This blog is a mess, and so am i.

Nathaniel Dean, I sing in LSP & I know nobody likes me and I hope future employers don't find this.  http://lspband.bandcamp.com http://iknownobodylikesme.bandcamp.com    (function(i,s,o,g,r,a,m){i['GoogleAnalyticsObject']=r;i[r]=i[r]||function(){ (i[r].q=i[r].q||[]).push(arguments)},i[r].l=1*new Date();a=s.createElement(o), m=s.getElementsByTagName(o)[0];a.async=1;a.src=g;m.parentNode.insertBefore(a,m) })(window,document,'script','https://www.google-analytics.com/analytics.js','ga'); ga('create', 'UA-81344286-1', 'auto'); ga('send', 'pageview');

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I tried everything else

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Everything is telling me to use today... so... I... will!!!

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If you’re reading this let me know

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My dad ain’t call :)

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This is the first day I’ve felt like the sadness was stronger than me, but it’s also the first day I’ve felt like the sadness was an external force. This sadness is not me, I am a happy man occupied by a parasite and theres some small hope in that.

[confrontations]

empire! empire! (i was a lonely estate) - i would have stolen you a whole orchestra

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It’s like this little worm of sadness keeps burrowing it’s way inside my head and trying to ignore it and be happy just takes my gaze off it so it can drive deeper

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I don’t understand I’m trying to get through the day and be happy but I keep pausing to cry every 15 minutes

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This sadness has swallowed me whole

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I just can’t stop thinking about it all, I’m finally in a place where I can end this and I don’t know why I shouldn’t

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I honestly think this is my last week, I can’t do it anymore

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There is a huge chance on Christmas I just take 250mg of codiene drink a bottle of jack and die in the bath in Manchester on my own but absolutely no one gives a single fuck

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Tell Matthieu to finish the tracks on my mac

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I told my mum (the mental health practitioner) I'd tried to kill myself and she didn't talk to me for 2 weeks lol

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Love me but don’t love me

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Its funny that after all this I just want someone to love me without fucking me 

[artist-malevich]

Three Woman Figures

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