201204 Jinโs birthday letter to ARMY
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ํ์ธ์ ์ง์
๋๋ค.
์ผ๋ง ์ , ๊ธฐ์ ํ๊ฒฌ์ ํ๋ฉด์ ์ด๋ฐ ์๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ํ์ ์ด ์์ด์
โ๋๋ ๋ด ์ฌํ ๊ฐ์ ์ ํฌ๋ถ๋ค๊ณผ ๊ณต์ ํ๊ณ ์ถ์ง ์๋ค. ์ข์ ๊ฒ๋ง ๋ณด์ฌ๋๋ฆฌ๊ณ ์ถ๊ธฐ ๋๋ฌธ์ด๋ค.
ํ์ง๋ง ๊ทธ๊ฒ ์์
์ด๋ผ๋ฉด ์๊ธฐ๋ ๋ค๋ฅด๋ค. ํ์ ๋์ ํ๋์ผ๋ก๋ ๊ณต์ ํ๊ณ ์ถ์ง ์์ง๋ง ์์
์ผ๋ก์๋ ๋ณด์ฌ๋๋ ค๋ ๊ด์ฐฎ์ ๊ฒ ๊ฐ๋ค.โ
์ฌ์ค์ ์ต๊ทผ์ ํฌ๊ฒ ๋ฒ์์์ด ์๋๋ฐ ์ ์์ ์ ๋ํ ๋ง์ ์๊ฐ์ด ๋ค์ด์ ๊ทธ๋ฌ๋ ๊ฒ ๊ฐ์์.๋น๋ณด๋ ํซ 100 1์๋ฅผ ํ๊ณ ๋ง์ ๋ถ๋ค๊ป ์ถํ์ธ์ฌ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ์๋๋ฐ ๋ด๊ฐ ์ด๋ฐ๊ฑธ ๋ฐ์๋ ๋ ๊น..
์ฌ์ค ๋๋ณด๋ค ์์
์ ๋ ๋ง์ด ์ฌ๋ํ๊ณ ๋ ์ํ๋ ๋ถ๋ค๋ ๋ง์๋ฐ ๋ด๊ฐ ์ด๋ฐ ๊ธฐ์จ๊ณผ ์ถํ๋ฅผ ๋ฐ์๋ ๊ด์ฐฎ์๊น..ํ๋ ์๊ฐ์ด์๊ณ ๋ ๊น์ด ๋ค์ด๊ฐ๋ค๋ณด๋ ๋ง์์ด ํ๋ค์ด ๋ค ๋ด๋ ค๋๊ณ ์ถ์๋ ๊ฒ ๊ฐ์์. ์ด ์ผ๋ก ์๋ด๋ ๋ฐ์ผ๋ฉฐ ํ๋ฃจํ๋ฃจ ์ง๋ด๋ค๊ฐ ๋ฐฉํผ๋๋๊ณผ ์๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ํด๋ดค๋๋ฐ ์ง๊ธ ์ด ๊ฐ์ ์ ๋
ธ๋๋ก ์จ๋ณด๋ฉด ์ด๋ป๊ฒ ๋๊ณ ํ์๋๋ผ๊ณ ์. ์ ๋ง๋ค ์์ ๋ ์๊ณ ๊ฒฐ๊ณผ๋ฌผ์ด ์ข์ง ์์ผ๋ฉด ์ด์ฉ๋, ๋๋ ์ด๋ฏธ ๊ทธ๋ฌ๋ฉด ์๋๋ ์์น์ ์๋ฒ๋ ธ๋๋ฐ.. ๋ผ๊ณ ๋๋ต์ ํ๋
๋ฐฉํผ๋๋์ ๊ทธ๋ฐ ๊ฑด ์ค์ํ์ง ์๋ค. ํ์ง๋ง ํ๊ฒ ๋๋ค๋ฉด ๋๋ ๋ถ๋ช
์ ํ ๊ฑฐ๋ค ๋์๊ฒ ๋ง๋ ์ฌ๋์ ์ฐพ์๋ด์ฃผ๊ฒ ๋ค๊ณ ํ์
จ์ด์.
๊ทธ๋ ๊ฒ ์๊ณก๊ฐ ๊ณ๋ฒ์ฃผํ๋์ ๋ง๋๊ฒ ๋์๊ณ ์ง๊ธ ์ ๊ฐ์ ๊ณผ ๋ง์๊ฒ๋ค์ ๋ํด ์๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ๋๋ด์ต๋๋ค.
๋ฐ๊ณ ๊ธ์ ์ ์ธ ๋ถ์ด์๋๋ผ๊ณ ์. ํ๋์ ์ ๋ฅผ ๋์์ฃผ๊ณ ์ถ๋ค๊ณ ํ์
จ๊ณ โ๋ง์ ๋ถ์๋ค์ ๋ํด ์จ๋ณด์~ ์ ์๋๋ฉด ๋ ์๋ก ํด๋ณด๋ฉด ๋๋ค'๋ ๊ธ์ ์ ํ์ผ๋ก ์ ๋ค์ ๋ฐ๊ฒ ํด์คฌ์ด์.
๊ทธ๋ ๊ฒ ์ฌ๋ฌ ์๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ๋๋ ๋ณด๊ณ ์ง๊ธ ์ ์ ๊ฐ์ ์ ๊ทธ๋๋ก ํ์ฅ์์ ํธ๋์ผ๋ก ๋ง๋ค์ด์คฌ๊ณ ์ด๊ฑธ๋ก ํด๋ณด๊ณ ์ถ์ ์๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ์จ๋ด๋ ค๊ฐ๋ Abyss๊ฐ ์์ฑ ๋์ต๋๋ค. ๊ณ๋ฒ์ฃผ ํ๋์๊ฒ ๋ค์ ํ๋ฒ ๊ณ ๋ง๋ค๊ณ ์๊ธฐํ๊ณ ์ถ์ด์.
์์ผ์๋ ๋ง์ง์๋ ์ข ์ฐ์ธํ ๋
ธ๋์ง๋ง ๊ทธ๋๋ ์์ผ์ด ์๋๋ฉด ์ ๋งคํ ๊ฑฐ ๊ฐ์ Abyss๋ฅผ ๊ณต๊ฐํ๊ฒ ๋์๋ค์.
์๋ฏธ๋ค, ๋ถ์กฑํ๋๋ผ๋ ์ ๋ค์ด์ฃผ์ธ์.
ps. ํ๋ ด๊ตฌ ๊ฐ์ฌ ์จ์ค ์ฐ๋ฆฌ ๋ฆฌ๋๋ ๊ฐ์ฌํฉ๋๋ค.
Hello, this is Jin.
I once said this not too long ago during a press conference,
โI donโt want to share my sad emotions with my fans. Thatโs because I want to show them only good things. But that changes when it comes to music. I donโt want to show my sad emotions [to fans] with my everyday words and actions but I think itโll be okay for me to show them through music.โ
Honestly, Iโve felt really burned out recently and I think I said [what I said at the press conference] because the burnout had me feeling a lot of things about myself. We got #1 on the Billboard Hot 100 chart and we received congratulations from so many people but I thought โis it okay for me to receive those congratulations?..โ To be honest, there are other people who love music even more than I do and are better at it than I am. Would it be okay for me to receive this happiness and praise/congratulations?..as I fell deeper into these thoughts, my heart grew heavier and, mentally, it got so hard for me that I think I wanted to just lay everything down. As a result of this issue, I spent my every day getting counseled on it (therapy) and ended up speaking to Bang PD-nim about it, and he suggested โwhy donโt you try writing these feelings out in a song?โ When I replied by saying โI donโt have the confidence to make it well and if it doesnโt bear good results, Iโm already in a position where that isnโt acceptable,โ Bang PD-nim said โthose things arenโt important. But if you choose to do this, I know you will do well. I will find someone for you who is compatible with you.โ And that is how I came to meet producer hyungnim, Kye Bum Joo (aka Bumzu) and spoke a lot with him about what I had been feeling.
It turns out [Kye Bum Joo] is a very bright and optimistic person. Hyungnim said he wanted to help me and said โletโs write about the many insecurities/worries/anxieties you are feeling~ if it doesnโt go well we can just start from scratch againโ and brightened me up with the strength of optimism.
And after those conversations, he wrote all of my feelings into a track for me right there on the spot, and as I wrote out the various stories I wanted to tell with this song, โAbyssโ was completed. Once again, I want to thank Kye Bum Joo hyungnim.
Even though itโs a bit of a depressing song that doesnโt quite go well with a birthday, I thought it would be hard to find the right timing if I didnโt post on my birthday so Iโve ended up releasing โAbyssโ [today].
ARMYs, though it may be lacking, please listen to it well.
ps. to our leader-nim who wrote the chorus, thank you.
Trans cr: Amy @ bts-twts
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