Alo! I don’t have a post for today, so I thought I’d make an intro post and kind of share how I found Andrew and that sort of thing. This is going to be a personal post, but I’ll try to glide over everything so it’s not too deep. :)
If you can believe it, I had no idea who Andrew Scott was until October 1, 2025! On October 1, last year, I had a complete breakdown, meltdown, emotional distress, spiral downward situation. My best guess is perimenopause hit me like a Mack truck. Thus far I had operated as a cyborg with no feelings, and suddenly it was like feelings.exe had been downloaded to my hard drive.
I have had lingering SI running in the background every day for decades, but this was nothing like that. This was a dizzying bottomless pit free-fall of who am I, what is my purpose, what is the point, I have no legacy, I’ll disappear if I stop performing, I am nothing, everything is nothing. I looked up and couldn’t even see the light outside of the hole I fell into and thought, oh no, I’m not going to be able to climb back out from here alone.
So through streaming tears, I grappled and searched through dozens of YouTube videos, just searching the term “hope” and trying to grasp something, anything, to give me some sort of foothold to climb upward.
And I found the HUMEN project Hope episode, with our Andrew.
This is the bit that made me sit up straight.
A revelation. My breath. Yes, immediate proof of life. I’m breathing, I’m here, I am. From there, I started down a rabbit hole of breath as consciousness as life as being.
After a day of this, I went back to Andrew to hear more of what this man had to say. I started watching his interviews and hearing his insights on living life and our purpose. I love how he says we’re meant to breathe life in and then exhale it with our autograph on it.
In my breath as consciousness research, I also found a quip that the first thing we do is inhale, the last thing we do is exhale, and in between, we live our lives. And also that the word for “breath” and the word for “spirit” are the same in many languages. Beautiful.
I’m atheist and don’t intend to change that, but I do appreciate the “scaffolding” of religion in some ways and have somewhat mapped that onto my life through a worship of the arts, and can happily say I have a firmer foundation and no longer experience SI which is insane bc it was literally daily for decades. Please don’t clap. I’m just an observer making an observation.
Anyway, after I watched all of Andrew’s interviews, read all of his print article presence, watched all of his performances, and listened to his narrations, I can safely say I have fallen in love. Every aspect of my life has improved.
I was a cynical, negative, downward-gazing, empty person. And now I am trying harder to see the world through the lens of love. I’m pushing myself to focus on connection and love for humanity.
Playful, protective, sexy, magnetic, tender, vulnerable, strong, sensitive Andrew. I want to live my life like he does. Most importantly, I want to live my life.
And that’s it! That’s my Andrew story! I found his heart, and then his art, and now I’m down bad in a prison that I have no intention of escaping. :)
Nice to meet you!