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vyva-melinkolya

Don’t make your younger self into your own dead wife.

vyva-melinkolya

Don’t make your older self into a husband you resent. Idk

adding-girls-to-posts

Don’t make your older self into a wife you resent. Idk

vyva-melinkolya

if I had a wife I could never resent her that’s why i said husband

tankhall

i think the most beautiful thing about being a human is the capacity to change

tankhall

2027 ; i will pay you to keep your hand over my mouth

turninginyourstomach

Need a man that I can skitch or whatever…

turninginyourstomach

I love fingering myself and listening to Ethel Cain.

butimaballerina

actually losing my mind but at least i have ethel cain tickets

opiumvampire

this one. fuck this poem.

mompleaser

i wanted to share this not to come off as corrective but because i actually think it really adds to the text to know that not only is it not from a poem, but that there’s a fuller version of this quote that is just as good. and it’s actually really good advice on how to a write emotion without becoming sentimental. james hall, the interviewer, is himself a poet worth looking into if you’re unfamiliar.

James Hall: I love that you risk sentimentality in the poems. Can you talk about how you construct a poem’s emotion without letting that emotion subsume the poem? What tools are available to a poet to mitigate emotion successfully?

Richard Siken: I didn’t see it as risking anything, and I suppose the tool for mitigating emotion is undercutting, but I’ll try to answer the question sideways: Even if you don’t believe in God, you have to believe in narrative. Things happen, one after another, world without end. Just because you’re self-aware doesn’t mean you can change what’s happening. Eventually someone is going to break your heart. Eventually something you love is going to be taken away. And then you will fall to the floor crying. And then, however much later, it is finally happening to you: you’re falling to the floor crying thinking “I am falling to the floor crying” but there’s an element of the ridiculous to it—you knew it would happen and, even worse, while you’re on the floor crying you look at the place where the wall meets the floor and you realize you didn’t paint it very well and when you’re having sex with your next lover on this very floor they will also notice that you didn’t paint it very well and they will think less of you for it. And then you think “Is that sentence too long?” And then you have to hold the contradictions of sobbing uncontrollably and wondering about grammar in your head at the same time. I think if you are true to the entire experience, not just the sad part, you don’t risk sentimentality because you’re not overloading the experience with fake, melodramatic feeling. I also hear that whispering helps.

here’s to everyone who looked for this in crush and was confused because it isn’t there. the original interview is kind of hard to source nowadays because of how often it’s misattributed: https://web.archive.org/web/20060501211545/http://www.gulfcoastmag.org/GCIssues/gc18.1%20folder/18.1%20Samples/18.1IntSiken(Hall).html

dvnyaaa

i can’t believe that im still hoping and hoping and hoping and

turninginyourstomach

That shit your daddy smoked in Vietn a a a a a am

ohandsowedrown

I do not want to be loved gently. I want to be understood violently.

soul-from-another-era

vexheart

redstonedust

what if your doppelganger loved being you more than you ever loved being yourself. they're better at being you and everyone loves them and it feels almost selfish to want your life back. i want clone horror but the horror is that the thing trying to replace you is also the person you always wanted to be.