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Always find myself back here, never for any good reasons.

Suicidal tendencies creeping up again. Still the same person. Still wishing I was dead

Hate how things r. Feel like I’ve switched out of this relationship.

Picked up the you, me and us book and started flipping thru it and miss how we use to be, but the. Also anger cuz I keep mentioning wanting to do pages or have it filled by 5 years and it’s not reciprocated.

Prob just gonna throw out the book later in the year.

Getting close to that edge again and really having nothing stop me this time

One day I’ll be able to kill myself

Just wish it was one soon

Wish you would of just done the paper like you offered at first

The only thing left that surprises me is too this day how little my foster family really does for me.

Wasn’t the greatest feeling being called overbearing because I was all over u when I first got back to ur dorm.

The conversations In the past days were all about basically how we were gonna fuck as soon as we saw each other.

Like sorry I miss you ? I mean u know how I am once I try and it’s rejected I don’t try again until u make a move so. Idk just don’t know why we can talk about it I guess things and then actions were different. Like it’s no big deal just gets to me with my headspace

When a song can hit u right and just listen and let tears flow from all the internal fighting on keeping things afloat

It’s been pretty bad the last couple of months so I guess I end up back in here.

Been having a lot of intrusive thoughts lots of lack of enjoyment of literally anything I use to like.

Lifeless in everyday activities. Haven’t written anything in months.

Lots of other doubts and thoughts but don’t feel like writing them all out atm.

Feels good to be back

fuck that girl your dating you should be with me instead

Lol cuz being anon helps that No thanks

Patheticcccccc .

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