Hi everyone! My name is Sam. I’m 18 years old and I live in the United States. I am a college student, currently on medical leave, and Maximum Ride was one of the most influential books I read (and reread) as I grew up.
I suffer from severe depression and am currently hospitalized two hours away from home because of it. It was at the point where I wasn’t getting out of bed for days. I’ve been here 2 (going on 3) weeks and expect to be discharged soon. However, I will be attending Day Hospital here for about two weeks after my discharge and then I need to figure out my living situation.
Living with my mom has caused me extreme stress and has (more than once) led me to attempt to taking my life after arguing with her. So I don’t know where I’ll be going after this since my dad is no longer in the picture. I hope to return to school in the fall and continue to remain as active as possible.
I wanted to tell you guys this because while I will try to be as active as possible, there will be days I just don’t have the motivation to do anything. Fang is an extremely stubborn muse and doesn’t work well when I show extreme emotion on either side of the spectrum. I will do my best to at least get on here every day and update you guys on how I’m doing (whether you care or not) but I believe you have a right to know what’s happening on my side of the screen.
If you have any questions or concerns, please feel free to approach me and ask. If this post makes you uncomfortable, you can always unfollow. I won’t hold it against you. But I am struggling to cope with my illness and while I try not to let it control my life, I have been depressed for so long, that I hardly remember what it’s like to be happy.
Fly on!
Sam