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@fadingbandages
Though I kinda wanted more ideas I've come up with 5 Oneshot ideas to try and work on. I don't want to go into too much detail, kinda went the ideas to be a surprise.
But I can tell you The 5th one will be inspired/will be a dream sequence that happened in a Rp made by myself and petitefedora
It's one of my favourite scenes so hopefully I can present it good and expand on it.
I've decided with my one-shots that I plan I'm going to challenge myself. I can't remember off the top of my head the correct terms, but my usual style for Rping is 3rd pov, lately though with my original story I have used 2nd pov.
Y'all know where this is going?
I am gonna challenge myself to do full character pov, so rather than me Daxai will describe his own actions.
It will be hard but it will pay off in the end ^-^
Hey everyone it's been a long time since I've posted. I don't want to come off as making excuses, it's simply been a mixture of just life/work and myself that's been the reason why I haven't posted in so long.
I also for quite some time lost confidence in myself and how I rp Dazai and kept comparing myself to another person in a lot of ways that I'm not proud of.
I was toxic towards myself and also to someone I love because of this. It's not easy to get over, but I'm trying, even though it's hard to see.
I've thought on it a lot on and off, so I'm changing things up around here, though I like Mafiazai and Atsushi I won't Rp them for awhile. I want to focus on Dazai so unless it's something small or necessary Dazai will be the only one around.
I am also not going to rp much (but that doesn't mean I'll stop completly). I might do small bits of Rping but I think I wanna focus and go back to doing one shots. That helped me in the first place to be Dazai so I'm hoping it will help again to stay and go back to him.
I haven't written anything down yet but I've got a few ideas in my head, one of them I'm thinking will be on why Dazai hates dogs.
And then I hope to do many more one-shots that will deal with his past.
Hmmmm, maybe it's better to say I wanna do a soft reboot on Dazai? Since a lot of the information I headcanon I wanna revisit/touch up and maybe even expand on it.
I've also been thinking of an old fanfic I was doing and though I won't yet, I super wanna revisit it and plan it out more.
I got plans now so I just need to execute them and I pray to the rp gods to give me the strength on these cold dreary time.
Hope y'all have a good night or day depending on where you are ^-^ stay safe and warm!
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"But? But what?"
Raising an eyebrow at the other the younger huffed, impatient but also frustrated. He knew that tone, playful, teasing, hella annoying- yes, this definitely was Dazai Osamu.
Whatever would come next was either complete bullshit, or mean as hell or even true- there was no way to tell the difference.
"Oi, tell me what?"
"Hmmm well, you see in a lot of ways your future self gets taller than me." Dazai chuckled internally, he knew he shouldn't be doing this but he couldn't resist.
The other was just to fun to tease.
Mafia Dazai: ❄️ *sticks his tongue out*
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❄ throw a snowball at my muse
How annoying. It had been just a moment that he didn't pay attention to much else than the display of a bookshop, a certain book sitting inside of it consuming his interest, as the wet cold ball of frozen dirtwater hit his neck, spraying snow into his ear and hair while the main part of it got stuck at the bandages, disgustingly melting into them before he could remove it.
Turning around and being greeted with that rather childish form of disrespect didn't help to easen the glare his eyes casted at the culprit while his hand with a strong movement threw the halfmolten rests of the snowball to the ground.
"Wanna run that by me again, Osamochi-kun?"
“Wanna play a game~?” Osamu asked the other in a playful tone, already he had a few snowballs made at his feet.
“Or are you to much of an old man like your precious Datto-nii~” he said in a teasing tone. Though he wasn’t the best at social skills, Osamu knew he was in the wrong during their last fight.
He wouldn’t admit it out loud, so he did the only thing he wanted to do and that was to use a new situation to try and somewhat quell with what happened before.
At least he hoped he could, to many lines were crossed so this was a big stretch. But he did want to get along better with this other older self, he was done feeling angry all the time.
Which was only due to being in a new place and surrounded by people he didn’t know. Plus seeing how good and open Dazai was, scared him, he wanted to be like that but he couldn’t, at least not yet.
But since having his Chuuya around everything was starting to be better for the little Mafiazai, just a bit he wanted to try being a bit different from how he is.
👤 First it's my little brother not wearing a coat and now you? You gotta take care of yourself Chuuya. Oh and you can keep the coat, I've out grown this an dim out to buy a new one anyways today.
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👤 to drop a coat on my muse since they seem mighty cold and not dressed properly for the weather.
"Why would I wanna keep that rag?" Despite the huffy answer the young mafioso pulled the coat closer around himself, nuzzling into the fabric that even out in the open significantly held the scent of the other.
It was still so disturbing to hear Dazai's voice with that kind tone speaking to him, as well as it actually saying kind things. Meant for him.
Shuffling slightly Chuuya nuzzled his nose against the fabric of the collar as his arms slid into the sleeves of the - for him - oversized coat, trying to hide the clear red that spread over his cheeks not only because of the cold air biting on their skin.
He would keep it.
"... isn't that cool? The snow I mean. If you look at it closely it is black. Just the light making it come off white."
Dazai held back a chuckle as this little Chuuya put on his coat. He was quite cute nuzzling into it, it made Dazai want to see his own Chuuya do that as well.
“Oh? I didn’t actually know that, but that’s pretty cool. So where are you headed?” Dazai asked curiously, he wondered if this little Chuuya was out to his Dazai.
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“Well there is this one Chinese place I know, would you like to go there or somewhere else?” Dazai responded with a soft smile.
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Waving to his little brother Dazai smiled.“ 01010100 01101000 01100001 01101110 01101011 00100000 01111001 01101111 01110101 00100000 01100110 01101111 01110010 00100000 01110100 01101000 01100101 00100000 01101110 01100101 01110111 00100000 01111001 01100101 01100001 01110010 00100000 01110111 01101001 01110011 01101000 00100000 01101100 01101001 01110100 01110100 01101100 01100101 00100000 01100010 01110010 01101111 01110100 01101000 01100101 01110010 00100001 00100000 01001001 00100000 01101000 01101111 01110000 01100101 00100000 01111001 01101111 01110101 00100000 01101000 01100001 01110110 01100101 00100000 01100001 00100000 01100111 01101111 01101111 01100100 00100000 01001110 01100101 01110111 00100000 01111001 01100101 01100001 01110010 00100000 01100001 01110011 00100000 01110111 01100101 01101100 01101100 00101100 00100000 01110111 01101000 01111001 00100000 01100100 01101111 01101110 00100111 01110100 00100000 01110111 01100101 00100000 01100111 01100101 01110100 00100000 01100100 01101001 01101110 01101110 01100101 01110010 00100000 01110100 01101111 00100000 01100011 01100101 01101100 01100101 01100010 01110010 01100001 01110100 01100101 00100001″
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"You.. you weren't supposed to hear any of this." Considering he was the one who had told him that might was a weird statement. However... "I thought.. I never had said any of it if I'd known you were awake.. I.. Why would ya do that?"
There had been so many nights, so many secret thoughts he had told to the other, thinking him to be asleep. It had happened most of the times when he felt lonely, especially after one of their heavier fights..
"And what do you mean by 'not yet '? Don't even joke about that, you damn idiot! I swear I'll find ya. And once I found your ass be sure that I'll take care of ya so it ain't faking it anymore.."
”No, no Chuuya relax, I'm not planning on doing that at all. I just meant, in general, I haven't nor will I.” Dazai cupped his petite boyfriend's face hoping to calm him down.
”Now just relax, the only reason why I did that was because I was stubborn. I couldn't exactly ”wake up” when you were talking. That and since I was a nasty lil shit I knew you wouldn't tell me these things when I was awake so of course, I took advantage of the situation. I didn't do much with my information though, all I did was occasionally fix these problems you had.” Now all Dazai hoped was that Chuuya would feel more calmer now.
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"..."
While there was a smile on Dazai's face the expression of the smaller man was the complete opposite.
Aside from the fact that 'I haven't faked my death yet ' wasn't quite something he could chuckle about all of these things were... bad.
"Why.. did you..?"
'Sometimes you'd talk about your problems' - it was terrifying to imagine what Dazai could know listening to his nightly sob-stories. And he couldn't help but feeling an incredible intense shame about it.
Noticing Chuuya's face Dazai was shocked at how panicked his boyfriend's face was.
"Chuu? What's wrong?" He asked worriedly while scratching his neck.
Just what did he say to set the other off. "...Did I say something to upset you?" Well, Dazai actually had a vague idea, but before he assumed he wanted to hear it from Chuuya first.
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"You're such a creep, y'know that?"
This was so annoying. Chuuya was definitely flattered by the words of the taller, however the waves of embarrassment got to him heavier and heavier. Did the other hear the stuff he had been telling him while thinking he was asleep.
Well, at least he could tell that he definitely didn't hear all of it- afterall Dazai had written the paperplane with an idea of Chuuya actually despising him.
But there was no way that he had always been lucky for the other actually being asleep for his moments of telling him about... stuff.
"What else didya witness, huh? Fakin' to be asleep.. tch, is there anythin' you haven't faked yet?"
"Well, I haven't faked my death yet! And well a lot of things, sometimes you’d talk about your problems, worried about the underlings being scared of you. A few times you talked about Kouyou-san and how you were grateful for her taking you in. Or even complaining about the game itself, that was always cute to see.” While Dazai remembered some of the things the other had said a smile spread across his face. It was nice to think back on these things, remembering all the times Chuuya had talked to h
Now the only thing Dazai wished for was that he could have talked to Chuuya face to face with him about these things.
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"Wait... You knew 'bout it? I... always made sure you're asleep..." Dazai probably couldn't understand the true reason why the mafioso's face immediately started to heat, more out of panic than embarrassment.
Chuuya always had made a big importance to know the other sleeping before going to the small pile of personal stuff and taking the video game console. But it hadn't always been that. Sometimes he would have pretended, talking very silently to the taller to tell him about personal stuff. It didn't happen as often as the gaming, which he excessively trained on to be able to beat the other in a match if ever asked again, but it had happened a handful of times.
"Why didya never say anythin'?"
"Because honestly I was a stupid stubborn kid." Dazai couldn't help but chuckle, but then his face softened with a slight blush.
"And because I loved seeing you when you played. You had this cute curiousity when finding something new, and your eyes would light up. I didn't want to disturb that and treasure it for my own." When it came to Chuuya, Dazai could recall every smile the other made and no matter how he had been in the past with his emotions.
Dazai would try his best to see Chuuya's smile, even purposely leaving his game console out just so he could sneak a peak at his beloved.
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"... Yeah."
Despite knowing how ridiculous he handled this situation Chuuya didn't even try to deny it. A very untypical thing for him, but apparently it could happen.
"... I thought that dumb nickname is something like... ugh, I explained it the other time where you got me close to actually kill ya. It is dumb anyways. Like that stupid kiss sound out of shoujo mangas..."
"Chuuya it's not dumb, it's so cute the sound and you." Moving closer to the other Dazai cupped the side of Chuuya's face while also placing a gentle kiss on the other's forehead. "I'm sorry for doing that without thinking. I shouldn't have but I won't from now on. You will be the only one I call Chuu. Cause its special only for you."
I'm surprised you thought of it as teasing. I think it would be interesting to see his reaction.
"I'd not find it interesting so please don't tell Chuuya okay?" Dazai asks nicely, he really didn't want Chuuya to know, nothing to bad would come from it but Chuuya would still get upset by it and Dazai didn't want that.
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"Ah... that idiot. Makes sense." Of course the smaller was tagging along, handing Dazai the phone back.
"Didn't think you'd be still into video games... You had that cool handheld back then. Sometimes I played on it secretly while you were sleepin' when we were out on missions..."
Grabbing his phone Dazai couldn't help but smile at what Chuuya had told him. "Oh I know, I saw you playing it one night, it was quite cute how you kept being frustrated at the game." Chuckling a bit Dazai shifted a bit closer to the other.
"And though I don't play them as often I still like them, maybe we should plan a game night soon that will be fun to do, I got a bunch of games I haven't played in a long time."
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"I bet it tricks ya and could off anyone within a split second. Didn't know you're still into Pokémon, mackerel."
It was one of their rare moments, like back then in the gaming halls as they just behaved like teenagers. Of course they both were older now, but they still could catch up on just enjoying things together, between their daily routines of detective and mafia business.
And Chuuya enjoyed this. Especially for seeing Dazai's face like that, a soft smile making it so much more alive than usual.
"Well not to much, but Umaso has gotten me back into it a little bit, I'm even planing to get one of the new Pokémon games." He smiles while urging the other to walk with him.
"I also agree that Pumpkaboo can do that I don't know much of his moves but if he's in my team he will kick all the trainer's asses."
Don't be like what? I'm not doing anything. You're mean, Nii-san. I think I might gotta tell the chibi now because you upset me.
"How did I upset you? How was I mean? I just meant don't tease me like that, though now I don't think you're teasing anymore." Dazai was curious and confused what had he done to upset Umaso? He hadn't really done anything, had he?
