i’m sorry. but like unironically.

27 | She/her mtf sysadmin l chronically sad and addicted to head pats | mana cost 2BGU | just a little puppy

[existential-eevee]

Realizing now I probably need a pinned post; bigots of any kind DNI. Probably minors too, because I’m gonna get risqué; if you’re under 18 I’m probably gonna block you for legal liability reason, though I’m sure you’re lovely.

Hi y’all, I’m Evelynne 🖤 I’m a sysadmin, but not a cis admin. I’m generally pretty reserved about everything but Linux, the fact that all humans deserve basic rights, and the fact that capitalism only exists to perpetuate oppression. If you wanna talk, send a DM or an ask, they’re both open.

[existential-eevee]

Okay, I know a I’ve been away for ages and this is the Gay Literature fan site, but I have a glaring question that needs answers before I put effort into it.

Would you read a book about a lesbian romance between a dock worker on the Ohio River and a woman who got out of her arranged marriage because her betrothed was shot in the war in the year 1917?

Yes

No

What the fuck is wrong with you.

The opinions of others shouldn’t dictate your need for artistic expression

Voting ended onDec 11, 2025

[only-cat-memes]

[existential-eevee]

talk sysadmin to me <3

Okay. So today I’ve been working on a monitoring solution for our network. Easy, right? Just receive files and read them

Except it’s not. I set up my receiving correctly, set up the log parsing correctly, set up all of my sorting correctly. The ports are open, the firewall rules are in place, the system is doing its thing. But as the other coworkers on my team are trying to add stuff to my monitoring system, they’re having problems with the receiving. No problem, I’ll handle it. But the most entitled, angry cishet man is one of my coworkers and he’s trying to ask how to navigate a dashboard to read logs while I’m trying to fix a syntax error, and all the while he’s carrying on another conversation across me while I’m trying to get help from the nice old man who works with us to track down what the right syntax is. Too many conversations, but I end up working out a syntax change for template application in rsyslog 8.17 that’s different from 8.14 and solve it with rainerscript. Easy.

But then, angry coworker says his system should be sending logs and asks if I’m getting them. I’m not seeing them in my dashboard, so I dig a little more. I have the files, but they’re not parsing - had to be an issue with reading folders recursively, right? So I change the folder structure. I spend two and a half hours trying different ones. Nothing. So I’m sitting here stumped, I go back and read the logs from his machine, reference 8 year old forum posts, and on accident because I wanted to look at one of the logs parsed earlier this morning I change the time scope from “last 2 hours” to “today” and I find our issue. Lo and behold…

My stuff worked the whole time. His server time is 3 hours ahead so it wasn’t displaying because it’s not that time yet.

[existential-eevee]

One year HRT update! Just started prog yesterday. Didn’t expect it to hit so suddenly; I feel like a wet feral cat. I cry at everything, including how pretty my wife is and the fact that she could domme me.

[lunasgayshit-deactivated2026050]

omfg I started prog recently too and the libido changes

I knew it was a lot but I was not ready

I had a high libido already but w o o o o o o o o w

Like there have been times in my life when I’ve been so horny I can’t focus but this is on an entirely different level like I want to fuck e v e r y o n e all the fucking time

[existential-eevee]

Right! Like it’s not everyone for me, I am on the ace spectrum so since I’m demi the self control part is easy, but like. She just looks at me and I start wiggling 🥺🥺

[existential-eevee]

One year HRT update! Just started prog yesterday. Didn’t expect it to hit so suddenly; I feel like a wet feral cat. I cry at everything, including how pretty my wife is and the fact that she could domme me.

[existential-eevee]

Waiting for the Oblivion remaster is actually killing me. Everyone now knows about the leaked shadow drop, they might as well drop it at midnight CA time so everyone has the weekend to play it.

My wife is not aware of or prepared for the sheer amount of angsty lesbian canoodling that's in store for her each hour that Todd Howard does not provide me what I've been waiting for longer than I've had a true concept of romantic love.

[existential-eevee]

What exactly am I getting for 2BGU? I'm assuming a creature of some kind. What kind of power/toughness are we looking at? Any abilities? Relevant creature types?

Lynne, Addled Architect

2BGU

Legendary Creature - Human Hound Shaman

Delve

You may apply Delve to this card’s activated ability costs.

1B, Tap: You may put a creature from your graveyard into the battlefield tapped with a Finality counter. It becomes base power and toughness 1.

2G, Tap: Put a +1/+1 counter on up to two target creatures. They have Shadow this turn.

3U, Tap: Choose 3 non-creature, non-artifact spells in your graveyard. Your opponent exiles them in two piles; you may cast one of those piles from exile until the start of your next turn.

1/4

[existential-eevee]

My coworker insists that even though I’m only a year on E, I’m what she would consider “fully passing.”

Very tempted to use this knowledge for evil and stream Path of Exile on adult websites.

[existential-eevee]

I don’t post as much as I used to anymore because I’ve been off getting married to the world’s cutest lesbian, but with everything going on I just want to reiterate to every queer person out there:

You’re loved.

If we’ve met, I love you. If we haven’t met, I love you. If you’re queer, I love you. If you’re an ally, I love you. I’m not the only one who does, either. We’re all here together.

All people have in times that are hard is each other. We’ll get through, if only because we have to.

[cholerascum]

self doubt when it comes to my friends is

annoying.

[boghermit]

In 2025 you have to fag it up as much as possible. Goth it up also. Godspeed. Gothspeed, even.

[existential-eevee]

@ "...on here I can just be very clear about being a sadomasochistic Tgirl top and my target demographic finds me..."

It helps that your blog name is "existential-eevee". Tumblr knows that I can't get enough of those adorable little critters...the other stuff you mentioned is just a plus! :D lmfao

This is also true 🖤 My all-time favorite Pokémon

[existential-eevee]

Another day, another step closer to starting a GoFundMe so that I can buy a subsistence farm with my plant loving butch wife and put up tiny houses on the property that queer people with tenuous living situations and no supportive family can stay at in exchange for promising to be nice and occasionally petting the goats.

[existential-eevee]

I wish all social media was as easy as Tumblr. On Bluesky I’m figuring out how to get people to interact, but on here I can just be very clear about being a sadomasochistic Tgirl top and my target demographic finds me.

[humanbyweight]

Born to don't wanna. Forced to gotta

[existential-eevee]

last christmas i thought i was a man

but now i understand

also car door hook hand