapping them around his cock, coating it with your saliva. he props himself up on top of you, his length perfectly aligned with your tits. “gonna put a pretty ring on your finger and treat you like the princess you are.”
you push your tits together tightly, moving in rhythm with his sloppy thrusts. he hisses at the feeling. “every. fucking. day.”
“oh, shut up, nott.” you chide, body rocking with his movements as you bite your lip. “let’s talk again after that post-nut clarity hits.”
he sets a sloppy rhythm, hips stuttering from the alcohol and his quickly approaching orgasm. he doesn’t know where to look— your bouncing tits, your dreamy eyes, your plump, swollen lips. his eyelids hang low and his mouth’s agape in bliss.
“baby, you should—fuck—know by now that i want you no matter what, capito?” theo grabs your jaw, thumb slipping into your mouth. you suck on it without hesitation, earning a lazy smirk from him. “that’s a good girl.”
he lets out shaky breaths as he increases his pace. his hand, covered in your spit, glides down your face. sensing that he’s close, you stick your tongue out, making him groan loudly at the sight.
“oh, fuck, fuck, fuck. i’m gonna—” thick spurts of cum shoot from the swollen tip— landing not only into your mouth, but making a mess all over your face and tits as well. you close your eyes, feeling the warmth of his seed on your skin, and you obediently swallow what has landed on your tongue.
theo’s chest heaves as he catches his breath, sweat trickling down his temple and he grins at the sight of your face painted with his cum.
“just so you know…” theo pants, brown locks sticking to his forehead. he presses a gentle kiss to collarbone. “i’m still gonna marry you.”
heyyy!! i just wanted to ask if you could do theodore x reader where theo is like really really jealous because of harry flirting with reader, even when they should be "casual" and one day he kinda snaps and conjures fight with harry..
tea 🤏🏻🤏🏻 we love a jealous theo
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You've been doing this dance with Theodore for three months now.
Three months of stolen kisses in empty corridors. Three months of his hands on your waist, pulling you into alcoves between classes. Three months of late nights in the common room where conversations turn into something more, something heated, something that leaves you breathless and wanting.
Three months of nothing.
No labels. No definitions. No clarity about what you are to each other.
"It's casual," he'd said that first time you'd tried to have the conversation, his dark eyes unreadable. "We're just having fun, yeah? No need to complicate it."
But it doesn't feel casual. Not when he looks at you like that across the Great Hall. Not when his fingers trace patterns on your skin in the darkness. Not when he whispers your name like a prayer against your neck.
You want more. You want to be his girlfriend, want him to be your boyfriend, want everyone to know that there's something real between you. But every time you try to bring it up, he deflects. Changes the subject. Kisses you until you forget why you were talking in the first place.
So you've learned to take what you can get. The stolen moments. The secret smiles. The way his hand finds yours under the table when no one's looking.
It's not enough. But it's something.
At least, it was something. You thought it was enough until a Astronomy class on a cold Tuesday morning changes everything.
Professor Sinistra stands at the front of the classroom, her star-chart robes shimmering in the candlelight. "Your next project will span the remainder of the term," she announces. "You'll be studying a specific constellation in depth—its mythology, its astronomical properties, and its magical significance."
You're only half-listening, too aware of Theo sitting three rows behind you. You can feel his gaze on the back of your neck like a physical touch.
"I've already assigned your partnerships," Sinistra continues, and your attention snaps back to her. "These pairings are final, so please don't ask to switch."
Your stomach drops. Assigned partnerships.
One by one students get paired.
“Hermione Granger and Blaise Zabini”
“Draco Malfoy and Katie Bell”
"Theodore Nott and Lavender Brown."
The quill in your hand stills. You turn slowly in your seat, just enough to see Theo's reaction. He looks unbothered, already glancing over at Lavender, who's practically glowing with excitement.
Lavender Brown. Who's been trying to get Theo's attention since fourth year. Who laughs too loud at his jokes and finds excuses to touch his arm. Who's made it abundantly clear she's interested.
Your throat tightens. You force yourself to breathe through it.
"And our next pair—" Sinistra consults her list. "Harry Potter and...”
"Y/N L/N."
Of course.
You force yourself to look over at Harry, who gives you a small, slightly awkward smile. He's nice enough. You've worked together before. It's fine. It's fine.
Except when you glance back at Theo, his expression has shifted. Something dark flickers across his face before he schools it back to neutrality.
The rest of the class passes in a blur. Sinistra explains the project requirements, but you barely hear her over the rushing in your ears. Your chest feels tight, like someone's wrapped a band around your ribs and is slowly pulling it tighter. When she finally dismisses you, you're out of your seat immediately.
You catch up with Theo in the corridor, grabbing his arm. "We need to talk."
He turns, and for a moment, something vulnerable flashes in his eyes. Then it's gone, replaced by that carefully neutral expression you've come to hate.
"What's up?"
"Switch partners with me."
His eyebrows rise. "What?"
"For the project. Switch with Harry. You work with him, I'll work with Lavender."
"Why would we do that?"
Is he serious? "Because Lavender has been trying to get with you for years, Theo. Everyone knows it."
He shrugs, infuriatingly casual. "So? We're just doing a project."
"She's going to flirt with you the entire time."
"And?" He's looking at you with those dark eyes, and you can't tell if he's genuinely confused or deliberately being obtuse. "I don't see what the problem is."
The problem. The problem is that you're not his girlfriend, so you have no right to be jealous. The problem is that he's made it clear this thing between you doesn't mean anything serious. The problem is that your heart is breaking, and he doesn't even notice.
Your eyes burn. You blink rapidly, refusing to let him see. "Fine," you say, your voice cold despite the way it wants to crack. "Whatever. Have fun with Lavender."
You turn and walk away before he can see the tears threatening to spill. You make it around the corner before the first one falls, hot and angry against your cheek. You swipe it away viciously.
You will not cry over Theodore Nott.
You won't.
The library is quiet the next day, just you and Harry bent over your Astronomy textbooks. He's been explaining the mythology behind Cassiopeia for the past ten minutes, and you've been nodding along, but you haven't absorbed a single word.
Your mind keeps replaying yesterday. Theo's casual dismissal. The way he didn't even care that Lavender would be all over him. The way he looked at you like you were being unreasonable for even asking.
"—and that's why she was chained to her throne in the sky. Are you okay?"
You blink, realizing Harry has stopped talking and is looking at you with concern.
"Sorry," you say, shaking your head. "I'm fine. Just... tired."
"You sure?" He shifts closer, and his knee bumps yours under the table. "You seem upset."
The genuine worry in his voice makes your chest ache in a different way. Harry is nice. He's attentive and kind and he actually seems to care about how you're feeling.
Unlike some people.
"I'm okay," you lie. "Really. Cassiopeia sounds great for the project."
Harry smiles, and it's genuine and warm and a little shy. "Cool. Um, I'm really glad we're partners, actually." He ducks his head, a flush creeping up his neck. "I've wanted to get to know you better for a while now."
Oh.
Oh.
The way he's looking at you—nervous and hopeful and sweet—makes it abundantly clear what he means.
Harry likes you.
You should probably discourage this. Should probably make it clear you're not interested, that your heart belongs to someone else even if that someone refuses to claim it.
But then you think about Theo. About his casual dismissal. About how he won't even acknowledge that what you have is real.
About how much it hurts.
"I'm glad too," you hear yourself say, and Harry's smile widens.
The guilt hits you immediately. You're using him. You know you are. Using his genuine feelings to make yourself feel wanted, to make Theo jealous, to protect your own bruised heart.
But maybe that's what you need right now. Maybe you need someone who isn't afraid to show they care.
Even if it makes you feel sick with yourself.
The next Astronomy class, you arrive early and deliberately sit next to Harry. You're laughing at something he said—you can't even remember what—when Theo walks in.
He stops mid-stride when he sees you. For a moment, something raw crosses his face. Then it's gone, replaced by that infuriating mask of indifference.
You force yourself to keep smiling at Harry. To keep your hand on his arm. To pretend you don't feel Theo's stare burning into the back of your neck.
Your chest feels tight again. Wrong. Everything about this feels wrong.
But you don't move.
"Why aren't you sitting with me?"
The question comes after class, Theo's voice low and tight as he corners you in the corridor. There's something in his eyes you can't quite read—something that looks almost like hurt.
You look at him coolly, even though your heart is racing. "I'm sitting with my partner."
"Your partner." The word sounds bitter in his mouth.
"For the project. You know, the one you didn't want to switch?"
His jaw clenches. "That's what this is about?"
"I don't know what you mean." The lie tastes like ash. "I'm just taking the project seriously."
You step around him, and his hand catches your wrist. Not hard, but enough to stop you.
"Wait—"
"I have to go," you say, pulling free. Your throat is tight again, tears threatening. "Harry's waiting."
You walk away before he can say anything else. Before you can see whatever expression is on his face. Before you can break down and tell him the truth—that every moment away from him feels like drowning, that you hate this game you're playing, that you just want him to care.
In the bathroom, you lock yourself in a stall and let the tears fall silently. Your chest heaves with the effort of keeping quiet, of not sobbing out loud where someone might hear.
This is what you wanted, isn't it? To make him jealous? To make him feel even a fraction of what you've been feeling?
So why does it hurt so much?
Over the next week, you perfect the art of avoidance, and it's killing you.
Every time Theo asks if you want to hang out after dinner, you say you're busy with the project. Every time he tries to catch you in the common room, you're heading to the library. Every time he sends you a note in Potions, you don't respond.
And every time, you feel like you're tearing yourself apart.
You lie awake at night, staring at the ceiling of your dormitory, replaying every interaction. The hurt in his eyes when you brush him off. The way his hand had lingered on your wrist. The tightness in his voice when he'd asked why you weren't sitting with him.
Maybe he does care. Maybe this is affecting him too.
But then you remember: ‘It's casual. We're just having fun.‘
And the hope dies.
Harry, meanwhile, is always there. He walks you to class. Saves you a seat at lunch. Brings you coffee when you're studying late.
"You don't have to do all this" you tell him one evening in the library. Your voice sounds hollow even to your own ears.
"I want to" he says, and there's such sincerity in his green eyes that the guilt threatens to choke you.
You're using him. You know you are. Using his attention, his kindness, his genuine feelings—using all of it as a shield against your own pain.
It makes you feel like the worst person in the world.
That night, you cry yourself to sleep.
In Astronomy class, you watch as Lavender leans close to Theo, her hand on his shoulder as she points at something in their notes. She's laughing, tossing her hair, and Theo—
Theo lets her.
He doesn't pull away. Doesn't create distance. He smiles at something she says, and your stomach twists so violently you think you might be sick.
Your hands are shaking. You clench them into fists under the table, nails digging into your palms hard enough to hurt.
This is what you wanted. You wanted him to feel what you felt. You wanted him to be jealous.
But watching him smile at her, watching him let her touch him—
It's unbearable.
"Hey," Harry says softly beside you. "You okay?"
You realize you've been staring. You tear your gaze away, blinking rapidly against the burning in your eyes.
"Fine," you manage. "I'm fine."
But you're not fine. You're so far from fine you can't even see it anymore.
Harry is quiet for a moment. Then, so quietly you almost miss it: "Can I ask you something?"
"Sure."
He's fidgeting with his quill, not looking at you. His ears are red. "I was wondering if maybe—I mean, if you're not busy—" He takes a breath. "Would you want to go to Hogsmeade with me? This weekend?"
Your heart stops.
"Like..." You trail off, not sure how to finish the question.
"Like a date," Harry says, finally meeting your eyes. He looks terrified and hopeful all at once. "If you want. No pressure. I just—I really like you, and I thought maybe—"
Behind you, there's a sudden crash.
You whip around to see Theo's ink bottle overturned, black liquid spreading across his parchment and dripping onto the floor. His hands are shaking—actually shaking—as he tries to hold the bottle. His jaw is clenched so tight you can see the muscle jumping.
Lavender is fussing over the mess, but Theo isn't looking at her. He's looking at you, and the expression on his face—
Raw. Desperate.
For a moment, you can't breathe. Can't think. Can't do anything but stare back at him.
Then Harry touches your arm gently. "So... what do you think?"
You tear your gaze away from Theo. Look at Harry's hopeful face. Think about all the times Theo has dismissed you, pushed you away, refused to give you what you need.
Think about how much it hurts.
"Yes," you hear yourself say. "I'd love to."
Harry's face lights up. "Really? That's—that's great!"
You force yourself to smile. To ignore the sound of Theo's chair scraping back. To ignore the way your chest feels like it's caving in.
You don't look at Theo again for the rest of class.
But you can feel him staring.
That evening, you're heading back to the common room when a hand catches your wrist.
"Can we talk?"
Theo. Of course.
You don't turn around. Can't. If you look at him, you'll break. "I'm actually pretty tired—"
"Please." His voice cracks on the word, and it sends a knife through your chest. "Just... come to my room? We can hang out. Like we used to."
You know what ‘hang out’ means. It means his hands in your hair and his mouth on yours and forgetting everything except the way he makes you feel. It means falling back into the pattern, into the casual undefined thing that's been slowly destroying you.
It would be so easy to say yes. To let him pull you close. To pretend everything is fine.
But it's not fine. Nothing is fine.
"I can't," you say quietly, still not looking at him. Your eyes are burning again. "I'm busy."
"With Potter." It's not a question. His grip on your wrist tightens slightly—not painful, but desperate. "That's all he is, right? Your project partner?"
You finally turn to face him, and the look in his eyes nearly breaks you. He looks wrecked. Vulnerable in a way you've never seen him.
But it's not enough. It's never enough.
"What does it matter to you, Theo?" Your voice is shaking now, tears threatening. "We're just casual, remember? Just having fun. No need to complicate it."
You throw his own words back at him, and you watch them land like blows. He flinches.
"That's not—"
"I have to go," you say, pulling your hand free. A tear escapes, rolling down your cheek. You swipe at it angrily. "Harry's waiting."
You walk away, and this time, you do let yourself look back.
Theo is standing in the middle of the corridor, looking lost and broken and so unlike himself that it makes your chest ache.
But you keep walking.
You're walking back from the library two days later, your eyes tired and puffy from staying up late thinking about your last conversation with Theo, when you hear it.
Raised voices. The sound of a scuffle. You round the corner and freeze.
Theo has Harry pinned against the wall, his fist drawn back. Harry's nose is already bleeding, his glasses out of place.
"Theo!" you scream.
He doesn't stop. His fist connects with Harry's jaw with a sickening crack, and Harry crumples. Theo follows him down, and it takes two seventh-years to pull him off.
"What the hell is wrong with you?" one of them shouts, struggling to hold Theo back.
Theo's chest is heaving, his knuckles bloody. His eyes are wild, unfocused—and then they land on you.
The look on his face—rage and desperation and something that looks like anguish—makes you take a step back.
"Get Potter to the hospital wing," you say to the seventh-years, your voice shaking. You can't look at Harry's crumpled form. Can't think about the fact that this is your fault. "Now."
They half-carry Harry away, and you're left alone with Theo in the corridor.
"You," you say, your voice deadly quiet. "Come with me. Now."
You drag him to an empty classroom, slamming the door behind you. Your hands are shaking. Your whole body is shaking.
"What is your problem?" you demand, whirling on him. "You could have seriously hurt him!"
"Good." Theo's voice is rough, dangerous. There's blood on his knuckles, and he doesn't seem to care. "He deserves it."
"For what? For being my partner? For being nice to me?"
"For touching you!" The words explode out of him. "For making you laugh. For—for asking you to Hogsmeade like he has any right—"
"He has every right!" You're shouting now too, tears streaming down your face. "Because you know what, Theo? He actually wants me. He's not afraid to show it. He's not keeping me a secret or pretending this doesn't mean anything!"
"That's not—"
"You said this was casual!" Your voice breaks completely. "You're the one who wanted no labels, no commitment, nothing. So why the hell do you care if I go to Hogsmeade with Harry? Why do you care if he flirts with me? You don't get to have it both ways!"
"Because I lied!"
The words ring out in the sudden silence.
Theo's chest is heaving, his hands clenched into fists at his sides. When he speaks again, his voice is barely above a whisper.
"I lied. It was never casual. Not for me. Not once."
Your heart stops. The tears are still falling, but you can't move. Can't breathe.
"What?"
"I lied," he repeats, and now he won't look at you. His voice is raw, broken. "I thought—I thought if I kept it casual, if I didn't put a name to it, then I couldn't..." He breaks off, switching to Italian under his breath. "Cazzo. I couldn't lose you."
"Theo—"
"And then Potter." His voice roughens, and when he looks up, his eyes are red-rimmed. "Harry fucking Potter with his perfect smile and his Hogsmeade invitation, and you said yes, and I—" He stops, swallows hard. "I couldn't breathe. All I could see was you with him. Laughing with him. Choosing him."
You're frozen, unable to process what you're hearing. Three months of pain and confusion and heartbreak, and now—
"You want to know why I care?" He takes a step toward you, and you can see he's trembling. "Because you're mine. You've been mine since the first time you looked at me like I was something worth having. And I've been yours this whole time, and I was too scared to admit it."
"You hurt me," you whisper, your voice breaking. Fresh tears spill over. "You made me feel like I wasn't enough. Like I was asking for too much. Like I was crazy for wanting more."
"I know." He takes another step, and you can see the desperation in every line of his body. "I know, and I'm sorry. Amore, I'm so sorry. You were always enough. You were everything. I was just—" His voice cracks. "fuck, I was just too much of a coward to say it."
"How do I know you mean it?" Your whole body is shaking now, sobs threatening to tear out of your chest. "How do I know this isn't just because you're jealous? That you won't go back to 'casual' the moment I forgive you?"
"Because I'm telling you now." Another step closer. He's right in front of you now, close enough to touch. "I'm telling you that I want you. Only you. Not casual, not undefined. I want all of it. Labels, commitment, everything I was too scared to give you before."
"Theo—"
"Per favore" The Italian falls from his lips like a prayer, and his hands come up like he wants to reach for you but doesn't dare. "Please. I can't lose you. I won't—I can't survive it."
You can see him trembling, this boy who's always so controlled, so carefully composed, falling apart in front of you. There are tears on his face now too.
"I love you," he says, and the words sound like they've been torn from somewhere deep inside him. "Ti amo. I should have said it weeks ago. Months ago. I love you."
Your breath catches. You've imagined him saying those words so many times, but hearing them now—
It's everything you wanted.
And it's not enough.
"You're an idiot," you breathe, your voice thick with tears.
"I know." He takes it like absolution.
"And an asshole."
"I know."
"And you—" Your voice breaks. "You broke my heart, Theo. You made me feel worthless. You made me cry myself to sleep. You made me hate myself for wanting you."
"I know." His voice is wrecked. "I know, and I—cazzo, I would take it all back if I could. Every moment I made you doubt yourself. Every time I pushed you away. I would take it all back."
"But you can't." The words come out as a sob. "You can't take it back."
"I know." He's crying openly now. "But I can—I can try to make it right. I can be what you deserve. I can—please , just give me a chance. Let me prove it to you."
He reaches for you, his hands coming up to cup your face, and you can see the moment he's going to kiss you. The moment he thinks this is over, that you're going to forgive him, that everything is going to be okay.
You step back.
His hands fall to his sides, and the look on his face—devastation, confusion, desperation—nearly breaks you all over again.
"I can't," you whisper. "I can't do this right now."
"What?" His voice is small, broken. "What do you mean?"
"I mean—" You wrap your arms around yourself, trying to hold yourself together. "I mean I've spent three months feeling like I wasn't enough for you. Four months wondering what was wrong with me. Three months breaking myself trying to be okay with casual when I wanted so much more."
"I know, and I'm—"
"And now you're sorry." Your voice is bitter. "Now that you think you might lose me, now you want to make it real. But where were you when I was crying in my dormitory? Where were you when I was tearing myself apart trying to understand why you wouldn't just choose me?"
"I was scared—"
"So was I!" The words come out as a shout. "I was terrified! But I was willing to risk it. I was willing to put myself out there and ask for what I wanted. And you—you just kept pushing me away."
"Please—" He reaches for you again, and you step back again.
"No." Your voice is firm despite the tears. "No, you don't get to touch me right now. You don't get to kiss me and make this okay. You don't get to fix three months of pain with one confession.
"Then what do I do?" He sounds desperate, broken. "Dimmi, Tell me what to do. I'll do anything."
"I don't know." You're crying so hard you can barely see him. "I don't know, Theo. I just—I need time. I need to think."
"Time." He says it like the word is foreign. "How much time?"
"I don't know!" You're shouting again. "I don't know, okay? I don't know if I can trust you. I don't know if this is real or if you're just scared of losing. I don't know anything anymore!"
"It's real." His voice is fierce. "I swear to you, it's real. I love you. I— I love you so much it terrifies me."
"Then you should have said so." Your voice breaks. "You should have said so before I had to break myself trying to make you jealous. Before I had to use Harry. Before you put him in the hospital wing."
He flinches like you've struck him.
"I'm sorry," he whispers. "I'm so sorry."
"I know." You wipe at your face, but the tears keep coming. "I know you are. But sorry isn't enough right now."
"Then what is?" He's begging now, openly begging. "What do you need from me? I'll do anything. Anything."
"I need—" You stop, trying to find the words through the tears. "I need you to let me go. Right now. I need you to let me walk out of here and figure out what I want."
"And if—" His voice breaks. "If you decide you don't want me?"
The question hangs in the air between you. You can see the fear in his eyes, the desperation, the love he's finally admitting to.
And you can't answer him.
"I don't know," you whisper finally. "I don't know, Theo."
You turn toward the door, and his voice stops you.
"I'll wait." It's barely audible. "However long it takes. I'll wait for you."
You don't turn around. Can't. If you look at him—broken and desperate and finally, finally giving you everything you wanted—you'll cave. You'll forgive him before you're ready. You'll let him kiss you and touch you and make promises you're not sure he can keep.
"Don't," you say quietly. "Don't wait for me. I can't—I can't promise you anything right now."
"I don't care." His voice is fierce again. "I'll wait anyway. Forever, if that's what it takes."
A sob tears out of your chest. You wrench open the door and run.
You run through the corridors, tears blurring your vision, your chest heaving with sobs you can't contain anymore. You run until you reach your dormitory, until you can throw yourself onto your bed and bury your face in your pillow and finally let yourself break completely.
Theodore Nott x Ravenclaw!reader
Summary: Theodore Nott thought he was playing a harmless game of a dare, until the quiet Ravenclaw he targeted turned out to be the only fascinating thing in the castle.
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The Slytherin table at breakfast was usually an exercise in enduring Draco Malfoy’s theatrical complaints. Today was no exception.
Theodore Nott sat at the end of the bench, a cup of black coffee held loosely in his hand, his eyes tracking the morning owls as they flooded the Great Hall. Beside him, Blaise was meticulously buttering a piece of toast, while Draco was mid-rant about the incompetence of the Ministry’s owl-post service.
Theo wasn't listening. He rarely did. The politics, the posturing, the endless obsession with who was who—it was entirely, profoundly boring. They never spoke about any other topic, ever.
"Look at her," Blaise murmured suddenly, nudging Theo’s elbow with a smirk. He pointed his knife toward the Ravenclaw table. "The quiet one. Third from the end. She’s been staring at that bottle of maple syrup for three minutes like it’s a cursed artifact."
Theo shifted his gaze. You were sitting alone, a book propped open against a goblet, staring intently at the small pitcher of syrup in your hand. You looked completely detached from the chaotic chatter around you, existing entirely in your own head.
"Ten Galleons says you can't get her to go to the library with you by the end of the week, Nott," Draco chimed in, his attention easily diverted by the prospect of a wager. "She doesn't talk to anyone outside her little Gryffindor shadow-group with the Weasley girl and Loony Lovegood. Even then, she barely opens her mouth. Quite pathetic, really. "
Theo swirled his coffee, his sharp, analytical mind assessing the girl across the hall. She looked harmless. Quiet. The type of Ravenclaw who probably memorized herbology charts for fun. He was bored, and the prospect of taking Draco’s gold while proving a point was mildly entertaining. He could get himself a nice butterbeer this weekend if he won, and food always tasted better with someone else's money.
"Ten Galleons?" Theo murmured, a dry, cynical smile touching his soft lips. "Make it twenty, Malfoy. I’ll have her carrying my books by Friday."
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The opportunity presented itself that very afternoon.
The library was quiet, bathed in the muted, golden light of late autumn. Theo spotted you tucked away in the West Wing alcove, surrounded by a small fortress of ancient texts. You were holding an ink bottle, turning it over in your hands with a concentrated frown.
Theo stepped into the alcove, his leather shoes clicking softly against the stone. He pulled out the chair directly opposite you without asking.
You flinched, your wide eyes snapping up to meet his. For a second, you looked like you were going to gather your things and bolt.
"Relax," Theo said, his voice low, smooth, and deliberately unbothered. He leaned back in his chair, crossing one leg over the other. "I don’t bite. Unless you’re into that."
A faint blush crept up your neck, but you quickly looked down at your book, your shoulders tensing. "Nott," you mumbled, glancing up slowly. "The library is full. Surely there's a table closer to your friends."
"My friends are tedious," he replied smoothly, watching the defensive wall you were trying to build. "And you looked like you were having a very intense staring contest with that inkwell. I was curious."
You pressed your lips together, tapping your quill against the parchment. "It's nothing. I was just... thinking."
"About?"
You hesitated, looking at him skeptically, as if waiting for the punchline. But Theo just sat there, his chin resting in his palm, his grey eyes steady and entirely focused on you. There was no mockery in his posture—just a calm, quiet patience.
"It's stupid," you muttered.
"Try me," he murmured. "I have a high tolerance for stupid. I live with Malfoy."
A tiny, involuntary smile tugged at the corner of your mouth, and just like that, the floodgates opened. The shy, hesitant girl vanished, replaced by a sudden, intense spark in your eyes.
"It's just that people take ink for granted," you said, your words suddenly tumbling out like wildfire. "But iron gall ink—the kind we use for writing—is actually a chemical reaction. It's made from tannic acid extracted from oak galls, which are caused by parasitic wasps, mixed with iron sulfate. If the ratio is even slightly off, the acid will literally eat through the parchment over a century or two. So technically, half the restricted section is slowly destroying itself from the inside out because some medieval scribe didn't balance their chemistry."
You stopped abruptly, your breath catching. Your face flushed a deep, brilliant crimson as you realized how long you’d just ranted to a complete stranger. "Sorry. I... that was weird. You didn't ask for a history lesson."
Theo didn't move. He didn't blink.
He just stared at you, his analytical mind completely derailed. He had expected a shy, stuttering girl who would blush at a generic pureblood compliment. Instead, you had just delivered a terrifyingly specific, brilliant lecture about wasps and self-destroying books.
It was fascinating.
A slow, genuine smirk spread across his face. The cynical facade he always wore felt a little looser, a little lighter.
"Affascinante..." he murmured under his breath, the Italian word slipping out before he could stop it.
"What?" you asked, shifting uncomfortably.
"Nothing," Theo said, leaning forward, his grey eyes locking onto yours with a sudden, genuine intensity that had absolutely nothing to do with Draco’s twenty Galleons. "Tell me more about the wasps."
· · ─ ·✶· ─ · ·
By April, the courtyard had become a shared habit.
The stone benches were warm from the spring sun, and the scent of damp earth and blooming aconite hung heavy in the air. You sat with your legs swung over the edge of the stone wall, looking down at a small patch of clover between the flagstones.
Theo was right next to you. His black school cloak was discarded on the bench, his white shirt sleeves rolled up to his elbows. He was leaning back on his hands, his head tilted back to catch the sun, looking entirely at peace—a rarity for a Slytherin in the middle of a bustling Hogwarts afternoon.
"Look at that one," you whispered, pointing down at the grass. "The four-leaf one over there."
Theo opened one grey eye, glancing down lazily. "Are you going to tell me it’s a mutation?"
"It is," you said, a bright, easy smile breaking across your face as you spun around to face him. "It’s a rare genetic variation of the white clover. The odds of finding one are about one in ten thousand. But the funny part is that in the Middle Ages, people believed that if you carried a four-leaf clover, it would grant you the ability to see fairies and spirits that were normally invisible. So, essentially, medieval wizards used to walk around fields for hours just hoping to get a glimpse of a Bowtruckle."
Theodore let out a low, genuine laugh—the kind of laugh he never used in the Great Hall. It was quiet, entirely unprompted, and it made your chest feel warm.
"So what you're saying," He murmured, sitting up and turning his head to look at you, his sharp features softening into a teasing smirk, "is that you’ve been sitting here staring at the dirt for twenty minutes because you're looking for a shortcut to passing Care of Magical Creatures?"
"I don't need a shortcut, Nott, my grades are perfect," you shot back, nudging his shoulder with your own. "I'm just appreciating the history."
"You are ridiculous," he said softly. He reached out, his long fingers gently brushing a stray lock of hair away from your face, tucking it behind your ear. His touch lingered on your cheek for just a second too long, his thumb lightly grazing your cheekbone. "Ridiculous, and incredibly beautiful."
The compliment was delivered so casually, so effortlessly in his dry, smooth voice, that it took you a second to process it. Your breath caught, your face immediately burning a furious, bright pink. You looked down at your hands, trying to hide the massive smile tugging at your lips.
"You're just saying that to distract me from the fact that you haven't started your Transfiguration essay," you muttered, your voice small.
Theo chuckled, leaning a bit closer so his shoulder was pressed against yours. "Maybe. But it doesn't make it any less true."
On the other side of the courtyard, under the shadow of the stone archway, the rest of the world still existed.
Draco Malfoy was leaning against a pillar, his arms crossed over his chest, his eyes narrowed as he watched the two of you laugh. Beside him, Pansy was whispering something to Daphne, her expression a mix of amusement and sharp calculation. Blaise Zabini just smirked, twirling his wand between his fingers, his eyes locked onto the way Theo’s hand was still resting on the stone wall, just an inch away from yours.
To the Slytherins, it looked like a masterpiece of a game. Theo Nott, the aloof pureblood, completely charming the quiet, brilliant Ravenclaw exactly as planned.
But from where Theo was sitting, he couldn't see his friends at all. He didn't hear Draco's scoff or Pansy's whispers. He was entirely occupied by the way the sunlight hit your eyes, and the fact that for the first time all year, he wasn't bored at all.
· · ─ ·✶· ─ · ·
The heavy oak doors of the library usually felt like a shield, but tonight, they felt like a cage.
You sat in the absolute furthest alcove of the West Wing, hidden behind a mountain of ancient Arithmancy texts. Your knees were pulled tightly to your chest. The silence of the castle was supposed to be comforting, but right now, it only amplified the echo of Draco Malfoy’s drawing voice from an hour ago.
“A dare’s a dare, Nott. But you’ve been dragging it out for months. Are you finally done playing with the quiet Ravenclaw, or do you actually like hearing about the structural engineering of Roman aqueducts over breakfast?”
And then Zabini’s low, amused chuckle.
You pressed your forehead against your knees, blinking back hot, burning tears. You felt entirely stripped bare. Humiliated. It all made sense now. Theodore Nott—aloof, devastatingly sharp, a cynical pureblood from the Sacred Twenty-Eight—hadn't spent the last four months sitting at your library table because he found you interesting. He’d done it because of a joke.
You were just a hyper-fixated, shy Ravenclaw who didn't know when to shut up. When you got comfortable, you didn't just talk; you erupted into a wildfire of random, useless information. You had genuinely believed Theo liked it. You had thought the quiet, intense way he stared at you while you rambled about the historical trade routes of nutmeg was because he cared.
Instead, you were just a punchline in the Slytherin common room. A stupid nerd.
A sharp, distinct click of leather shoes on stone broke the silence.
You didn't look up. You didn't need to. The scent of cedarwood, expensive ink, and the faint, crisp chill of the dungeons always preceded him.
"I figured you'd be here," Theo said. His voice was its usual self—low, dry, and terrifyingly calm. But there was a slight edge to it tonight. A tightness.
"Go away, Theo," you muttered into your knees, your voice thick.
"No." The leg of a wooden chair scraped against the floor as he sat down directly opposite you. He leaned forward, resting his forearms on the table. "You dropped your Herbology essay in the corridor. And you've been missing for an hour. Talk to me."
"I don't think you need any more material for your friends," you said, finally lifting your head. Your eyes were red-rimmed, your jaw clenched to stop the trembling. "Did you win? Whatever the bet was, did you collect your Galleons? You can stop coming here now."
Theo stiffened. The lazy, arrogant posture he usually held instantly vanished. His grey eyes, usually so unbothered and analytical, narrowed in a flash of genuine panic.
"You heard Malfoy," he stated. It wasn't a question.
"I'm an annoying, nerdy Ravenclaw," you spat, the words spilling out like venom, though your voice cracked. "I know. I get it. I’m frustrating and shy, and I ruin perfectly normal conversations because I can't stop spewing out facts like a broken textbook. Did you know that human tears contain an endorphin called leucine-enkephalin? It acts as a natural painkiller. So technically, my body is trying to chemically fix the absolute joke you made out of me. Isn't that a fun fact, Nott? Go run and tell Blaise."
Theo didn't laugh. He didn't even drop a sarcastic counter-defense.
Instead, he let out a sharp, ragged breath and slammed his hand flat against the table. The noise cracked through the quiet alcove.
"Che cazzo state dicendo..." he muttered under his breath, a low, furious murmur of Italian rolling off his tongue as he pinched the bridge of his nose. He looked up at you, and for the first time since you’d known him, his cool, aristocratic facade was completely shattered. He looked desperate.
"Listen to me," Theo said, his voice dropping into something fierce and completely devoid of his usual mockery. "Yes. It started as a stupid, mindless dare because Blaise is a textbook idiot and I was bored. That was October. It is now May."
He leaned closer, his eyes locking onto yours with an intensity that made your breath catch.
"I forgot about that miserable bet three minutes into our first conversation," he said, each word deliberate and heavy. "Do you honestly think I’ve spent the last seven months listening to you explain the global history of maple syrup, or the exact architectural flaws of the Astronomy Tower, for a handful of coins? I don't give a damn about the money, and I give even less of a damn about what Malfoy thinks."
You blinked, a single tear slipping down your cheek. "Then why—"
"Because everyone else in this castle is entirely, profoundly boring," Theo interrupted, a ghost of his dry, cynical smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth, though his eyes remained entirely serious. "They talk about Quidditch, blood status, and gossip. You? You have an entire kingdom of useless, brilliant things inside your head. You look at the world and actually see it. I didn't sit here every day because I had to. I sat here because I'm completely ruined for any other girl who doesn't look at a bottle of ink and tell me the literal chemistry of how it was made."
He reached across the table, his long, pale fingers hovering just an inch away from your hand, giving you the choice.
"You are a nerd," Theo murmured softly, the lighthearted, teasing spark finally returning to his eyes, though his tone was fiercely genuine. "But you're my favorite part of the day. Don't you dare stop talking."
The tension in your chest slowly deflated, replaced by a strange, warm flutter. You looked at his hand, then up at his face, finding nothing but absolute sincerity in his sharp features.
"The ink chemistry fact was actually quite interesting," you whispered, wiping your cheek with the back of your sleeve.
Theo let out a low, relieved laugh, his hand closing gently over yours. "I'm sure it is, love. Tell me more facts, I can't wait to hear them."
summary: THEO X OBLIVIOUS! HI! basically just how the two of you met, i'm character building, let me live.
warnings: a little bit of angst/crying and some sad thoughts
words: 1.1k
first "part" of this here
theo x oblivious! reader
Theodore Nott had always known what was expected of him. Stay strong-willed, be cunning, listen more than you speak, become a Death Eater, and, most importantly, find an obedient pureblood girl to marry so the bloodline stays undiluted.
He hated them—expectations, his family. His last name and the fear that came along with it like they complemented each other.
The only thing his family hadn't planned out for him was his death, but he was sure that if he stepped out of line one too many times, he would be next on his family's list of 'To-dos.'
Though, even he could admit that stepping away from his responsibilities was not in the question. He couldn't disappoint his mother, which was a tough pill to swallow for an 11-year-old.
So, when his father had reminded him of his responsibilities on Platform 9 ¾ by slyly nodding to you and your family, murmuring that Theo should 'Go talk to her,' he knew what he had to do, no matter the bad taste lingering at the back of his throat.
Expectations, expectations, expectations.
When he stared at you hard enough, Theo realized he had seen you before at various galas, always smiling, always prim and proper. His father rarely talked with yours, which usually meant you were higher up the food chain than he was.
You were just a means to an end, another ladder to climb.
And, if he was being entirely too honest, a young Theo Nott would have said he hated you. Hated you because you were what his father's dreams were made of—pretty, pureblood, and more powerful than him. Hated you because you were overly happy for someone who had the same expectations he had weighing him down, you were loud, talkative, only listened when necessary, smart, and actually wanted to be his friend.
You sat next to him in the classes you shared, somehow found a spot in the Great Hall next to him and his small friend group, eventually bringing your own into the mix, talking to all of them like they were your own, like you meshed well with them.
Theo didn't mesh. He either accepted or rejected, and he wanted to reject you.
You had infiltrated everything and not once did your smile falter.
If you weren't so pretty and kind, he probably would have been more ill-tempered, but Theo would never admit that.
Theo's silent jealousy anger continued like that for the majority of his first year, almost boiling over a few times, but you always flashed him a grin and soft eyes which simmered it down.
And he had almost gone through being 11 without succumbing to your charms.
When it was a restless night of no sleep, the only thing that soothed his unease was a warm cup of tea. Tonight was one of those, his mind racing with thoughts of how in the hell was he supposed to go back to his house for the summer. The house that was too big and hadn't felt warm since his mother died.
Reluctantly, he headed up to the kitchens, making sure to close his dorm door softly as to not wake Draco or Mattheo.
At first he didn't see you, didn't see the tears or the shaky breaths going in through your nose and out through your mouth.
Theo just grabbed his tea bag and a little bit of sugar before sitting at a rickety wooden table shoved into the corner of the room. Elves bustled around, paying him no mind. One, though, he thought her name started with an 'L,' walked up to a figure, highlighted with different shades of gold from flickering flames. Shakily, the small elf extended a cookie toward you, a silent offering.
He flinched when he noticed it was you who was sitting by the fire, shuttering shoulders and all. You were crying.
He whispered your name, just quiet enough so it wouldn't scare you and just loud enough so he knew you'd hear it. The elf scurried away.
Your head swiveled around, and your face, puffy from crying and furiously wiping at tears, made his chest feel like it had been cracked open.
The two of you just stared at each other.
"…Are you okay?" Theo murmured, tea already forgotten and going cold.
You quickly blinked away the new set of tears pooling. "Oh… yes!" You smiled. He noticed it didn't reach your eyes like it always had done before. "I'm fine, I promise. Couldn't sleep. What, uh, what are you doing in here?"
He stood, shuffling over to where you were sat on the floor. The heat of the fire burned the front of his face. "Couldn't sleep too."
You stayed silent for a beat too long, and curiosity forced Theo to look over at you.
Your bottom lip was wobbling, head drawn down as you stared at the floor between your bent knees. Your cry was silent, like you had mastered the art of silently sobbing, just as he had.
For the first time, you looked real. Not untouchable, not the girl his father had pushed him to talk to. Just painfully you.
"You're not okay," he remarked.
That got a laugh out of you—albeit it was thin and loose like a piece of paper, but it was a laugh nonetheless. "I'm afraid not."
"What happened?"
You explained to him with tired, bloodshot eyes that your grandmother had passed suddenly, and you only just received a letter from your parents, who hardly let you down easy.
Theo put an arm around your shoulder, tugging you into his side. You wrapped your arms around his midsection. He knew grief all too well.
For the rest of that night you were just two kids who were too mature for their age.
After Theo saw the inner parts of you, the grief and longing behind happy smiles, he couldn't leave you alone. He didn't have any more reasons to hate you when you were just like him.
Theo wasn't sure when the lines blurred. When he toed the thin line between friendship and love, then between love and obsession. He wasn't even sure that there was something to pinpoint—maybe when that Ravenclaw had asked you out in your fourth year and he could only white-knuckle the arms of his chair as you gushed about it, or maybe it was during one of the many times the two of you had sat in the courtyard, him attempting to read a book while you chattered his ear off. Maybe it was in your first year when you told him just how sad you really were.
Or maybe it just was.
Something that he ignored until it grew into what it is today. Hopelessly pining after you, who, for some reason, had made him off limits somewhere in the deep recesses of your mind.
when he first met you vs when he first met who you really are, are two different things imo... sorry for the delay people
“I once believed love would be black and white, but it's golden like daylight.”
word count: 4,875.
summary: a year of silence finally begins to unravel as buried truths, old heartbreak, and impossible hope collide all at once. while theo is forced to confront everything he thought he lost, the lines between love, grief, and destiny begin to blur in ways neither of you can ignore anymore.
author’s note: this chapter was one of my favorites to write. deep down, i'm a hopeless romantic with a phd in yearnalism. I hope you enjoyed and trust that the yearning doesn't end here. I have three more chapters up my sleeve ⸜(。˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡
♫ daylight - taylor swift. nav. chapters. more theo.
Past
August 22, 1994
Tenute Grimaldi — Tuscany, Italy
Dear Bella,
It has been precisely one month, twelve days, four hours, and an absolutely miserable amount of minutes since I last saw you.
Not that I’m counting.
Rome was loud and chaotic as always, and though Nonna insists I should be grateful for the noise, I found myself missing the sound of your laugh far more than the shouting of my cousins and the endless clatter from the kitchen.
You have ruined me, I think.
Everything feels a bit less interesting when you’re not here to experience it with me.
I never realized how quickly someone could become essential until you did.
I hope Cornwall is lovely. I imagine it must be, because you’re there, and in my mind, anything that gets to keep you for the summer has already won some impossible prize.
I’m trying not to be nervous about visiting.
Truthfully, I might be doing an absolute shite job.
You’ve spoken so highly of your mum that I fear disappointing her terribly. I know the Nott name doesn’t exactly inspire warmth in most people, and while I would very much prefer not to be judged for my family’s many failures, I can’t entirely blame anyone who does.
Still, I hope she’ll see me as you do.
Or at the very least, I hope she won’t hex me on sight.
I’m rather attached to all my limbs.
I’ve never been to Cornwall before, but the way you describe it feels almost magical. The cliffs, the sea, your garden, the little things that make your home yours.
It sounds lovely.
I think I should like it very much.
I miss you terribly already, though I suspect you know that.
And because I know how cross you get when I say goodbye, I’ll simply say this instead.
See you soon, Y/N.
For Always,
Teddy
Past
August 30, 1994
Rosemere Cottage — Cornwall, England
Theo had spent the entire journey trying not to look visibly petrified.
This, unfortunately, was made significantly more difficult by the fact that he was Theodore Nott, heir to a notoriously cold and deeply unpleasant pureblood family, arriving at the beloved childhood home of the girl who had become the brightest part of his life.
He cared far more than he wanted to admit.
Not just about making a good impression.
About you.
About what this visit meant.
Because Rosemere Cottage was yours in a way Hogwarts could never be. This wasn’t borrowed time between classes or stolen laughter in corridors. This was your real world. Your childhood. Your sanctuary.
And Theo, despite all his practiced charm and carefully curated confidence, was terrified that perhaps he wouldn’t fit into it as seamlessly as he so desperately wanted to.
“What if she hates me?” he asked for what seemed like the millionth time, his voice carrying that rare edge of genuine nerves he so carefully hid from everyone else.
You groaned dramatically beside him, though your smile betrayed your amusement.
“My mum is not going to hate you.”
“She might.”
“She won’t.”
“She absolutely could.”
You turned to him then, fixing him with the sort of look that always made Theo feel both ridiculous and strangely comforted.
“She already knows you’re dramatic, so honestly, you’ve overcome the worst of it.”
Theo frowned, though there was no real heat behind it.
“That’s not reassuring.”
“It’s true.”
He sighed heavily, leaning back in his seat with all the exaggerated suffering of someone marching toward certain doom.
“I knew befriending you would eventually kill me.”
You laughed then, bright and effortless, and Theo hated how quickly that sound soothed him.
Because somehow, even in his spiraling, you remained his constant.
But when you finally arrived, all his carefully rehearsed anxieties seemed to dissolve almost instantly.
Because Estelle didn’t look at him like he was a Nott.
She didn’t look wary. Or judgmental. Or politely cautious.
She looked at him like he was the boy her daughter had spent all school year writing about.
“Theodore,” she said warmly, before he could even properly introduce himself.
And then, to Theo’s complete astonishment, she pulled him into a hug.
“It’s lovely to finally meet you.”
Theo froze.
Entirely.
HIs mind seemed to short-circuit under the sheer unfamiliarity of unsolicited maternal affection.
Then he blinked.
And very cautiously, as though afraid the moment might somehow vanish if he moved too quickly, he hugged her back.
You absolutely beamed beside him, clearly delighted by his stunned expression.
And just like that, something tight and guarded in Theo’s chest loosened.
It was such a small thing.
A hug.
A simple welcome.
But to Theo, who had spent much of his life feeling more like an obligation than a joy, it felt monumental.
Your home itself felt unlike anything he had ever known.
Warm golden light spilled through wide windows, illuminating soft corners and weathered wooden floors. The scent of salt air drifted in from outside, mingling with baked sweets and fresh flowers. Knitted blankets were draped over sofas. Books were stacked haphazardly on side tables. There were framed photographs, mismatched rugs, and signs of life everywhere.
It felt lived in.
Loved in.
Theo noticed it all immediately.
And perhaps more dangerously, he noticed how badly he wanted to belong there.
Rosemere Cottage had completely charmed and enchanted him before the evening had even properly begun.
Nott Manor was grand, certainly.
But it was cold.
Beautiful in the way marble statues were beautiful. Impressive, but untouchable. Silent in ways that felt oppressive rather than peaceful.
Your home, by contrast, breathed.
It welcomed.
It held.
Theo found himself relaxing in ways he hadn’t realized were possible.
Dinner that evening startled him more than he cared to admit.
Not because of the food, though it was wonderful.
But because of the ritual.
The ease.
The expectation that everyone would gather together simply because they wanted to.
“You eat together every night?” he asked, unable to keep the surprise from his voice.
Estelle looked at him curiously as she set down another dish.
“Of course,” she said simply. “Don’t you?”
Theo hesitated.
And in that brief silence, far too much was revealed.
“Father is usually away,” he said, aiming for nonchalance and only partially succeeding. “Though I don’t mind. I often prefer eating alone.”
The words sounded sadder than they ever had in his own mind.
He noticed it immediately.
So did you.
So did Estelle.
Theo quickly forced a smile.
“Besides, the house elves keep me company. And when I’m in Italy, it’s complete madness. My family is…big and loud.”
That earned the laugh he’d been aiming for.
But Estelle’s gaze softened in a way that made Theo feel strangely exposed.
“Well,” she said gently, with such effortless sincerity that Theo nearly forgot how to breathe, “you’re always welcome at our table, Theo.”
Theo was not remotely prepared for how much that simple statement affected him.
It was such an ordinary kindness by most standards.
But to Theo, it felt extraordinary.
Later that evening, when Estelle presented him with a chocolate cake because you had mentioned it was his favorite, Theo genuinely didn’t know what to say.
No one had ever remembered something like that before.
At least, not without obligation.
Your home carved itself into him in quiet, dangerous ways.
And when you showed him the enchanted portrait hanging near the stairs, your voice softened as you pointed out your father.
“He’s why I want to be a healer,” you said. “I just…I don’t want anyone else to lose someone they love if I can help it.”
Theo looked at you then.
Really looked.
At your compassion. At your strength. Your aching softness.
“You’ll be brilliant,” he said quietly.
And though he didn’t say it aloud, Theo already knew.
You had begun healing parts of him long before either of you realized he was broken.
Present
July 16, 2003
The Biltmore — London, England
Theo was unraveling.
There was truly no elegant way to say it.
His suite looked like the aftermath of a natural disaster. Crystal glasses sat abandoned on various surfaces, one lamp had been knocked slightly askew, and expensive furniture was being subjected to the sort of pacing usually reserved for caged predators.
Theo himself was not faring much better.
His hair was thoroughly disheveled from repeatedly dragging his hands through it, his tie had long been discarded somewhere in the chaos, and his usually immaculate composure was hanging by an increasingly fragile thread.
“She never got it.”
Draco, who had arrived expecting perhaps standard sarcasm and maybe a moderate amount of firewhisky, blinked slowly.
“What?”
Theo turned toward his friends with the wild-eyed intensity of a man one inconvenience away from committing a felony.
“She never read the bloody letter.”
The room went completely silent.
Pansy, halfway through pouring herself a drink from Theo’s undoubtedly overpriced liquor cabinet, froze mid-motion and slowly lowered the bottle.
“I’m sorry,” she said carefully, with the dangerous calm of someone moments away from violence. “What?”
Theo’s voice cracked under the sheer force of the revelation.
“She thought I abandoned her.”
His breathing was uneven now, his words tumbling out faster.
“She thought I left and never looked back. She didn’t know. She never rejected me because she never knew.”
Enzo swore viciously under his breath.
Mattheo looked personally offended on Theo’s behalf, which was saying something considering Mattheo often looked vaguely homicidal as a baseline.
Draco’s expression darkened with startling speed.
“Cedric stole it,” he said almost disbelievingly. “He had to have.”
And Blaise, somehow the calmest person in the room despite the collective murderous energy building around him, simply leaned back in his chair and hummed.
“I vote poison.”
Pansy’s eyes widened with such theatrical fury that it was honestly terrifying.
“Oh, I’m going to curse his entire bloodline.”
“Bit dramatic,” Blaise mused.
“No,” Draco said flatly. “Actually, I think she’s underreacting.”
Mattheo cracked his knuckles. “We could always stage an unfortunate broom accident.”
“Vanishing his bones, then,” Pansy suggested. “One by one.”
“Messy,” Blaise said.
“Poison remains the cleanest option.”
Enzo sighed heavily, looking around at the increasingly unhinged suggestions with someone far too accustomed to this sort of chaos.
“We are not poisoning Cedric.”
“Or setting him on fire,” he added pointedly. “Salazar’s sake, use your heads.”
Theo, meanwhile, looked as though his entire understanding of the past year was actively combusting before his eyes.
For so long, he had survived by clinging to certainty.
You didn’t love him.
You had chosen someone else.
You were happier without him.
Those truths, however painful, had at least been stable.
They had given shape to his grief.
They had allowed him to bury hope before it could destroy him.
But now?
Now everything was collapsing.
Because if you had never truly rejected him…
If Cedric had manipulated the entire thing…
If Theo had lost you not because you didn’t love him, but because someone else had deliberately stolen your choice…
Then what the bloody hell had the last year even been?
“There’s still a chance,” Theo whispered.
The words were so quiet they almost didn’t sound real.
But they were.
And somehow, that fragile possibility seemed to shake him more than heartbreak ever had.
Mattheo’s expression shifted instantly, all sarcasm vanishing.
“Oh, mate.”
Theo let out a laugh then, but it sounded fractured. Like something painfully close to breaking apart.
“I’ve spent an entire year trying to kill this part of myself,” he admitted hoarsely. “Because I thought I had to.”
Pansy’s face softened in a way reserved only for the very few people she genuinely loved.
“Theo…”
His eyes were glassy now, his voice quieter.
“What if I was wrong?”
No one answered immediately.
Because beneath the jokes, beneath the murder plots and increasingly violent suggestions, every single person in that room understood exactly what this meant.
Theo had been grieving a future that may have been stolen from him.
And if there was even the slightest chance that future could still be reclaimed?
Cedric Diggory was extraordinarily lucky that Theo’s friends were, at least for the moment, exercising restraint.
“Well,” Blaise said finally, adjusting his cuffs with infuriating calm, “if there’s still a chance, then obviously we help you get her back.”
Draco nodded once, decisive.
“Preferably before Diggory does something even more insufferable.”
“Like breathe,” Pansy muttered.
“Or live,” Enzo surprisingly added.
Mattheo stood immediately.
“Right. We ride at dawn.”
“You don’t even own a horse,” Draco said.
“I’ll acquire one.”
Despite himself, Theo barked out a startle laugh.
And for the first time in a year, beneath the devastation and fury and unbearable vulnerability, something unfamiliar began to bloom.
Hope.
Terrifying. Fragile. Dangerous hope.
But hope nonetheless.
And Theodore Nott, for all his cynicism, had always been foolish enough to believe that some things were worth fighting for.
Especially when it came to you.
Present
July 16, 2003
The Biltmore — London, England
When the Floo finally flared to life, Theo was on his feet before his conscious thought could catch up.
For one horrible second, all he could think was please.
Please let it be you.
And then it was.
You stumbled out of the emerald flames soaked through, rainwater dripping from your coat onto polished floors, your hair damp and clinging to your cheeks. Your face was tearstained, your eyes swollen from crying, and you looked heartbreakingly exhausted.
But beneath all of it, Theo saw something that made his breath catch.
Peace.
Not because you were unhurt.
Not because this had been easy.
But because somewhere in the wreckage, you had finally found your answer.
“Y/N.”
Your name left him like a prayer. Like relief. Like something he had spent years aching to say without fear.
Your eyes found his instantly.
And for a moment, the world seemed to narrow into something achingly small. Just you. Just him. Just the unbearable weight of everything that had been lost and everything that still might be found.
Then, quietly, with a steadiness that somehow hurt more if you’d shattered completely, you said:
“Cedric asked me to marry him.”
Theo physically recoiled, like the words themselves had struck him.
His jaw dropped, his face draining of color.
“Don’t.”
It came out broken. Immediate. Instinctive.
Your brows lifted, though your expression remained soft.
“Don’t?”
Theo stepped toward you then, his voice rough with panic and longing and years of buried pining.
“Don’t marry him.”
Your lips parted slightly.
“Why not, Theo?”
And there it was.
The question that had haunted him for years.
The truth he had buried beneath sacrifice and silence and cowardice masquerading as selflessness.
Theo looked at you like his heart was splitting open.
“Because you know why.”
His voice cracked on the last word.
Because I love you.
Because I have always loved you.
Because losing you once nearly destroyed me, and I will not survive watching you choose someone else forever.
For a long while, you simply stared at him.
And then, with tears gathering once more in your eyes, you whispered:
“I suppose I do.”
Your shaking fingers reached into your coat pocket.
When you pulled out the letter, Theo’s entire body went still.
His letter.
The one he had poured his soul into.
The one that should’ve changed everything.
The parchment was worn now. The wax seal broken. The edges frayed and softened by handling that should’ve been yours from the beginning.
Theo looked physically ill.
Like seeing it in your hands was both salvation and devastation all at once.
“Cedric hid it from me for a year,” you said, your voice trembling with quiet fury and grief. “He took it from my bag that day on the train.”
Theo’s breathing turned shallow.
“He said he felt threatened by our friendship,” you continued, tears slipping free. “He said he knew he’d never stand a chance if you weren’t out of the picture.”
Theo closed his eyes briefly, anguish flashing across his face.
And then your voice broke entirely.
“The funny thing is…he was right.”
Theo’s eyes snapped back to yours.
“What are you saying, Y/N?”
Your breath hitched.
“When he proposed, he told me that if I said yes, I’d have to cut all ties with you.”
Theo looked like he might stop breathing altogether.
“And?”
You stared at him, your voice impossibly soft.
“I told him to go to hell.”
Theo looked at you as though the entire axis of his world had shifted.
“I picked you,” you whispered, your tears falling freely now. “I picked you before I even read the letter.”
Theo’s face crumpled.
For years, he had convinced himself that loving you quietly was noble. That stepping aside had been the right thing. That your happiness mattered more than his own.
And now, standing before him soaked from the rain and trembling from heartbreak, you were telling him that even without proof, even without certainty, even after everything…
You had still chosen him.
“Y/N…” he breathed, sounding utterly wrecked.
“I was never going to be happy with him,” you said, your voice shaking but sure. “Not the way I am with you.”
Theo’s tears finally spilled.
“I’m so sorry,” he choked out. “I should’ve told you the truth. The day before I left for Rome, I almost did. I wanted to. Merlin, I wanted to. But I thought…”
He broke off, shaking his head.
“I thought loving you meant letting you go if it made your life easier.”
Your expression softened with devastating tenderness.
“Why would you do that?” you whispered, your voice trembling now. “Why would you sacrifice your own happiness for me?”
Theo’s gaze never wavered.
“Because you are my happiness.”
Your face crumpled, utterly heartbroken.
“Don’t you know that you’re mine, too?”
Theo let out a watery, broken laugh.
“No,” he whispered. “I was a bloody idiot.”
Despite everything, a small, tearful laugh escaped you too.
“Yes,” you sniffled. “You really were.”
And somehow, that tiny shared breath of humor amidst a year of pain felt like healing too.
Then you stepped closer.
Theo immediately tensed, like he still couldn’t quite believe this was real.
“Y/N, listen,” he said shakily. “You don’t have to…”
“Shh, Teddy.”
The nickname shattered whatever fragile composure he had left.
Your hands rose to cradle his face, warm and trembling, your thumbs brushing away tears he hadn’t even realized were falling.
And then, finally.
You kissed him.
Softly.
Tenderly.
Not with desperation.
Not with uncertainty.
But with the quiet, soul-deep certainty of something that had always belonged to you finally being reclaimed.
Theo made the most heartbreakingly fragile sound against your lips.
Like relief.
Like grief.
Like coming home after years spent wandering.
His hands found your waist carefully, reverently, as though he still feared this might vanish if he held on too tightly.
“I love you,” you whispered against his mouth, your voice trembling with emotion. “I’m here. For always.”
Theo’s entire face crumpled.
“I love you too,” he breathed, tears slipping freely now. “I’ve loved you since the moment you held my hand in that carriage.”
His forehead fell against yours.
“I was so fucking terrified,” he admitted, voice shaking. “But even then…I knew. I knew that somehow, as long as you were beside me, I’d be okay.”
Your own tears fell harder then.
Because you knew.
You had always known.
And maybe that was the tragedy of it all.
That two people could love each other so completely and still lose years to fear, timing, and silence.
But maybe it was also the miracle.
That despite everything, despite heartbreak and distance and mistakes and other people and shattered expectations…
You still found your way back.
You kissed him again.
And again.
Each kiss softer than the last, yet somehow deeper.
Years of longing melted between trembling breaths and tearstained cheeks.
Every missed chance.
Every unsent truth.
Every moment of loving each other in silence.
It all unraveled there, in the warmth of his hands and the softness of your mouth and the quiet little sighs neither of you could hold back.
It wasn’t perfect.
It was better than perfect.
It was real.
Raw and aching and hard-won.
And as Theo held you like he had spent years starving for this exact moment, and you melted into him like your soul had finally stopped searching, it felt less like the beginning of something new.
And more like returning to something that had always been yours.
Like daylight after years of believing love could only survive in shadows.
Like golden warmth after endless winter.
Like home.
And for the first time, neither of you let go.
Present
July 17, 2003
The Biltmore — London, England
Later, when the storm of tears had softened into something quieter, something sweeter, Theo led you into his room like he was guiding you toward something sacred.
Not rushed.
Not frantic.
Reverent.
As though every step mattered.
As though you mattered.
His hands never left you for long. Fingers brushing yours, knuckles skimming your cheek, his palm pressed gently to the small of your back like he needed the constant reminder that you were truly here.
That this was real.
That after years of missed chances, grief, and unbearable longing, you were finally his to hold.
And perhaps more importantly…
He was finally yours.
The bedroom was softly lit, golden in that intimate way only late evening could manage. Rain still tapped gently against the windows, but inside, the world had narrowed to warmth, quiet breaths, and Theo.
Only Theo.
You stood in front of him for a moment, suddenly shy despite knowing him better than anyone.
Theo noticed immediately.
“Y/N,” he murmured, his voice impossibly tender as his fingers tilted your chin upward. “Don’t hide from me now.”
Your breath caught.
“I’m not hiding.”
“No?” he teased softly, though his gaze remained achingly warm. “Then why do you look nervous as if you haven’t had me wrapped around your finger since we were thirteen?”
Despite everything, a watery laugh escaped you.
Theo’s expression softened further, somehow.
“Cara mia,” he whispered, pressing a slow kiss to your forehead. “I’ve spent years dreaming of this. Of you. You could never disappoint me.”
And just like that, the last fragile thread of uncertainty unraveled.
You kissed him first this time.
Soft.
Certain.
A promise.
Theo exhaled shakily against your lips, like even now he was overwhelmed by the reality of you choosing him.
His hands slid carefully along your waist, never demanding.
Always asking.
Always cherishing.
He touched you like a man piecing together something precious he had once believed lost forever.
Every kiss he pressed to your skin felt intentional.
Your temple.
Your jaw.
Your throat.
Your shoulder.
Each one said what words often failed to.
I’m here.
I’ve got you.
I love you.
By the time your dress slipped from your shoulders, Theo’s hands were trembling.
Not from uncertainty.
From awe.
His lips followed every newly bared inch of skin with slow, worshipful devotion, as though he had spent years imagining this exact moment and intended to savor every second now that it was finally his.
“Merlin,” he breathed, almost reverently.
You flushed beneath the intensity of it, but before doubt could creep in, Theo’s hands were there, grounding you.
“So beautiful,” he whispered against your collarbone, his voice rougher now. “Mine.”
Your fingers threaded through his curls as you exhaled shakily.
“Always yours.”
Something heated and deeply emotional flickered through him at.
Not possession.
Recognition.
Like some lost part of himself had finally found its way home.
You reached for him then, fingers sliding across warm skin, helping rid him of the last barriers between you.
And when you finally settled together, skin to skin, it didn’t feel foreign.
It felt inevitable.
Like coming home.
Theo’s forehead rested against yours as he took his time, giving you every opportunity to slow him, stop him, change your mind.
But you only smiled, your fingers brushing through his curls with quiet certainty.
“Teddy,” you whispered softly.
His eyes fluttered open immediately.
“I’m yours.”
Theo looked utterly shattered by that alone.
“Y/N…”
“I always have been,” you said, your voice trembling with emotion rather than fear. “Even if it took me this long to realize it.”
You cupped his face, directing his gaze fully back to yours.
“I belong to you. Completely. I always will.”
Something inside him broke beautifully then.
Like the final fractured pieces of him had finally been set right.
His kisses turned almost desperate after that, but never careless. He loved you like he had been starving for years and had finally been given permission to feast.
With devotion.
With patience.
With years of restrained adoration finally given shape.
Every movement was careful, attentive, like he was memorizing not just your body but your heart.
Theo lined himself up at your entrance, his eyes watching, wanting, waiting, while your legs wrapped around him.
He slid in slowly, allowing you time to adjust as he whispered sweet nothings into your ear. Theo released a ragged breath as you clenched around him, your delicious heat enveloping him like he had always belonged there.
And when your breath caught, when his name fell from your lips in that soft, vulnerable way that belonged only to him, Theo answered each sound with praise.
“That’s it, amore.”
“So perfect.”
“My good girl.”
“So lovely for me.”
“You fit me like you were made for this.”
And perhaps worse, perhaps better, was how true it felt.
Like every fractured piece of both your souls finally found where it belonged.
Theo’s affection was endless.
His mouth.
His hands.
His whispered praise.
Every kiss he pressed to your skin felt like a love letter years in the making.
There was no part of you he didn’t adore.
No part of this he took for granted.
He touched you with the tenderness of a man who understood exactly what it meant to nearly lose something sacred.
And as your bodies finally moved together in perfect, aching harmony, there was no awkwardness.
No uncertainty.
Only rightness.
Like stars falling neatly into their constellations.
Like every moment apart had only been leading you here.
To this.
To each other.
You clung to him, your nails grazing his shoulders as emotion overwhelmed you almost as much as sensation.
“I love you,” you gasped.
Theo’s answering sound was nearly wrecked.
“Say it again,” he whispered fervently, kissing every tear from your cheeks. “I want to hear you say it again, bella.”
“I love you, I love you, I love you,” you repeated. “I love you so much, Theo.”
Theo released a shaky breath.
“I love you too,” he said. “I love you so fucking much, Y/N.”
When you finally came undone together, it didn’t feel like falling apart.
It felt like becoming.
Like years of grief, longing, and misplaced timing had all finally led to this singular, breathtaking moment where nothing was missing anymore.
Where neither of you were incomplete.
And when Theo held you through it, trembling slightly beneath the enormity of what this truly meant, you understood something with absolute certainty.
You were not his almost.
Not his lost chance.
Not his heartbreak.
You were his.
And he was yours.
For always.
Afterward, neither of you moved much.
Your limbs tangled effortlessly beneath linen sheets, breaths slowly evening as Theo gathered you impossibly closer, as though there was still space left to erase.
You rested against his chest, boneless and glowing, his heartbeat steady beneath your cheek.
Theo, however, couldn’t stop touching you.
Soft strokes along your spine.
Fingertips tracing idle patterns over your skin.
Kisses pressed to your shoulder, your temple, your hairline.
As though reassuring himself over and over that you were still there.
That he had not imagined this.
That after all these years, you had truly chosen him.
“You okay?” he whispered eventually, his voice soft with lingering awe.
You tipped your head back just enough to smile sleepily at him.
“Better than okay.”
Theo looked at you then with such overwhelming tenderness it nearly stole your breath all over again.
“You’re really here,” he murmured, almost to himself.
You frowned softly.
“Teddy?”
He hesitated.
And for perhaps the first time that night, genuine fear slipped through.
“I’m afraid to fall asleep.”
Your expression softened instantly.
“Why?”
His fingers brushed carefully through your hair.
“Because I’ve wanted this for so long,” he admitted quietly. “And some part of me still thinks this is all just a cruel dream that I’ll eventually wake up from, alone and without you.”
Your heart ached so fiercely you thought it might split.
So you rose just enough to kiss him.
Slowly.
Deliberately.
A vow.
“This isn’t a dream,” you whispered against his lips.
Theo’s breath trembled.
“This is real.”
Another kiss.
“This is love.”
His arms tightened around you like instinct.
“And this,” you whispered, smiling softly as tears pricked both your eyes, “is for always.”
For the first time in years, Theo let himself believe it.
And as sleep finally claimed him with you safe in his arms, Theodore Nott realized that some loves weren’t fleeting.
the one where theo's high on cough syrup (a Cough Syrup by Young the Giant inspired fic)
Theo gets high on his pining for you cough syrup.
Sister fic: the one where you're not feeling like yourself (coming soon!)
a/n: I am NOT. a doctor. I think it goes without saying do NOT overdose on medication :) also im soooo excited for the sister fic UGHH they're going to complement each other so well im so excited!!!! anyways enjoyyy and thank u for reading <33
tropes/warnings: sick!Theo, slight hurt/comfort, mild descriptions of a bad case of the flu, comedy (I try to be funny pls be nice 😔😔)
Common symptoms of suburbia-itis include, but are not limited to, headaches, boredom, aversion to homogeneity, and a funny feeling in the back of your throat. Refer to your local physician for more information.
Theo woke up feeling horrible.
Not that this was a new development of late - he had spent the past couple of days walking around with a raw, scratchy throat and a hacking cough that did nothing to help it. Madam Pomfrey diagnosed him with hay fever, but as the only person privy to the thoughts that kept drifting towards a certain Head Girl, Theo felt he knew better.
Theo's cough wasn't the only irritating thing choking him this week, though. On this particular morning, he woke to an insistent tapping on his face.
"You got to take your - hello. Hello.” Blaise tried pulling one of Theo's eyes open. Theo rolled over, pulling the covers over his head, grumbling underneath his breath. Blaise gave the covers a solid yank.
“Good morning, sunshine. Time to take your cough syrup.”
Theo groaned into his pillow as Blaise disappeared into the bathroom to fix his tie. Ugh. The blasted thing. Sticky, saccharine, neon pink syrup. It had to be his least favourite part about falling sick.
Half-asleep, Theo fumbled for the bottle on his nightstand, pouring out what he guessed to be a reasonable dose - that is, as good a guess one could make with their eyes still glued shut.
Stupid cough syrup. Bitter and viscous and yucky. Just thinking about it made him nauseous. Euch, it was like he could feel its awful, honey-thick texture on his tongue right this second.
Theo settled back into his pillows comfortably. Hmm, this was nice. Bed cosy, thoughts foggy enough to be comforting, regret just out of focus. Maybe he could rest his eyes for a lit -
Theo felt his keys to the dorm hit him squarely in the cheek.
"Wha - "
His eyes flew open. In front of him, Mattheo was dressed in his Quidditch robes, making a mess of his nightstand, talking a mile a minute. It made Theo's head spin. He could barely keep up when his senses were at their best, let alone when dulled by antibiotics.
"Your meds," Mattheo enunciated, when Theo's expression remained clueless. "Take them. What is - it's the syrup, right?"
The cough syrup. Right. He was just about to take it.
"Snape's been on my ass to get you back on the pitch this week. Now drink."
Theo protested weakly as Mattheo forced the flimsy, plastic cup to his lips. Thankfully, taking the dose was enough to shut Mattheo up, and he was one foot out the door the next minute. Theo settled into his bed once again, eyes drooping shut.
Unfortunately, his shut-eye only lasted for what felt like a few minutes, before he was shaken awake once again.
"Theo - hey, buddy." Enzo was waving his cough syrup bottle in front of him. "It's time for your next dose."
Theo blinked blearily, dizzy with codeine. Again? So soon? How long had he been knocked out for?
He popped the bottle open for the third time in as many minutes. Man, at this rate, he'd better be spinning like a top by lunch, in the pink of health.
No amount of fight would keep his eyes open at this point. Theo barely managed to set the bottle down before sleep overtook him, dragging him down into a much-needed slumber.
Theodore Nott had a tendency to get sick thinking about you. That is to say, he made himself sick with his longing for you, whether it be through self-medication via alcohol or unadulterated nausea at the very thought of it. Many a night Theo spent trying to drown his sorrows in a bottle of firewhiskey.
"I'm never going to tell her,” Theo would bemoan to his long - long-suffering friends, “so she'll never find out, and she'll die never knowing, and nobody will ever compare to her, so I'll die alone. Oh, Salazar, I'm going to be sick."
And Theo would lurch towards the toilet bowl once again.
When you were together, there was a music only Theo could hear. Simply being in your orbit was enough. Even from opposite ends of the Great Hall, when your eyes met, there would be a warm, buttery feeling meting in his chest, pooling in his fingers and toes. Something about your smile - the one meant for him, and no one else - made him feel like you were the only two people in the world.
When Theo had first noticed it, he hadn’t thought much of it. You had to be just one of the many girls he could build this comfortable type of rapport with. The years passed. Your classes changed. Theo met a whole bunch of girls since then. And yet, when your paths crossed, Theo was unpleasantly reminded that he had yet to meet anyone half as magnetic as you. It was jarring, really, the way a split second meeting in the corridor could send his head reeling with adrenaline, and then the crushing dissatisfaction.
So, all things considered, it wasn’t like Theo hadn’t thought about it. Why, every now and then he’d be struck by a longing so intense that his heads would be filled with nothing but thoughts about it. About you. About you, and him, living out your days together, in some place that didn’t yet exist.
But every time he’d daydream, he’d arrive at the same conclusion. There were just too many obstacles. Too many things that could go wrong. And if he did tell her, then what? What if she didn't feel the same? Even if she did, his family would never accept her. You would always be considered beneath, less than, and he could never condemn you to that sort of life.
But there was a burning underneath Theo's eyelids every time he closed his eyes. He didn't like the life he would be walking into. He missed the life he was leaving behind, however terrible it would be.
"Theo? Are you - "
Mattheo stuck his head into their dorm, his voice dying at his lips. In the center of the room was his best friend with his face glued to a...a fish tank? He shuffled in uncertainly, balancing Theo's lunch tray carefully.
"What d'you got there, mate?"
Theo stepped back, but his eyes still followed a stream of bubbles emanating from one of their mouths, mesmerised. "Fish."
"I see that." Mattheo hesitated. "Where'd you get the fish tank from?"
Theo waved, annoyed, like it hardly mattered.
"Look at the fish, Mattheo. They're staring at me." He stepped close once again, his nose flush with the glass. "Why are the fish staring at me? Do they always do that?"
Mattheo was at a loss for words.
“…where did the fish come from?”
Theo stepped back and gave Mattheo the dirtiest look he could manage with his sinuses this stopped up.
“Oh, I see how it is. It's always, 'why is there a fish tank in our room' and 'did you steal fish from the Black Lake' and never 'wow, Theo, I really like what you've done with the room.'"
“You stole fish from the Black Lake?”
Theo huffed irritably, as if that piece of information was of little consequence. He looked back at the tank, tracing the fish's path longingly.
"Do you think Y/N likes fish?" he wondered. Mattheo perked up, somehow even more alarmed now.
"Uh, I don't think Y/N would want this aquarium," he
Theo scoffed as he scooped up the tank with surprising strength. Mattheo raised his eyebrows. Just this morning, he was practically bedridden.
"Well," sniffled Theo indignantly, "shows what you know."
Mattheo watched Theo with a strained patience. Theo sniffled.
"It's nothing."
"Okay, Th-"
"You know nothing."
"Yeah, I got that."
Mildly peeved, he gently pried Theo's fingers off the aquarium. Mattheo glanced at the door helplessly, and then at the tank, and then at Theo's red, runny nose. He ran a hand through his hair distractedly.
"Fine. We'll give it to her. You...wait here. I'm going to go look for Blaise to, er, help us move it."
Blaise walked into the dorm, ready to toss his book bag away and knock out for the next three to four hours. Instead, he paused at the sight of Enzo standing thoughtfully at Theo's nightstand, a short distance away from a suspiciously well-maintained aquarium.
"What did you do now?" he asked wearily.
Enzo lifted an empty plastic bottle, the edges still rimmed with a tinge of pink.
"Theo’s cough syrup. It’s almost finished."
Blaise frowned.
"How? He hates the thing."
They were interrupted by the muffled sound of rapid footsteps approaching. Mattheo burst in, chest heaving, hands on his knees as he struggled to catch his breath.
"Guys, guys, there you are. I...I think....Theo drank all of his cough syrup."
Mattheo straightened, his face still lightly flushed.
"As in, the entire bottle."
Enzo held up the empty bottle. "You mean this bottle?"
"Yes, yes, that's the one. And he got this aquarium from Merlin know where - "
"This aquarium?"
"Yes, exactly. And he was acting all loopy and - "
Mattheo paused and looked around the dorm room.
"Where's Theo?"
Blaise and Enzo gave him a look. Mattheo deflated.
"...he's gone, isn't he?"
"Yep."
Theo was sitting in the Great Hall, oblivious to the wide berth the other Slytherins were giving him - one of them was even glaring at him with his shirt pulled over his nose. No, he was occupied by a certain witch, listlessly pushing her rice and beans around with a fork. He hadn't seen you around lately, so he wasn't expecting to see you around today, but now he was glad of the whim that possessed him to drag himself down for lunch.
Unless, of course, he was dreaming. Theo watched you take a deep breath as you stared morosely at your plate. He frowned. Maybe it was the harsh lights of the hall washing you out, but your face looked a little pinched, and your movements were a little more sluggish than they typically were. Theo didn't think he would imagine you like that.
Before he realised what he was doing, Theo was climbing out of his seat and walking towards yours. As he neared, you glanced up and put your fork down.
"Theodore," you said, confused. Theo winced internally. It stung to hear you use his full name, so distant, so impersonal. Still, he was a little soothed by the worried crease between your eyebrows.
"Are you alright? Is everything okay?"
Theo opened his mouth to insist he was fine, never been better, when a terrible, inopportune coughing fit crawled up his throat. You winced as Theo hacked away, patting his arm, looking around over the top of his head.
"Oh, you poor thing. I think I saw Mattheo somewhere - "
"No." Theo grabbed your wrist with a feverish urgency.
"There's something I got to tell you, Y/N. I've got to tell you or I'm going to burst."
You looked alarmed.
"What?"
Theo licked his dry, cracked lips, searching for the right words.
"Life's short."
You sympathetically patted Theo's hand. "Okay, you're delirious." You craned your neck again. "Where is Mattheo? I swear, he was running around here just a second ago."
"No," Theo insisted. Your eyes snapped back to his.
"I have a point, I promise." Theo closed his eyes and thought hard.
"I meant, life's too short...to care about things that aren't worth caring about."
He opened his eyes and looked at you meaningfully. Unfortunately, you were still completely lost.
"Theo, how sick are you?"
Theo scowled.
"Who told you I was sick? Was it Mattheo? It was Mattheo, wasn’t it? No, it’s okay, you don’t have to protect him, just tell me. Or don’t tell me. Just - just nod.”
Your gaze drifted from Theo's pajamas back to his face. You pressed the back of your hand to his clammy forehead. It took everything in his willpower not to lean into your touch. You pulled your hand away, concerned.
"Theo, you’re sick as a dog. Will you go to bed if I tuck you in?"
Theo gave a long exhale, trying to slow his hammering heart, which threatened to burst out of his chest.
"Yeah, sure, whatever," he said, after a too-long pause. "That's cool with me, I guess."
The corner of your mouth twitched. You abandoned your lunch and helped Theo back up the stairs. Whatever high that had possessed Theo to go up all those spinning, spiralling staircases was starting to come down. As you gently helped him back into bed, his weak muscles protesting the unexpected excursion, his head swam dangerously.
As Theo settled in, you pulled his covers up, taking a seat on his bed next to him. The two of you sat in a comfortable silence, sneaking glances at each other as the weight of old memories pressed in on you. Up close, Theo could see the dark circles under your eyes, and the gaunt pallor to your face.
"Are you okay?"
You looked stunned.
"Wh - me? Yeah, I'm - of course I'm fine. Why do you ask?"
Theo's brow furrowed.
"I dunno. Just...you look a little pale."
You nervously laced your fingers together.
"Oh, you know. The weather."
"It's summer."
You hesitated.
"I've just been so busy with Head Girl work."
"Oh." Theo wondered why you were lying to him. "Okay."
He smoothed his sheets awkwardly, anything to fill the silence.
"Erm," he said after a while, "don't be too busy."
Maybe it was just a figment of his cough-syrup-addled imagination, but he could have sworn there was a fondness in the way you were looking at him.
"I try not to," you said quietly. You sighed.
"But sometimes it gets out of hand. Sometimes it's all I have to fill my days with."
"You can fill it with me."
You gave Theo a sidelong look.
"Your days, I mean," Theo hurriedly clarified. "Your life. You could fill your life with my company. Am I making sense?"
Theo shook his head.
"I think I've had too much cough syrup."
You eyed the near-empty syrup bottle on his nightstand worriedly.
"I'll say. Maybe lay off of it for today. Or the week."
"Yes, boss."
Your mouth pulled into a sudden smile, as if caught unawares. Making you laugh instantly made Theo feel lighter. That, and the way you were dragging your thumb across his knuckles. It soothed him.
"I miss this," you said after a beat.
"Miss what?"
Your head was bowed, hidden from Theo as you watched the patterns your thumb traced on the back of his hand.
"You know. Your company," you said, with a teasing smile. "Just…talking to you." You rolled your eyes half heartedly.
"I mean, you probably don’t remember, but we used to talk all the time."
It was a good thing Theo was already lying down. And that you didn't see the way he was gawking at you.
"I remember," he choked out with a forced casualness. I think about it all the time, Theo wanted to say. I think about how every second away from you is one less second I get to spend laughing, talking, and sitting with you.
Your eyes wandered around his dorm room, at the books and knick-knacks strewn all around, your eyes settling on its newest addition.
"That's some aquarium you got there."
"Do you like it?" Theo asked hopefully, in a strained voice. But before he could offer it to you, the door flew open. You jumped up, pulling your hands out of Theo's, much to his disappointment.
"Oh, look at that," Blaise said dryly, tossing his keys on the mantel, "Theo's here. Just like I said he would be."
Blaise glanced at you, as if having only just noticed you.
"Oh. Hi, Y/N," he said warmly. "How're you doing?"
"Good. Great. I was just - " You gestured towards the door awkwardly. You shuffled past the rest of Theo's roommates as they filed in. They mumbled a couple of greetings, and you waved them off. You put your hand on the doorknob, looking in one last time.
"Well, nice seeing you all," you said. Your eyes met Theo's.
"Feel better soon, Theo."
"You too," Theo said, somewhat stupidly. Your lips quirked at that.
"I already do."
You turned and left, the boys listening to your footsteps fade away. Blaise pulled his coat off.
“Anyway, I’m not going to say I told you so, but - "
Blaise yelped as he got shoved down the dormitory stairs. Theo helpfully threw a pillow after him.
He turned to his roommates, clearing his throat.
"So, what'd I miss?"
bonus
Theo woke with a start to a knife-like pain searing his throat. He tried his best to stifle the coughing fit that was taking over.
Theo blinked, sobered, painfully aware of every ache, every pain in his body. Turning onto his side, his mind slowly sifted through the syrupy, unreal memories of the day. Of seeing you. Of meeting you. Of making an absolute fool of himself in front of you.
Of letting you slip through his fingers once again.
The misery was inescapable now in the dead of the night, alone, while the rest of his roommates were blissfully asleep. The desire, the want, the ache that the cough syrup had dulled returned in full force. He took in a shuddering breath, and there it was again - that tickle in his throat, forcing itself out. He coughed weakly, as if his body didn't have the strength to manage a proper one.
His eyes wandered to his nightstand, where his new bottle of cough syrup stood. With a considerable effort, Theo slowly sat himself up. He reached for the bottle and, with trembling hands, poured himself another dose.
Just one more spoon of cough syrup. One more spoon couldn't hurt.
“cause they say it’s a virtue to not let good love go to waste.”
word count: 3,661.
summary: as old feelings become impossible to ignore, you and theo are finally forced to confront the painful misunderstanding that changed everything between you. what began as a harmless night quickly unravels into a truth neither of you were prepared to face.
author’s note:🧍♀️me standing here knowing you all very much want to throw tomatoes at me for leaving this chapter on a cliffhanger. it's worth it though, I promise. now that the truth is out, what do we think will happen next?
♫ begged - olivia rodrigo. nav. chapters. more theo.
Present
June 30, 2003
The Biltmore — London, England
Dear Bella,
It’s a strange thing, falling back into loving you so easily.
A year apart should’ve changed something. It should’ve made me forget the little things. The way you take too much honey in your tea. The way your nose scrunches when you laugh too hard. The way your hand always finds mine when I need grounding, as though your soul knows mine is unraveling even before I do.
But it hasn’t.
Loving you is muscle memory.
It’s instinct and marrow and breath. It’s as natural to me as breathing. I spent a year trying to carve it out of myself, trying to become someone who could survive without you, only to find that every fractured piece still belongs to you anyway.
And now you’re here.
Back in my orbit. Back in my home. Back in the spaces I swore would never know your warmth again because it hurt too much to imagine.
I should be grateful, and I am.
But I’m scared, too.
Because each smile, each touch, each quiet moment beside you feels dangerously too close to before. Like slipping into an old jumper that still smells of home. Like pretending we are untouched by grief, by silence, by all the ways I failed you.
Part of me, the cowardly part, hopes we never speak of it.
That perhaps we can simply continue on like this. You beside me. Nonna healing. Our friendship stitched together so gently that we never have to tug at the seams and risk watching it all unravel again.
But I know better.
You deserve answers.
And I know, sooner or later, you will ask for them.
I only hope that when you do, the truth doesn’t cost me you a second time.
For Always,
Teddy
Present
July 3, 2003
Nott Manor — Dorset, England
The carriage ride to Dorset was far too quiet.
Not uncomfortable, never that, but weighted. The sort of silence that came when something heavy sat between two people, acknowledged but not yet named.
Theo’s fingers were tense beside him, curled tightly enough that his knuckles had gone pale.
Without thinking, you reached for his hand.
His breath caught.
For a moment, you were thirteen again. Sitting in that rattling Hogwarts carriage with autumn fog pressed to the windows, his small trembling hand clasped tightly in yours as skeletal wings moved in the distance.
Only this time, he was no frightened boy.
And yet, somehow, he still held your hand exactly the same way. Like you were the only thing keeping him anchored.
“I’m here,” you said softly.
Theo looked down at your joined hands, then at you.
“I know.”
Nott Manor loomed like a wound against the grey sky.
Tall iron gates, dead gardens, dark stone stained by generations of cruelty. Even abandoned, it felt oppressive. Like the house itself remembered every scream buried within its walls.
The Ministry officials carried on with clipped professionalism, assessing the estate’s value, documenting cursed artifacts, and discussing property transfers.
You barely heard any of it.
Your attention remained fixed on Theo.
His shoulders were rigid, his expression unreadable, but you knew him too well. You could see the war raging behind his eyes.
A week ago, he had received a letter from the Ministry stating that his presence was required for the official magical transfer of Nott Manor. You insisted on coming with him. It had been a point of contention between you for the past few days. Theo insisted that he could do it alone, but when you reminded him that he didn’t have to, the argument died within him.
It helped that Nonna had smacked him upside the head and told him to stop being so bloody foolish. In the end, he was grateful that you had gone with him. It only felt natural to face all the horrors he had overcome with you standing beside him.
When the final signatures were complete and the officials apparated away, silence settled heavily over the grounds.
Theo stood behind you at the front steps, staring at the manor with an expression that wasn’t quite grief.
It was release.
“What happens now?” you asked quietly.
Theo exhaled slowly. “Now, I tear it down.”
You blinked, glancing at him. “All of it?”
He nodded. “Every stone.”
There was something deeply poetic in that. A son dismantling the legacy of the father who had spent his life destroying him.
Then Theo turned toward you, his gaze softer now.
“Though,” he said, almost casually, “I thought perhaps one part of it might be worth rebuilding.”
You frowned slightly. “What do you mean?”
Theo’s mouth curved into a small, tentative smile.
“Your blood curse research.”
Your breath caught.
“Theo…”
“You’ll want a proper facility one day,” he said. “A place for research. Treatment. Somewhere people who have been failed by old magic can finally be helped.”
You stared at him, unable to speak.
“Nott Manor has been steeped in darkness for far too long,” he said, his voice gentler now. “I think it’s time we finally bring light back into it.”
Your eyes burned instantly.
For once, words failed you.
So instead, you threw your arms around him.
And Theo held you like it was the easiest thing in the world.
Present
July 11, 2003
Nott Manor — Dorset, England
When Nonna was finally cleared to return home, the entire ward seemed to breathe easier.
She flirted shamelessly with her discharge healer, declared for what must’ve been the hundredth time that British tea was an insult to civilization, and loudly informed everyone that she planned to live long enough to see Theo married, preferably to someone intelligent enough to keep him in line.
You laughed so hard you nearly cried.
For a little while, it was easy to get swept up in her warmth. Easy to focus on her sharp wit, her dramatic complaints, and the undeniable relief that she was going to be alright.
But beneath all of it, there was something bittersweet curling quietly in your chest.
This chapter was ending.
Outside her room, once the final paperwork had been signed and the healers had gone over every last instruction twice, the corridor fell strangely quiet.
Theo turned to you then, and before you could think too hard about it, he pulled you into his arms.
He held you carefully. Like he was handling something precious. Something he was still a little afraid he might lose.
And maybe that’s why your breath caught.
You went willingly, your arms sliding around him as naturally as they always had. Your cheek pressed against his chest, and beneath your ear, his heartbeat was steady and strong.
For the first time in what felt like forever, you felt yourself stop thinking.
You simply stood there, held.
And Merlin, it was terrifying.
Because being close to Theo had always felt like this. Like stepping off something enormous and somehow knowing he would catch you before you shattered.
It was overwhelming and comforting all at once. Like grief and peace had somehow learned to coexist in the same space.
His chin brushed softly over your hair.
“Thank you,” he said, his voice quieter than you were used to.
He said it like you wouldn’t have gone through hell and back for him. Did go through hell and back before crawling toward him again. Toward home.
“You never have to thank me.”
Your voice came out softer too, thick with something you weren’t ready to name.
Still, neither of you moved.
For one fragile moment, it felt like the rest of the world had simply disappeared.
Then reality returned all at once.
From farther down the corridor, Cedric stood watching.
His expression was carefully composed by the time you stepped away, polite enough that most people wouldn’t think twice.
But you knew him well enough by now to notice the tension in his jaw. The stiffness in his shoulders.
Theo, thankfully, seemed oblivious.
Cedric offered Nonna a courteous farewell, smiled where appropriate, and played his part well.
But later, when you returned to your office to finish chart updates, the tension he had been swallowing all day finally surfaced.
“You seem awfully close again.”
His tone was light, almost teasing, but something underneath it felt sharp.
You looked up from your paperwork, already tired.
“Theo is my best friend.”
Cedric gave a short laugh, though there was no humor in it. “Funny.”
Your brows furrowed. “What is?”
He leaned against the doorframe, arms folded.
“Best friends don’t usually look at each other like that.”
Your stomach tightened. “Like what?”
For a second, something flickered across his face. Frustration, maybe. Hurt.
But just as quickly, it was gone.
“Forget it.”
He pushed off the frame and stepped closer, smoothing his expression into something more neutral.
“I made reservations for dinner tomorrow.”
Guilt tugged at you automatically, though it felt weaker than it once had.
“I can’t,” you said gently. “Hermione and Padma are coming over, remember? I told you.”
The shift in him was immediate, even if subtle.
His jaw flexed.
“Right,” he said, though his tone was flat. “Of course.”
“Cedric…”
You weren’t even entirely sure what you meant to say.
Sorry?
Please don’t do this?
I’m trying?
But he was already stepping back.
“Another time.”
The office door shut behind him a little too firmly.
For a long moment, you simply stood there in the silence.
And for the first time, the guilt you usually felt didn’t come rushing in after him.
Present
July 12, 2003
Your Flat — Primrose Hill, London
You had insisted on hosting.
After everything Hermione and Padma had done over the past few weeks, from covering shifts to helping monitor Nonna’s treatment to simply being there when you felt like you might collapse under the weight of it all, cooking for them felt like the very least you could do.
So your flat was warm with candlelight, the scent of garlic and rosemary filling the kitchen, and a bottle of good wine already breathing on the counter by the time Hermione arrived.
She stepped inside with dessert in hand and an amused smile.
“You know,” she said, slipping off her coat, “most people just send thank you cards.”
You grinned, taking the dessert from her.
“And deprive myself of feeding my favorite witches? Never.”
Hermione laughed softly, leaning over to kiss your cheek.
Padma arrived shortly after, carrying an assortment of expensive cheese and looking deeply unimpressed with the state of her evening.
You barely got the door shut before narrowing your eyes.
“What happened?”
Padma sighed the long-suffering sigh of a woman truly burdened.
“Blaise Zabini happened.”
Hermione immediately brightened in a way that could only mean trouble.
“Oh no.”
“Oh yes,” Padma said darkly. “Another bouquet.”
You blinked. “Another?”
Padma fixed you both with a look.
“This one sang.”
For a moment, there was silence.
Then you nearly inhaled your drink.
Hermione was already laughing too hard to be helpful.
“Not just sang,” she corrected through her laughter. “They harmonized.”
Padma looked genuinely offended all over again.
“They were outside my office.”
“Oh, that’s horrifying,” you said, though you were grinning far too hard for your sympathy to be believable.
Padma dropped dramatically into one of your dining chairs.
“And then, because public humiliation wasn’t enough, I got home to find earrings.”
Your brows shot up.
“Jewelry?”
Padma groaned.
“Custom.”
Hermione clasped a hand over her heart.
“That’s absurdly romantic.”
“It’s absurdly excessive,” Padma shot back.
You leaned against the kitchen counter, swirling your wine with far too much amusement.
“He’s wearing you down.”
“He is not.”
“Oh, come on,” you laughed. “You don’t keep the earrings if he’s not at least making progress.”
Padma pointed at you accusingly.
“They matched my favorite sari.”
Hermione gasped.
“Oh, he’s good.”
“He’s manipulative.”
“He’s thoughtful,” Hermione corrected.
“He’s rich,” Padma muttered.
You were still laughing as you plated dinner.
“And yet somehow,” you said lightly, “you aren’t as impervious as you think to the infamous Zabini charm. It’s working, isn’t it?”
Padma’s scowl deepened.
“It’s not.”
Neither you nor Hermione believed her for a second.
Dinner itself was exactly what you had hoped for.
For the first time in what felt like ages, your flat was full of laughter instead of worry. Between bites of pasta and generous pours of wine, conversation flowed effortlessly.
Hermione updated you both on her latest tea visit with Narcissa at Malfoy Manor, which somehow remained one of the more unexpected developments of adulthood.
“I still can’t believe Cissa asks for your opinions on centerpieces,” you said, laughing.
Hermione shrugged, entirely too casual about it.
“She values precision.”
Padma smirked.
“She likes Hermione because Hermione tells her when she’s wrong.”
“That too.”
You smiled into your glass.
It felt nice, this. To sit here with your friends, surrounded by warmth and normalcy after so much emotional turmoil.
But eventually, the conversation shifted.
It always did.
Hermione’s expression softened first.
“How are things with Cedric?”
Your smile faded a little.
“Rocky.”
Padma frowned immediately.
“Because of Theo?”
You sighed, setting your fork down.
“Yes.”
Neither of them interrupted.
You appreciated that.
“He’s been…off lately,” you admitted. “And I understand why.”
Hermione tilted her head slightly.
“Do you?”
You stared down at your plate for a moment.
“Before Theo came back, I was content.”
The words felt hollow even now.
You gave a small, humorless laugh.
“I had my career. My relationship. My plans.”
Padma stayed quiet, watching you carefully.
“I thought that was enough.”
Hermione’s voice was gentle.
“But?”
Your throat tightened.
“But I wasn’t happy.”
The admission settled over the table with surprising weight.
You exhaled shakily.
“Theo coming back…” You shook your head lightly. “He reminded me that there’s more to life than just tolerating it.”
Your fingers tightened around your wine glass.
“More than surviving. More than settling.”
Hermione reached for your hand without hesitation.
“This is the happiest we’ve seen you in a long time.”
Padma nodded. “She’s right.”
Your chest tightened unexpectedly.
Because they were right.
You were happier.
Even with the confusion. Even with the fear. Even with the ache of unanswered questions.
“I am happy,” you admitted quietly.
Then your voice softened.
“I’m just scared.”
Hermione’s thumb brushed over your knuckles.
“Of what?”
And there it was.
The real answer.
“Losing him again.”
Neither woman looked surprised.
Padma’s expression softened, some of her usual sharpness giving way to understanding.
Hermione spoke carefully, as though afraid to push too hard.
“Have you and Theo talked about what happens now?”
Your silence was immediate.
And telling.
Nonna was healed.
She was going home.
And with that came the inevitable truth neither of you had fully addressed.
“No,” you admitted.
Padma sighed, though not unkindly.
“Then you need to.”
You looked up, troubled.
“I know. We will eventually, it just hasn’t been the right time—“
“No,” Padma said more firmly. “Not eventually. Not when it’s comfortable. Now.”
Hermione nodded. “You both keep dancing around it.”
Padma leaned forward, her gaze unwavering. “You can’t build something real by pretending the ruins underneath it don’t exist.”
The words struck deeper than you wanted them to.
Because beneath all the healing, all the laughter, all the moments where it felt like maybe you had found your way back to each other…
There were still ruins.
Still unanswered pain.
Still the very real possibility that silence could destroy you both all over again.
“You need honesty,” Padma said softly now. “Even if it hurts.”
Hermione squeezed your hand.
“Especially then.”
For a long moment, you said nothing.
You simply sat there in the warmth of your home, surrounded by two friends who loved you enough to tell you the truth.
And deep down, you already knew they were right.
Present
July 15, 2003
The Leaky Cauldron — Diagon Alley, London
By the time the group finally spilled out of the Leaky Cauldron and into the cool London night, your cheeks hurt from laughing.
It had been the first real evening where old friendships and new dynamics had merged seamlessly. Somehow, against all odds, your worlds had joined together into something surprisingly natural.
Hermione and Pansy had argued over charity logistics.
Draco and Ron had nearly come to blows over Quidditch statistics.
Luna had spent twenty minutes explaining to Blaise why moon frogs were misunderstood creatures while Padma tried not to laugh.
And Theo, to your quiet relief, had fit right back into it all as though he had never left.
Watching him laugh with Mattheo, argue with Enzo, and exchange sharp insults with Draco felt strangely healing.
Like perhaps some fractured part of the universe was finally correcting itself.
As the others gradually peeled off in pairs and groups, saying their goodnights and heading toward Apparition points or nearby Floo stations, you and Theo found yourselves walking side by side through softly lit cobbled streets.
The night air was crisp, carrying the distant hum of London around you.
For a while, it was easy.
Comfortable.
Theo shoved his hands into the pockets of his coat, shaking his head with genuine disbelief.
“Pansy and Longbottom?”
You laughed immediately.
Theo looked over at you, horrified.
“What in Salazar’s name did I miss while I was gone?”
Your smile widened.
“I think they make quite a cute couple, actually.”
Theo stopped walking for half a second just to stare at you.
“Cute?”
“Yes.”
“Y/N.”
You were already grinning too hard to be taken seriously.
Theo resumed walking beside you, clearly disturbed.
“What do they even talk about?”
You hummed thoughtfully.
“I don’t think they do much talking behind closed doors.”
Theo made a deeply offended noise.
“Ugh.”
He physically recoiled, sticking his tongue out dramatically.
“Please refrain from making me hurl my dinner all over the street.”
Your laughter rang louder this time, bright and unrestrained.
“Fine,” you said, looping your arm through his. “I’ll tell you when you’re older, Teddy.”
Theo groaned. “You’re deeply immature for a healer.”
“And yet you adore me.”
Theo glanced down at you then.
His expression softened in that quiet way of his. The one that almost felt more intimate than words.
“Unfortunately.”
Your chest squeezed unexpectedly.
Moments like this felt dangerous.
Like slipping back into something beloved and familiar without acknowledging how badly it had once shattered.
You could almost pretend, for a little while, that nothing had changed.
That the year apart hadn’t happened.
That there were no wounds still left unspoken between you.
But as you approached your building and the laughter between you gradually softened, reality began to creep back in.
Because beneath the teasing and warmth, there was still something unresolved hanging heavy in the air.
Theo felt it too.
You could tell by the subtle shift in him. The way his shoulders tensed almost imperceptibly.
The way his smile faded at the edges.
When you reached your front door, you turned to him.
“Theo.”
His expression immediately shifted.
Guarded. Not closed off entirely, but bracing.
You hated that.
“We need to talk.”
“Y/N…”
“No.”
Your voice was softer than you intended, but no less firm.
You couldn’t keep doing this.
Couldn’t keep accepting half-truths and careful avoidance simply because having him back felt better than losing him again.
“I mean it.”
Theo’s jaw tightened.
“Can’t we just… have tonight?”
The question was so quietly vulnerable that it almost broke your resolve.
Almost.
Your heart ached.
“Do you really think I haven’t wanted that?” you asked softly.
Theo’s silence was answer enough.
You swallowed hard.
“I want you in my life,” you said, your voice trembling now despite your best efforts. “But I can’t spend every day wondering if you’re going to disappear the second things become difficult.”
Theo looked stricken.
“I won’t.”
Your eyes stung.
“That’s not enough.”
He looked away, his expression pained.
“It has to be.”
“No, Theo.”
Your voice cracked then, emotion finally splintering through.
“You left me.”
The words landed between you like shattered glass.
“You shut me out without explanation. You disappeared and I was devastated.”
Theo’s breathing had gone uneven now.
“I need the truth.”
For one awful moment, he said nothing.
Then something in him finally gave way.
“I tried to tell you!”
The force of it stunned you both.
The street fell eerily quiet around you.
Theo looked almost sick the second the words left him, like he regretted them immediately.
But it was too late.
Your breath caught.
“What?”
Theo’s chest rose and fell sharply, his composure visibly unraveling.
“After your graduation,” he said, his voice trembling now, “I wrote you a letter.”
You blinked. “A letter?”
His eyes shone with emotion you had never fully seen directed at you so openly before.
“I put it in your bag.”
Your stomach dropped so suddenly it was almost physical.
Theo’s voice was rougher now.
“I told you everything.”
Your pulse thundered.
“How I felt. What you meant to me.”
His laugh this time was bitter enough to wound.
“And you never responded.”
You stared at him, horrified.
“Theo…”
He shook his head, grief and frustration colliding all at once.
“So when you said nothing…when weeks passed…and then Cedric…”
Your voice barely worked.
“I never got a letter.”
Silence.
Not ordinary silence.
The kind that changes everything.
Theo froze.
You felt your own thoughts begin racing.
The train.
Your bag.
Cedric.
Your blood turned to ice.
“Oh my god.”
Theo went visibly pale.
“No.”
But deep down, you both already knew.
Your voice came out sharp with dawning fury.
“He took it.”
Theo looked as though the ground beneath him had vanished.
And suddenly, every confusing moment. Every unanswered question. Every painful misunderstanding twisted into one horrifying truth.
Cedric had stolen your choice.
Your heartbreak ignited into something far hotter.
Rage.
Without another word, you turned sharply toward the street.
“Y/N—”
But you were already moving.
Already furious.
Already shaking.
Because there was only one person you intended to see.
summary: (includes smut) theodore will drop anything for you. always. no matter what. at the expense of anything. even a one year relationship. he plans on proving just that to you.
authors note: long time no see!!! it's currently 2am and i'm severely jet-lagged, so i wrote this instead of sleeping lol. i kind of hate this but whatever i'm feeling delusional bc i'm running on 3 hours of sleep. anyway enjoy!
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“Are you even listening?”
Theodore snaps his eyes back towards the woman in front of him, clearing his throat as he tries to make himself look more alert. He straightens out the collar of his shirt instinctively. “Sorry, sorry. Yes, I am. You were talking about… Astronomy, right?”
Pansy glares at him from across the table, taking an angry sip of her wine before putting the glass back down. “No, I was talking about this stupid essay I have to write for Muggle Studies. I was an idiot for signing up for that elective.”
“Can’t you just, like, study? For once?” Theodore replies harsher than he intended, but it’s honestly getting harder and harder for him to pretend that he actually cares about this conversation.
“You know what, just forget it.” Pansy sighs, and he almost feels bad because of the look on her face, like she just got kicked in the gut. The two of them continue to eat in silence. The atmosphere is supposed to be nice; Theodore had picked this place out weeks ago for their anniversary dinner, warm candlelight enveloping the room and the soft drape of curtains paired together to give the illusion of privacy and intimacy. It’s perfect. Too bad him and Pansy aren’t.
“You can talk to the professor, maybe.” Theodore tries again, twirling his fork absentmindedly around his nearly empty plate. “Ask for an extension.”
Pansy mumbles something under her breath, and she doesn’t look happy. Theodore knows he should feel remorseful, but instead he just feels that familiar twinge of annoyance he gets whenever he’s around her for more than 30 minutes. “What? Speak up. I can’t hear you.”
Pansy glares at him, but before she can respond, Theodore’s phone rings.
“Sorry,” he mumbles, fumbling for his phone in his pocket. Theodore’s planning on just seeing who’s calling and returning their call later, but when your name flashes across the screen, he can feel his heart do somersaults.
Theodore glances up at Pansy, then back to his phone, then to Pansy again. He knows he has seconds to make this decision. It’s his anniversary dinner. His girlfriend of a year now is sitting in front of him, mad for honestly good reasons, eyeing him expectantly, waiting for him to put the phone down. But he can’t.
“I have to take this,” Theodore mumbles, standing up quickly as if he can run away from Pansy’s glare that can cut through steel.
“That better not be who I think it is, Theodore.” Pansy’s tone stops him dead in his tracks, and when he turns to look at her before walking away, her expression almost makes him go back. Of course it’s who she thinks it is. Of course it’s you. There’s no one else he would drop everything for. Pansy knows that.
Theodore says nothing. He simply nods before walking out.
“Are you okay?” Is the first thing Theodore says to you after he picks up the phone. He knows you wouldn’t have called him for no reason because you were aware of his dinner plans. He runs his free hand through his hair, pacing outside the restaurant, his eyes glued to the pavement below him.
“No.” Your voice is panicky, and Theodore can feel his mind spinning.
“What’s wrong, amore? Tell me.”
“I-I was just- I snuck into the kitchen to make some cookies for us and I burned myself. Merlin it hurts so bad, my skin is bubbling and-” The sound of your hiccup interrupts your tangent, and Theodore’s heart burns in his chest just by the thought of you hurt and alone. “And I can’t go to the infirmary because then they’ll know I was sneaking around, and-“
“I’m coming right now,” he replies right away, with no questions asked. “Go back to your dorm. I’ll be there in 5 minutes.”
“Theo, what-” He doesn’t let you finish your sentence. Theodore hangs up quickly before stalking back inside the restaurant. His mind isn’t even on Pansy as he grabs his coat from his chair, shrugging it on.
“I have to go,” Theodore says coldly, barely sparing Pansy a look as he throws down his card onto the table. “Pay with this.”
“Are you fucking serious?” Pansy pays no mind to his gesture, standing up to match his stance with her hands clenched into fists at her side.
“I don’t have time for this, Pansy. Don’t make a scene.” Theodore sighs, exasperated, as if she’s doing him a disservice by being angry.
Pansy’s face falls, and if Theodore didn’t know her any better, he would think she’s going to kill him right then and there. “You will always choose her, won’t you?” Pansy whispers, her voice more vulnerable than Theodore had heard in months.
Theodore reaches a hand to the back of his neck, rubbing it awkwardly, his gaze fixed on his discarded napkin on the table. His eyes trail from the glasses of wine, the unfinished food, the candles and flowers on the table, and he almost winces. It’s not what he wants. It’s never really been what he’s wanted.
“Yeah.” Theodore speaks with a tone of finality, and as he observes Pansy’s reaction, he can see that it’s over in the way her expression becomes guarded and her eyes turn glassy.
He gives her time to respond, to talk, to say anything. But she doesn’t. Pansy sits down again and begins to eat without a word. Theodore pays her no mind as he walks out again.
He knows he should feel bad, and he does, but not in the way most would think. He feels like an idiot for wasting a year with someone he didn’t really care about that much. At least, not in the way he cares about you. Not even close.
“Show it to me.”
“No,” you huff, tears in your eyes as you hide your left arm behind your back. “It looks disgusting.” Your voice quivers as you watch Theodore rummage through your bathroom cabinets, looking for a First-Aid kit.
“Weren’t you the one who called me? You asked for my help.” Theodore finally finds it, guiding you to sit on the edge of your bed. He settles in between your legs, kneeling so that he can be level with you. “Now show me.”
Your eyebrows furrow, because you know he’s right, but it doesn’t make him any less annoying. You say nothing as you slowly show him the burn wound on your inner forearm, having to look away because the sight of it is too disgusting for you.
“You’ll be okay, principessa. It’s not as bad as it looks.” Theodore says it so convincingly and so reassuringly that you almost believe him.
You watch Theodore as he opens the kit, looking for any sort of antibiotic ointment. “If it hurts, squeeze my shoulder, okay?” You nod in understanding, and you find yourself turning your gaze towards the ceiling again.
“I’m scared.”
“I know, beautiful. I’ll make it better soon. Just talk to me to get your mind off this.”
You whimper as he starts to rub the ointment on your skin, your fingers curling into the sheets in pain. “I-Isn’t Pansy mad?” The question slips out; anything to distract yourself.
Theodore is quiet for a moment. He didn’t expect that question from you. “It doesn’t matter.” He keeps his answer vague, but you see right through him.
“And what exactly does that mean? I’m sure she’s furious. I… I felt so guilty for calling, but I just didn’t know what else to do.”
“Don’t you dare feel guilty,” Theodore says fiercely. “I’d drop anything for you. You know that.”
His words make your head drop, your gaze landing on him yet again. “I’m pretty sure that’s exactly the problem.”
Theodore stops his motions, his dark gaze moving up to meet yours. “Don’t act so innocent,” he murmurs, his free hand grazing your cheek with his fingertips. His touch lights your body on fire. “You knew exactly who I was with and what I was doing. Yet you called, because you knew I would come.”
You blush furiously, partly from his touch but mostly at the way he completely saw through you. “You don’t need to worry, piccolina. I’m just as jealous of a person as you are, if not more.”
“Can you shut up?” You hiss, glaring at him as he starts to wrap your burn with a bandage, his smug smile sending a familiar bolt of warmth into your lower stomach. “Just answer my question.”
“What, if she’s mad? Of course she is. She always is. But it doesn’t matter anymore.” Theodore finishes with your wound, lifting your arm to press a gentle kiss to the bandage. You swear he’s trying to seduce you with the way he looks up at you through hooded eyes and touches you so reverently. Or maybe that’s your wishful thinking.
You will your voice to stay steady. “Why exactly would that not matter?” The sight of Theodore in between your legs, his tousled hair paired with his messy dress shirt and slacks, makes you shift uncomfortably under his gaze, your thighs subconsciously rubbing together. Unfortunately for you, nothing you do ever goes unnoticed by Theodore. Nothing.
“Let’s just say… Pansy is none of my concern anymore.” Your heart leaps to your throat, and you hate how pathetically excited you sound when you say, “you’re not together anymore?”
Theodore’s head shakes side to side as he laughs, his warm hands sliding up your cool, bare, legs. “No, tesoro. We’re not.” His molten voice melts through you, your panties sticking to you as he looks at you like he wants to consume you whole. He licks his lips as his eyes drop down to your skirt, painfully obviously trying to get a good look at what’s under.
“What does that make you feel, amorina?” He whispers, pressing soft kisses to your inner thighs without taking his eyes off you. “Turned on, I’m sure. I can see how wet you are for me.”
“Shut up,” you repeat, your fingers threading through Theodore’s soft locks of hair to try and tug his head away from you, but your efforts are futile. Not like you’re trying that hard anyway.
“Fine.” You gasp as his head dips under your skirt, his calloused hands reaching for your knees to pull them apart forcefully as he licks a long stripe up the gusset of your panties. “I’ll shut up then,” Theodore murmurs against your skin, his teeth pulling your underwear down to expose your sensitive cunt.
You tug on Theodore’s hair, your hips desperately lifting off the bed under you as he starts to devour your pussy. It all happened so fast you can barely even form words as the pleasure washes over you in waves. Every languid lick, flick, and thrust of his tongue makes you whine out unabashedly, your head lolling backwards as you lose all train of thought.
“Theo, fuck!” One particularly harsh suck of his lips on your clit has your thighs clamping around his head, his hands moving to grip your waist tightly as he works you towards your orgasm. “I-I’m close,” you manage to slur out, biting your lip as he tongue-fucks you. You can feel the coil in your stomach twisting impossibly tight, before it all disappears.
You jerk your head down, your eyes widening as you look down at him, his lips puffy, his cheeks red, his eyes blazing. “No,” you whisper, your hands finding his shoulders, crawling up his neck and trailing down his chest, desperate for any kind of touch that he isn’t giving you anymore. “W-why’d you stop?”
You sound so incredibly broken you’d be cringing if you weren’t so fucking close. “I don’t think you deserve to cum yet, amore.” Theodore murmurs, bringing his face closer to yours. “What- oh, baby, you’re crying? Already?”
“Theo,” you whisper as his hands cup your cheeks, tears rimming your eyes. You feel absolutely fucking crazy, the heat between your legs aching until the point of pain, your muscles tense beyond belief. “You can’t do that.”
“I’m pretty sure I can,” Theodore whispers back almost mockingly, kissing your forehead with such softness you almost get whiplash from the juxtaposition of his actions.
“Listen,” he mumbles, his nose brushing against yours as he looks into your soul with his dark eyes that make you feel like you’re freefalling. “You’re my good girl, aren’t you?” You can feel yourself nodding, even though you didn’t make a conscious effort to. “I know you are. And that’s why you’ll take what you get without being greedy, hm?”
You whimper under his gaze, his breath fanning tantalizing over your lips, and you want nothing more than to taste him for the first time, to feel his passion through intimacy, to melt under his touch so completely that only he can put you back together. You can do nothing but nod again, your hands fisting in the sheets beside you to stop yourself from doing something rash.
“I’m proud of you,” Theodore whispers, and your heart almost explodes in your chest. You gasp softly as his fingers trail up your inner thigh, toying with your folds before he slips one finger in.
“Fuck,” you whine loudly, dragging it out as his lips land on your neck, finding your sensitive spots that make your legs twitch and your toes curl. “Theo,” you moan almost drunkenly as he pumps his finger, slowly, in and out of you, curling it against your walls to make you see stars.
“You’re so fucking cute,” he whispers, almost awestruck as he drinks in every single one of your reactions. “I love you so much, piccolina. So so much.” His pace increases with every passing second, his free hand reaching under your shirt to tease your nipples. If your eyes open, you’d be able to see his desperate gaze, watching you so ardently with a look that could make you fall apart.
His words along with another one of his fingers is enough for you to convulse around him, your mouth falling open as you scream his name, your body shaking so hard you can barely feel your muscles as they clench tightly.
“I love you, Theo, I love you.” You repeat it over and over, like a mantra, as you cum, and he groans every time your pussy flutters around his fingers or your ‘I love you’ is particularly whiny.
Your back falls onto the mattress behind you, and you jolt as Theodore slowly slides his fingers out of you. “You’re dripping,” he murmurs, entranced as he lowers himself again to stare at your pussy, his eyes wide with desire and hunger. “Bambina, please. Please let me eat it again. Please.”
“Theo, I just came- oh!” You’re interrupted by his tongue, your hips shaking with pleasure. “N-no, I can’t. Not now.”
Theodore crawls up onto your bed and over you, his face hovering over yours. You’re taken aback by how disheveled he looks; his curls fall messily, and his eyes look almost feral. You’re almost disgusted with yourself at how much you love this new side of him, this side of him that will beg and plead with you to let him pleasure you.
“Baby, please. I’ll do anything. I need you, amore, fuck. Just let me taste that sweet little cunt again, baby. So tight and perfect. I need it. I need it.” His face falls into the crook of your neck, burrowing in so deeply and inhaling your scent as his hips rock helplessly into the mattress under him. Fuck, you can’t say no.
“Just give me five minutes,” you whisper, pushing the hair out of your face as you let your eyes close. You can practically feel the rush of relief that consumes Theodore as he falls onto the bed next to you with a huge sigh.
“Thank you, bella. Thank you.”
“I should be thanking you.” You mumble, turning onto your side to be able to throw your leg over him, tucking your head into his side. “I should burn myself more often.”
“Don’t be silly,” Theodore whispers as his own arm wraps around your figure, holding you close to his chest. “You don’t have to burn yourself to get my attention, amore mio. All you have to do is say the word, and I’ll be there. Always.”
✶ Summary ✶ : Everyone knows Niccolò Govender is the definition of trouble. He’s reckless, stubborn, and never lets anyone see past his tough, arrogant bad-boy mask. Except for the sweet girl who always carries band-aids in her bag.
✶ pairing ✶ : Niccolò Govender × Reader
word count: 1,5k
✶ warnings ✶ : explicit sexual content 𖡡 fingering 𖡡 slight public sex 𖡡 sweet nicknames 𖡡 mention of violence
The cafeteria was loud, as usual.
You sat in the far corner where no one could bother you—or at least, that’s what you thought. While everyone else was laughing and yelling at each other, you just sat quietly, seeking comfort in your book. Though you sometimes ate with your friends there, today you were completely alone.
Your eyes slowly wandered through the noisy crowd, searching for a familiar face. Niccolo.
You didn't see your boyfriend anywhere. Maybe he was hanging out with his friends, or maybe he just wasn't hungry. You felt a little worried. Even when he didn't feel like eating, Niccolo always found his way to you.
Trying to shake off the uneasy feeling, you forced yourself to finish your food in peace.
You were just about to pack up and go back to class when the bench shifted. Someone suddenly sat right beside you.
You turned around, and your breath instantly hitched.
It was Niccolo. Your heart dropped into your stomach as you looked at him—he looked like he had just been heavily beaten up. His lips were bruised, and fresh cuts and scratches lined his handsome face.
"Nicco—wha—what happened?" you stammered, your hands instinctively trembling.
He didn't answer your question right away. Instead, he leaned his heavy frame close to you, closing his eyes as he tiredly rested his head against your shoulder.
"I'm fine, Cuore mio..." he muttered, his deep voice sounding incredibly raspy. "Just tired."
You gently cupped his jaw, forcing him to look at you. "Tired? You are literally bruised! Did you get into a fight again?"
"Maybe, yes..." he replied quietly. He didn't pull away. Instead, he melted, leaning his face deeper into your warm touch.
"Come on," you sighed, your worry turning into protective frustration. "Let's get you patched up."
You helped him stand up and carefully guided him away from the crowd, walking toward the quiet, abandoned building right behind the school.
It was completely silent when you got there. No one was around to look or gossip.
That was the thing about Niccolo—he hated showing his soft side in public. He only let his guard down when he was absolutely exhausted. Other than that, he always kept that tough, arrogant bad-boy mask on his face. God, you thought it was so stupid sometimes.
"Sit down," you told him softly.
He sat down on the stone ledge, groaning slightly as the movement aggravated his bruised ribs.
You unzipped your school bag and pulled out a small first-aid kit filled with ointments and bandages. It was a habit now. You had started carrying them around everywhere ever since you began dating him.
You knelt right between his knees, unzipping the small first-aid pouch.
Niccolò watched you quietly, his dark eyes tracking your every move as you pulled out an antiseptic wipe. His breathing was still a bit shallow, and his jaw was clenched from the stinging pain of his wounds.
"This is going to sting, Nicco. Hold still," you murmured softly, your eyes filled with a mix of focus and lingering worry.
You leaned in closer, gently pressing the cool wipe against the sharp cut on his high cheekbone.
Niccolò winced, a low hiss escaping his throat, and his large hands instinctively flew to your waist to steady himself. His grip tightened, pulling you just an inch closer until your faces were only centimeters apart. You could feel his warm, minty breath brushing against your skin.
"I told you to stop fighting," you complained quietly, your voice dropping into a soft, sweet whisper as you carefully wiped away a stray drop of blood near his temple. "You do this every time, and I'm the one who ends up crying out of worry. It's not fair."
Niccolò didn't argue. He just stared at your lips as you spoke, completely mesmerized by how gentle you were with him. The cold, dangerous bad boy from the cafeteria was completely gone; right here, hidden behind the old building, he was just a boy who was deeply, hopelessly in love with you.
"I'm sorry," he rasped out, his deep voice thick with emotion. "I couldn't help it. But I'm sorry for making you worry, Cuore mio."
You let out a soft sigh, your heart melting at his rare, vulnerable apology. You tossed the wipe away and opened a small band-aid, carefully sticking it over his cheekbone. After making sure it was secure, you gently cupped both sides of his face, your thumbs softly stroking his jawline to soothe the aching bruises.
"Just... promise me you'll be careful next time," you whispered, looking up into his dark eyes.
Niccolò’s gaze darkened, filled with a sudden, intense hunger. He didn't answer with words. Instead, his large hands slid up from your waist to the back of your neck, his fingers tangling into your hair as he gently but firmly pulled you down into him.
He tilted his head and captured your lips in a deep, bruisingly sweet kiss.
You let out a soft gasp against his mouth, but you didn't pull away. Instead, you melted completely into his touch, wrapping your arms tightly around his broad shoulders.
Niccolò groaned softly into the kiss, the stinging pain of his split lip completely forgotten. He tasted metallic from the blood, but the kiss was filled with so much desperate affection and unyielding passion that it made your knees go weak. He kissed you as if you were his only anchor in this chaotic world, his thumbs stroking the sensitive skin behind your ears, deepening the kiss until you were both completely breathless.
When he finally pulled back just a fraction, his forehead rested heavily against yours. His dark eyes were heavy and hooded, staring at your flushed cheeks and your slightly swollen lips with a proud, possessive smirk.
"I can't promise I'll stop fighting," Niccolò murmured against your lips, his voice dropping into a low, breathless growl as he squeezed your waist tightly. "But I promise I'll always come straight back to you to get patched up. You're the only medicine I need anyway."
You blushed furiously, hitting his chest playfully, which only made him let out a low, rare chuckle before he pulled you back into his chest for a tight, protective hug.
When he finally pulled back just a fraction, his forehead rested heavily against yours. His dark eyes were heavy and hooded, staring at your flushed cheeks and your slightly swollen lips with a soft, breathless intensity.
his grip on your waist tightened even more, pulling your bodies so close there wasn't a single inch of space left between you.
Niccolò tilted his head down, burying his face directly into the crook of your neck.
You gasped softly as you felt the sudden, scorching warmth of his lips pressing against your sensitive skin. He didn't just stop at one; Niccolò began leaving a trail of slow, lingering, and incredibly soft kisses right along your jawline down to your neck.
His split lip stung against your skin, but he didn't care. He kissed your neck with a fierce, desperate devotion, inhaling your sweet scent as if it was the only thing keeping him grounded. His large hands slid up to cup your back, holding you so tightly against him, staking his claim in the quiet shadows of the abandoned building.
"You're the only medicine I need , Cuore mio," Niccolò mumbled against your skin, his voice dropping into a low, vibrating growl that sent a sudden shiver right down your spine. He pressed one last, deep, possessive kiss right on the pulse point of your neck before finally resting his head there, breathing heavily.
You blushed furiously, your heart hammering against your ribs like crazy. Slowly, you wrapped your arms securely around his neck, gently running your fingers through his messy hair, letting him hide against you for as long as he needed.
"I've got you," you whispered sweetly, resting your cheek against his head. "I'm not going anywhere."
His kisses grew sloppier, hungrier. His hand moved across your body—breast, waist, thigh—before his fingers curled around the hem of your skirt. You pulled at his wrist.
"Someone can see—"
Niccolo didn't stop. He worked your underwear aside and touched you slowly, deliberately, like he had all the time in the world. You bit down on your lip. His mouth had moved to your neck, teeth grazing the skin there while his fingers found their rhythm, and you gripped his sleeve to keep yourself from making a sound.
When it was over, he kissed you once more—deep and unhurried, the kind that lingers.
"I love you," he said quietly.
"I love you too," you answered, still catching your breath.
You stayed there a while longer. Skipping class with him had become a habit you'd both stopped counting. His father kept the consequences at bay. Eventually the wind picked up, and he laid his head in your lap, telling you about the fight he'd gotten into again, and you both laughed until it didn't seem like such a big deal. You were nothing alike, the two of you. Somehow that had never mattered.
Theo Nott shows up to the library after a terrible day. Instead of talking about it, he buries himself in your arms and refuses to let go, turning your quiet study session into a soft, clingy moment of comfort.
Warnings: established relationship with a tired clingy boyfriend
Word count: ~1,4k
A/N: hi, hello. Yep, I'm trying to write again after a long break. This one was inspired by @nottendo post (no smut tho, sorry, babe). Love u ♡
The library had grown quiet around you.
Not silent, exactly. Hogwarts never truly went silent. There was always the soft scratch of quills, the distant shuffle of pages, the low crackle of torches along the stone walls. Somewhere behind a shelf, someone whispered too loudly and was immediately hushed.
But your corner had settled into something peaceful. A pile of books sat open in front of you, notes scattered across the table, ink pot dangerously close to the edge. You had been trying to focus for the better part of an hour, rereading the same paragraph on defensive charms until the words started to blur together.
Then Theo appeared.
You noticed him first by the way the chair beside you shifted, though he didn't sit in it. Instead, he hovered there, quiet and tired-looking, his school tie loosened, dark hair falling messily over his forehead. His eyes, usually sharp with dry amusement, looked heavy today.
You softened immediately.
"Theo?" you asked gently.
He said nothing at first. He only stepped closer, leaned down, and wrapped his arms around your shoulders from behind. His face disappeared into the crook of your neck.
You froze for half a second in quiet surprise before your hand instinctively came up to rest over his arm.
"Bad day?" you murmured.
Theo hummed against your skin. It was a low, unhappy sound.
"That bad?"
He just nodded slightly, his nose brushing your neck, and tightened his hold around you. His body curved over yours like he had been holding himself together all day and had finally found somewhere safe enough to fall apart a little.
You let your quill drop onto the parchment, focusing on him fully. "What happened?"
"Don't want to talk about it," he mumbled quietly, voice muffled against your skin.
"Okay."
He seemed grateful for that. His shoulders loosened slightly, though he didn't let go.
For a while, you let him stay there. You could feel the warmth of him against your back, the soft rise and fall of his breathing against your skin. His thumbs moved absentmindedly over the sleeve of your jumper, slow and soothing, as if he were comforting himself with the texture of it.
You turned your head just enough to brush your cheek against his hair. "I do have to study, you know," you said softly.
Theo went still.
Then, with all the dignity of a wounded prince, he whined.
It was quiet, barely more than a breath, but it was so unlike his usual composed self that you had to bite back a chuckle.
"Theo."
"No."
You laughed under your breath. "No?"
"No," he repeated, voice low and petulant as if he were a 5-year-old. "You studied yesterday."
"That's not how exams work."
"They should."
You tried to turn back toward your notes, but Theo only buried his face deeper into your neck, his arms tightening around you as if he could physically prevent you from returning to your work.
"Theodore Nott," you warned, though there was no real bite in it.
He just made another miserable sound and nuzzled further. "Five more minutes," he muttered.
"You said that fifteen minutes ago."
"That was a different five minutes."
You smiled despite yourself.
Theo must have felt it, because he pressed a little closer, his lips brushing the side of your throat in something too soft to be a kiss and too tender to be accidental.
"Please," he whispered softly.
That made you pause.
Theo didn't beg often. He rarely asked for anything directly in general. Usually, he hovered at the edges of affection, pretending not to need it until you offered it first. But now his voice had gone quiet and rough, stripped of all sarcasm.
You reached back and touched his hair softly. His breath caught slightly in his throat.
"Really terrible day?" you asked quietly, voice laced with a gentle worry.
He nodded once, and it made your heart ached.
With a sigh, you pushed your books away and carefully turned in your chair. Theo loosened his grip just enough to let you move, but not enough to let you go. The moment you faced him, he stepped between your knees and leaned into you again.
You cupped his face. He looked so exhausted as if he'd been running around the Hogwarts since the last you saw him.
"Oh, Theo," you breathed out softly.
His eyes flickered over your face, guarded and vulnerable all at once. "I just wanted to see you."
"You did see me."
"No," he said, frowning slightly as if it was obvious. "I wanted this."
Before you could ask what he meant, he folded himself into you, arms sliding around your waist as he tucked his face back into your neck. You wrapped yourself around him instinctively, one hand at the nape of his neck, the other resting between his shoulder blades.
He exhaled like he had been waiting all day to breathe. "You're warm."
"And you're freezing."
"Mhm."
"You need to take better care of yourself."
"I have you."
"That is not a care plan."
"It's my favorite one."
You rolled your eyes, but your fingers kept moving gently through his hair. Theo melted under the touch. His entire posture changed, the tension draining from him bit by bit. He leaned more heavily into you, trusting you to hold him together, and you did.
The library around you faded into the background. There was only Theo, tired and clingy and soft in a way he showed almost no one else. Theo, who looked like winter to everyone else but felt like a quiet fire when he was this close. Theo, who hid his bruises behind clever remarks and cold eyes, but came to you when the day had been too much.
"You know," you said quietly, "Madam Pince is going to throw us out if you keep standing here like this."
"Good."
"Good?"
"Then you'll have to stop studying."
"You're impossible."
He gave a small, satisfied hum. You felt him smile against your skin.
"There he is," you murmured warmly.
Theo lifted his head slightly, just enough for his eyes to meet yours. "Who?"
"My Theo."
Something in his expression shifted. The teasing disappeared. For a second, he only looked at you, blinking slowly.
Then his face softened so completely that it nearly broke your heart.
"Yours?" he asked, voice barely above a whisper.
You brushed a strand of hair away from his forehead. "If you want to be."
His hands tightened at your waist. "I do." No hesitation. No sarcasm. No clever deflection.
Just the truth.
Your thumb stroked his cheek. "Then yes. My Theo."
He closed his eyes, leaning into your touch like the words had settled somewhere deep inside him.
"You make everything quiet," he whispered.
You swallowed slightly and softly kissed his head. "Is that a good thing?"
His eyes opened again, darker now, gentler. "It's the best thing."
You didn't know what to say to that, so you simply pulled him closer. Theo followed easily, sinking into your arms until his forehead rested against your shoulder.
For a while, neither of you spoke. You held him while the torches burned low and your abandoned notes lay forgotten on the table. His breathing evened out slowly, his fingers no longer clutching at you quite so desperately. Every now and then, he shifted closer as if reminding himself you were still there.
Eventually, you murmured, "I really do have to study."
Theo groaned.
You just laughed softly. "Theo."
"Five more minutes."
"You are going to say that forever."
"Yes."
"Theo."
He lifted his head, just enough to look at you through his lashes. "Your scent and warmth make me feel at home."
He seemed embarrassed the second the words left him. His gaze dropped, a faint flush touched the tips of his ears. But you didn't tease him — you just can't when your heart was aching so terrifyingly beautiful in your chest at his words. You only pulled him back in and kissed the side of his head gently.
The books could wait.
The essay could wait.
The exam could even wait, at least for a little while.
Theo had spent the whole day being sharp-edged and silent for the rest of the world. But here, with you, he was soft. Here, he was safe. Here, he could bury his face into the crook of your neck and ask for five more minutes like it was the only thing keeping him together.
So you held him tighter.
"Okay," you whispered. "Five more minutes."
Theo sighed, warm and relieved against your skin.
And this time, neither of you pretended it would only be five.
"this could be the end of everything, so why don't we go somewhere only we know?"
word count: 3,447.
summary: third year is upon theodore nott and time has not been kind to him. reeling from the loss of his mum, he finds comfort in a kind stranger—a hufflepuff, of all things, but theo learns that sometimes the unexpected is exactly what he needs.
author’s note: hey hi hello welcome to yet another theo series. this one is very near and dear to my heart so please be kind as we journey along. as always, please let me know what you think ♡
♫ somewhere only we know - rhianne. nav. more theo.
Past
September 1, 1993
Hogsmeade Village — Scottish Highlands, Scotland
Three little words.
That’s how your story started.
“Are you okay?”
The question sounded warped in his ears as Theodore Nott collapsed against the rough trunk of a weeping willow, bark scraping against his arms and spine while he folded inward, head bowed between trembling knees.
Autumn had settled over Hogsmeade in crisp golds and biting winds, but Theo barely felt the chill. His lungs refused to cooperate, each breath shallow and splintered, as through grief itself had wrapped skeletal fingers around his ribcage and squeezed.
He was shaking.
Eyes bloodshot. Lips cracked. Hands unsteady.
Theo was decidedly not okay.
“I’m fine,” he croaked, though even he could hear how brittle the lie was—how the words cracked apart before they fully left his mouth.
“I see them too.”
Theo slowly lifted his head.
You sat beside him on one of the willow’s sprawling roots, your yellow-and-black Hufflepuff scarf wrapped snugly around your neck. He recognized you vaguely from shared classes—another third year, though he had never spoken more than a passing word to you before now.
Ordinarily, Theo would have dismissed the intrusion. He was a Slytherin, after all, and strangers were rarely worth the effort.
But then you spoke again.
“Is it your first time seeing one?”
Theo’s gaze drifted toward the skeletal creatures grazing at the edge of the village. Their leathery wings shifted against gaunt black bodies, pale eyes glowing eerily beneath hollow faces.
They were grotesque.
And strangely beautiful.
“What are they?” he whispered.
“Thestrals,” you explained softly. “They frightened me too, at first.”
Theo’s throat tightened.
“No one else can see them,” you continued. “Not unless they’ve witnessed death.”
His chest caved inward. “I just lost my mum.”
The confession slipped out before he could stop it, fragile and broken.
You didn’t pity him.
That was what startled him the most.
Instead, you offered him something far more foreign: understanding.
“I’m sorry,” you said gently. “I lost my dad a few years ago. A rare blood curse.”
Your voice softened, though Theo noticed the practiced steadiness in it, as though this was a grief you had learned to carry carefully rather than one that hurt any less.
“He was sick for a long time,” you continued gently. “The healers tried everything they could, but sometimes love doesn’t make you powerful enough to save someone.”
Theo’s brows pinched together. “Does it ever get better?”
Your gaze turned distant for a moment, thoughtful.
“Grief is like a wound,” you said. “Even after it heals, it leaves behind a scar.”
Your hand covered his, warm and steady.
“The stronger the love, the deeper the scar.”
Theo swallowed hard.
“It does get easier,” you promised. “And one day, you won’t resent the scar anymore. You’ll cherish it. Because it proves they were here. That they mattered.”
Such wisdom felt impossible coming from someone so young.
Theo wondered, not for the first time, if he would ever escape the bitterness currently hollowing him out from the inside. Whether he would ever be capable of seeing loss as something survivable instead of something final.
Right now, with his mother’s death still raw and festering inside him, it felt unimaginable.
There were days when getting out of bed seemed insurmountable. Days when joy felt like something meant for other people.
Then came the rustle of paper.
Theo blinked as you unwrapped a chocolate frog and broke off a piece for him.
“The dementors,” you explained, nodding toward the dark shapes patrolling the distant skies. “Chocolate helps.”
Theo accepted it carefully. “Thank you.”
The sweetness melted across his tongue, and though it did little to ease his grief, Theo found himself breathing easier.
Perhaps it wasn’t the chocolate.
Perhaps it was you.
For a while, the two of you sat in silence.
Theo’s eyes wandered once more to the thestrals.
Creatures only visible to those who had suffered unimaginable loss.
Unseen. Misunderstood. Feared.
Lonely.
“We don’t have to take the carriage,” you said after a while. “We can find another way to the castle.”
Theo looked at you in surprise.
“You’d stay?”
Your smile could have rivaled sunlight itself.
“Of course.”
You extended your hand toward him.
“We’re friends now, you and I. I’m Y/N, by the way.”
Theo hesitated only briefly before slipping his hand into yours.
Warmth spread through him like a balm.
“Theodore,” he replied softly. “But you can call me Theo.”
“It’s nice to meet you, Theo.”
The final call for carriages echoed through the clearing.
Fear coiled tight in Theo’s stomach once more.
But your fingers remained laced with his.
Steady. Certain.
Safe.
“I think I can do it,” Theo whispered. “But only if you come with me.”
You squeezed his hand without hesitation.
“I’m with you, Theo,” you said softly. “For always.”
And as he climbed into the carriage—heart pounding, grief aching, fingers clinging to yours like a lifeline—Theo realized something monumental.
For the first time since his mother died, he did not feel entirely alone.
Everything would be alright.
As long as you were with him.
Past
March 14, 2002
Oxford University — Oxford, England
As an only child, Theo had never quite mastered the art of sharing.
Especially not when it came to you.
Since that fateful day in third year, the two of you had become inseparable in every conceivable way. House divisions had proved meaningless in the grand scheme of things. It did not matter that you were a Hufflepuff and he was a Slytherin. Theo still found ways to weave himself into every facet of your life.
You were simply his person.
He walked you to class, studied beside you in the library, shared meals with you in the Great Hall, and found endless excuses to remain by your side.
Even after graduation when Oxford claimed you and Cambridge claimed him, distance had done little to diminish your bond.
You were still his constant.
His safest place.
His bella.
Which was precisely why Theo immediately decided Cedric Diggory’s existence was, at best, deeply inconvenient.
The moment Theo entered the courtyard, his easy grin faltered.
There you were, seated beneath a willow tree on a weathered wooden bench—the very bench Theo privately considered his whenever he visited.
Only today, someone else occupied his rightful place beside you.
Cedric Diggory.
“Teddy!”
Your delighted grin lit up the courtyard as you hurried into his arms, and for one glorious moment, Theo forgot why his blood had begun to simmer.
“I wasn’t expecting you so soon.”
“Hi bella,” he murmured warmly, pressing a kiss to the top of your head. “I thought I’d arrive early so we could pick out wine for dinner.”
Theo smirked.
“I’m thinking perhaps the cheapest bottle Aldi has to offer, mixed generously with Ribena. It might finally provoke Draco into a proper aristocratic meltdown.”
You laughed.
Cedric watched the exchange carefully.
Too carefully.
“You truly must stop antagonizing Draco,” you scolded half-heartedly. “One day, he’ll ban you from the manor entirely. Then where will you be without Tilly’s sticky toffee pudding?”
Theo gasped dramatically.
“A risk I’m willing to take,” he replied. “That’s what he gets for calling my Elven wine swill.”
A snort interrupted the moment.
Theo’s gaze slid, begrudgingly, toward Diggory.
Right.
Him.
“Forgive us,” you said politely. “Theo, you remember Cedric from school, don’t you?”
Theo offered the man a curt nod.
“Diggory.”
“Nott,” Cedric returned with maddening ease. “Y/N’s told me quite a lot about you.”
“Naturally,” Theo drawled, waving a dismissive hand. “We are best friends, after all. Bonded through trauma and emotional devastation. It’s all terribly profound.”
Theo draped an arm around your shoulders with practiced familiarity.
“There’s no getting rid of me now, is there, bella?”
Cedric’s smile remained easy, though something unreadable flickered behind his eyes.
“He’s forever a pain in my arse,” you informed Cedric. “But occasionally charming when he’s not busy being an insufferable Cambridge snob.”
Cedric chuckled.
Theo did not care for how comfortable he seemed.
“You’re attending Cambridge?” Cedric asked.
Theo caught the note of surprise in his tone and immediately disliked it.
“What are you studying?”
“Economics,” Theo replied coolly. “Someone has to repair the catastrophic damage my father inflicted upon our family’s vaults and holdings.”
At the mention of his imprisoned Death Eater father, Cedric visibly stiffened.
“I see,” Cedric said carefully. “That’s…admirable.”
Theo resisted the urge to scoff.
You, sensing the tension, quickly intervened.
“Cedric is finishing his Mastery in Sports Medicine,” you explained. “He’s been helping me with my healing coursework.”
Theo’s jaw tightened imperceptibly.
How thoughtful.
“The immunology curriculum is brutal,” you continued. “Professor Fowler may very well be part troll.”
“The man hasn’t smiled in a century,” Cedric added with a grin. “Though I imagine I wouldn’t either with a stick that far up my arse.”
You laughed.
Theo, personally, found the joke painfully mediocre.
Still, he noted the ease with which Cedric inserted himself into your orbit.
A problem.
“One Hufflepuff helping another,” Cedric said lightly as he adjusted his bag. “We tend to look after our own.”
Theo disliked that far more than he probably should have.
Once Cedric finally excused himself, Theo exhaled sharply.
“Merlin,” he muttered. “I thought he’d never leave.”
You swatted his arm. “Be nice,” you chastised. “Cedric may be my only hope of surviving Immunology.”
Theo effortlessly intercepted your bag before you could protest, slinging it over his shoulder as though it belonged there.
“Fine,” he conceded dramatically. “I suppose Diggory has his uses.”
His arm settled around you once more. “Just don’t go replacing me with him.”
You blinked up at him, amused.
“At the very least,” Theo continued, “find someone equally rich, devastatingly handsome, and exceptionally witty.”
You giggled.
“Not to mention, extremely humble.”
Theo smirked
“I intentionally omitted that trait. I didn’t wish to sound arrogant.”
“Godric forbid,” you quipped, looping your arm through his.
And just like that, balance was restored.
This was how things were meant to be: you and Theo, arm in arm, trading barbs and banter, entirely in sync.
Theo glanced down as you tilted your face towards his, expression suddenly softening.
“You know I could never replace you, right?”
The sincerity in your voice struck him squarely in the chest.
Theo adored that look—that earnest, nose-scrunched seriousness that only ever seemed to emerge when it came to him.
“You’ll always be my person, Theo,” you said firmly. “Nothing is ever going to change that.”
Theo smiled then, truly smiled, and pressed a tender kiss to the crown of your head.
“I know, bella.”
His voice softened into something achingly sincere.
“You’re with me, and I’m with you.”
Theo squeezed your shoulder gently.
“For always.”
Past
March 14, 2002
Malfoy Manor — Wiltshire, England
“What in the bloody hell did you put in this, Nott?”
Theo feigned innocence with remarkable skill, though the mischievous glint in his watercolour eyes betrayed him entirely.
Across the grand dining table, Draco Malfoy glared with all the indignation of an affronted aristocrat while dabbing cheap wine and Ribena from his mouth with a linen napkin.
Beside Theo, you very nearly choked on your risotto trying—and failing—to suppress your laughter.
“I haven’t the faintest idea of what you mean, Draco,” Theo replied smoothly.
“Bullshit,” Draco snapped. “You tampered with my drink because you’re still bitter no one appreciated your precious wine selection at our last dinner.”
Theo set his fork down with exaggerated offense.
“First of all,” he began haughtily, “everyone appreciated the wine. A distinguished 16th century Elven wine, which required significant effort to acquire, I might add. It’s hardly my fault your palate is too tragically pedestrian to appreciate fine craftsmanship.”
Draco gaped. “So your solution was poisoning me?’
“It wasn’t poisoning,” Theo corrected. “It was a lesson. One does not insult my wine choices and walk away unscathed. Frankly, I’m beginning to think years of peroxide have finally seeped into your brain.”
Mattheo nearly inhaled his firewhisky trying not to laugh, while Blaise and Enzo observed the exchange with the sort of rapt fascination usually reserved for Quidditch matches.
“I do not dye my hair!” Draco hissed. “This is natural.”
“Boys,” Pansy interrupted dryly.
Her tone alone could silence armies.
Theo leaned back in his chair with all the elegance of a bored prince, his smirk remaining firmly intact.
“Could you both kindly save your childish bickering for later?” Pansy drawled. “There are more pressing matters at hand.”
A wicked smile curved her crimson lips.
“Such as when exactly Draco intends to ask Hermione Granger out on a proper date.”
Silence.
Utter, catastrophic silence.
Draco visibly paled.
“How do you know about Granger?”
Enzo grinned far too brightly. “Please, cousin. Everyone knows.”
Theo watched with growing amusement as Draco’s expression shifted from horror to betrayal.
“Y/N called it after Granger slapped you in third year,” Enzo added cheerfully.
Draco’s narrowed eyes immediately found you.
“You,” he accused, scandalized. “You were supposed to be above this lot of gossiping heathens, Y/N.”
You, entirely unrepentant, merely shrugged.
“What can I say, Dray? After years surrounded by snakes, corruption was inevitable.”
Theo couldn’t help but laugh softly at the conspiratorial wink you shot Pansy.
Merlin, he adored you.
“Besides,” you added sweetly, “I happen to think you’d make a lovely couple. I could always mention it to her—”
“Absolutely not,” Draco sputtered, cheeks burning a truly spectacular shade of red. “No one will be asking Granger out on my behalf. I’ll handle it myself.”
Theo smirked into his wine.
Dinner continued with laughter, insults, and far too much firewhisky until eventually the group migrated into the lavish sitting room for post-dinner drinks.
Theo settled into a velvet armchair near the roaring fireplace, one ankle crossed over his knee, while Mattheo occupied the chair opposite him.
Across the room, you stood animatedly chatting with Blaise and Enzo about your upcoming graduation.
Theo’s gaze softened instinctively.
You looked radiant.
Hopeful, passionate, alive with purpose.
And Merlin, he was so proud of you.
For years, Theo had witnessed firsthand your unwavering compassion, your fierce determination, and your relentless desire to help others. There was never any doubt in his mind that you would excel as a healer.
St. Mungo’s would be lucky to have you.
“Have you told her yet?”
Mattheo’s question shattered Theo’s reverie.
Theo sighed quietly.
A few weeks earlier, he had made the grave mistake of confessing to Mattheo that he planned to finally reveal his feelings for you. His friend had reacted with deeply unnecessary enthusiasm, claiming it was about bloody time Theo stopped "pining like a Victorian widow."
Rude.
Not inaccurate, unfortunately, but rude nonetheless.
“Not yet,” Theo admitted, swirling the amber liquid in his glass. “I want her graduation to be about her. She’s worked too hard for me to overshadow it.”
Mattheo nodded thoughtfully.
“When do you leave for Rome?”
“The day after graduation.” Theo exhaled. “Nonna needs my help managing family affairs. I’ll tell Y/N when I return. We’ve planned dinner with her mum.”
Mattheo was quiet for a moment. “Do you really think waiting is wise?”
Theo’s gaze instinctively found you again.
You were laughing now—head tilted back slightly, moonlight from the tall windows catching your features just so.
Beautiful.
Always beautiful.
“I’ve already waited years,” Theo murmured softly, almost to himself.
Then, with the kind of devotion that rooted itself deep and permanent, he added:
“I’d wait a thousand more for her.”
Mattheo huffed a laugh. “That is, without question, the most revoltingly romantic thing I’ve ever heard.”
Theo rolled his eyes.
But Mattheo’s teasing quickly faded, replaced by something more serious.
“Take it from someone who knows,” he said quietly, rising from his seat and clasping Theo’s shoulder. “Sometimes waiting costs you more than you’re prepared to lose.”
Theo frowned slightly.
Mattheo rarely spoke with such gravity.
“Tell her,” his friend urged. “Tell her that you love her before it’s too late.”
The words struck Theo harder than expected.
Because deep down, he already knew Mattheo was right.
Still, as the evening wore on, Theo found himself stealing glances at you from across the room—memorizing your laughter, your smile, the way your eyes lit up when discussing your future.
And for the first time, Theodore Nott truly confronted the terrifying possibility that perhaps time was not as endless as he had always assumed.
Perhaps love, no matter how steadfast, was not something meant to remain unspoken forever.
Perhaps the greatest risk was not telling you at all.
Past
March 15, 2002
Cambridge University — Cambridge, England
Tell her that you love her before it’s too late.
Mattheo’s parting words proved far more persistent than Theo would have liked.
They haunted him.
Relentless. Jarring. And entirely too wise for Theo’s comfort.
Long after the evening at Malfoy Manor ended, after Cambridge’s cobbled streets had fallen silent beneath the veil of night, Theo laid wide awake in bed, staring blankly at the ceiling while his thoughts churned mercilessly.
Sleep, it seemed, had abandoned him entirely.
Outside his window, the quaint campus slumbered peacefully.
Inside, Theo’s mind was chaos.
With an aggravated sigh, he finally surrendered to his restlessness.
This was, unquestionably, Mattheo’s fault.
Careful not to disturb the elderly neighbors who already regarded him with enough suspicion, Theo slipped from bed and padded quietly across his flat.
His office awaited him just beyond the hall—a room lined with dark mahogany shelves, polished wood, and the familiar scent of parchment and candle wax.
Atop his desk sat a pristine stack of monogrammed stationery.
Waiting.
Theo stared as though it might somehow solve the impossible task before him.
With a flick of his wand, candles burst softly to life around the room, casting golden light across the desk’s surface.
The muggle fountain pen you had gifted him for his birthday hovered just above the blank parchment.
And yet—
Nothing.
Theo frowned.
For once in his life, Theodore Nott found himself at a complete loss for words.
Not because he didn’t know how he felt.
Merlin, he knew.
He had replayed his confession a thousand times over in the privacy of his own mind. He knew the depth of it. The ache of it. The terrifying certainty of it.
The problem was not emotion.
It was articulation.
How was he meant to explain something that had become so deeply ingrained within him it no longer felt separate from his own existence?
Theo did not know when exactly friendship had blurred into something deeper.
He only knew that somewhere along the way, loving you had become as natural to him as breathing.
There was no singular moment, no grand revelation, no distinct beginning.
He simply…was.
He loved you in the quiet certainty of shared library afternoons. In every walk to class. In every holiday spent at your family’s table. In every forehead kiss. Every laugh. Every for always.
Theo could scarcely remember who he had been before you.
And perhaps that was the most terrifying realization of all.
Because how could he possibly condense nearly a decade of unwavering devotion into mere words on a page?
How could language ever suffice when it came to you?
Theo exhaled slowly, gripping the pen more firmly.
Then, with trembling resolve, he began the only way that had ever felt right.
Dear Bella.
And just like that, the floodgates opened.
Ink flowed across parchment in elegant, practiced strokes.
Page after page. Confession after confession. Every buried feeling, every hidden longing, every unspoken truth poured from him with startling clarity.
Theo wrote of thestrals and grief, of friendship and survival, of laughter and devotion, of the way you had become his safest place in a world that so often demanded armor.
He wrote of loving you quietly. Completely. Endlessly.
By the time Theo reached the final page, dawn had begun to stretch pale gold fingers across Cambridge’s skyline.
Birdsong stirred faintly outside his window.
The night had slipped away entirely.
And there, at the bottom of the final page, Theo wrote the three words he had spent nearly ten years swallowing whole.
I love you.
Theo stared at them for a long while.
Three simple words.
So small, so fragile, so utterly catastrophic. And yet somehow, they carried the full weight of his heart.
With careful hands, Theo folded the letter.
He sealed nearly a decade of yearning behind emerald wax, pressing his monogrammed crest firmly into place.
Then he sat back, staring at the confession that had the power to alter everything.
His greatest hope.
His greatest fear.
Three little words.
The beginning.
The end.
And perhaps, if fate were kind, something in between.
Divination was stupid. Theo knew it. Enzo knew it. But unfortunately for the two of them, Daphne Greengrass did not. She was quite the believer in fact—spending hours charting stars to gauge compatibility, gazing into her crystal ball, and practicing her palm reading. A load of bollocks and a complete waste of time in Theo's opinion, but, he wasn't a monster and so he humored his friend, content in blocking out Professor Trelawney's incessant babbling for an hour at the start of his mornings.
Theo was just admiring how particularly gray the walls of the castle were looking this fine afternoon when a sharp elbow to the ribs pulls his attention back to the old bat's class. Theo shoots a glare Enzo's way as he rubs his wounded ribcage pointedly. To only further his agitation, Theo notices that Trelawney is now stood directly in front of him extending a deck of tarot cards to him as she blinks her wide owlish eyes at him expectantly.
With a deep sigh and a rather dramatic eye roll, Theo plucks a card from the deck and hands it back to the witch without even bothering to glance at it. Trelawney doesn't seem to mind much though as she inhales sharply, a grin that seemed much too wide for her face forming as she flips the card back to Theo.
"Yes, yes. Just as I predicted dear boy. Just as I predicted. The Two of Cups!" She announces proudly, brandishing the card out towards the class.
Daphne squeals.
"Oh Teddy—"
"Don't call me that."
Daphne ignores him.
"How exciting. How romantic," she continues, clearly far more interested in the pull than Theo was.
She pulls out a script of parchment, finger tracing down the lines of notes until she finds what she's searching for. Then she shoves the parchment under Theo's nose.
"Look there. The Two of Cups—signifies mutual attraction and deep connections. A representation of kindred spirits in the early stages of falling in love. That's so romantic," she gushes, continuing on in her notes.
Enzo snorts doing a horrible job trying to stifle his laughter. Theo glowers, not even wanting to deign such a ridiculous concept with a response. This was ludicrous. The whole thing. Theo had been attending Hogwarts for well long enough to know that there was not a single present student in the school that he would even dignify having a romantic relationship with. He can't help but shake his head and scoff at the mere idea.
"Oh lighten up Teddy, heaven forbid you let Daphne have this," Enzo snickers, clearly enjoying the discomfort the whole thing brought Theo.
It was easy for him to say. It wasn't his love life being carefully dissected by their mystic enthused friend.
Being the new student at any new school was always going to be nerve wracking. But being the new student at a new school in a whole new country was significantly worse in every aspect. Whispers float down the corridors, your name echoing off the high ceilings of the castle, and eyes flicker towards the ground as you pass as if they hadn't just been staring shamelessly the moment prior. Normally the stares wouldn't bother you much, but the constant hushed voices were beginning to be unnerving. Your lips tighten as you move swiftly through the halls and you can't help but feel a bit self conscious as you smooth out your unfamiliar, deep blue robes.
You weren't exactly enthusiastic about your new school to begin with. It was different—of course it would be—but no matter how much you had prepared yourself for all the changes, it just hadn't been enough. Like really, they let a ratty, old—albeit sentient—hat determine house placements? You hadn't wanted that thing anywhere near your head, but it just couldn't be helped. Then, once you had been placed into your house, you come to find that yours is the only one in the entire school that requires you to solve a freaking riddle just to get into your damn room. Asinine. And to top it all off, the wretched school was literally impossible to navigate because the staircases, apparently, were also sentient and did whatever the hell they wanted.
All that to say, when you finally collapse into a seat in the back of, what you hoped was the History of Magic classroom, you were more than a little miffed. With an agitated huff, you try to stay invisible as more students begin to file into the classroom, taking their seats closer to the front. As seats fill, the extra buffer of breathing room melts a bit of the tension in your shoulders. When your professor—a ghost you notice dryly—begins to write on the chalk board, you finally feel yourself start to relax, pulling out a roll of parchment from your bag and carefully copying down each line.
Just as you're about to finish—The Gargoyle Strike of 1911—the classroom door swings open once more and a boy with brown hair and dark, calculating eyes saunters in. You're content with giving him a quick, uninterested glance before getting back to your notes, but unfortunately for you, the boy is rapidly approaching. His bag hits the floor next to you with a dull thread and you feel your lips turn downward into a frown as you look up at the boy once more in annoyance.
You watch as the boy's mouth opens as if to say something, but then his eyes meet yours and you watch him freeze, mouth agape for a moment then two. Just as it's becoming a bit uncomfortable, he seems to awaken from his trance looking shaken, brows furrowing as if he were wondering why on Earth he was just standing there like a fool. Still though, he tilts his head awkwardly—chin gesturing towards the rest of the class—and for the first time you notice that every other seat in the room seems to be occupied. With a sigh of defeat, you wordlessly turn back to the board, preparing to scramble to write down whatever you'd missed just now, content with simply ignoring this boy's existence for the the rest of class.
"A 'wildcat strike' refers to a stopping of work by unionized workers without authorization from the union. In 1911 the wildcats were winning, meaning things were moving in favor of the gargoyles—"
Good god this was horrible. You weren't even ten minutes into your first day of this new class and you already wanted to throw yourself off the top of Ravenclaw tower. It seemed as though many of the other students in class felt similarly as one of the boys sitting a few rows in front of you lets out a concernedly loud snore. You have to choke down a snicker as your eyes flicker up to the ghost at the front of the room, but he doesn't seem to notice. Or if he does, he doesn't care.
"That's Finnigan. There's a running bet on how long it'll take him to fall asleep after Binns starts monologuing," the boy next to you murmurs, a smirk tugging at his lips.
You turn to look at the boy, surprised to hear him speak after all, and for the first time take a good look. Shit. He was hot. You don't really get the chance to dwell too much on it though because he speaks again.
"That one next to him is Thomas. Any second now he'll start piling things on top of 'em. See how high the stack gets before it falls over or Finnigan wakes up. Whichever comes first."
As if on queue, the boy next to the snoring kid carefully places a thick text book on his friend's back. Then another. It's like you can't look away as you watch on in morbid fascination.
"They friends of yours?" you find yourself asking as the boy, Thomas, adds an ink well to his tower.
Your desk partner snorts.
"Hardly. Lions and snakes don't exactly get along," he says smoothly.
You have no idea what that's supposed to mean, but you don't want to ask. Instead you continue to watch as a bag of Bertie Bott's jelly beans, three quills, a sweater, and someone's pet frog is added to the pile. A potted plant is about to be placed on top when a sneeze sends the whole thing crashing to the floor. Professor Binns doesn't even blink as he just continues on. Finnigan's head shoots up as he takes in his surroundings once more, shoulders slumping when he apparently realizes where he is. Understandable.
The rest of class is an absolute drag as you flit in and out of different thoughts and daydreams. Anywhere was better than here, listening to this ghost drown on. If he were any less interesting, you're sure the entire class would die of sheer boredom and be cursed to haunt this very classroom with the old professor. Doomed to be subjected to the very thing that killed you all in the first place for all eternity.
After what you're certain is the longest hour of your life, class finally ends, but to your dismay, you realize that halfway through class you'd simply given up on taking notes. Dammit. As though reading your mind, the boy next to you slides his parchment towards you. His notes are impeccable. Perfectly neat rows in dark ink with not a smudge in sight.
"I can get them back tomorrow," he says simply, before returning the rest of his materials into his bag.
You open your mouth to thank the boy, but before you even get the chance he's gone in a swoosh of emerald green and black.
The whole thing leaves you a bit stunned. It was the first real interaction you'd had with, really anyone at your new school and you couldn't tell if you'd completely blown it or not. He'd seemed decent enough, whoever he was. And that's when it occurs to you. You hadn't even bothered to ask the boy's name.
"Mmm. What was their name again?" Theo asks, trying to appear nonchalant as he inserts himself into Enzo and Daphne's conversation.
The three of them occupied their usual spots inside the Slytherin common room, the soft glow of green flames painting their faces as their voices mix in with the other echoes of the dungeon. Enzo eyes Theo suspiciously, noting that—despite the unbothered front he put on—Theo's fingers couldn't seem to stop tapping anxiously against his knee. See, usually when Enzo and Daphne were participating in their daily debrief, Theo was staring off into the abyss, pointedly ignoring them. So it didn't take an intuitive genius to pick up on the sudden spike of interest he was showing.
"Y/n. They're from America," Daphne says helpfully, seemingly oblivious to the way that Enzo was trying to dissect their friend's inner most thoughts.
"Why all the interest? They catch your eye? Are you two already falling into the early stages of love?" He taunts when he isn't able to get a proper read on his friend.
Theo's heart stops beating in his chest for half a moment before he juts out his chin defiantly.
"All anyone will talk about. Just curious to know who all the fuss is about," he retorts, forcing his voice to remain steady as he continues to stare ahead, avoiding the curious glances of his friends.
He can tell Enzo doesn't quite buy it, but that simply isn't his problem to worry about at the moment.
So they were from America. Huh.
Truthfully, Theo didn't know much about America. Hadn't ever really cared to find anything out. He was familiar with Ilvermorny of course. Which was presumably your former school, but that was pretty much the extent of it. Maybe he'd ask you about it tomorrow.
Assuming he didn't freeze up again at the mere sight of you. Salazar's ball sack that had been bloody embarrassing. Theo couldn't think of a single other time he'd ever frozen up like that, brief as it had been. Usually Theo liked to consider himself to be quite suave. Charming even, if he did say so himself. And he did. It was completely unlike him to be rendered speechless. Especially not by the mere presence of someone with a pretty face.
But it simply hadn't been his fault. How was he supposed to expect that some great, higher power was going to reach deep into his inner most thoughts and desires—pull together every single physical trait that Theo could possibly fantasize about—and combine them all into one single heavenly creature, and then plop them down right next to him in History of Magic of all classes.
Fate was cruel.
And speaking of fate, there was also all that nonsense from Divination that morning to think about. Theo leaned back in his chair, deep in thought. Surely the fact that batty, old Trelawney had predicted that he would fall in love was a complete coincidence in relation to him practically being prepared to propose to the new student in History of Magic a mere few hours later. How could it be anything else? Divination wasn't real. The whole class had been so close to being completely scrapped so many times that you either had to be a fool, or Daphne to believe in it.
Okay, so maybe Theodore was starting to believe it. A little. But what was he supposed to think as he watches you drag your feet through the door scowling? He feels his chest tighten as the two of you make eye contact and he watches as you make your way over to him.
"This seat taken?" you ask, already dropping your bag to the floor. "Didn't take you as one to be into this kinda stuff," you say conversationally as you pull parchment and a quill from your bag.
Theo scoffs, rolling his eyes.
"I'm not," he assures, "But Daph is," he adds, head tilting as he gestures to his friend.
He watches as your eyes dart over to the pretty brunette sitting happily between him and Enzo, assessing.
"Oh. Are you two?" The question lingers on your lips and Theo is quick to shake his head no.
Salazar he was being stupid. Of course you would assume—Why was he being like this?
"Nah. No. Daph's an old friend. Enz and I are just here for moral support. And an easy O." Theo hears himself drawl. "What about you? Training to become a seer?"
"Hardly. This was the only elective left that fit into my schedule apparently."
Salazar's balls you were perfect, Theo thinks to himself as Trelawney comes sweeping into the room. Her eyes are closed and her fingertips are pressed against her temples as she swooshes around the room, humming lowly.
"I feel new energy. An unfamiliar presence. You!" Trelawney screeches in her trembly voice, stopping in front of a poor, innocent Hufflepuff with an accusatory finger hovering dangerously close to their eyeball.
Theo can't help but let out a dry snicker and is delighted when he sees you out of the corner of his eye trying to hold back a laugh too. When it's clear to the old professor that the student in front of her had actually been present all year, her eyes scan the room, finally coming to a stop when they rest on you.
"Ah, there you are my dear! Your energy feels so concentrated on this side of the room, it simply drew me over," Trelawney babbles as she makes her way over. "Now let's see here. Palms up dear, palms up, let me have a look."
Theo watches amused, ignoring the weird kissing faces Enzo is making at him, as you sigh but still present your palms facing upwards to the professor. Her bony talons quickly engulf your hands, her eyes fluttering shut once more as her head tilts back, a low hum starting once more.
"Yes, yes. How interesting," the hums get louder as the professor's fingers dig into the lines of your palms. "I see. In the darkest hour, a dark shadow, it will over take you. Consume you."
Trelawney's eyes snap open and Theo watches her face melt back into a warm smile as she gives your hands one last squeeze.
"Welcome to class dear. We have much to learn, so much to see!"
Theo finds that he rather likes the way his heart swells when you turn to look at him, brow raised as you shake your head ever so slightly as if to say, 'what a nutter'.
"How many freaking goblin rebellions is it going to take before the British Ministry finally takes the hint and leaves those poor goblins alone?" you huff, slamming your books a little too loudly onto your table in the library.
You can feel Madam Pince attempting to burn a hole through your back as she glares at you, but you ignore her.
"Probably at least—" Theo checks his notes from the day's lesson, "six or seven. Unfortunately not every revolution to rid oneself of British rule is successful," he teases lightly.
You glare at the boy pointedly.
"I'm not even particularly, patriotic," you grumble, the word actually quite sour on your tongue, "but nothing brings Americans together quite like our mutual hatred of the British."
"Mmm. Do let it go on record now that my family is Italian," Theo replies dryly.
Theodore had very quickly become your closest friend at Hogwarts. From that first day in History of Magic the two of you just seemed to click. It also definitely helped that not only did he share your dry sense of humor, but he was also insanely smart, and very easy on the eyes. You'd been worried for a split second when he first introduced you to Daphne Greengrass, a familiar turning in your stomach that you'd quickly identified as jealousy flaring up, but it had been quickly squashed when Theo assured you that they were indeed just friends. But that was neither here nor there. You and Theo had become practically inseparable in the month that you'd been at your new school, much to the chagrin of his friends. You liked them too of course, and they'd been good sports about welcoming you into their little group, but with Theo it was just easy.
You slide your potions notes across the table just as Theo hands over his Charms essay for you to look over. No words exchanged, but you were both perfectly in sync. Easy.
It's far past dark when you finally push your chair back, the old wood scraping against the floor, and you force yourself to stifle a yawn.
"Alright. I'm calling it a night," you announce as you begin packing up your books. "I should head back in case it takes an hour to get that damn eagle to open up the common room door again."
You hear Theo let out a snort at your last comment. He'd heard well and good your complaints about that stupid hunk of metal.
"Guess I'll head out as well. Mattheo has been complaining that he never sees me anymore, but he's just mad he can't copy my notes anymore."
The two of you quickly gather the rest of your things, slinking out of the library right as Pince begins making her rounds to toss the last lingering students out before closing the doors for the night. The walk to Ravenclaw tower is made in comfortable silence as you walk side by side, both of you trying to ignore the way the back of your hands were brushing against each other as you went. When you finally arrive, a whole group of students in black and blue are outside the door when it swings open. Not wanting to miss your chance, you toss Theo a smile over your shoulder before disappearing with the crowd of students through the door.
As soon as you enter your room, you dump your bag on the ground at the foot of your bed, trade your stiff school uniform for a more comfortable track set, and turn right back out the door—a disillusionment spell on the tip of your tongue. You move silently against the walls, retracing the same steps you'd just taken, leading your right back to the library. It's dark now—you knew from experience that as soon as the clock hit ten, Pince was out the doors. You lift your wand, ready to cast the usual alohomora but tonight something stops you. Call it a gut feeling. You grip the handle of the heavy, wood door and without so much as a squeak, the door swings open. Huh. Maybe the cranky librarian had been in such a rush to leave she forgot to lock up.
Without giving it so much as a second thought, you slip through the doors, following the familiar path that lead you right to the heart of the restricted section of the library. Really, you often found yourself wondering, why on Earth did they have a so called restricted section, and then not even bother to put up a single ward to keep students from entering? Wasn't very restricted if they asked you. Your fingertips brush over the spines of different books as you pass through the shelves, pulling one from the shelf every so often if it catches your eye. The silence of the empty library was deafening, but you relished the way you could hear your footsteps echoing on the tile and the rustle of pages turning as you flipped through your nightly finds.
You're on your tiptoes, straining to reach a large tome from the top shelf when you catch sight of a dark shadow appearing out of the corner of your eye. God, you hoped it wasn't that old man Filch. He wasn't as bad as everyone made him seem, you'd been able to talk him out of snitching on you thus far, but it kind of ruined the mood. Your hand drops to rest on the handle of your wand as the shady figure draws closer and you prepare to throw one of your books its way just in case.
"What are you doing here?" the confused voice of Theodore rings out just as you're about to launch your copy of Moste Potente Potions at his head.
You feel your shoulders sag in relief. You hadn't been scared of course. Just vaguely alarmed. Then you let out a laugh.
"And what's funny?"
"Oh, nothing. Just Trelawney and her whole 'A dark shadow is going to overtake you' spiel," you snicker. "And what do you mean what am I doing here? What are you doing here?" you ask rather indignantly, turning back to focus on the book that was just out of your reach.
"I come down to the library at night all the time," Theo replies, crossing his arms defensively.
"Well it's obviously not all the time because I've been here every night this month and I've never seen you down here," you reply casually.
You can practically hear Theo rolling his eyes at you.
"Well of course not all the time, Filch would start getting—sorry did you say you've been here every night? How has Filch not caught you?"
You shrug your shoulders noncommittally, glaring up at the book that seemed to be just taunting you.
"He has a few times, but we usually just chat for a little and then he'll send me on my way."
You don't see the absolutely stunned look on Theo's face.
"You chat? With Filch. About what?" Theo asks incredulously.
You let out an exasperated sigh.
"The weather. Cat toy recommendations for Mrs. Norris. His mother's retirement in France. I don't know, we chat about a lot of things."
You still aren't facing Theo, but if you had been, you probably would have laughed at the completely gobsmacked look that was written across his face.
"Now will you be useful and get that book down for me?" you ask, foot stomping impatiently on the ground.
Still too shocked to respond, Theo reaches up over your head, placing one hand on your shoulder for balance as he easily plucks the book you'd been reaching for off the shelf. Just as he's about to hand it to you though, it seems he comes back to his senses and that smug grin that you'd become so familiar with recently finds its way back to his lips.
"Uh uh uh, where's my reward?" he teases, holding the book just out of reach once more as he smirks down at you.
"Reward?" you ask dryly, looking up to raise an eyebrow at your friend.
Had he always been standing so close?
"I'm a Slytherin. I don't do something for nothing now," he says, voice like honey in your ears.
"What do you want?" you ask, eyes narrowing.
Theo tilts his head as if pretending to think.
"A kiss."
You blink, shoulders shrugging as you turn to face the boy properly. Seemed fair enough to you. You were definitely getting the best end of the deal. So you tug on the collar of Theo's sweatshirt, before crashing your lips into his. His lips are warm and soft and that's all you take note of before pulling away quickly. Theo is clearly stunned once more so you take the opportunity to finally get your hands on the book you'd been eyeing this whole time.
"Thanks Theo!"
Theodore Nott was dangerously close to never brushing his teeth ever again. Because you had kissed him last night. In some sudden, stupid burst of confidence he had asked you to kiss him and you did. It had been a complete joke—Theo hadn't even remotely considered that you'd actually do it, but you'd grabbed the collar of his jumper and then your lips were on his and he knew he was well and truly done for.
"Theo. Theo! You need to get your act together mate," Lorenzo grunts, elbowing his friend to get his attention.
"What? Stop that," Theo mutters, batting his friend away from him.
"Seriously. You're acting like a love sick puppy."Brie
Theo glares.
"Would take one to know one," he snaps, falling back in his seat with a huff.
Now it's Enzo's turn to narrow his eyes.
"I'm going to choose to ignore that because you're just upset that you didn't kiss y/n back," he responds.
Theo's eyes bulge at the bold—albeit correct—observation.
"Can you keep your bloody voice down?" he hisses, eyes flickering about to make sure no one had heard.
Luckily, you had only just entered the divination classroom so at least Theo was safe for now. Or maybe not.
"Morning," you say brightly giving the group a small wave and taking your usual spot next to Theo.
Theo opens his mouth to respond but, Salazar you smelled good today, and your lips, god your lips looked soft and pink and, the words feel caught in Theo's throat. Somewhere in the distance he can hear Enzo snickering obnoxiously, but all Theo can do is stare at you dumbly. This was mortifying. As soon as he figured out how to move again Theo was launching himself straight off this bloody tower.
"Hey, do you want to sneak into the library again tonight?" you ask casually, laying your things out on your desk, seemingly oblivious to the fact that you were about to send Theo into cardiac arrest.
Of course I'll sneak back into the library with you. Especially if it means you'll kiss me again, Theo wants to say. But he has at least a little bit of dignity left, so he straightens himself in his chair, trying to maintain at least somewhat of an air of nonchalance as he finally strings a sentence together.
"Sure."
Okay, so a sentence might be giving himself a bit too much credit, but it was better than sitting there gaping like a daft idiot. You seem satisfied with his answer though as you turn to face the front just as Trelawney waltzes into the room with her usual dramatic flair. Theo drifts in and out of the lesson as Trelawney rambles on about tea leaves and the placement of tasseography symbols. He tried to focus. Really he needed to, because the alternative was his gaze finding its way to the curve of your lips and the way your tongue pressed against the inside of your cheek as you furiously scribbled down notes.
The gentle sound of metal clinking on china pulls Theo wholey back to class as a spoon taps impatiently on the teacup in front of him as if urging him to drink. Glancing around he sees most of his classmates were already bottoms up. Drinking down the rather bitter liquid, Theo carefully places his cup back down in front of him, peering disinterestedly at its contents. Just looked like soggy tea leaves to him.
Trelawney insists on moving about the room though, dissecting the meanings inside each little cup and leaving behind a trail of utterly befuddled students in her wake. When she finally reaches Theo, he can visibly see her begin to vibrate with excitement as she moves his cup around in her hands, swishing the tea leaves back and forth.
"Look there, dear. Do you see?" she asks giddily, shoving the teacup back in Theo's face.
"No." he replies flatly, not even bothering to examine the wet leaves.
"Look closer."
Theo's nose is practically inside the cup now and he can hear you and Enz snickering on either side of him. Traitors. When he still doesn't say anything, Trelawney lets out a huff, sticking her crooked finger into the cup and speaking slowly as if explaining something to a small child.
"Right there. Don't you see?" she asks, as if it should've been the most obvious thing in the world. "An axe—" she swirls the cup to the side. "And a butterfly."
Theo stares blankly at the old woman.
"Use their notes and figure it out," she finally huffs in exasperation before sweeping off to another table.
As soon as she's gone and Theo makes eye contact with you he can't help but chuckle as Daphne scowls at the two of you.
"Look," she sighs, shoving her notes across the table for Theo to read.
The Axe—problems overcome
The Butterfly—success and pleasure
Wonderful. More nonsense. That was the problem with divination—the definitions were so broad they were basically meaningless. Overcoming problems and success? That could be about anything. Theo pushes the parchment back to its owner with a shrug. He'd just do what he always did and make something up for the assignment.
Shadows loom against the dimly lit walls of the library as you and Theo wander through the shelves together. Theo had been quieter than usual tonight. To be fair, he wasn't usually the most talkative person ever, but you had had to push to get your usual banter out of him. He clearly had something on his mind. You don't push though. That was something you both appreciated about each other—just being there together was enough.
Once you both have a sizable stack of books pulled together you tuck yourselves away in one of the back corners of the restricted section. Far enough that not even Mrs. Norris would bother to wander all the way back. You find yourself curling up next to your friend, legs pressed together and shoulders brushing as you cast a soft lumos charm just bright enough to illuminate the pages of your books as you read. The quiet is nice after a long day of navigating the crowded halls and classrooms of the school. Hogwarts was definitely a lively place, and you hadn't realized just how much you missed having some peace and quiet until you'd snuck out of Ravenclaw tower that first night.
"Do you think divination might not be completely useless?" Theo asks a while later, breaking the silence.
You look up in surprise before glancing down at the book he's reading—Divination Through the Ages: A Skeptics Guide—your eyebrows furrowing in thought. If you were being honest, you'd always thought that divination was, to be polite, dumb. In fact, you'd been rather pissed when your head of house, Professor Flitwick, had told you that it was the only class that would fit in your schedule. But you didn't think that was what Theo wanted to hear at the moment.
"I mean, all forms of magic have their unique uses I suppose," you reply carefully, wondering where this was going.
Theo just hums in response, continuing to finger through the pages of the book as you watch with curiosity. Finally, with a deep breath, he snaps the book closed and turns to face you. It's clear he wants to say something as you search his eyes which seem to be getting ever so slightly closer by the second. You can't help the way your eyes drop down to his lips as his tongue glides across his bottom lip nervously. They're so close now you can practically feel the way they had pressed against your own last night. However brief that encounter had been. When you finally tilt your head back up to meet his eyes once more, your nose brushes his and you feel your breath hitch. If you didn't know any better, you'd think he was about to kiss you right now.
And then his lips are on yours and you feel your body go limp as he pulls you into him, your eyes fluttering closed as he molds you to him. Your book slips from your fingers with a dull thud as it hits the ground, but you hardly notice. Theo's lips are just as warm, and soft, and utterly intoxicating as you remembered them to be. You can feel Theo smiling against your lips as he pulls you impossibly closer and you forget where you are, what you were doing, everything except what it feels like to be held in Theo's arms.
When you finally break apart, it's your turn to blink in stunned silence as Theo gazes down at you, his breath warm against your cheek.
"Ever since you arrived, everything that divination has told me has come true," Theo says gruffly, clearly not pleased to be having to admit it.
You couldn't blame him. The two of you had kind of bonded over how unseriously you both took the class. Still though, you tilt your head, inviting him to continue.
"The first day we met—that morning in divination, a deck of tarot cards told me I was going to fall in love."
A dry laugh escapes Theo's lips as he pulls back, eyes trained everywhere but at you now. Which is probably for the best as you feel tendrils of heat creeping up into your face.
"I didn't believe them of course. Thought it was pure rubbish."
Your heart stutters for a moment before your eyes land on the book Theo had been reading so intently up until now.
"Hm. And did something change?" you ask cautiously, not daring to get your hopes up.
"Well, the soggy leaves in my tea this morning kind of implied that I should get my act together if I wanted any sort of success, so—" Theo lets out another wry laugh, though there's no humor in his voice. Just a nervous undertone that you can tell he's trying to mask.
"Well did you? Fall in love that is?" you ask, suddenly feeling shy around Theo for the first time.
There's a beat of silence where you can practically feel your heart trying to tear its way out of your chest. You hadn't quite realized just how much you wanted this until it was staring you in the face. Or rather anywhere but. Then Theo meets your eyes once more.
"I think I could. If I'm not half way there already."
His words melt every bit of tension you had been feeling previously as you let out a breath that you didn't know you'd been holding.
"I think I'm half way there too."
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