Freaked up

☆ Corbin/Mob ☆ 19 ☆ He/they/It ☆ DIDsys ☆ ☆Questionable Ship Enthusiast☆

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Intro post--

Hi welcome to my blog, I'm Shigeo [He/it], I am a Shigeo Kageyama fictive, though I'm very different from my source, if anything I more closely resemble kinning Mob. I found that I prefer to be called Shige/Shigeo/Mob, however I also go by Corbin for those who are uncomfortable with that!

This was originally supposed to be an Art/Fandom Blog, but it's kinda turned to my place to just talk about everything lol.

I am a proshipper, I ship Reimob, both in I like exploring Mob and Reigens dynamics, and also separately in more of a selfshipping way for comfort. If that makes you uncomfortable block and move on.

Anyhow!! Id love to make some Art/Fandom Friends/Mutuals! I'm into MP100, Akira, Project Hail Mary, BNA, and im also in thebFurry fandom. I'm very tumblr inexperienced, so forgive me for still trying to figure this out.

My tags

Art: to be tagged, I'm lazy and haven't gotten around to it

Ranting/rambling: #Corbin/Mob rants

System related stuff: #Shigeo's System Shit

My posts: #Corbin/Mob's Stuff

(Incase other headmates ever post/decide to post, though I'm bad about remembering to use this tag cause as far as ik I'm the only one who's used this blog lol)

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Transitioning might just be a life or death situation for me and that is a terrifying thing to realize when I'm in a position where I'll very likely never be able to transition.

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Killer

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I'm finally cleaning my room today and reorganizing it to be how I want it. I've been taking down all of ex-Hosts stuff and putting it away so the room can feel like mine finally. I feel kinda terrible about it though. It's been months since ex-host left and I became host, it hasn't come back at all as far as I'm aware. However I feel bad moving things that aren't mine, putting them in storage or throwing them out.

Ex-host had one of those dedicated character shrines, he was a yumeshipper and loved making things for his ship. Today I took down that shrine, and put all of his collection into little boxes. The wall is plastered with all the art he made and received of his ship, idk if I'm going to move them to a different wall, if I'll put them into a binder, or if I'll just throw them away.

He was host for 3 years. Now he's gone. Every Part of our room he customized to be his and to reflect himself. Now I'm here, and I'm just getting rid of all the evidence he was here to begin with

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HAPPY 10TH ANNIVERSARY DEAR MP100🎊

+ favourite frame

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Looking at pictures of myself with short hair and feeling immense grief that I'm not allowed to cut my hair like that anymore

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I yearn for a group of friends where I can relive the teen years I lost

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Here to ramble cause I don't really got anyone to talk to, but like, a couple months have passed and now I can say it with more certainty

So, I have become the new host? I believe? And because of that I have accidentally ruined a couple of prior-hosts relationships, since the relationships didn't feel like "mine" or like they were my relationships to maintain. Plus I didn't realize prior-host just, wasn't around a lot, so I have now accidentally ended up with both of our partners breaking up with us and then one of our best friends stopping talking to us. I feel really bad, it's my fault cause I didn't put any effort into the relationships cause again to me they weren't my friends or partners.

On one hand I didn't really know these people, I didn't like some of them for reasons I can't share, not having them in my life wont maks a difference. On the other hand I feel bad for prior-host cause it lost people it was incredibly close to and cared deeply about, and it had no control over this. It's just gonna come back and not have the people it cared about. And on another hand I feel horrible about the fact I'm not the prior-host and that those people don't have the person they loved anymore. Their best friend was just completely replaced. I can't imagine how awful it must be for them too.

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I have so many things I want to say all the time but I never know how to say a single one of them

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Mp100 characters need to stop being so easy to project trauma onto man

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Blegh

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OHMYGOD MY KEYCHAINS CAME IN

THEY ARE SO MUCH BIGGER THAN I EXPECTED OMG I LOVE THEM SM

I GOT THEM FROM LOPPIART ON ETSY !!

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Mmmm Reimob...

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Shout out to Tetsuo I love how he has rabies

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more school nurse mob au thoughts, this time it's relationship between kageyama brothers

things get really tricky here because what amount of canonical events between them would happened even if mob never had reigen as his mentor? i think their emotional struggles would just spread their roots deeper and stronger like ritsu's inability to have a "brotherly fight" with shigeo or mob's paralyzing fear to snap once again and hurt his little brother. lots of things to consider here, but anyway i think they're still weirdly close and attached to each other in any possible universe. i feel like they both hate family gatherings for that non stop comparing one to another but never speak out. i think sometimes ritsu would get really stressed and carried away after family meetings and say something like "why can't you just be more independent, more responsible, more normal" or "well maybe if you actually used the potential you have the right way things would turn out different for you" and he will immediately get ashamed of himself when he realizes what he just said. ritsu must suffer like he's doing it for both if them and mob would just... dissociate from it all as much as he can? it must be really fucked up because of all the emotional suppression. like "it's ok ritsu i know you didn't mean it" but his face is slowly covering with black statics and somewhere in ritsu's mind there's a thought like "i actually mean it".

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He's a kitty cat now

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god i feel unstoppable