Weird Life

Who knows? Currently just a poetry blog to express myself somewhere, even if it's a void

[existentialpoems]

Closest to Heaven that I'll ever be

I took one

A picture

Late last night

Of you

Curled up while sleeping

Our daughter at your feet

My arm around you

Trying my hardest

To not make a sound

Those moments

I never want to end

-L

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Jealous

I'm jealous of my future self

Of the time he's had with you

I wish I could have all that time now

But I don't want to jump to the end

A paradox

I want the time and memories

But I still want to experience them

Looking forward to every moment

Front row seat to my favorite person

But that doesn't change the fact

I am jealous of him

To have loved a life with you

I can't wait to be him

-L

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Mosaic

The sands of time

May pass

But I use each

Grain to make

A stained glass mosaic

Of our memories

So that everyone knows

How beautiful they are

And my love of you

-L

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All & Always

Mind

Body

Soul

You exist

In all of those

Impossible to separate

To know me is to know you

For everything I do

Is always with the thought of you

Hoping that you feel

My heart burning for you

-L

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Self

There's a hole

In me

Something's missing

My hope?

No, not just that

Something that encapsulates it

The me that makes up me

Am I a shell?

Once able to plan for the future

Now I feel it's not worth planning

Maybe just curl up and wait

Watch as the world passes by

I see it now

I'm still there

Not moving

Watching the world pass by

Hoping it gets better

But I still need to provide

So the shell moves, cares, and loves

Maybe the world will be kind again

Where he can get up

And start hoping again

Until then I'll let him rest

I know he could use it

-L

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Do you know

Do you know

I dream of you

Between the breathes

Of us talking?

Of things I want to do together

Of ways to make you smile

I hope you dream of me too

-L

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Peace

Knowing you're nearby

Reduces my anxiety

I look towards you

You're sleeping

Knowing you feel safe

Reduces it even more

This is all I ever wanted

To be someone's peace

-L

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Oppression

Empty pantries again

I shuffle form cupboard to cupboard

The pang of hunger sitting in my stomach

My bank account dwindling

Enough for bills, barely

Is food considered a bill?

A scratch on my arm

Itches, is it healing?

Another round of ointment, hopeful

Does my struggle make me stronger?

I'm told it does

Constantly enfeebled, makes me think otherwise

I just feel oppressed

An example

A pawn

Somewhere, someone, who is not hungry

Using me to prove a point

I just want to be left alone

Not made to struggle

Always a inch from breaking

That would allow me to be strong

-L

Based on the prompt of: "What role does struggle play in our lives".

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Inspirational

Every morning

I look upon my sun

And feel so grateful

They burn so bright

Even when not trying

And fill me with strength

I know they're trying their best

And that inspires me

To make sure I do mine

-L

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Stop Time

I wish I could stop time

The mornings we spend together

Where we could talk forever

And forget the world exists

Or the moment I come home to you

And run into your arms

Where everything feels right

As without you I feel incomplete

Or the moment we lay in bed

Just before we fall asleep

When our conversations get silly

And us giggling together

I wish I could stop time

Every moment we spend together

As no matter how many we get

I always want to spend more with you

-L

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The thing we need to do in life is?

Take a breathe

One that feels like a lifetime

Your lifetime

And feel

Feel your body

The tapestry of your story

Sections you proudly share

Portions only you know

Feel the flood of memories

The emotions they introduce

Joy / Sorrow / Anger / Pleasure

The wisdom they gifted

Feel the bonds you developed

The ones that you use to decorate

Compared to ones so intwined in you

That to know you is to know them

The thing we need to do in life is

Take a breathe

One that feels like a lifetime

Your lifetime

-L

An external prompt from a person close to me in a writing club. Figured I'd answer in a way that works for me

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Painting

Paints laid across the table

A rainbow of pigment

Selected for their beauty

A miniature

Carefully assembled

Unbounded potential

Colors dance upon it's figure

Slowly bring it to life

A story frozen but full of life

A hobby shared

Once pursued for skill

Now for enjoyment

-L

Sometimes I wish I had more control over my inspiration for painting. But no matter what; when I paint, it always brings me joy.

[words-and-whispers]

July has snuck back in a Trojan horse

The thoughts of Halloween, fall colors, cooler days and cold nights

All decorated in the guise of October....

Only to start the month in the 90s, tank tops and back yard pools being refilled for the dogs and kids

I for one am waiting to light it on fire and push it back out the gates

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Restless

I don't know why

But once in a while

I know I can't be here

Where is here?

Not where I'm supposed to be

My feet move

Taking me elsewhere

Someplace I'm supposed to be

But it's not here, never here

Sometimes a plane carries me

I wish more often

To a new here, without worry

But it's not enough

Not far enough, still too here

How can I be there

Without there being here

Will there ever be a there

That allows me to be here

Or will there forever be there

I guess until then I keep walking

Until a here becomes a there

And it's a place I'm supposed to be

-L

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Castle in the Sky

I look up

Night sky full of lights

Beautiful beyond imagine

Each glimmer

A castle filled with laughter

And music aplenty

I look around me

My hands and forearms

Covered in dirt and grime

Sweat dripping from my body

Walls built from bonds

Gardens full of memories

With each heavy breath

A smile never leaves

It's still my home

It may take time

And lots of love and labor

But I know eventually

I'll have my very own

Bright and shining

Castle in the Sky

-L

Okay, maybe a castle in the sky is too much. But I'm a big dreamer; I'd also settle for a moving castle like Howl. The important thing is that I don't let the dream die.

[stardustravens]

“It won’t be like that for me,” Kaladin said. “You told me it would get worse.”

“It will,” Wit said, “but then it will get better. Then it will get worse again. Then better. This is life, and I will not lie by saying every day will be sunshine. But there will be sunshine again, and that is a very different thing to say. That is truth. I promise you, Kaladin: You will be warm again.”

- Rhythm of War by Brandon Sanderson, chapter 80, The Dog and the Dragon

this gets me every time

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Horror

Darkness surrounds me

Hair standing on end

Mouth agape, ready to scream

Hands gripping my couch, scared to let go

Credits roll

Horror night with a friend

Smiling and laughing

Connection by shared reactions

-L

Love a good spooky night. Especially with good food and drink. Themed nights bump it up a notch even more.