Lately, I was thinking about doing something different, something fulfilling, interesting, something that I’ve never done before. Something that can satiate these in explainable feelings. Something that will change my perception, something that I will look forward to doing always. I don’t understand what I feel as if I have been looking for a place I just want to breathe in and throw away allthe emotions that bothering me. Until one day I did, I saw face to face that stunning, fascinating panorama.
Mixed emotion! Always excited about preparing my things one week before every big day. Thinking of what I’m going to wear, are my pieces of stuff complete, what’s still missing. Then I suddenly thought of, you know what it’s really hard, especially to a newbie like me. I’m not really prepared especially in must have’s of a mountaineer, running shoes for trekking is all I got. Then here it is the waiting for the big day is finally over, registration, jump- off, and you know what it was not easy you’ll experience back pain, tired legs, feet crying, heavy breathing. Rocky, slippery, rough, deep and steep, almost at the edge of the cliff. I remember there were moments that I literally cried because of my fear of getting fell but then I still give it a try and I did and those moments made me realized that I just need to push a little more even if I don’t believe in myself. I thought I can’t until I’m here taking for more adventures. Once, twice, now I’m on my 7th mountain.
The happiness I feel everytime I’m doing it, it is really priceless. I thought the people who only can do it are those with sufficient experience and knowledge, but I was wrong I underestimated myself on what I can do, at one point in my life I realized, they also started nothing, zero. I still can’t imagine how I came upon this kind of passion but what I am sure about right now is that I’m so happy especially when I am with the people who are looking for something like what I am looking for.I felt my lungs inflate with the onrush of scenery, air, trees, mountains & people, their stories. Then I thought of, “This is what it is to be happy.” So I finally took my soul in a place to discover that the best things in life are free. I let my eyes open to see that world is a beautiful battlefield. Let my mind to wonder that happiness is to be found also in dirty clothes and feet. Let my skin get tanned. Let my hair unwashed. Feel free to lay down the dirty ground. For me to know that life is worth living for is to experience this entity is called life. At one point in my life, I asked myself why I do mountain climbing until I finally got answers, to see that this world is really made of wonderful things, listen to brave stories that are just waiting to be heard, to motivate and to be encouraged by someone who keeps on fighting, to watch laughters, to ease the pain. Release all the unfinished thoughts and feelings, to have that satisfaction of what my soul is searching. To see the world and listen to its hidden music. To prove to myself that I can and I will always try. To keep on pushing toward. To forgive and forget, make friends. To see how amazing God really is & most especially the happiest thought when I reached the top and to be able to shout how grateful I am when he chose someone like me. I always have the chance to see, to reach, to feel His remarkable, phenomenal creations. I thought of those many bad times I have had. How everything turned to strength and motivates me to reach what I have now. The things that not worked out nicely actually go pretty well in the end.
Sometimes it’s just nice to remember what it’s like to feel alive. You can’t do anything about the length of your life, but you can do something about its width and depth. It will always be going to be true that God has better plans for us. “Things that are seen don’t last forever, but things that are not seen are eternal. That’s why we keep our minds on the things that cannot be seen.”2 Corinthians 4:18
Certainly “a journey” describes life in this world. On the way, we encounter steep, technical trails, valleys, rivers – highs and lows, joys and sorrows, conflict and loss, heartache and solitude. We wish to see first the path we’re going to take but we can’t see the road ahead and just slowly walk through it. We must take it as it comes, not as we wish it would be. You’ll just find out that sometimes it is far wonderful than we imagined. So often we are quick to judge even before we see. It so easy for us to take and leave without considering the feelings of others. After all, God knows what will happen every moment of our lives and including not’s just what’s better but what is right for us. Those things really made me improved, finer, bolder, stronger, and now I know how to give value and love myself more and when I finally reached the top that is perhaps the most astounding moment to talk Him, feeling like I was really so close to Him, words not coming from the mouth but a quiet whisper from the heart, “God, Thank You so much!” You are far wonderful than your creation.
A picture is worth a thousand words but the memories are priceless.