If I have to hear one more time that "Life isn't fair" I'm going to lose my shit.
Life is fucking fair. You know what ISN'T fair?
People.
And that's changeable. To say "life isn't fair" just means you're willing to lay down and allow people to mistreat you and walk all over you like a doormat....and willing to let your loved ones get mistreated too. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it all.
Reminder that even though you are a soul in a human body and nothing really matters.... you still should do things to take care of that meat suit of yours even if you don't feel like it.
u survive literally every single event in your life & still every time a new event happens you feel like this is the event that will kill you and that you will never move on from but actually you will continue to survive like you always have bc u have a 100% win rate of surviving events. btw
While doing dishes, I was thinking about something that kind of made me stop and go, "Huh."
When we see spiritual enlightenment in media, it is shown as an end goal, the highest being you could possibly achieve, this big bombastic "OHHHH I GET IT NOW." And like.... Universal?
But....That can't be true. Universal spiritual enlightenment does not exist. Every human is different, and their beliefs are completely different. And we have had many spiritually enlightened teachers over the centuries, all with different belief systems and thought processes.
Yet they were still enlightened and "right" regardless. Because enlightenment is not universal. Enlightenment is just as varied as people and their personalities.
And they, themselves, admitted that enlightenment was not an end goal. It's a constant journey, a path that you walk, not this magical omnipotence that washes over you immediately. Enlightenment is a curriculum, a course, and the universe is the teacher. But it is up to you to decide to pay attention in class or ignore the teacher.
It doesn't matter how you pay attention, either. Be it standing, sitting, pacing, doodling, fidgeting, laying on the floor, or being the most neurodivergent nugget the world has ever seen and doing all of those at some point and then sitting upside down in your chair like an autistic bat.
That last one was me, by the way.
Enlightenment is not an end game. It is a constantly evolving understanding of the inner mechanics of our spirit, a path with beautiful scenery and cute little fluffy bunnies and butterflies and the smell of fresh baked apple pie.
But it is also a path of thorns, danger, pits of despair. Sometimes, the same beautiful trees block out the sun and cast the path into darkness.
But it is your job to decide how you react to it. Do you stay in the same place, with the bunnies and the butterflies, always wanting pure comfort, too scared to venture beyond the haven? Or are you secure in your knowledge that you are safe and protected, that you can go through those difficult parts of the path and end out on the other side of it and find something even better afterward?
At the end of the day, enlightenment is not a destination but a path that you walk. And you get to determine where that leads you.
Your truth is the real truth for yourself. And how you perceive the world is how you'll receive it.
Conservative Gamers: WAAAAA ELDER SCROLLS HAS GONE WOKE HSJSBUSNSHS
Vivec, a technically nonbinary elven god who married Molag Bal and has female consorts and is designed to look like two elven races at once: Exists.
Yeah, okay, sure, tell me how Elder Scrolls is being forced to go woke. It literally explores the effects of racism and hate on societies, and there's a fucking god whose whole realm is dedicated to being an asylum for those with mental disabilities who ALSO HAS A FURSONA.
SHEOGORATH AND SKOOMA CAT ARE THE SAME FUCKING BEING.
Christ, common sense really isn't common at all. I remember hearing stories of gamers being mistreated by the greater populace for the content of their favorite games. I remember hearing that video games were "for the devil" and how terribly gamers tended to be treated.
Now gamers are just doubling back on the old narrative, wanting games to fit into their narrow worldview.
Newsflash: Gaming has always been "woke." Whether you want to believe it or not.
Sitting here, thinking about how wild it is that shifting exists and I'm watching Trixie Mattel and Katya being unhinged royalty to escape depressive thoughts.
Like. It's all really weird. Like we shift realities.... Which, in my brain, I interpret it as "Choosing which experience to become aware of." They all exist. Right now. Time isn't real. Technically. Yet everything is real. All of what we can think of is fucking real.
Y'all, I am having an existential crisis wtf is happening to me? Like, I kinda figured these things already.... yet the CONFIRMATION is way too much for my poor brain rn.
Because companies help perpetuate the idea that they choose based on "DEI requirements" and not merit.
Because they get tax cuts and paychecks from the government for doing so.
We needed DEI, unfortunately, because people don't choose merit over image, over cultural identity. The issue is Corporate DEI also encouraged corporations to then treat people with rich, cultural backgrounds like fucking tax cut pokemon cards and that ALSO upset me.
Either way, we sliced that cake. It was never going to be even. Which upsets me. At the end of the day, it still ended up Identity over Merit.
It wasn't like that across the board, no, but...it was still like that.
I hate corporate DEI, not Diversity.
But now things have leaned the wrong way AGAIN, and they just ripped people's abilities for fair hiring, even if it was still unfair in technicality. This all just upsets me. How hard is it just to hire people regardless of their background on merit alone?
We are all just dollar signs to corporations, no matter our backgrounds, regardless. That's what upsets me the most.
Damned if you do, damned if you don't.
I just wish they'd stop taking people's rights away. At this point, I can only hold on to that idea that things will get better. It has to.
Dude, I got my first one not long ago. They are absolutely scams. Just throw their profile image into google's backward image search. You'll find accounts with different names with the SAME image on it.
Absolutely fucking disgusting to prey on people who care about that cause with that. Many of us care about it but there isn't really shit we can do. We are poor, have no actual real followings, and to then try and dupe us into sending some basement dweller pretending to be a struggling Palestinian money?
I'm in the mood to become aware of a reality where I'm a really pretty boy. Just. Absolutely adorable. Wear pretty skirts... wear flashy, frilly dress shirts.... Sip some wine....
GASP.
I could be the prettiest prince! And fall in love with the villain! Ugh 💕💖💫💞✨️💖💕
Mentions of mental health struggles, self-harm, and self end-gaming. Read at your own discretion. Nothing said in this post is targeted at anyone, btw. I've seen this way more than once from different people.
Okay....something needs to be said:
The amount of "If I don't shift, I'm going to hurt myself." Or "When I don't shift, it makes me want to hurt myself."
That is incredibly disturbing to read. I understand that for many of us, this reality just is not it. Listen, I know that better than anyone. If I told you my trauma, you'd sit there, jaw agape, eyes bugging out of your forehead. Or you wouldn't, whatever. That's not the point.
I understand needing to vent and getting VERY upset. And trust me, having those feelings won't stop you from shifting while alive... Well, unless you carry out those dark thoughts...
But can we please keep in mind that these statements are INCREDIBLY triggering to some who have been desperately trying to crawl from the abyss that is ideation? I'm not trying to demean your struggle, not at all, and you should find someone you trust to talk about those feelings with... I understand that's easier said than done.
But I'd wager there are A LOT of shifters who struggle with mental health issues too, and don't want to open up their Tumblr to immediately see someone talking about hurting themselves, or thinking of it. I understand wanting desperately to shift, to have an escape, and to have big feelings about when it doesn't happen. ESPECIALLY if you've been trying a long time.
For the love of peanut butter, please also think about people who are opening up their Tumblr who are also insanely mentally ill. This is not a subject taken lightly, and it can be REALLY devastating to someone's mental health journey to see someone else talking about how they want to hurt themselves.
Just....let's maybe make it a more normal thing to reach out to people for a conversation about how we are feeling, instead of going to a public forum where other, sensitive individuals can see things that maybe they shouldn't.
Also, I have noticed it being used as a hyperbole phrase. "If I don't ____, I'm going to ____."
Let's....not do that. In any space. These conversations should be taken seriously and not used in a joking or hyperbolic manner. There are real people who suffer with real thoughts of harming themselves, and when you turn it into a joke or hyperbole.... Well. People become jaded and will think it's not that serious when someone is actually saying it for real.
If you ABSOLUTELY feel the need to openly talk about it in a public forum, TRIGGER WARNING IT. Please, for the love of spicy nacho cheese. Your words don't just affect you alone. Other people are affected by what they read. Please, let's be a bit more careful, yeah? I'm not saying you shouldn't talk about how you feel, quite the opposite. Please express how you're feeling. But let's be a bit mindful of others... Okay?
I literally opened Tumblr, searched up the shiftblr tag and one of the first posts was someone posting photos of fresh cut scars. No trigger warning, no "read more under" or whatever. Just a photo full of blood and wounds. It's disgusting. How insensitive, inconsiderate and fucking OBTUSE do you have to be to fucking post shit like that for everyone to see? Zero self-awareness much? And I absolutely don't give a shit that you're mentally ill. BOO HOO. Most people on this Earth are and yet it doesn't make anyone publicly post gore with no warning whatsoever. Such photos will be triggering for most people but ESPECIALLY other mentally ill people who struggle with self-harm and yet it either completely doesn't go through the minds of these kinds of people or, even worse, it does and they just don't care or they get a kick out of it. CLOWN WORLD!
I don't mind at all, because it is absolutely connected, even if the ones I am talking about are less extreme... This is disturbing. Between people just blatantly saying, "If I don't shift, I'm going to ____" or "Not shifting makes me want to _____"
This opens the door for more blatantly graphic and unhinged expressions of mental health.... Stuff that shouldn't be posted AT ALL. That's so fucked up that you had to see that, I'm so sorry.
At least if someone is gonna post about their mental health, they should TW it and add a read more divider so the people who don't wanna see it don't have to.
STOP DEACTIVATING Y'ALL ACCOUNTS! JUST DELETE THE APP! I BE GOING BACK AND READING SOME OF THE SHIT Y'ALL POST AND I CAN'T FO THAT IF YOU'RE DEACTIVATING!
Makes me wanna punch y'all in your fucking face. Bitch you is loved BY ME! What you leaving for? 🤨😒
( this clearly wasn’t meant to be deep or anything but i wanted to add something )
i think this circles back to the fact that we gotta show more love to fellow shifters on here. people don’t know that we like their blog posts cuz we don’t let them know enough (as a community). that’s how they end up deactivating. it’s so easy to feel isolated or not appreciated, especially when you’re new and you don’t know anyone. don’t hesitate to interact with others’ posts, reblog and comment. what i’m trying to say here is say love you more often & don’t be shy because you never know, but you might be making someone’s day.
Seriously. Interaction is like...100% of this fucking website and app. It seems like all anyone wants is motivation/step by step tutorials on how to shift.
Or, no hate to anyone, I have had my crashouts too; they only merely wish to complain about "struggling" to shift.
But the second people post about their DRs, make cute scripts and post them, or do anything.... Radio Silence. Or you get the people who say, "Erm, you shouldn't be doing X, Y, Z. It's wrong."
And when you have antis in your inbox, or just...bots.... I can see how that becomes tiring, and you just want to distance yourself from the very thing that is no longer fun but draining.
I'm sure this isn't 100% what happened with all those who are deactivating, but it's a glaring fact from what I've seen in my brief time in this community.
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