Weird Life

Who knows? Currently just a poetry blog to express myself somewhere, even if it's a void

[existentialpoems]

Self

There's a hole

In me

Something's missing

My hope?

No, not just that

Something that encapsulates it

The me that makes up me

Am I a shell?

Once able to plan for the future

Now I feel it's not worth planning

Maybe just curl up and wait

Watch as the world passes by

I see it now

I'm still there

Not moving

Watching the world pass by

Hoping it gets better

But I still need to provide

So the shell moves, cares, and loves

Maybe the world will be kind again

Where he can get up

And start hoping again

Until then I'll let him rest

I know he could use it

-L

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Do you know

Do you know

I dream of you

Between the breathes

Of us talking?

Of things I want to do together

Of ways to make you smile

I hope you dream of me too

-L

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Peace

Knowing you're nearby

Reduces my anxiety

I look towards you

You're sleeping

Knowing you feel safe

Reduces it even more

This is all I ever wanted

To be someone's peace

-L

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Oppression

Empty pantries again

I shuffle form cupboard to cupboard

The pang of hunger sitting in my stomach

My bank account dwindling

Enough for bills, barely

Is food considered a bill?

A scratch on my arm

Itches, is it healing?

Another round of ointment, hopeful

Does my struggle make me stronger?

I'm told it does

Constantly enfeebled, makes me think otherwise

I just feel oppressed

An example

A pawn

Somewhere, someone, who is not hungry

Using me to prove a point

I just want to be left alone

Not made to struggle

Always a inch from breaking

That would allow me to be strong

-L

Based on the prompt of: "What role does struggle play in our lives".

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Inspirational

Every morning

I look upon my sun

And feel so grateful

They burn so bright

Even when not trying

And fill me with strength

I know they're trying their best

And that inspires me

To make sure I do mine

-L

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Stop Time

I wish I could stop time

The mornings we spend together

Where we could talk forever

And forget the world exists

Or the moment I come home to you

And run into your arms

Where everything feels right

As without you I feel incomplete

Or the moment we lay in bed

Just before we fall asleep

When our conversations get silly

And us giggling together

I wish I could stop time

Every moment we spend together

As no matter how many we get

I always want to spend more with you

-L

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The thing we need to do in life is?

Take a breathe

One that feels like a lifetime

Your lifetime

And feel

Feel your body

The tapestry of your story

Sections you proudly share

Portions only you know

Feel the flood of memories

The emotions they introduce

Joy / Sorrow / Anger / Pleasure

The wisdom they gifted

Feel the bonds you developed

The ones that you use to decorate

Compared to ones so intwined in you

That to know you is to know them

The thing we need to do in life is

Take a breathe

One that feels like a lifetime

Your lifetime

-L

An external prompt from a person close to me in a writing club. Figured I'd answer in a way that works for me

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Painting

Paints laid across the table

A rainbow of pigment

Selected for their beauty

A miniature

Carefully assembled

Unbounded potential

Colors dance upon it's figure

Slowly bring it to life

A story frozen but full of life

A hobby shared

Once pursued for skill

Now for enjoyment

-L

Sometimes I wish I had more control over my inspiration for painting. But no matter what; when I paint, it always brings me joy.

[words-and-whispers]

July has snuck back in a Trojan horse

The thoughts of Halloween, fall colors, cooler days and cold nights

All decorated in the guise of October....

Only to start the month in the 90s, tank tops and back yard pools being refilled for the dogs and kids

I for one am waiting to light it on fire and push it back out the gates

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Restless

I don't know why

But once in a while

I know I can't be here

Where is here?

Not where I'm supposed to be

My feet move

Taking me elsewhere

Someplace I'm supposed to be

But it's not here, never here

Sometimes a plane carries me

I wish more often

To a new here, without worry

But it's not enough

Not far enough, still too here

How can I be there

Without there being here

Will there ever be a there

That allows me to be here

Or will there forever be there

I guess until then I keep walking

Until a here becomes a there

And it's a place I'm supposed to be

-L

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Castle in the Sky

I look up

Night sky full of lights

Beautiful beyond imagine

Each glimmer

A castle filled with laughter

And music aplenty

I look around me

My hands and forearms

Covered in dirt and grime

Sweat dripping from my body

Walls built from bonds

Gardens full of memories

With each heavy breath

A smile never leaves

It's still my home

It may take time

And lots of love and labor

But I know eventually

I'll have my very own

Bright and shining

Castle in the Sky

-L

Okay, maybe a castle in the sky is too much. But I'm a big dreamer; I'd also settle for a moving castle like Howl. The important thing is that I don't let the dream die.

[stardustravens]

“It won’t be like that for me,” Kaladin said. “You told me it would get worse.”

“It will,” Wit said, “but then it will get better. Then it will get worse again. Then better. This is life, and I will not lie by saying every day will be sunshine. But there will be sunshine again, and that is a very different thing to say. That is truth. I promise you, Kaladin: You will be warm again.”

- Rhythm of War by Brandon Sanderson, chapter 80, The Dog and the Dragon

this gets me every time

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Horror

Darkness surrounds me

Hair standing on end

Mouth agape, ready to scream

Hands gripping my couch, scared to let go

Credits roll

Horror night with a friend

Smiling and laughing

Connection by shared reactions

-L

Love a good spooky night. Especially with good food and drink. Themed nights bump it up a notch even more.

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Burden Me

Friends, Family, and future Partners

I say this wholeheartedly and eagerly

Burden Me

If I have chosen you to be part of my life

Burden Me

I do not want to be just a port

Where you come to visit during clear skies

I want you to be able to anchor through the storm

Knowing that you'll be safe and warm

I will echo Oscar Wilde

If I cannot make a celebration that is fine

But to know that I missed a great sorrow

Where you felt less

That breaks me so

The world is filled with so much

I will endeavor to make it so no one faces it alone

I know I cannot solve everything

But if my presence makes it ever so lighter

Burden me

And we will face the pain together

-L

When I tell someone they are not a burden I mean it, they will never be a burden. My connection is never based on them having no troubles.

I just wish there was a quick way to convey when someone tells me they don't want to be a burden: I want your problems, I want to help you, you are not your problems; you are most definitely not a burden.

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Walk

There is something so amazing

About taking a small walk

Listening to a song

That hits the right note

And you can't help but to

Put a pep in your step

And dance along

No matter how silly you look

-L

Trying once again to do a series on glimmers of everyday life.

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You'll leave too

You'll leave too

Everyone always does

You said to me

Confessing your worries

I'm not the one that left

I'm not quite where you left me

But I'm still here

So why do I worry

That me not reaching out

Is me leaving

When it's just giving you

The space you asked for

-L

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Dinosaur Time

I bought some lettuce the other day

Salted it and ate it over the sink

All while roaring like a dinosaur

I miss your silliness

-L