Psychopompia

------------He/They------------ ------------I'm a big ol' Bear and I act like I care. ------------ ------------Because I do. ------------ I'm a fat queer sexually confused addict on the autism spectrum going to Al-Anon and Alcoholics Anonymous meetings. Let's talk about Queer addiction and autism. Alchemy and and the 12 Steps. ****Living and dying.****

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From Bittersweet by Susan Cain

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Alcoholics Anonymous Jamboree 2024

[unmedicated-momma]

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I do not desire as others desire.

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Can a neurodivergent person not understand how to perform their gender adequately? Asking for a friend.

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Happy whatever

[sirfrogsworth]

Woke Goggles™ strike again.

Also, he really set himself up with that movie list. Hoo boy.

Like, I knew the trap I created was not going to work out for him. And it was extra fun how confident he was with "I dunno" and "need more?" All while setting me up for the spike with an oversized beach ball.

[queersatanic]

Happy birthday, Duane.

[cripple-woe]

He would have been 59.

He should have gotten to 59.

Fifty nine.

[chronicallycouchbound]

A bit upset that every other time I go to my public library I experience some sort of bigotry and at the same time I fully support public libraries and want them funded.

When I was 17 and a homeless trans high schooler trying to access the computer lab for longer than 1 hour a day, I was denied a library card (despite the homeless shelter being a valid address) because they worried I wouldn’t return my books. I told them it was so I could use the computer for schoolwork but they didn’t care.

Same year, different librarian, I was kicked out of the library because I was in the teen section. I showed my school ID and my regular ID and even school documents I had on me and they didn’t care. She also made a racist comment that my documents were “probably illegal too” to her coworker.

Even just last week, I was at the library with my partner and I present extremely androgynously most days, but I had been repeatedly femininely misgendered in the day so I went to use the bathroom and used the women’s restroom, just to be safe. But the women in the bathroom gave me dirty looks and sent (male) library staff to do a “safety check” of the bathroom while I was there only one in there. The staff member ended up not being too pushy about things but it was still an awful experience.

The librarians hover. The moms shield their kids. They treat me like a criminal. I’m not the only one having these experiences.

And at the same time, if my local library had better funding, maybe they could do some inclusivity trainings. Maybe they wouldn’t guard books that are available to the public like fine jewels. Or maybe they’d be worse or the same who knows.

But I still support my public library.

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From The Labyrinth of Solitude, Octavio Paz

[intersexfairy]

bears and fat butches... how's it feel to be the masters of gender?

[yeetmeoffthisplanet]

holy shit op from now on i refuse to be called anything but a master of gender agsfshdbshsjsn

[earhartsease]

jack of all genders and master of none is also a viable option

[starwarspissorgy]

Jack off all genders? ON it boss

[intersexfairy]

this post is now whatever the opposite of "post cancelled" is. i love you, queer horny bastards

[neurodivergenttales]

I don’t know how to explain it but just being alive causes me pain

The world is too loud, existing is overwhelming, people expect so much more than I can give

I fail at being alive every single day

I feel so ashamed to be so broken

But I don’t know how to be any other way

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I always said it was selfish to keep your loved ones hostage after they've passed.

From This Life, Martin Hägglund

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My soul's karmic message ancestor card. Looks like I'm sick of being given these emotions. Might have to give my own.