~excitate vos e somno...~

～♔Rosie♔ロージー♔～ ***Embracing social media with an open heart.*** There’s something really nice about Tumblr. Even with the infinite distances that divide us, it only takes that one singular post – the one that resonates with thousands of hearts across the world – to create an instantaneous spark of understanding. Discovering you’re on the same wavelength with someone you've never met can lay your uncertainties to rest, and make you feel the expanse of the world beyond your bedroom. Why do we reach out into virtual space and seek to share our feelings, our impressions, or simply our predilections? What happens when we do? When we open our minds to each other, we willingly weave another thread into our great tapestry of human storytelling. To me, life is an unending series of stories, overlapping and vacillating with the tide of our passions…and it’s here that Tumblr becomes the virtual channel of our dynamic narratives. The information, the ideas, and the stories we share and re-share – that’s what connects us and unites us. We are a global community of storytellers… So what's my story? It all begins with scores, poetry, dreams, and Japan... The four elements of a beautiful life. Just a girl from the land down under, dedicated to lifelong study and learning. In this tiny realm of virtual space, you’ll find an appetite for all things Japan now and forever, not to mention snapshots of a vast array of culinary delights. You’ll stumble upon Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, and Zelda, and all the penchants of a retro video game nut, not to mention everything Misha, Jared, and Jensen, my Supernatural heaven. Stay awhile and you’ll also see the adorable Jimmy Fallon and bear witness to my undying obsession for The Mentalist. What lies before you is just a simple mishmash of all the things I love. Enjoy the ride. Nothing but red, vinyl, stories, and life. On that note, thanks for visiting my blog guys!!! Let the blogging begin!!! ~~~* Here are some words from my favourite stories....*~~~ “COLOUR MY LIFE WITH THE CHAOS OF TROUBLE...” "We're here in a yellow truck, a road ahead of us, and nothing but opportunities." “I'm gonna be a blitzball when I grow up!” “Iris, if you were a melody...I used only the good notes.” “I have found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said, ‘Journeys end in lovers meeting.’ Oh, what an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said, ‘Love is blind.’ Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades. For others, love is simply lost...but then of course, love can also be found, even if just for the night...and then, there's another kind of love – the cruellest kind – the one that almost kills its victims. It’s called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other...but what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one-sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded, the handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual...and I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmases, the worst Birthdays...New Year’s Eves brought in by tears and Valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life…all because I have been cursed by being in love with a man who does not, and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms.” “I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible...and how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you...and it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends. You still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood...and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy...and sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door...and after all that – however long all that may be – you’ll go somewhere new...and you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again...and little pieces of your soul will finally come back...and all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.” “Dearest Cecilia, the story can resume…the one I had been planning on that evening walk. I can become again the man who once crossed the Surrey park at dusk, in my best suit, swaggering on the promise of life…the man who, with the clarity of passion, made love to you in the library. The story can resume. I will return...Find you...Love you...Marry you...and live without shame.” ﾟ★｡.:*:･'ﾟ☆｡.:*:･'ﾟ★｡.:*:･'ﾟ☆｡.:*:･'ﾟ★｡.:*:･'ﾟ Iridescent...♬ “Believe...” ﾟ★｡.:*:･'ﾟ☆｡.:*:･'ﾟ★｡.:*:･'ﾟ☆｡.:*:･'ﾟ★｡.:*:･'ﾟ Selphie: By the way...this model's nice but the president's car looks kinda shabby. ......Why is that? Watts: Yeah, Rinoa made it. That's why. We bought everything else at the gift store. Zell: Oh...I thought some kid made it. The paint job sucks too. Squall: (......? Yeah...It kind of does.) Rinoa: Oh, shut up! I made it look like that on purpose. It represents my hatred towards Deling. Zell: Hatred, eh...? Yeah...right. Selphie: It's one of the...ugliest things that I've ever seen in my life. You must really hate him. Rinoa: Are you guys finished!? Enough about the model! Can we get on with it now!? Do you understand? ***** ***** Laguna: (Ah...To be this close to Julia...) Squall: (Is this guy serious...?) Laguna: (...Uh-oh...) (My leg's cramping up...!) (Argh...) [Laguna walks away awkwardly.] Squall: (Sad...) [Laguna goes back to Kiros and Ward.] Kiros: Good work, Laguna. Ward: Mission successful! Kiros: Here, have a seat. Ward: I didn't think you'd actually do it. Our popularity rating's gone up a point. Kiros: Yeah, but you cut a pretty pitiful figure up there. I'd say you're about a -3 on the manliness scale. ***** *****

[excitate-vos-e-somno]

It's funny how I thought my heart and soul had healed from all that's happened this year. In a way, I had, because I wouldn't have been able to find the confidence to chase my independence and desire for happiness again...but I think there's still some part of me --- some traumatised part --- that keeps me worried, and sometimes paranoid that I'm being played, or worse, manipulated again. That isn't to say that this new love I've found isn't true. In fact, it's probably the truest thing I've ever felt --- the most I've ever felt respected...but I guess that's why it makes me so sacred --- scared of being hurt, of being played, of being betrayed. How do you let your heart completely heal? Is that ever possible. I want to be okay. Sometimes, I want to not feel or be concerned about anything, but how would I be able to enjoy all the good things without my emotions? I wish I had all the answers, but I think it'll be a lifetime before I can figure all this out for myself.

[excitate-vos-e-somno]

Nothing. Just tears.

[excitate-vos-e-somno]

All of this is just too painful. I feel like I just want to give up. I'm ruined. I have nothing. I'm empty. And I know you'll never care. Because you don't love me. And you never will. I don't know why I've been kidding myself. I've never meant anything to you. I'm nothing. I have nothing left to give. It'd be better if I just left this altogether.

[excitate-vos-e-somno]

I don't think I've ever felt this empty at all in my life, even after I broke up with my ex-boyfriend.

[excitate-vos-e-somno]

I never thought my life would be so complicated. I was always the type of girl who never had to deal with any relationship problems. Despite my emotions, I’ve always thought rationally and logically. I’ve always been able to think straight and do the right thing.

But now...I don’t even know who I am anymore.

And you’re the reason for it.

I want to hate you, but I can’t. 

I’m constantly in pain, but I can’t stop myself wanting to be with you. 

You have ruined me, and you don’t even realise it. 

You make me so angry, but you can’t even see it. 

You are probably the worst thing to ever happen to me. 

[saiaku]

[waywardsam]

@baby-is-their-home​ requested early season!sam smiling/laughing

[guhrlie]

When I think of my wife, I always think of the back of her head. I picture cracking her lovely skull, unspooling her brain, trying to get answers. The primal questions of a marriage: What are you thinking? How are you feeling? What have we done to each other? What will we do?

[dailypotter]

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[dailyavengers]

Captain america: civil war (2016) dir. by Joe and Anthony russo

[weheartfandom]

What the hell is a Bulbasaur?

[excitate-vos-e-somno]

Tonight, I feel like I'm lost in the desert. You found my heart. I am stuck in quicksand and I am trying not to drown. Fell in deeper this time and I'm struggling to get out...and doubt creeps into my soul...and now, I've found there's nothing left to hold. I thought I'd die...I had no fight...I had given up. Thought I was done...I was savaged by the sun. I thought I'd die...I had no fight...I had turned to dust.

I’m not sure I can put into words all that’s happened to me in the past year. I could probably spend hours and hours writing and re-editing this stream-of-consciousness rambling, just to form a seemingly perfect picture of my uncharacteristically more-than-eventful life over the last few months, but I don’t think even I could make sense of it. I really fell deep into something I wasn’t expecting at all, and as much as I want to extricate myself from it --- and I really do --- I feel like it’s almost impossible...and I don’t know whether it’s because I’m in some way naively hopeful, unhealthily possessive, or subconsciously hurting more than I realise. All I know is that life’s complications were nothing compared to when you drowned my life in your presence. It was never something I thought I needed or wanted, and now I’m caught up in your chaos with no exit in sight. 

I wonder if you actually realise how much you hurt me. No matter how much you say that all you were ever concerned about was me and my feelings, your words always end up feeling empty and dismissive, and they fall short to assuage my pain and confusion, every time I look into your eyes. 

Although I’ll carry on and put the past to rest, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to forget. You’re the maelstrom that blew away my sense of right and wrong, and I’m only beginning to recover the pieces of my former self...and of my broken heart, that wasn’t all that unbroken to begin with.

[out-in-the-open]

Jensen, Jared, and Misha at the EW Halloween Cover Shoot 2017 (x)

[brittrobertsons]

[elehayym-archive-deactivated201]

Devotion: Someday I will be queen, but I will always be myself.

[bubbagumps]

[yourfavoritedirector]