You have no idea how tired I am of you. Of how you have fucked me up. How you have left me with nightmares of your trauma. What you don't accept is that you are a narcissist abuser who has not changed one bit. You lied to everyone we both knew so they would turn on me, treat me like an abusive piece of shit and a sexual harrasser on top of it. You turned me and Whitney against each other to the point we suffered because of each other. All for your twisted pleasure. And you know this.
I don't want your shitty apology. None of us want it. We want you to look at yourself, and leave. At once. Leave this community and don't look back. Leave and take your fake martyr ass with you because that's all you care about. The drama. The attention. The beautiful head lights.Â
  Having spoken to a few friends about what caused me to make my last post which you can find here, Iâve come to the decision that I actually should speak out about this incident instead after some recent news. I have appropriately tagged this post with everything that I could think of, and as an extra precaution will be putting the rest of this under a read more. Please understand that I am not only making this post for me, but for everyone that this person has wronged.Â
Okay, thanks to Whit speaking up and clearing things up, itâs my turn to do it so because Iâm genuinely tired of this little liar spreading things about me, saying shit about me as if I donât know about it and stalking me for everywhere he can! { Yeah, I know you have been stalking me through any sources you got, you arenât that slick. } So, please, if you have the time to read this then please do and know what kind of person youâre really dealing with because me and Whit arenât the only ones here⊠thereâs much more people who have suffered through the hands of Nao/Komari/Konpeito⊠{ also known as @.outcastedleader and @.deepseascreams } and many more will suffer if you keep believing his lies. Because his apology post? Thatâs not genuine.
  Having spoken to a few friends about what caused me to make my last post which you can find here, Iâve come to the decision that I actually should speak out about this incident instead after some recent news. I have appropriately tagged this post with everything that I could think of, and as an extra precaution will be putting the rest of this under a read more. Please understand that I am not only making this post for me, but for everyone that this person has wronged.Â
In light of recent events, I implore everyone to re-read my rules.
If you are affiliated with @.outcastedleader, if you plan to interact with him, if you plan to be friends-- block me, right now. Do not ask me to make an exception. Do not ask me to consider his âapology.â My statement is final.
 sometimes oneâs life wasnât meet by others , but by themselves. such was the cause for a beast that had lapsed ; like a little mechanism , invited by a telling sign of â if i canât be stopped , then -- â within all realities , even in a fixed existence , such was the life of himself before seeing the end roll. a future of destruction caused by none other than his hands , it was just normal he would have denied it , had he gone back. amami rantarou would have wanted to end his life as it had started , before he could hurt anyone , before he could become the very same thing society ran away from. the split second of a sort of doubled consciousness where he regained reason , instead of choosing to remain he let it happen. his own self-made destruction. it was a perfect ending for someone like him. thatâs why he didnât bother stopping. after all , he understood more than anyone ; the suffering , the pain he had caused , even if originally it had been for a righteous cause . . . was the very same cancer of humanity that had driven the world to destruction. he must have known this would have happened. no . . . he always knew. and when those realities crashed--
 the world turned down. he fell and light enveloped his vision. the rising to the concept of â heavens â , heâd become a savior that would have otherwise driven everything to ruin. the sacrifice of the hanged man who even now had stood in the middle of two existences , and then had chosen to become one at last . . .
 but when he opened his eyes , what he saw was the same pile of corpses. blood falling down the sky , staining his being. his eyes widened seeing the same visions of the future he had tried to stop. like a stop film rolling through his vision , he stood in the same place every time. not one movement , he was frozen in the moment , falling back into his consciousness then. he had once again , become a beast-- but that hadnât been quite right , was it ? when he reached the ending . . . he had truly saved everyone. once upon a time. but something denied that future , returning them to the same place where he had started. the ending where he had become an atrocity to humanity. the lives of all those happy families . . . dead , empty-eyed , reaching for each other. his sisters , hanging from makeshift nooses. his father , having disappeared into the horizon. all the screams and cries of help , of wanting to die , of killing.
 in just a brief instance , he had been split apart and returned as a human being ; reliving the terror that made him who he was. and in that same instance , the next time he blinked , he was no longer human -- but quite the opposite , a monster that watched humanity kill each other for a decade for the sake of a survival enforced upon the real world.
   . . . he was Beast LIII/L again , looking over the same empty world.
       even if this instance was different , and his family was alive . . .Â
         who would have wished for something like this ?
           even he , the very enemy of humanity , would have known . . .
                     this didnât make sense.
   â R . . . â
but then , it had an answer. and with it , came the questions. questions without answers. questions ignored in silence. he had almost instantly knew ; he remained â incomplete â when â shirogane âs existence had returned to normal. and with L , R is bound to manifest somewhere in the world. under what form , and in what circumstance . . . but the flash of cyan eyes leaves his mind blank. all it leaves him with is more confusion. blurred visions. it was making less and less sense , and nothing could give him a response outside of R himself. the feeling he has is . . . detestable. no , not towards R , but to this unfamiliar sickness settling in the pit of his stomach. he had just been here as someone celebrated for stopping the fall of humankind , in this same spot , but it felt like another hundred years had occurred in a simple flash.
heâs stronger than heâs been , and yet.
he feels utterly powerless.
 â . . . you are an evil of humanity.
   what are you doing , cowering like that ? â
though he talks to the previous ruler , he doesnât appear in front of him. tangible , but he knows he can feel his presence. and R can feels his , he knows this.
  â are you running away from me ? donât tell me ,
  are you afraid i will kill you and become the mature Beast LIII ?
  the chance i missed with shirogane-san ?
  i could do it after all . . . i could devour you from the inside ,
  and go back to what i meant to do all this time.
  but i think iâve had my fill. i mean , you went and got in my way . . . â
 â i already know it was you. so , tell me.
  letting all those people die . . . bringing them ruin again ,
  even your own classmates , after i had decided to prevent this future . . .
  Â
Oh shit, oh shit - turns around and hugs him, kissing his cheek.
â  Fine, fine. You win. I wonât ignore you.  â
Despite the fact he enjoys Beastâs scary tone & his roughness.
 oh , already ? but . . . that wasnât really satisfying. beast wonât take this so easily. furrowing his eyebrows , he looks down upon ruler-- and grabs the back of his head , pulling him close , staring straight into his soul.
  â i will give you two minutes . . .
  to BEG to be FORGIVEN.
  otherwise , who knows what i might do ? â
