FABLEISH

We all get lost in fables sometimes  //  Female. 28. Norway.  

[flowermilksims]

･ﾟ✧☽ Loading Screens | Henford-on-Bagley ☾ ✧ ･ﾟ 🍄 Pt. 2 ~ Woods 🌲

a set of loading screens with Henford-on-Bagley landscapes! part 2 of 3.

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[fableish]

I don't want to start of this post by going "long time no see!" for the billionth time but... Hi! Long time no see!

I needed some space away from TS4 (I've played a lot of TS2 in the meantime though) and so I've been away for a bit. However I've been feeling the itch (and I currently have a modern legacy going in a different save) to play and I've really wanted to do something historical.

So it was kind of the perfect storm (in a good way) when I came across both Morbid Simmer's Decades Challenge and discovered that someone who I used to read posts from when they played TS2, @simverses was making a whole lot of Medieval CC.

And so, I've been a little bit busy making over some sims and building two lots. This Jacoban church (the religion from The Sims Medieval, I have in fact, not misspelled Jacobean) being one of them.

Anyway, I also posted this over on my Sims twitter as I'm trying to figure out what/where I might enjoy posting about this the most (gameplay photos with the occasional portrait when I'm feeling fancy). Not in terms of enegagement or anything snazzy like that, just purely where I will be most engaged and happy posting whatever I post. It's mostly going to be for me (and anyone else who may be interested) so I get to see my progress.

Sometimes tumblr can be a bit much, in a whole lot of different ways. I don't really follow/enjoy drama so I tend to avoid it for the most part (unless whatever is occurring is doing active harm etc. if it's two people having similar "styles"... You do you, but I'm not doing it with you).

I just sort of want to post my pictures and write or not write whatever I feel to them and progress my gameplay. Whether this place, twitter, Pillowfort, a wordpress blog or heck a Google Doc all to myself is the way to do it, I've no clue and that's what I'm trying to decide.

I might investigate Pillowfort a bit more, I have the account and I might as well use it for something. But we'll see.

I've no idea what's currently going on in the Sims community for the most part, and especially on Tumblr, and I might attempt to keep it that way.

I do know about the kits, they look cute, would probably be adorable for my modern legacy... but that's about it.

[fableish]

I still haven’t made up my mind with if/how I want to post things, although I have been playing and my founder has had his first child. 

Speaking of my founder, this is him, Johan Holt. He recently immigrated to Brindleton Bay from somewhere north, near Aurora Skies or something.

I decided to try my hand at @deadlymodern​‘s Late Victorian Portrait tutorial. And by try I mean I fiddled with it a bit while waiting for my oven to finish heating.

I’m currently at the stage where I need to add some neighbors so there will be other children around as Johan’s children get older. 

[fableish]

Long time no see!

I got distracted again, is the gist of where I went. Mostly by TS2, but also a little TS3, and then there was other life stuff.

Not to mention that sometimes, Simblr gets a bit much. In a lot of different ways, but especially in terms of things like aesthetics and gameplay and yeah. I probably should have some well written essay prepared, but I really don’t.

Don’t get me wrong, I like that Simblr and TS4 as a whole, has the vibe it has. But it gets a little overwhelming sometimes and in that sense TS2/3 with their smaller communities are a little easier.

Not to mention my own relationship with the game. As much as I might enjoy reading stories, using TS4 as a posing simulator isn’t what comes most natural to me nor what is the most fun to me. I prefer creating stories with a little help from in-game mechanics and I don’t do well, as far as The Sims go, when I have to create everything. If I want to do that, I prefer just, writing.

I’m currently doing what, if I don’t get distracted, I hope might be the start of a Decades Challenge. It’s kind of a long time coming since what I’ve played in TS2 over the past... 10+ years is historical gameplay, but I’ve always put it off in TS4. 

Then I figured, oh well, might as well. And then the new EP was announced and I decided that, nope, I’m not waiting until it releases because knowing myself I’ll just end up wanting to do something futuristic, or 80′s, or fantasy by the time it releases (are those ideas in my brain? Yes of course they are, the issue is rarely having no ideas, rather the opposite).

I’m not sure if I’ll do updates here and if I do, how I’ll do them. I might do it like a lot of Simblrs do, by using gameplay as inspiration and staging it later. I might pull an LJ-comment style deal and just write snarky commentary or I might treat this as my personal MTS thread and just write random updates. 

This is my Simblr after all, so, I do what I want.

But I did want to write something ahead of that, and say hi, so that those of you who’re following me and have forgotten that you have can deal with it however you see fit. I won’t mind either way, if this is my Simblr, then your Simblr is yours.

[the-bitch-mob]

fuck it. be creative even if you never really *make* anything. write out plot synopses of stories and then move on. design OCs you'll never use. make mood boards and concept art and don't do anything with them. life's too short to forget everything that inspired you and creation doesn't have to be "complete" to be worth the time you put into it.

[fableish]

You know, when I logged onto this place I was going to say something about it having been awhile and how I want a distraction because I’ve been temporarily laid off while we go through our first “every store but grocery stores/pharmacies must be closed”-lockdowns...

And then I logged on and...

MASSIVE BUTT GIFS

Which I guess sort of answers my question how everyone else is doing and whether anything new has happened while I’ve been MIA.

Anyway. I almost want to start over CC wise, because, I have a lot, but I also don’t because I... don’t want to have to make over a bunch of sims.

I also want to just... Sit back, pose some sims, take pretty pictures and distract myself. But I’m not sure what to do.

I realize a few of you have probably gone through this/are going through this again (and likely have been through worse) but this is my first rodeo with this aspect of the OMINOUS ONE and I’ve no clue what to do. So yeah. 

I wish I could say I want to play, but, TS4 just doesn’t do it for me in that regard. 

Anyway, I hope you’re well and all of that, I’m a little bummed out my “temporarily laid off” bit only starts on Wednesday (long story, but it has to do with labor laws and how much notice employees have to get from their employers). But I’ll get better, in the grand scheme of things I recognize this isn’t the biggest deal, but, like I said, it’s my first rodeo and all. I just found out today so I feel like I can be bummed today/tonight and then suck it up tomorrow.

[fableish]

"They say you’re not supposed to fall in love during the summer. That it never lasts and once autumn approaches, it's like the colours of the leaves, it will fade away.

I thought about that as our summer neared its end. Soon my parents would go back, back to work, back to life and I was expected to do the same.

I didn’t know how to ask, I guess I didn’t want to in case you’d reject me. Would we keep in touch after the summer? We never really spoke much of home, of life away from this place.

And like most things do, our summer eventually came to an end. Not with an end of summer party like you see in movies or a summer festival like they have in Japan.

No, our summer ended with our parents and some of the other occupants singing awful songs that reminded them of their youth.

Our summer didn’t end like it does in the movies. But it did end."

This is from a story I worked on years back, but had to put down because part of the inspiration behind it suddenly got very tragic.

It still lives in my head though and sometimes I want to revisit it. It features Hannah and several others, first as a flashback as teens, then as adults.

I'm not sure what I'll do with it, but I felt like I wanted to share at least some of it.

[fableish]

I keep getting distracted by different things I want to do in the game.

I have my fantasy world that I’m building, I have a sim I want to do a simstagram account for (spoiler, she’s my current avatar), I have a story that I’m actually really into and wanting to work on and then I have this new gameplay save that I’m quite enjoying (it’s also really modded, is there’s that).

And I want to do it all, but obviously there’s only so many hours in a day and I’m one person. But I feel like I spend more time feeling torn and trying to choose between things than I do actually doing them.

I don’t really have a solution as of right now, I’m mostly just thinking out loud before going to bed. But I would like to make somewhat more regular progress. I’m fine with moving between things, I just don’t like how long I spend thinking about which thing to choose.

Anyway, this is Noodles and he was adopted by one of my sims in my gameplay save.

[fableish]

Bamlem & Ora

This is Efmene’s younger brother and his dog/partner. As you might be able to guess he’s part of the military. Specifically he’s a berserker. 

I would offer up more info... But you’re actually getting this while I’m still in the middle of worldbuilding so... Yeah. Everything is kind of subject to change I guess?

[fableish]

I think this is the last shot I have from my “playing around with a new reshade” thing that I did. I still need to find what I was actually looking for, which is a more natural enhancing one (I already have one that’s good for gameplay/using the UI) without being too dark, not working with 4.6.1 or being too cold OR too warm. Yeah. I’m the Goldilocks of reshades apparently.

I also wanted to note, seeing how I’ve seen a few others mention it that I do have a Simstagram that I use. I don’t personally have any plans of going anywhere, I do, kinda sorta like it here, sometimes. And I want to keep up with people. I also haven’t figured out what to share where either so there’s that too.

I don’t really have specific sims I can post with predominately because my attention span goes from “OMG let’s to Medieval Fantasy” to “Oh I just watched Poirot again I want a 1920′s-1930′s game” to “Oh I just looked at my shelf of 18th-19th century history books/my fashion history books and now I want a Victorian-like game” to “OMG industrial brick building with apartment in it? I want to do grungy friends!” to “Oh, you know, Windenburg is perfect for a murder mystery” to “You know I wonder how an epistolary driven story would work for the Sims...”. (Also, my mind is long winded, so that’s a good insight on how that works too)

So people don’t really know any one specific sim of mine because by the time I post something I’m already knee-deep in contemplating which social media platform would be most used by elder sims.

Also, this seems like a good point to either put a cut/read more (I went TS2 download shopping recently and there’s a lot of stuff on Dreamwidth and it’s called a cut and I’m old and leave me alone).

Anyway. This isn’t so much anything highly dramatic or worrying. I’m pretty used to my “ooooh shiiiny” tendencies by now. I do wish I’d stick with something for awhile because I miss that depth, you know? But I also recognize that part of it is because I’m not 100% attached to some ideas and it’s also because the ones I’m attached to? I’m terrified that I won’t be able to pull of. 

See. I don’t like failing and I like getting things right, preferably the first time. Partly because my anxiety rears up at the idea of failure, partly because getting it right the first time? Far more efficient than failing. Now. There is some rational part of me that’s well aware that failure is helpful and teaches you lessons. I’m not entirely black and white. But sometimes it gets the better of me.

I also do get oh so easily distracted though. Not so much with my actual RL work. If anything I get massively annoyed if I am distracted by something then.

However in my hobby-life? Oh man. I go from being so into sims to only wanting to read books, to binging on stuff I’ve watched before, to wanting to worldbuild for the fun of it, to researching werewolf myths from around the world to only wanting to play story driven games to only wanting to listen to music and daydreaming. And I do it to the exclusion of anything else. I.e. if I’m in a Sims mood? I don’t rally read, if I worldbuild I don’t want to play story driven games etc.

This isn’t really a rant as much as it’s a “putting it on paper to get it out of my head so maybe it’ll make more sense” exercise. 

I’m single minded and that’s great when I want to complete something. However I’m also constantly inspired or into new things.

So back to Simstagram which is actually what brought all these thoughts to the front (because let’s be real, they’ve been there while I’ve been on here too). I see these accounts that focus on a single sim, or a couple, and it looks really fun. And I want to do it, but, I don’t really have a sim I love that much? Like I have all of these guys (here, here and here) that I made and adore (and I’ve made more since, because of course I have). But I can’t choose just one and the idea of doing several feels overwhelming.

And are these really important, heavy thoughts that matter in the long run? No. But it’s 1 am, it’s storming and I can’t sleep and you know what? I want to babble. So babbling it is.

All of this also has me coming back to epistolary novels and styles of writing. Because exploring a sim, or several to be specific, through their various social media posts, grocery lists, to-do lists, bullet journals, spotify playlists, notes and bills intrigue me. 

I don’t know why, but it does and I keep coming back to it.

Which I guess is partly why accounts featuring specific sims on Instagram intrigue and amuse me. Because it’s exactly that. Yet I can’t quite settle down and do it, because I can’t focus on one sim or choose one for that matter. I’m also, despite what the things I said earlier might make you believe, thoroughly lazy.

And this means that this little “essay” of mine is going to arrive at the utterly unsatisfactory conclusion that I still don’t know what to do but I did get it out of my system and hopefully the storm (outside, let’s not get all metaphorical) will settle and I can go to bed. And besides, everyone knows that essays online have to start with “in this essay I will...” 

Anyway. It’s out of my system now, I’ll probably (definitely) ponder this a lot more. And if you’ve read this thing, thank you ❤️ And if you’ve read this and though “hey, this sounds like me!”, hello fellow magpie distracted by shiny new things. I guess we should form a club? 💖

[fableish]

Also, I was going to post these earlier and I want to make up for the nonsims posts so, here are random screenshots testing out a reshade? 

Because I kinda miss the day of posting a screenshot and babbling without it being a whole story (before any of the story simblrs following me croaks, I love you, keep doing you, variety is awesome I just want a bit more of the random babble right now ❤️)

[fableish]

I... I'm going to have to find a way to track who not to follow. I don't want to intentionally do it, but I also don't think I can keep track of it all.

So, am I going to have to create a chart of awful? Venn diagram of disgust? List of wackadoodles? Bingo card of backwards?

But seriously. I really don't want to accidentally support/follow someone who causes other people harm. However, there's a lot to keep track of and I've no idea how to do it (which I recognize is a privilege) to avoid adding to what is already too much as is.

[fableish]

Alrighty then, I now have a shiny new Google Sheet to note all this stuff down in. I even have links to the wayback machine so I can read up if I ever forget any details. Because I’m a nerd and sources are always good to have.

Anyway. Atm all it has is the most recent ongoings because when I tried to remember anything and anyone else my mind responded with the ever helpful “you’re going to have to be more specific, there’s a lot of stuff matching those criteria”.

Because I follow people at the speed of a sloth (and because I’m rather terrible at finding new stuff to follow because whenever I see something it’s almost always after I’ve refreshed/click a link) my unfollow rate isn’t too bad. Though I do want to find more simblrs to follow now though, of the nice variety specifically. 

[fableish]

I... I'm going to have to find a way to track who not to follow. I don't want to intentionally do it, but I also don't think I can keep track of it all.

So, am I going to have to create a chart of awful? Venn diagram of disgust? List of wackadoodles? Bingo card of backwards?

But seriously. I really don't want to accidentally support/follow someone who causes other people harm. However, there's a lot to keep track of and I've no idea how to do it (which I recognize is a privilege) to avoid adding to what is already too much as is.

[fableish]

Look! Actual content.

I’m playing with reshades, so this is just me world hopping and taking pictures and realizing that, welp, the game has updated, my mods are off and oh no I don’t want to update them.

So. That’s fun.

[fableish]

I was reading about a certain thing and then the next song started and well... I feel bad for laughing because well, I have a conscience, but oh what timing.

[thesaltyspice-deactivated201901]

I’ve been seeing a lot of anti-Nazi ones, which is great, but I felt like we needed one to show our support for the Jewish community.  

[fableish]

I haven't been on this Tumblr account for awhile... And um... Yeah my dash is having a time of it.

I think I've sort of figured out what happened. But yeah, that was interesting to come back to.

Oh and in case it needs saying, I fall on the don't trivialise history side of things. In this case and others. By downplaying or changing it you'll always be telling people that it's somehow not that important to you and you'll always hurt people.

And especially so when dealing with events brought forth by malice and cruelty. Don't diminish others pain.